We left my house shortly after katsuki found out about my parents. I was embarrased to say the least but he seemed understanding.

He took my hand and we walked towards his bike. By now it was dark outside, we must have been in my house for a few hours.. Ah well..

Katsuki helps me onto his motorbike before he gets on, sitting infront of me while i hold onto my bag with one hand and him with the other.

He starts up the bike, causing it to vibrate intensely, it reminds me of something.

No. Not right now y/n. Stop it.

I think to myself, pushing those thoughts down. The bike begins moving and we head back to katsukis house.

I swear when im with him, i forget about everything. Especially on his motorbike. I love feeling the wind in my hair and the warm boy infront of me. It just makes me forget about the bad things about my life.

Before i know it, i arrive in katsukis front garden. He stops the bike and i hop off, without waiting for him i run to the front door and knock.

"Hey! You okay?"

Mitsuki says, opening the door.

"Oh yeah im fine thanks!"

I smile at her, turning to katsuki.

"You know.. you dont have to knock you know. Just let yourself in"

She smiles at me, earning a nod. Katsuki comes over and puts his arm around my waist.

"Cmon babe, lets go."

He looks at me, then at his mom.

"Its cool if she stays here for a while right?"

He asks her, earning an almost angry look from mitsuki.

"Yeah sure. I would have liked a little more notice though.."

She grits her teeth at katsuki before softening her look at me.

Bakugo rolls his eyes at her before grabbing my hand and leading me to his room.

I put my bag down on his bed and immediately feel safer than i ever felt at 'home'.

Katsuki sits next to me and smiles.

"Hey, you seem.. way calmer than earlier."

He kissed my lips and i nod.

"Yeah.. its a little stressful at home."

I sigh, looking down at my hands. Bakugo looks at me and pulls my chin up carefully to make me look at him.

"You can talk to me you know.."

He looks into my eyes with a concerned smile, i nod and tears begin rolling down my cheeks.

"I-i need to tell you something.."

I look down, still crying.

"Okay.. in your own time baby.."

~Time skipp basically she talks about what her abusive dad does when he is drunk , what happened with todoroki and stuff. I cba to write the convo lmao~

"Baby.. im so sorry.."

He pulls me into a hug, my tear soaked face pushed against his chest. We hug for a while before his mom shouts his name.

"KATSUKI!!"

"WHAT??"

He replies, there is no answer.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT??"

Still silence.

"Oh my god. One second babe, you stay here ill be right back."

He kisses my forehead and walks out of the door.

After a few minutes i hear them talking. The walls arent very thick and they have quite loud voices.

"I need you to go to the store katsuki."

"Why cant you go?? I have to take care of y/n"

"Katsuki. It will take 10 minutes. Go to the store."

"Bu-"

"GO! THE MONEY IS ON THE TABLE."

I hear a door slam, its presumably katsuki walking out. Ill be fine on my own.. i think..

A few minutes pass. Im loosing my mind. Im pretty sure im having a panic attack.

The memories flood my mind from my childhood.

~~~~~~~~~~~~ flashback ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Im sitting on my bedroom floor when the front door slams open.

The sound of glass smashing fills the house. Shortly after a yell.

"YOU SLUT"

He screams at, presumably, my mother.

"H-honey. What do you mean..?"

My mom stutters back.

"I TOLD YOU I WANTED STEAK. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS"

"I- uh.."

*slap*

I sit on my bedroom floor, shaking, i hear footsteps. Hes coming up the stairs.

My door handle rattles and my breathing gets heavy, tears falling down my face.

The door opens and he storms in.

*slap*

"You. Get up."

"B-but.."

"NOW."

~~~~~~~~~~end of flashback~~~~~~~~~~

Tears fall down my face, i sit on katsukis bed rocking back and fourth slightly. I search in my bag for my toiletry bag.

I grab a hold of it and go to his bathroom. I look in the mirror and see the mess my face is.

I look down at the black hoodie im wearing with my short bicycle shorts and repeat todorokis words to myself.

"Youre such a fat bitch. You dont deserve anyone. Or life. You deserve to die alone."

I slide down the wall until im sat on the floor. I look down at the blade from my bag in my hand, pressed against the skin on my bare arm.

1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5..

Then the other.

1..2..3..4..5..

Tears flood my face. I sit there, arms bleeding and eyes pouring.

I sit on the floor, light headed, when i hear the front door open.

"Shit."

I jump up and roll my sleeves down, ignoring the fact that they were still pouring with blood. I slide the pocket knife under the sink cabinet so its still in reach but not visable. I spray the air with my perfume to get rid of the smell of blood.

I rush out of the bathroom and jump onto his bed. I land on my arm and hiss at the pain.

Bakugo walks in and smiles at me. I wipe my face and smile back, he knows something is up.

"Hey baby.. you okay?"

He looks at me worriedly. I turn away and nod, facing the wall.

"Baby..?"

He grabs my arm carefully. I inhale sharply and he notices, removing his hand.

"What happened.."

"N-nothing i hust landed on it funny.."

I answer, still facing the wall.

"Babe. What happened."

Bakugo was getting angrier by the second. He knows when im lying somehow..

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If u see a spelling mistake pls either ignore it or just politely correct it in a comment. Dont have a go at meh :3

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