Is this wrong? Because it feels right ...
We drank the next round and got ready for some .. play? I guess ... I threw a few red cups what I found in the cupboard across the white kitchenfloor and started to pick them up while Brendon shouted.
-Aaand action. -he stumbled in and steadied himself by the kitchen island, he was staring at me.
-Well, well... Miss Dovsky. Nice party you threw for us! Nice.... -I glanced back at him and realized he's staring straight at my ass. -

-Well... thank you Mr.Urie... You surprised me, I guessed everyone left already.
-Just call me Brendon, it's more personal. We'll spend a lot of time together in the future!
-Okay.... Brendon.... I can't wait until we start working on the play! Romeo and Juliet was my favourite play in highschool, I had a hot teacher.. in some ways you reminds me of him..
-Really?! Do I look like a teacher?
-Not really. .. should I call you a taxi or something?
-Thanks, but I rather stay a little longer and get to know you. You haven't told me a lot about yourself... -he came closer with unsure steps. I sat on the countertop and opened a bottle of beer .-
-Maybe because there's nothing interesting to tell about me.
-Let's play a game!
-This sounds bad! Is this the part when you murder me and hide my body in the bathtub?
-Why in the bathtub? - he showed a puzzled face - Whatever... No. I meant truth or dare.
-Why not? I mean I know a lot of reasons why not, but we only have one life, live it on the fullest! But we should sit down in the garden, I need a cigarette. You want some beer?
-Sure! -we went out, beers in hand and sat down on the porch. The night had fell on the world, I didn't notice how dark it was from inside. He held his lighter towards me.

Then he lights his own.

It's an indescribable feeling how good it can be when smoke fills your lungs.... it sounds kind of ridiculous, but true. I find it sexy when a guy smokes, I know it's a bad habit, but I like the smell for some weird reason. We sat in a comfortable silence for a few minutes when Brendon spoke up.-
-Truth or dare?
-Let's just begin with a truth.

-You're no fun... But whatever you want. -he whined. - Do you have any kinks?
-So you play nasty? Well then ... I might have some.
-What?
-One question in a round! You asked if I had kinks and I answered.
-So am I the one playing nasty?
-Truth or dare?
-Truth...
-Why do you think that I'd be good in as main character?
-Really?! I was hoping for something... Interesting... But, whatever... Because I saw something in your personality.... You have a fire in you that screams you are worthy of attention!
-Aww that's sweet!
-And you have nice titties...
-You had to ruin it....
-Yupp! -he popped out the p. - Truth or dare?
-Ya know.
-Okay, okay Ms. Goodgirlnextdoor... What's the worst thing about you?
-Huh.. That's easy! I try to make everyone happy I care about even if it's against my own happiness... And I can't stay mad at someone even if I have the right to be mad.
-Well.. If you know it, you're the one who can change it.
-It's easier to say... I just can't, that's the way I am. And I accepted it... My turn. Truth or dare? -he shows a silly face and I chuckle. -
-Let's just stay at the talking part.. So truth..
-If you could be anywhere, where would it be?
-I guess it'd be right here... I feel like it's the perfect place to be, and I like my company..
-You're a liar... But some sweettalk is working for me.
-I hope so! Truth or dare, Little one?
-Don't 'little one ' me, you're not my daddy! Ask away... -he raised an eyebrow and smirked as hell. -
-Daddy kink? You nasty little...
-So what? -his face fell. -
-You don't even try to deny?
-No, I don't. I like older men. There's nothing to be ashamed of!
-Well.. That's right.. -he cleared his throat and laughed nervously.- So, truth or dare?
- I answered a question, I guess it's my turn..
-Okay, this time you might get away with this.. But next time... I might have to punish you for misbehaving.
-Shut it! No daddy kink jokes or comments!
-Why? It's funny! -his laugh is adorable, but I will kill him if he keeps this attitude on... -
-I think I had enough of the game... You are childish!
-I am the grown up here!
-Still you're joking about sexuality... Let's just chill and get drunk.
-Tomorrow we start practicing! We shouldn't mess it up... -I almost forgot we are in the middle of a sick roleplay kind of thing... -
-Oh yeah...
-So.. What are you planning for tonight?
-I don't really know.. Maybe watch a movie. Deadpool is my favorite now, have you seen it?
-I guess I did, but I was drunk with my buddies and I fell asleep after the first half.... So we can say I haven't really seen it. -as he spoke he was staring straight at my boobs, like I mean visibly checked me out! I clear my throat. -
-My eyes are up here, you know!
-Sorry, but I cannot not see this! -it starts to get chilly and my nipples almost pierce through the fabric of my top, I guess it's time to get inside!
-Okay, Let's just watch something... I need a blanket anyway...
-Yupp, you're right. -as we go his arm brushes to mine sending electricity through my skin, I guess he didn't felt it, but for me a light touch like this can can be so thrilling! We walk inside and I pick up my phone just to see if something's happened. Messages from Mel and Josh. I open Mel's.

Oh Lordy, I hate this bitch sometimes! She always needs to know everything!

I turn to Brendon with a soft smile.
-Sorry, frens are always on me.
-No prob. Dallon also bombs me, but I probably won't answer him till tomorrow...
-If I don't answer them, they'll show up in 5 minutes, thinking someone murdered me. -he's smiling sweetly. I look at my phone and open Josh's message.

-awrrr I need to tell him lightly to get lost... Wait! What?! No. I can't dump a friend just to have a chance with someone I just met! I mean what kind of friend dumps its friend for some D? I'm not that kind! If my boi needs me, I'm here! Bros before hoes! -

-Brendon, I guess we have to cancel this movie night... Fren-help needed! Have to dye Josh's hair, I can't say no to him! He's one of my oldest friends!
-Seriously, no need to explain anything to me, you're a big girl, you can make your own decisions and if you have something else to do, than it's okay! -he shrugs and smiles at me. -
-Why are you sound more like a teacher than during class?
-Because I'm wise in some twisted ways, probably... Or because you can't listen to what I say when you're visibly daydreaming on class.. I don't even wanna know what that dirty little mind of yours...
-Okay, that's another conversation what we don't have time for... Now I gotta find a T-shirt to change... I don't want to mess this up! Hair dying can be nasty!
-Yeah... And aww.. Girls night? Such a shame, I started to think that you're mine for rest of the night! But it seems like I have to get lost before we get caught!
-I'm sorry... I'll owe you a movie night! -I hold my arms open for a hug. He squeezes me tightly to his body and I feel the thing I hoped for feeling tonight. He brushes my hair off my ear and whispers:-
-Thank your friend for me. He saved me from something wrong I would've done... -with a move of his hips he makes sure I get what he wanted to do and for some reason I'm glad Josh plays the cockblock because it would be such a shame if this tension faded away... He want the thing I want and if he gets it he might lose his interest in me. So it's time to say goodbye. -
-Well... It was nice to spend time with you! We'll meet tomorrow!
-Sure! Good night Sunshine!
-Good night Brendon.
-I'll have a HARD time falling asleep... -with that he waved and left through the backdoor, I rest my back on the wall and taking deep breaths to take control of my body back. I suddenly realized I have to get rid of the 'evidences'. I threw the plates and the and glasses in the dishwasher. I'm running upstairs to change. I throw on a sport bra and an old, black T-shirt. I tie my hair into a messy bun, I don't feel like I have to look presentable for Josh, because he saw me at my worst and still he tells me I'm beautiful all the time.. I don't believe him, but it's a nice feeling to hear it! As I finished I hear the front door open and as I rush down the stairs I see a smiling Joshua with his backpack on the ground next to him. -

-Babe, I'm home! -he says in a sweet voice... -his voice is something I especially like, it's like a winter evening when you wrap yourself into a big blanket and sipping on hot chocolate, that's exactly how his voice feels like! It was so strange that he spent the summer with his grandparents and wasn't here! I missed him so much! -
-So, it's not just hair dying, but also a sleepover? You're going too far Mr. Dun! I feel used.

-he comes to me and puts his hands on my waist. -
-If I'd use you I wouldn't be nice... I learned it from the best! Aaaaaand I brought pizza!
-Now that's what I wanted to hear! -we hug each other with all of the love we share, now that's a lot! After he releases me I look him up and down and I don't know what's holding me back! He's gorgeous, his sweet smile, the way he squints his eyes when he looks at me. I do love this boy and this might be the problem! He's a boy, no matter how many of the chicks running after him he had, he's the purest thing I've ever met! I'm always there for him as his wingman, I know this is not what he wants, but.... I can't mess this up! He's always here for me to comfort me when I hate myself, but I don't want it to be a relationship, because we're young, we would get bored and break up eventually and I'd lose one of my best friends! That's not just that I don't want to hurt his feelings, but for me losing his company would be unbearable! Since 8th grade we became a strong group, that no one could ever attack without dealing with all of us and if we end up on bad terms it's all ruined! -
-I still can't believe that I was the one who helped you step on the way of enjoying life! When I met you, you were the shy churchboy with the fluffy hair.
-And now?
-You are the coolest rainbow hair guy I know!
-Well... I must say that now I'll be simply the coolest guy, because of the frickin rules! I don't even know how they can force me to do it! I have rights!
-Now just chill! Anyway is this a new rule? Because nobody had a problem with your hair until now..
-Yeah, mom told me something like that.
-You know what? I've got it! You'll be the finest not colorful haired guy ever! So, we're starting your hair straight away?
-Yepp, I think it's better if we're done with that!
-I'll miss the red hair!

-Me too, me too... -we prepare the stuff for the dying while we talk and laugh, my heart melts from this guy!

Before we dye his hair we need to bleach it. So I put the bleach on his hair.
-For now you're okay. Want something to eat or drink?
-Yeah, I could use a drink.
-Okay, what you want?
-Orange juice. -we walked in the kitchen and poured us some orange. As I drank I catch him staring at me, at last he says.- Do you know who you gonna go to prom with?
-Well... I haven't thought of it. I might just go with Mel, if I go with a friend I don't have to concentrate on a stupid date.
-I see.
-And you? Are you planning on asking someone out? -I ask him so just it's not obvious that I know he wants to take me as a date. -
-To be honest I'm planning, but it's not sure yet. So until I find out if she would come with me I don't know... If it's not working I'll just go with Tyler and Jenna as a third wheel!
-This plan sounds... Weird.. But won't you tell me who the chick is?
-No, not yet, but thanks for asking!
-You know nobody can hurt you without me hurting their face!
-I know and appreciate it!
-Aaaand are you going to Alexis' birthday party? Her parents let her to have a big ass party, do you remember how her last party ended?
-Who could forget that?! Everyone was mad as rabbits!
-Totally, even on the pool table! Jessi went wild and I thought I was a whore!
-You're not a whore! I don't let you talk about my friend like that!
-You know that you can't change the way I see myself, right?
-But I will tell you how precious you are everyday if it's what you need!
-Cut the shit... I don't even deserve someone like you as a friend! -he stepped closer, looked deep into my eyes and said in a low voice. -
-You deserve the world! You are special... For all of us! -I turn away just to break the awkwardness, but he spins me around and lifts me up from the ground.

He always does this kind of sweet things. -
-You're such a fool! Put me down!
-Not until you say you're pretty!
-You're pretty... Now let me go! -I laugh and wiggle. - You need to wash your hair now!
-You might get away this time! -he puts me down gently and walks towards the bathroom I hear as water starts pouring and after a few minutes a slightly wet Josh came out with cotton candy pink hair!-
-OhmyJosh, I'm so Dun!
-Don't even try to say anything!

-This looks sooo good! I love it!
-You what? -he thinks I'm joking, but I do like the color! -
-Like I said, I liiiikeee this color so much! Like a pile of fluffy cotton candy!-I walk closer and push my fingers through his hair. Playing with a few stoft, light pink strands. - Strange... It makes me wanna bite you! Rawrrrr...
-Than I might keep it...
-Such a shame I have to ruin it...
-I might just make up an excuse, like my hairdresser told me I have to wait because my hair is weaker from the bleaching... I think the princip doesn't know a hella lot about hairdying.. At least I hope! If my girl likes my hair this way, than it stays! -I smirk at him calling me his girl and walk up to my glass, sipping on my orange juice. He even takes the risk going against the school rules... I don't know if it's super adorable or cheesy. -
-You want a movie and pizza before going to bed? -I ask, leaning on the counter -
-Why not?
-Want me to make a list about why not?
-No, thanks, smartass!
-That's how you call your girl? Don't even answer!

-I crossed my arms fake offended. He grabbed me and lifted my body up to his shoulder. I squealed at the sudden move and hit his muscular back. - Put me down! JOSH!!
-You know it's useless! -he carried me to the couch and put me down gently. He took the remote and sat close to me. - Now we're watching the said film and eat pizza and going to have fun. How does it sounds?
-Like an ordinary night, just without getting high... So.... I mean, boring! - he put the pizza on the coffee table and gives me a slice, he also grabs one and takes a big bite. I crawl closer to him, rested my head on his shoulder and looked up to his face. - Where do you want to go after school? We talked about a lot of options, but you never told me where you want to go the most. -a concerned expression takes over his face. -

-Well... I don't really know yet... Honestly, I'm just worried about us... -US?! What does he mean by us? We're not a thing or something! - I mean the squad, Pete is going to LA with Meg, I know that Tyler and Jenna stay, but still it won't be the same anymore. I like how things are now. -I stroke his arm with all my love and care. -
-I like how things are now too, but things change. It's how life works, sometimes you have to close a door and open another. Everything will work out in the end, I promise! -he smiles lightly. -
-Pinky-promise? -he holds out his pinky for me.
-Pinky-promise.
-And may I ask you when have you become such a wise young woman?
-You know... Mayhaps I'm secretly wise. Or I spend too much time with older guys...
-You have a new catch? -his body tenses a bit, but he never shows me that he cares about my sleeping around. -
-I wouldn't say it's a catch, nothing to mention.
-That's... good. I guess. -a comfortable silence fell on the room as we watched the TV. Somewhere halfway into the film I felt my eyelids became heavier and eventually I fell asleep. I only woke up to Josh picking me up and carrying me to bed. I snuggle my face in the crook of his neck as he enters my room and lays me down on my bed. -
-You want me to stay? -we never really slept together before, I mean we fell asleep on the couch together, but we never slept together in my bed, but we're just sleeping, it's not like we have to doing something. Friends sleep together sometimes. I sleep with Mel sometimes, why not with Josh? -
-Yeah, why not dude? -he crawl next to me in bed shifting slightly. I turn towards him and I say just over a whisper. - Good night Joshie.
-Good night.

I almost immediately fell into a nice dreamless sleep. Tomorrow I must update Mel on the happenings...

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