3rd PERSON POV

They found Tony and Steve at the cabin the next morning, both unconscious. They took them to S.H.I.E.L.D.'s base.

After almost 24 hours Steve woke up, he was feeling a little confused,but mostly fine. Natasha was at his room, looking at him intensely.

"Hey, who died?" - he joked cause she had she had a scared pale face.

When Natasha's expression got worse with the question Steve became desperate.

"Where's Tony? Why are we here?" - Steve asked with no clue of what happened.

"Steve, you don't remember anything?" - she asked with a sad expression.

"Natasha, you're scaring me, did something happen to Tony? Where is he? " - he got close to her, his eyes were wide open in fear - "Natasha, tell me he's not dead"

He shook her.

"I think you should come with me" - she said looking down and took him by the hand to guide him to the lab.

Steve could not feel his legs and his chest was hurting extremely.

When they got in and Steve saw Tony, he dropped on his knees.

"No, this can't be possible, it's not my Tony, who did this to him?" - Steve's voice was a mixture of anger, desperation and depression.

He got closer to the tank that kept Tony in cryogen, his heart was aching, his mind was empty, like it is without Tony.

Steve bursted into tears, trying to catch his breath.

"I demand to know who did this, what happened? ARE YOU ALL GOING TO STARE AND SAY NOTHING?"

Steve was already losing control, but none of them intended to stop him, no one could measure the Pain he was going through now.

Strange showed up to talk to him, his face wasn't the best either, it was like life was sucked out of his eyes.

"Steve, due to the several hematomas, internal abdominal bleeding,severe cranial trauma and bleeding, bruises on his face, cuts on his hands and back and a rib fracture. "

As he talked Steve was getting the feeling of dying inside, his body. Couldn't even keep straight.

"So,what you're saying is..." - he would not accept that Tony could be gone

"I'm saying we've repaired what we could when he arrived here, the images of the attack helped organize the priorities of the bruises. He got here with minimum chance of surviving, Steve, so after the surgeries and treatments we took him directly to our only shot, a cryogen chamber."

"So he's going to live , right? "- Steve's eyes shinning with excitement

"I don't know, Steve, maybe" - Strange touched the glass looking at Tony. - "That's our hope"

"HOPE? DO YOU WANT ME TO SETTLE WITH HOPE?"

Steve yelled at Strange and was about to attack him when one of the agents held him, but it didn't last long, cause Steve was enraged and not even 2 agents could hold him. It was necessary for Wanda to control him and take him down.

Steve at that moment felt like he had no powers, he felt his muscles weak , his senses disappear, the only thing he could feel was the excruciating pain on his chest alongside with the tears that kept falling freely from his face. His body started shaking a lot.

His Tony, for all the times Tony's life was at risk this one was the worst and he didn't know why.

"Believe me, Steve, I'll fight for his life every way possible" - Strange's voice whispering in his ear was the last thing he heard before they took him to another room.

Natasha and the rest of the team came in to see Steve, they already have seen Tony, Peter was the only one who wouldn't not enter there for any circumstances

"I wanna know who did this" - Steve said in a low voice, on the floor.

"I think it's best if you don't" - Thor said and Steve got up angry and scary.

"I NEED to know who hurt my life"

Thor looked to Natasha that was sat on the computer to show Steve the camera images they caught from the cabin.

"Guys, leave us alone for a moment, please" - Nat asked and everyone left except Steve. - "I want you to remember that it was someone else manipulating you"

Steve was even more confused, he remembered proposing, taking a shower than dancing with Tony on the living room, he doesn't remember someone else entering.

When he looked at the screen he realized no one actually entered...

It was him

He beat Tony to death, he did this to the love of his life, to his future husband.

Steve started to loose control again and punched the screen in front of him, Natasha got scared, she wasn't recognizing her friend, she tried to look him in the eyes to try to calm him down.

"Steve, listen to me"

"Natasha, I'm warning, get out, you're not going to like it" - he said really warning her, so she wouldn't get hurt.

She ran out of the room to get help. Meanwhile Steve was breaking everything inside the room.

The blood that was on his hands didn't worry him, but his lover's blood that he poured earlier was the only thing he wouldn't bare to live with.

He felt empty again and thought of how it was worse than being dead.

Natasha called as much help as she could get, it was not easy to fight Steve and in this conditions was even harder.

They got to the room and none of them recognized Steve. The honored and collected man with a captain posture was not this man at all.

"Take him down permanently" - Natasha screamed at the top of her lungs.

"Are you serious?" - Clint looked at her alarmed.

"I know my friend, he will not survive this right now" - she was crying desperately, but she knew it was the right decision.

"She's right, he's survived a lot of things, this is too much for him" - Bucky interrupted.

He saw Steve in his worst times and yet he never saw Steve hit this state so fast and hard.
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2 weeks later
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Steve woke up and took a deep breath, he looked to the side and saw Thor at one side and Wanda on the other.

"Where's Tony?"

"Honey, you don't remember?" - Wanda asked and caressed his hair.

Then it all just hit him all over again like knives hitting his body one at time.

"Steve, listen to me, you need to be strong now, for Tony, or they'll take you down again" - Thor whispered to him holding his shoulder.

"What if they bring Tony back and you're not awake to see him?"

Just that idea made Steve's whole body clinch. He would need to be strong.

He went home with his friends and when he got to the tower he went straight to their bedroom even though everyone protested.

It hasn't changed. Their scent was still on the bed sheets. Their clothes organized together on the drawers.

He grabbed a shirt that belonged to Tony, held close to his face and let his emotions drawn deep in it as he held it strongly and smelled Tony's scent. The tears came down like a waterfall and the whole in his chest was getting bigger and more painful.

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1 month later
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The last couple of weeks weren't easy, Steve was mostly at the bedroom or Tony's workshop, they restricted Steve's entrance at the hospital for safety.

He was Drinking a lot of whiskey everyday, wishing he could get drunk.

"Honey, you can't be like this, this is not you, it's not healthy" - Natasha said entering the workshop.

"I don't care"

"Would Tony approve you living like this, like him in all the bad things he hated about himself?" - Natasha asked and Steve looked finally at her.

"Be the man Tony fell in love with and honor his memory"

"Memory? You all talk like he's already dead! He is not, you hear me? He'll be back."

"Steve, I know this is extra hard for you, but it's hard on all of us, Pepper is still in the hospital, cause she almost lost her baby due to the stress,we are all suffering with this, but we can't die with him, that's not what he would like, especially from you, it's been a month, I know it's too little time, but you need to try to leave the house at least to visit Pepper, you are her baby's godfather and also, she is the one who can understand some of your pain in the way that you're feeling" - Natasha was crying.

"He's going to come back, I know" - that's what Steve said before he came back to drinking.

He was in the denial phase, even though there was a chance of Tony coming back, he couldn't know how much time it would be.

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2 months later
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STEVE'S POV

I decided to visit Pepper after two months of the tragedy. I was not feeling better at all, but I don't like to be selfish, she needs me, we are the ones that know Tony the most and love him the most.

I got to her house and waited at the door, Rhodes answered it, cause Pepper was still on recovery from the almost miscarriage she had when she found out about Tony.

Rhodes hugged me but didn't say a word, it was like a sympathy hug.

I got to her room, she was laid in bed, her belly was really big already, that made me feel comfortable, but made me miss Tony even more, he would be spoiling her so much now.

"Come here, honey" - she said and opened her arms to welcome me into a hug.
She made me lay in bed by her side while she caressed my hair. I didn't need to look at her to know how much she was crying, like me.

"He'll be back" - she said and that warmed my heart, after weeks hearing the same condolences over and over.

"Thank you"

"I'm serious, this son of a bitch better be here when this baby is born" - she smiles between all the crying and I smiled two, something I haven't done two months.

"I wish I could help you more, Steve, but I don't know how to deal with it, I'm barely surviving, you know, he's a huge part of me and for you it's even worse cause ..." - she sobbed.

"Cause he's all of me"

We won't loose hope, never!

*It continues*