Caught an Uber to my hotel

opened my laptop to all the old photos of us

That time at the carnival on the ferris wheel

That party after homecoming where we had traded sweatshirts

That camping trip where you had snuck into my tent that night

and you took my virginity

Quietly

to the sound of the crickets and wind howling through trees

I cried to myself

ordered room service

desperate to find an action movie since romance was not an option

I knew tomorrow I would have to find activities for myself

Because seeing you again would be torture

Torture I thought I could handle

And with a knock on my door and a growling stomach, I answered

But it was you and you had nothing to say

Instead you advanced forward to kiss me yet again

We've gone a year without physically expressing our love

and now it was catching up

I know I'm with Madison but I can't stop thinking about you

I'm glad you're here but sometimes I wish...

I stopped you from talking because I didn't want to hear

your wishes

I've had months full of wishes and they went unheard

I wasn't here for your wishes