changing his position here and there, yangyang had his eyes shut tight as he tried to force himself to go back to sleep. he waited for another minute but he still couldn't put himself back to sleep. having no choice, he fluttered his eyes open and there he could see the sunlight coming inside the room and also a beagle dog down the bed. mustering up a small smile, the student raised his hand up and patted the dog's head.

❝morning bella.❞ he said with his hoarse voice, groaning as he tried to sit up with a headache.

yangyang scanned the room he is sharing with the ceo with his hazy sight. he was still adjusting to the brightness and once he already did, he stood up and went to check himself inside the bathroom. he was already in his pajamas. hendery must have changed him last night. letting out a sigh, the student washed his face before going out and seeing that their dog was already waiting for him by the door.

with a small smile, he followed her from behind. they got down towards the living room and yangyang chuckled upon seeing their cat by the sofa.

❝louis!❞ he greeted their siamese cat by throwing his upper body by the backrest and had it drooping right next to the cat who seemed unbothered by it.

❝you look fine despite of passing out last night.❞

still in the same position, yangyang turned his head towards the direction of the voice and the frown on his face came back the moment he had seen the person who's the reason as to why he even went drinking last night. ❝morning..❞

hendery watched the younger stand up properly from the sofa and make his way towards the kitchen. at times like this, he'd get a morning kiss. may it be on the cheeks or lips, but seems like he doesn't deserve one right now. with the student already going past by him, the ceo stood there for a couple of silent seconds before turning his back around and following the younger to the dining area.

❝did i do anything stupid last night?❞ yangyang tried to ease the tension between them as they sat down to their seats.

the man across him had his brows furrowed. aside from crying his heart out, he couldn't remember anything that the younger had done that would make him regret for his whole life. ❝renjun complained about how you were singing the wrong key all the time.❞

well, at least that put a smile on the younger's face. ❝would have been better if i annoyed jaemin instead.❞

remembering the complaints coming from the three students when they called last night to check up on their friend, hendery pointed a finger at his boyfriend. ❝you did insult him in german.❞

❝and i'm proud of myself for doing that.❞ yangyang said with a loud chuckle.

laughing at his boyfriend's statement, the man sat there while looking at the younger who now has a smile on his face. their awkward air then came back seconds after when yangyang raised his head and caught the ceo looking at him with a smile on his face. knowing the reason why he got himself wasted last night, the younger went back to avoiding him the best he can while eating the breakfast being made for him. hendery saw this and it got him guilty back again.

❝wait,❞ the man stood up from his seat and went to get a glass of water along with pills for hangover before making his way back to the dining area. ❝here.❞

glancing to his side, yangyang pressed his lips into a thin line. he then dropped his metallic chopsticks and threw himself to the older who was taken aback by it. quickly placing the glass and pills down the table, hendery wrapped his arms around the male's waist and rubbed small circles behind his back upon hearing sniffles coming out from his mouth.

❝don't you think it's too early to cry?❞ hendery tried to joke and make him laugh, just to ease the tension between them, but it only made the younger's cries to volume up. ❝hey?❞

burying his head on to his boyfriend's shoulder, yangyang tightened his embrace around the older's body. even though it may look like he's really mad at what he had just seen, he was aware that he was too much last night for running away and not hearing him out. he even vent it out with alcohol. ❝ge, i'm sorry.❞

hendery bit his lower lip will lowering his head, ❝i should be the one saying that.❞ pulling away, the older brought his hand up and wiped his tears, reminding him of how he cried last night and all those tears were because of him. ❝even though it happened by accident, i'm still sorry that you have to see it.❞

with hendery wiping his tears, yangyang looked up to see if there was a hint of lie in his eyes. ❝was it really an accident?❞

❝yang, i just helped him up. he was falling together with my chair and when i pulled it back to its place, we weren't aware that our faces would be that close till our lips touched.❞ he explained, smiling at the younger male after doing so. he then leaned forward and went to place a soft kiss on top of his boyfriend's forehead. ❝why would i go around and kiss people when i already have you?❞

puckering his lower lip, yangyang had his hands clutched on to hendery's shirt and played with it. ❝you sure you don't have feelings for him?❞

❝i love you.❞ hendery said, not answering the question. he then settled another peck on the younger's cheek and boop-ed their noses together. ❝so much.❞

he hoped that it was enough to convince his boyfriend that it's only him and no one else.

❝are you mad at dejun?❞ the man asked, wanting to know. because if he did, he won't actually hesitate to pull the guy out from his position on being his secretary.

honestly speaking, ❝i was, a little bit.❞ he told the older. ❝but after knowing this, there's no use getting angry at him when all of it was just an accident.❞ yangyang then passed the question to him. ❝are you?❞

is he really asking him that? wasn't it obvious enough? the man scoffed before answering him. ❝you don't know how much he pissed me during that time.❞

he knew his boyfriend's temper and it can get out of hand sometimes, especially when he's dealing it with someone whom he least liked the most. yangyang could see how they were not in good terms, who knows how much xiaojun would have had to deal with him after the incident.

taking the younger's silence as a consideration of not pushing the topic further, hendery then pulled away from the embrace and gently placed the student back on his seat. ❝finish your breakfast, i'll take bella out.❞

that made yangyang snap his head to the older's direction. ❝but today is saturday.❞ he reminded him about how he is usually during weekends and that he should be at the company by this hour.

❝i'm not reporting to work.❞ walking back to the kitchen after getting the leash for bella, hendery leaned down just to place a soft kiss on his forehead. ❝i'll stay with you for the whole day.❞

nodding his head obediently, yangyang didn't bother talking back and forcing him to attend work. having time together for the whole day was quite rare for the two, with one busy with his studies and the other busy with his work. just when the older had stepped out to the living room and find their dog, yangyang had just remembered xiaojun.

he always goes out every morning at the park.

he wanted to talk to him and clear things out, that guy might think that he's mad at him after what had just happened.

❝wait, ryry ge!❞

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it may look like he's just enjoying his life there with jokes all the time, but he really is struggling. he wasn't lying even for a small part when he confessed his purpose during the job interview, he really did need money for the debts he had and also to send some back to his parents. he actually graduated with flying colors back in his old school, which made him wonder why he was having a hard time handling things here.

if anyone in his school would see his state right now, they'd laugh at him.

even though there was an hour left for him to get ready and report to work, he still went out of the house and took a stroll by the park. he didn't know why but this became his habit all of a sudden. it probably started after he met that cute guy in this very park he is in. seeing a familiar bench, xiaojun made his way there and sat down and gloomy mood.

❝i shouldn't really have played with him.❞ he grumbled, burying his face down to his palms. ❝why are you like this dejun?❞

he blamed himself for all of it even though it really wasn't completely his fault. he didn't mean to fall along with the chair, he didn't mean to anger the ceo that much, and he mostly didn't want for his first kiss to be taken just like that.

xiaojun can see how pissed and annoyed the ceo was with him, already foreseeing his future out of the company that he got in by chance. also about that incident, he can't help but feel guilty seeing how yangyang left after that. hendery wasn't the only one worried about his whereabouts, xiaojun was too. he wanted to help in calling for the younger male but he doesn't have his number to begin with.

too immersed in his pile of thoughts, xiaojun just heard a dog's bark and when he removed his face from burying his palms, a familiar dog was already seated down the ground in front of him. curving his lips down, he leaned back to the bench with his arms crossed. ❝i'm sorry, would you want me to buy hotdogs for you?❞

❝i don't think bella is here for your hotdogs.❞ a familiar voice wad then heard that made xiaojun raise his head up.

and just the person he wanted to see, xiaojun couldn't feel more guilty as ever.

the male waited for teases coming from the frowning guy but instead, he received silent treatment along with that frown on his face. eyeing the space beside him, he then decided to take a seat while holding on to his dog's leash, not wanting for him to run away and lose him at a time like this.

the two sat there with neither of them having the guts to say anything. the dog, not being aware of what was happening, just placed her paws down on to xiaojun's lap and waited for the guy to pat his head. noticing the dog wanting some attention, he forced out a smile and patted his head.

❝why does it look like bella favors you more than me?❞ the student chuckled as he watched the adorable interaction of the two.

taking his hand away from the dog, xiaojun licked his dry lips while mustering up the right words to say to the younger male beside him that noticed how he was creating distance between them. ❝yang, i'm sorry.❞

yangyang would like to admit, the sight did hurt him but getting a proper explanation from his boyfriend was enough to mend the broken pieces. ❝it's alright, i'm just really dramatic that i ran away instead of listening to either of your explanation.❞

❝i know you're mad at me.❞ xiaojun said, not having the courage to look at him.

tilting his head while humming, yangyang pondered for a moment before speaking . ❝i was, but not anymore.❞ the younger male then let out a sigh. ❝but i think hendery is.❞

❝i know.❞ groaning, xiaojun buried his face down to his palms. he was already starting to think of side plans about finding another job as he could already see himself being kicked out. ❝i think i fucked up badly.❞

❝you did call him by his name so, i guess you did?❞ yangyang tried to lift up the mood with his laugh, successfully doing so as he could see how the guy's lips curved up to a small smile. although, it wasn't what he said that made xiaojun smile, it was because of his laugh.

❝he told you about that?❞

nodding his head, yangyang put his attention to bella who's still clinging to the guy. ❝he also told me how it happened so you don't have to feel guilty about it.❞ he said. ❝it was just an accident.❞

it's not like first kisses mattered much to him but hearing how his first kiss is done like that just saddened him a little bit. shrugging the thought, xiaojun now lifted his head and went on giving the dog affection as he could see her still not leaving in front of him. ❝i don't get how his name could be such a big deal!❞

❝i also don't know the reason but i don't want to push him to telling me.❞ even the boyfriend doesn't know. the cute guy then tilted his head to the side and furrowed his brows while facing the frustrated male. ❝you also don't let gege call you by your name.❞

❝well, that's because.❞ he said and ending his invalid reason with a period.

hendery also told him about that?

squinting his eyes, ❝but i don't see you getting mad at me if i call you by your name.❞ yangyang found it suspicious.

with heat rising up to his cheeks, xiaojun got to look at the cute guy for the first time in their encounter during that day. ❝t-that's b-because!❞

he can't just say that his crush is an exception.

not only would it embarrass him and make the two of them awkward, but it would also ruin whatever was going on between them. probably friendship. but his stuttering surely didn't help in sounding convincing.

though, yangyang didn't put too much meaning as to why he was stuttering. what mattered to him at that moment was them already going back to the way they were. ❝have you eaten yet?❞ he suddenly asked.

thinking about it, he hasn't yet. the landlord did try to offer cooking breakfast for him but he excused himself first and politely rejected the offer. a stupid decision, he knows, but he didn't want to burden the landlord and make use of his kindness all the time. ❝i think i will once i get back home.❞

clapping his hands, yangyang looked excited like the first time they had met. it was just then xiaojun realized what he was about to say. ❝how about we—❞

as much as he wanted to say yes for the cute guy, he still wasn't ready to meet hendery. ❝oh my, will you look at the time?❞ stretching his arms, xiaojun stood up and waved his hand at the younger as he started to walk away. ❝gotta go, yang!❞

what a bummer, he badly wanted to taste yangyang's cooking.

but if it costs for him to meet that guy, might as well buy hotdogs for breakfast.

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