his eyes sent thousands of daggers at the person that's now down on the floor, wiping the blood from the corner of his lips. hendery was breathing heavily while he was being held back by the student. ❝let go—❞

pushing him away, yangyang didn't waste a moment and blocked the secretary from his boyfriend's view. he had his arms stretched to the side as if he could protect the older behind him when he can't even dare give an insult to his boyfriend. ❝dejun ge didn't do anything.❞

the younger's  remark made hendery scoff. ❝oh, really?❞ his furious glare now went to the student that looked determined in protecting that secretary of his. ❝then, kissing you was nothing?❞

seriously, if they were going to date behind his back then they could have done it secretly. but even if they do, hendery is still going to find it suspicious and will end up finding out. question is, are they really dating? if yes, how long has it been? having something click inside his head, the ceo can't help but internally mock a laugh thinking that they might have known each other long ago that made it a reason for yangyang to recommend him to be his secretary.

they even had the audacity to kiss inside his office.

❝i kissed him, ge.❞ the younger still went on defending the secretary, knowing that he really did nothing wrong.

clasping his hands together, a sarcastic smile then formed on the older's face. ❝great! you are cheating on me.❞

yangyang then had his eyes widened. this wasn't what he thought that would come out. heck, he didn't even think of anything at all and just went on with confessing to the person that's giving him bad kind of butterflies inside his stomach. to top it off, he even kissed him to prove that his feelings are more than what friends feel for each other.

he didn't want for his boyfriend to misunderstand. ❝ge, no—❞

❝i should have known as to why you were so eager to make me hire this guy!❞ hendery started to raise his voice, having his eyes threatening the scared student. ❝he had no background or whatsoever in working in this field and yet you still begged for me to accept him.❞ he then let out a bitter chuckle. ❝is this the reason?❞

yangyang aggressive shook his head. among all things that could possibly happen, why does it have to be his boyfriend seeing the sight of them kissing? ❝you got it wrong—❞

messing up his hair with a frustrated huff, hendery groaned while turning around for a second just to face the student and now had an finger pointed at him as if he was accusing him. ❝i fucking got it right and you know it.❞

the ceo grumbled at him and it made the younger flinch at how close he was already. not knowing what could happen next, yangyang was just getting himself ready for a punch to be thrown at it.

his silence caused for the fuming ceo to scoff for the second time. ❝all those visits were just so you could see him, not for me.❞ he stated, already seeing how tears started to well in the younger's eyes.

well, he's not going to fall for it. for as long as he knows, that's just probably an act for him to give in and stop getting mad.

❝you know what?❞ hendery raised his hands up and curled them into fists, getting upset at the fact that no matter how mad he is and how betrayed he is at that moment, he can't and will never hit the younger male. ❝i'm tired of this. i'm tired of the both of you!❞

he then turned his back at them, starting to walk away and not even planning to turn back and engulf the student who is now crying in a comforting hug. but as he reached to the door, he still had more to say to the two. more or like giving them his awful blessings even though he's hurting.

❝i hope you fucking enjoy your time together.❞ he uttered out, glaring at them and especially at his secretary that's propping himself and struggled to get back on his feet.

but he was once again halted by a voice that spoke out, and it isn't even from his boyfriend. it's from the secretary who's now standing up and trying to reach out for him.

❝kunhang, listen. yang—❞

❝shut it, i don't want to hear any bullshits coming from you.❞ he sprouted at him, pushing the doors open and didn't bother to look back just to listen to their explanations. by now, he already had his emotions get the best of him.

how can it not? this relationship actually meant a lot to him. yangyang meant a lot to him, he loved him with all his heart, cared for him, and treated him like no man could ever. only to know that their relationship for two years is a joke and that his boyfriend is cheating  behind his back, how can that not make him mad?

fumbling his hands inside his pockets as he searched for the keys for his car, the frown from his face deepened and the person that just came out from the lift didn't even help curve his lips up.

❝hey, it's sweet father—❞

hendery only raised a hand, ❝not now, lucas.❞ passing by him and not explaining as to what on earth was happening.

he got the head of finance stand there with brows furrowed and mouth agape at the tone of his voice. lucas stood there, taken aback as to why the ceo looked pissed, but only had his eyes following at the man that's fuming his way to the elevator.

the doors then closed and hendery was glad to be alone inside that. he made a lot of gibberish words just to let out his frustration, even got to speak his mother language as he grumbled about the sight he had just seen. yangyang even defended him, thus making him think that the two were really dating behind their backs. if not, they surely are starting now. he would have stayed and listened to their explanation if the kiss was shown as an accident but xiaojun was pinned on the wall for god's sake. that only means yangyang was the one who initiated it, making his blood boil at his boyfriend that he trusted and loved. even though he was a tad bit guilty for punching xiaojun, he still deserved it for not abiding his rules about not getting to his boyfriend's pants.

what he found odd though was how he wasn't just mad at the sight of them kissing, but also something else that he couldn't pinpoint as to what.

brushing a hand through his already messed up hair madly, he finally reached to the ground floor and quickly got out of the building without even entertaining those who greeted him by the lobby. the receptionist behind the desk also had worried eyes at him, guessing that something might have happened between him and his boyfriend as he came out looking like he was this near to punching a wall. hendery didn't mind any of the stares and just quickly make his way to the parking lot.

he definitely had no idea where he was going to go but that didn't stop him from getting inside the car and start driving away from the place, away from them.

no, he won't go drinking. he still had to work the next day and didn't want to disappoint his parents because he'll skip the whole day because of hangover.

also, he isn't like his boyfriend that would drink whenever he's facing a problem. he had warned him that too many times and even though he stopped, the recent one that he got drunk because of a misunderstanding is still getting to him.

reminded of that day, hendery had his tongue poking at his inner cheek. he had the nerve to scold him and get mad at him for kissing someone accidentally yet here he is, actually kissing someone in his own will.

❝fucking love.❞ he mumbled out, eyes on the road but his focus was at his heart that's aching.

hendery  may not know where on earth he is going but he'll surely not go far. it might hurt a lot and he might have felt his world breaking down, but he still had his priorities straight.

he just needed fresh air and a peaceful place to think about this and then go home to rest.

❝i..❞ xiaojun bit his bottom lip after taking his eyes off the doors and now turned to the younger male that's crying. ❝yang?❞

hoping this could help as he honestly had no idea what to do, the secretary moved close to the student and let him cry on his shoulder. xiaojun brought his hand up and rubbed gentle circles behind the the younger's back, comforting him. both of them were hurt, xiaojun being physically hurt and yangyang suffering emotionally.

it was fine for him, xiaojun can handle a single punch. but for yangyang, he knows the guy needed a shoulder to cry on and since he was there, why not offer his own shoulder.

guilt then started to visit him, making xiaojun lower his head. ❝did i ruin your relationship with him again?❞

he started to blame it on himself. the first time he had done this was the incident with hendery, and now with yangyang. but the situation with the student confused him more, not knowing what to react nor what to feel.

❝y-you did not.❞ yangyang sobbed, embracing the older male that's with him. ❝neither d-did you ever.❞

but that's now what xiaojun felt. right now, he feels like a bad luck to them. he might have guessed that the two of them don't fight in the past and they did, it wouldn't probably this big. it was just when he arrived that the two started to have a problem. ❝i will fix this.❞

moving away as he wiped his tears, yangyang was shaking his head as he tried to catch his breath. ❝no, it's not your fault.❞ in fact, it was his. he was the one who planned to confess, and he's also the one who kissed him. ❝i'm sorry, i'll talk to him and make sure your job won't get affected.❞ he tried to force a smile even with the tears rolling down. ❝i know you need this.❞

yeah, he needed this job to live, but xiaojun also wants to help. ❝yang—❞

❝ge, can we just forget about this?❞

the older's eyes then widened after hearing what he had just said. a part of him was screaming a big fat yes knowing that it'll be just for the greater good and for the peace of the world, but deep inside he didn't want to forget.

and him being xiaojun, he just had to look clueless as if he had no idea what he was talking about. ❝what?❞

sniffling, the younger male had finally finished wiping every single tear up and now gave the secretary a small smile. ❝forget that i ever confessed to you, that i liked you.❞

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arriving to a place he called home, he stuffed the keys inside his pocket and went out of the garage. hendery removed the blazer he was wearing and prayed that the younger male had already went to sleep. he also hoped that he didn't go out there drinking again, knowing that it was his most expected move to do.

not bothering to knock, he gripped on to the door knob tight and twisted it the next second. he quietly opened the door and almost muttered out a cheer upon seeing the lights at the living room being turned off. it's only the dim lights at the kitchen serving brightness but they usually just leave it like that.

checking by the sofa, he couldn't see anybody there which only made him conclude that the younger male might be inside their room. of course he would sleep there alongside with him, he'd probably just get clothes to change and a pillow for him to settle down the sofa.

loosening his tight and starting to unbutton his dress shirt, hendery was about to make his way up to the stairs but was stopped when a soft voice called him out.

❝ge?❞

aware at to whom that voice owned to, he could only shut his eyes tight as he knew he can't ignore him forever. ❝no, i'm not drunk. and no, i didn't cause any accidents on my way back—❞

he didn't get to finish his supposedly last words to the person before he puts himself to sleep as the body was suddenly being thrown at him that he almost stumbled back. hendery dropped his blazer and the embrace was tightened by the younger who's now starting to cry.

among all things, he didn't want to give in. hendery knew he can't resist him whenever he cries. his pouts were already enough for him to handle, much more if he cries.

trying not to sound rude, ❝let go of me.❞ he told him as he tried to take his arms around from his waist.

the student was stubborn and shook his head that he buried down on to the older's shoulder.

trying to keep his emotions intact, a sigh got out of the stressed ceo's mouth. ❝liu yangyang.❞

❝ge, i'm so sorry.❞ the male hugging him finally spoke in between his quiet sobs. ❝trust me, i wasn't trying to cheat on you.❞

he planned to lie and tell him that it was an accident but it already was obvious that it wasn't. another thing, he sucks at lying. even though hendery can't see his eyes, he can already tell that he is lying by just the tone of his voice. might as well tell him the truth, even though he knew it would hurt him and probably change their relationship.

but he hoped it won't break.

❝i know this is going to be so wrong,❞ pulling away, yangyang took a step back just to look at him. just to see how he would react. ❝but i l-like dejun ge.❞

only to regret after seeing the pain his eyes.

what was he feeling right now? hendery had no clue. he was hurt, sure. that feeling came since a while ago. but how much? no idea. his boyfriend just confessed to him that he liked another person despite of already being in a relationship, but he felt like he also had done the same thing. not confessing, but he was feeling butterflies inside his stomach towards someone that's not his boyfriend.

it just so happens that it's the same person that yangyang is liking.

❝but ge, i still love y-you.❞ the younger male started to cry hard again after seeing that hendery had no plans to talking back to him, it hurt him more to see him like this. ❝it would be hard to explain but j-jaemin told me about this and i—❞

❝yang, do you want to break up with me?❞

after staying silent for a couple of minutes, those were the words that came out of his mouth.

indeed, it took the younger by surprise. but yangyang quickly got back to his senses and knew he had to clear this misunderstanding before it gets out of hand, ❝no, i don't, and never did that ever come across into my head.❞

❝t-then why?❞ the moment his voice cracked, that was also the second he broke down. he rarely cries in front of the younger male, making the other worry so much when the tears started to fall. ❝am i not enough for you? i also bet the two years of us were just a joke that you played along.❞

❝ge,❞ leaning nearer, yangyang placed a hand behind the older's head and made their forehead touch. he could feel his warm breath ghosting over his lips and he could clearly see how he was holding back to sobbing so loud. settling a soft peck on his quivering lips, yangyang then cupped on his face. ❝i love you, and that's what matters.❞

❝but you also like him.❞

hendery expected for him to deny his feelings to at least lie but we don't always get what we want.

❝i d-do.❞ and before the older would cut him off, yangyang already beat him to it. ❝but i can explain this to you. it would be confusing but please, try to understand. understand me and also my feelings.❞

one of the many things as to what hendery loved about their relationship is them understanding each other. sure, they'd fight sometimes, but it will always settle them having a talk. the fight they had in regards to him accidentally kissing xiaojun didn't even last long as they had already talked it out in the morning. this is why he felt lucky to have chosen yangyang, to have loved him. although, the thought of the younger cheating on him still hurt him badly.

but people might see him as someone who still acts like a baby that needed to be taken care of, but he knew when to be mature.

❝i don't want to hear it right now, please?❞ but he wasn't ready to listen to him yet after having a lot of things inside his head.

yangyang slowly closed his eyes as he felt the older's arms snaking around his waist and is now pulling him close. he then had his hands settled on his chest and the next thing he knew, he now had his lips sealed with the ceo's. hendery started off slowly, pecking his lips and simply kissing him softly. untill it started to get heated, having him to bite his lower lip and get permission from the younger to have his tongue explore his warmth.

pulling away to breathe, hendery dropped his head down to the student's shoulder. ❝for now, take the pain away.❞

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