It's always there
In my subconscious
It's just today it was screaming at me
And fuck it's so hard to think
Of anything other than how it easy it would be

I caught myself saying goodbye mentally
And I hate that pacts are doing their work
Because I just wanna leave

Tonight is gonna be hard
But I'll be in tomorrow
Maybe with more scars and cuts that haven't healed
In places people won't check
But I'll be in tomorrow
Even if I wish I wasn't