I'm drowning
Drowning in life and it's forms
My heads constantly underwater
A force keeping me from surfacing
And I hate it
I hate me
I hate who I am
Because I don't know who that is
The pain helps
It grounds you
But only the physical
The emotions push you further and further out
Into the void
And
You
Drown
Again

I won't come out and say it
Too scared too shy too upset too afraid
Too anxious
Too depressed
Too sui-no
I'm fine
It's just a rough patch
I'm coping
It might not be healthy
But I'm coping

I'm here
I'm alive
I'm trying to live in the now
It doesn't work
My mind races
Goes to far and trips
And ends up where we started
Drowning in the void