It has been a two whole week of Jordan living with me and let me tell you I am surprised I haven't killed him yet.

Where should I start. He keeps bring all his friends over not that I am complaining they are literally sex gods but having then all in my house at the one time is so difficult. 1) because I have Blake flirting with me every five seconds, 2) because as soon as the boys come Jordan goes back to being a dick and acting as if he owns the place.

Then there his sluts he likes to bring to my house thank god I have told him that if he brings them here then the boys can't come over so he doesn't bring them home with him anymore but every Saturday night he is missing and I don't see him till Sunday morning when he phones me at midnight to open the door for him and it can't be because of a party because they only happen every Friday night.

An that brings me to my last point I can't get drunk off my face or high or hook up with guys because I have to bring the royal pain in my ass home.

But tonight is different it's a Saturday at 8 o'clock at night and he hasn't left normal he is gone by now but he hasn't. Unless one of his sluts has told him no.

"Why aren't you going out tonight?" I ask confused and wanting to get to the bottom of it.
"I don't feel like going out tonight and Alec tells me that you keep complaining that we never talk. So I don't sound like a dick I'm going to be nice and stay in and we can talk. So what mad you become this bad girl that you are?" He asks me. In one way I want to tell him why I'm like this but I'm scared that he will think it's stupid. 
"I'll tell you only on one condition that tell me why you are like this?"  I say making sure to hold my ground.
"Fine but you tell me first." I nodded in agreement.

"It all started when I was dating my boyfriend of two years. We where going great so I thought but it really wasn't he was cheating on me the whole time and the person he was cheating on me with was my best friend and his stepsister..."
"What your ex boyfriend was fucking his stepsister that is gross." Jordan says back horrified. "If you let me finish I can explain why." He just nods his head. "Before Mitch's dad got with his stepmom he was dating my best friends Ellie but no one knew about it. Then his dad started dating his stepmom and to try and get over Ellie he started to date me. For the first two months he actually did have feelings for me by the third month Ellie had broken up with her boyfriend and that when Mitch stared to cheat on me.
After I broke up with him my graded started to fall and I started drinking and smoking and I was selling drugs to get money because I thought i wasn't good enough for anyone."
"That fucker. Stephanie you are good enough and anyone to have you is a really like man." Jordan said back and he was looking at me with no smirk he was being serious. And let's just say that in that moment my heart exploded.
"Thanks." He nods his head so start to continue with my story.

"My mum started to cheat on my dad with some guy from her office. I found out and brought it up with she told me that I wouldn't understand. I told my dad he he didn't care he was fine with it. So that night he left I asked if I could come but he said no. Im not good enough if everyone just wants to find some way to leave me. That why I hate my mother. That why I am this horrible person who doesn't know how to care so that when the people do leave it won't hurt me."

As I finished I started to cry. Jordan hoped off of his couch and walked over to my couch and started to wipe away my tears and pulled me into his arms. I got all the feelings I didn't want. I was falling for Jordan. I like Jordan and I don't like it. After I pulled myself together I pulled out of Jordan's arm already missing his warmth. He looked down at me already knowing what he had to do.

"It stared when I was 13 years old my brother who was only 10 got cancer." He stopped as if he couldn't go on. I grabbed his heads and held them and gave him a smile. So he continued. "He was always in hospital my parent where always away with work and never at home to care about my brother. So I stared to drink so that I couldn't feel the pain and to forget what happened. I smoked in hopes that I could die faster. My parents only sent down money to pay for my brothers treatment. But never gave me money so I started up a gang and we started to sell drugs. It worked we got heaps of money for it. My brother was 12 and I was 15 when everything went wrong my brothers treatment wasn't working he couldn't put up with it..."

"You don't have to tell me you can stop. I don't mind." If you ever thought bad boys don't cry your wrong. I wiped away his tears. "After my Thomas died. That was his name." He should me the tattoo on his rib cage with Thomas name.
"Jordan you don't have to tell me." I say trying to stop him because he was crying I didn't want to be the cause of it. I hadn't realized I was crying again till Jordan wiped away a tear.

"Stephanie I want to tell you what happened. I want to to tell you everything for some weird reason." All I could do was nod. "My parents came for the funeral. Then left again I am still the same person I was when my brother was sick but I'm worse now that he is dead I don't date people because I hate the idea of commitment because I'm scared something is going to happen. You have probably realized that every Saturday night I'm always not home but tonight I am. Well that's because I'm always doing a deal and I just stay at one of the boys house or I stay at the gang house. I don't want you to be scared of me." He says.

I just shake my head and say. "I'm not scared of you Jordan I would never be. I have done the drugs and the gangs it's not enough to scare me."
"It should scare you. Your meant to leave me like everyone else has done." He says back to me with a sad face but his eye were telling me not to listen to him and I didn't. "We have both fucked up and if anything we need each other to fall on to if something does go wrong. I'm not going to leave you just because you tell me to you have to give me a good reason to leave." He smiled it was a nice amazing smile.

"Let's go to bed. I'll show you something tomorrow." With that he takes my hand and drags me up the stairs and into his room. "Jordan this isn't my bedroom?"

"I know it isn't but i don't want to sleep by myself tonight." He looks at me and gives me the best puppy dog eyes. Dammit. I agreed and hoped into bed. He pulls me into him and for some reason I was already falling asleep. I didn't catch what he said but whatever it was I was going to find out.

Hi all my amazing reader.
Yay the have opened up to each other.

Where is Jordan going to take Stephanie?

I was thinking at the end of the book once it's finished I'm going to edit and make it better.

I kinda want to enter the 2016 watt pad book award thing. But I'll need to make a new cover and all that.

Anyways

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