i sigh to myself, looking at debbie. "nothing. just wanted to see my best girl!" i immediately perked up, aswell as she.

she brought me in for a hug. we both released each other after awhile. debbie laughed before mentioning that she was "hungry as fuck." i laughed, i could go for something to eat too. she bit the inside of her cheek, probably thinking about somewhere to get food from but all i could think about is carl. he probably thinks i blew him off or something. but did i care? well.. i don't actually know. maybe i could learn to really like brandon. maybe it should be him i lose it to.

we went downstairs, out the front door. but as we did it, carl was making his way inside the house before his eyes landed on me, then on debbie.

i finally said something so it wouldn't be awkward, "we're gonna go get food. want anything?" i offered before he grabbed onto my wrist, tightly. "carl what the fuck?" debbie saw and the look on her face i knew, she was confused.

"carl what're you doing get off of her." debbie defended, giving him an evil glare. i cleared my throat.

"sorry debs. just never realized how hot you're bestfriend is compared to you."

that was fucking mean.

and i was so close to smacking him..

and i did.

right across his face, his face becoming red with anger as he stared right into my eyes. debbie grabbed onto my free arm and pulled me out of his. we walked to the nearest store.

i talked to the cashier while debbie snuck some snacks into her hoodie.

i asked about sandwiches and the earrings that were on sale on the desk he were standing at.

i felt the earrings and looked at him, "only five dollars? these are stunning." he nodded, seemed annoyed at my questioning, just wanting me to buy something.

"do you guys have any cheezits?" i asked him, resting my chin on my palm, staring at him.

he pointed to somewhere in the store away from him, i grabbed a box and brought it up to the cash register.

"three dollars and thirty five cents please." for cheezits? what the fuck? i hand him a five dollar bill and tell him to keep the change, after all, we are stealing. debbie already left the store and i walked out with her.

but then we heard an alarm go off.

we bolted.

as we ran back to her house we heard cop cars, damn it's not like we robbed the place!

well we kinda did..

but it's never been a problem for us really before. i didn't realize there were censors.

we were running back to her house as i saw carl on his stairs, kissing some random girl i've never seen before.

my heart sunk to the very bottom of my chest.

i was so stupid to even think for a second he could return the feelings i had for him.

maybe carl and i just aren't a meant to be thing. why do i keep trying? he doesn't like me like that. i don't think he'll see me as anything other than his sisters weird best friend.

and i guess i could eventually grow to be okay with that.

i needed to move on for my own fucking mental health.

"get a room." debbie interrupted them, we walked past them on the stairs, trying my damn well best to not make any eye contact with him, and not to show debbie i was sad.

the last thing i needed right now was an interrogation.

maybe i should just tell her? she is my bestfriend after all, but i don't want her to feel betrayed or anything like that.

i didn't even realize we walked all the way to her room until she closed the door.

"i'm surprised they weren't fucking on the couch." debbie said, throwing her body back into her twin mattress.

i sat on the floor like i always did and fake laughed with her, i had just imagined that in my head and it felt even worse.

there was a soft knock on debbie's door, "come in." she said loud enough for them to hear but wasn't shouting.

carl opened the door, "thanks for interrupting, she left." his arms crossing, blaming us for this girl leaving? hell no. don't make out in the fucking family living room dumbass.

"she's a smart one." i said sarcastically, i guess she was for leaving.

she probably knew carl wasn't going to talk to her ever again afterwards.

i looked to debbie who was smiling at me for standing up to carl in a way, since i've always been so intimidated by him, like always.

"and you've got a smart mouth, can't wait to see what it does." he licked his lips, was he joking? i wasn't going to let him near me.

i made the conscience decision right there and then to avoid him forever!

which i probably was going to fail at but, lol zero fucks were given.

"in your dreams." i replied, he rolled his eyes and closed her door, but not all the way and it pissed me the fuck off so of course i had to get up and close it.

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sorry for the late update to the one person who reads this