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he grinned excitedly and pulled me into him, licking his lips before kissing me. "i've been waiting so long for this."

i know my mind shouldn't even take it there but i can't help but wonder if everytime i talk to him he's just thinking about having sex with me. at the same time i want to too.. just to get it over with. and maybe to make carl a little jealous.

brandon kissed down my collarbones, feeling up my boobs and grinding down on me.

he pecked my neck pulling up and smiling at me, "can i take your bra off?" i nodded and he smiled and got to it very eagerly and excited.

right as he started to pull up my shirt my phone starting ringing. shit. the one time i don't need a save like this.

we both looked at it and laughed as he slowly got off of me, sitting on his knees while i grabbed my phone.

"who is it?" he asked.

why is carl calling me?

"its uh my bestfriends brother.. hold on give me a sec."

i got up and walked into his bathroom, shutting the door and locking it.

then i looked back down at my phone. carl. there's probably just something going on with their family.

i answered the phone, awkwardly waiting for him to speak first.

"hello?" god i shouldn't love his voice so much.

"hi. what do you need?" i said annoyed.

"uh i just, was like confused."

"about?"

"uh like i don't know when we talked before i just.. i don't know i guess i just don't understand why you're so pissed that debbie knows about us."

its a good thing he can't see me to see my eyes rolling.

"i'm not pissed carl. i just didn't want her to find out."

"you really think i want my sister to know? i didn't want her to know as much as you didn't because now i gotta hear about how i'm some kind of creep for thinking you're hot all this time but at the same time its also not a big deal, we were just messing around a little bit. it doesn't really affect us.. we could still-"

"we could still what?"

"um i mean you can still sneak up to my room sometimes."

"wow you're so horny."

"nah its not just that."

my heart almost stops.

"what do you mean?"

"i don't know i like hanging out and sneaking around with you, it's also funny as hell how much you care about little things."

"oh. well then okay."

"and i could still help you out, you like that brandon guy? we should resume our lessons."

shit. i completely forgot i was even at brandon's house. talking to carl about this while in brandon's bathroom, not far from where we were just about to have sex.

and then he knocks on the bathroom door twice, yo you almost done. in there?"

"who's that?" carl asks.

"um its no one i gotta go sorry bye." i quickly hang up the phone so he couldn't ask any more questions.

i take a deep breath before putting on a smile and opening the door. "hey, so could we do this another time.. i actually have somewhere i have to be right now. i'm sorry."

he looked disappointed. it wasn't because i was leaving though it was because he wasn't getting any.

i got my stuff and walked to the bus stop.

i hope carl'ls home.

i walked in the gallagher household and saw carl drinking a beer with lip on the couch watching a porno. they don't bother to look back and see who it is so i just say hey.

"hey." lip said, picking up a beer from the pack on the ground in front of them and handing it to me.

when carl hears my voice he looks up to see me and smiles, "hey, sit next to me."

still kind of uncomfortable with the porno happening on the screen, i still sit down next to him when lip moves over.

he whispers in my ear even though he was so loud lip could 100% hear what he was saying, "you wanna go up to my room? there's no one upstairs." and smiles at me.

i look at lip and back at carl. "no i wanna watch this with you guys."

carl looks at the tv and back at me, looking confused as to why i would even want to watch sit there and see that. i guess i want him to start thinking of me differently. i take off my coat, opening the beer against the coffee table and sitting back, taking a couple sips.

"you drink now?" carl asks with a raised eyebrow, looking like he was trying to figure me out.

i laugh, "i've always drank carl." i'm pretty sure lip bought it but carl definitely didn't.

"yea okay." he sat back with me and put his arm around me pulling me into his side.

i was kinda confused at the attention, he doesn't really do that stuff in front of his family. but i guess debbie probably told everyone anyway.

after a little while lip had to go and it was just us left in the house. and at this point i was for sure drunk as fuck, carl only looked a little tipsy. he can obviously hold his alcohol a lot better then i can.

i looked up at him after not talking for awhile, "everyone left us." i fake pout as he held me in his chest.

"that's cute." carl says, moving the hair out of my face.

i smile softly, knowing he was being a little sarcastic but still accepting the compliment. i sit up so we were at the same level and meet his stare.

"you're really pretty." he said, pulling my hips onto his knees, then he leaned in and pecked my neck, kissing it slowly.

my eyes close, this feels so much more right.

carl looked at me again, licking his lips and then kissing me.

we were making out for like ten minutes when he slid his hand from my boob to in my pants, tracing the line of my underwear.

i lift my shirt over my head since it's pretty obvious where this is heading.

he kissed me again, this time grabbing my hips and laying me down against the couch, his hips hitting mine when he kissed me again, his fingers going back into my pants, then into my underwear.

"fuck."

my eyes stay closed as he pulls down my pants.

"are you okay." looking concerned.

"i'm fine." i smile at him, "i want this."

"you want this?"

"yea i mean like, i need to get it over with you're right."

he looks a little hurt by that. "okay."

he sits down between my thighs and kisses me through my underwear, pulling it down my legs soon after.

he licks up my slit and takes ahold of my thighs and sticks his tongue into me, tongue fucking me. his nose hitting my clit every time he came up.

"fuck carl." i whine loudly, knowing there's no one in the house for once.

he stayed focused, looking up at me. it was so fucking hot.

i start cumming on his face and get scared cause fuck i don't wanna cum on his face.. what if i taste bad and he's disgusted that i came just from him eating me out.

he slowly lets go of my legs and i cover my face in embarrassment. he pulls my hands away from my face, "don't look at me."

"why are you embarrassed? that was so hot."

"it was?"

"fuck yea."

"oh."

he smiles and kisses me again. as we both go to pull off his shirt we hear the front door open. shit.

we both immediately get up and try to get me dressed or at least covered when fiona walks in.

"oh my god. so its true."