A/N: SAY THE NAME! SEVENTEEEEEEN

kbye. check my jimin ff btw lmao

December 22, 2015

5:03 pm

Miyun: Hiii. You could talk to me and I can help you.

Miyun: I want you to know that, Taehyung.

Miyun: That's what friends are for right?

seen; 5:05 pm

5:34 pm

Miyun: I changed your name in my contacts, just saying.

Lonely Whale typing...

Miyun: I thought it would be funny but I know you might be offended.

Miyun: Hahaha. :)

Lonely Whale typing...

Miyun: You sure do like that backspace more than you like me don't you?

Miyun: ... as a friend of course

Miyun: You really like typing and erasing words already.

Lonely Whale: There's simply a lot of things I want to tell you but I know you wouldn't take them seriously, like always.

Miyun: Then what do you call me now? Still not serious? Are you kidding me?

Lonely Whale: No. You're still not serious.

Miyun: Ugh Taehyung can't you tell by my effort of changing the way I type?

Miyun: Just tell me what you always wanted to tell me.

Miyun: Just tell me about you now.

Miyun: I'm going to listen.

Lonely Whale typing...

6:08 pm

Lonely Whale: Fuck off.

Miyun: No, I won't. I won't fuck off until you talk to me about you.

Lonely Whale: Urgh.

Lonely Whale: I hate people because most of them have it easier for them than it is for me. Everything was better to them.

Lonely Whale typing...

Lonely Whale: My parents are both cheating and hurting each other and they both knew about it, but they kept on arguing about it and forgiving each other afterwards. They always fight and make up. They're up and down, never consistent.

Lonely Whale: They rarely go to work simply because the fact they're both victims of each other's crimes is fucking stuck in their minds. Basically, their lives only revolve around the two of them.

seen; 6:09 pm

Lonely Whale typing...

Lonely Whale: It's fucking strange isn't it? All my other siblings— the three of them died in a fire altogether two years ago. I wasn't present when that happened, but I know they went out to a mall without me because ever since then, I was antisocial. There was a terrible accident that had happened that the mall burned down and they all died together. They weren't aware of the fire spreading, and it was too late when they were.

seen; 6:14 pm

Lonely Whale: It didn't do me well for months, I kept on believing none of that was real. I kept on thinking that I should've died with them and if lucky— I should've died instead of them.

Lonely Whale: All three of them were too kind and selfless, they helped my hatred feelings towards my selfish and stupid parents slowly disappear.

Lonely Whale typing...

Lonely Whale: My parents didn't even care much when my siblings died and they weren't even there at their funeral. My mom was more focused on who my dad went out with that night and not my late siblings. I was so mad at them but I didn't speak, I didn't shout, I didn't let my anger out at them and went missing for weeks.

Lonely Whale: I knew they wouldn't notice because they didn't care.

seen; 6:21 pm

Lonely Whale: I became too jealous of people around me that I started to hate them. They had better lives, better parents, better families. If only I had that.

Lonely Whale: You were fucking right, Miyun. It's my choice to be happy, and I just can't choose that and always chose the option of tormenting myself— drowning myself in pity because of everything that became shit in my life.

Lonely Whale: You're the only one I thought was my freaking friend. I've always been shy to everyone and really antisocial, but now I'm worse and I'm mad at everyone. Since after my family started tearing apart, I hated everyone. I wanted to kill myself so many times. I thought that I should hate you too.

Lonely Whale: The thing is I don't.

Lonely: Please don't fucking pity me.

seen; 6:27 pm

Miyun typing...

Miyun: I won't pity you.

Miyun: Look Taehyung, I want you to read what I'm going to type next very carefully.

seen; 6:28 pm

Miyun typing...

6:34 pm

Miyun: I'm sorry about hearing about what happened, Taehyung. But thank you so much for talking to me about that. It's okay if you don't want to listen to what I'm going to say.

Miyun: I think you need to talk to your parents. As much as you hate that I'm saying this like it's easier said than done, I want you to let them hear you out. You're also victim of their 'crimes', so you're involved to what they're doing. Don't just get mad at them and like doing so.

Miyun: They're your parents, they're the ones who are left in your family. They're still your family, so I think you should try telling them what you feel. It's okay if it doesn't turn out well, as long as you get to voice out your feelings and as long as you can help them in helping themselves.

Miyun: I also hope you know that whatever that happened in the fire wasn't your fault. Don't blame yourself for not being with your siblings that time, or even wish that you died instead of them.

Miyun typing...

Miyun: Taehyung.. if you were dead instead of them, can't you imagine that it doesn't make much of a difference? People will mourn at your loss it's because someone still departed. In fact, many people will mourn. You should think that people care and they love you. Don't ever think nobody cares. You're not a white crayon no one uses, you're a person. No offense to white crayons.

Miyun typing...

Miyun: Don't compare your life to others. Don't hate people— more specifically me just because I'm happier than you, since we are two different people. I chose smiling in pain, and you choose otherwise and there's nothing wrong with that.

Miyun: People are different. They react mostly different in situations. So I can't change a thing about who you are if you're really antisocial, but I know you were never mad at anyone at the very beginning. You also have friends, Taehyung, don't push them away. Jungkook and Jimin for example, they're your friends. I think it's about time for you to make them feel like they are.

Miyun typing...

Miyun: Sorry for prying too much. I just thought I could change something about what you're feeling about all the shit that has happened to you.

seen; 6:48 pm

7:03 pm

Lonely Whale: Miyun

Miyun: What?

Lonely Whale: 😊

seen; 7:03 pm

7:07 pm

Miyun: !!!!!

Miyun: TAEHYUNG I CANT BREATHE

Miyun: IS THAT A SMILEY FACE RIGHT THERE

Miyun: im making dying giraffe noises

Lonely Whale: Hahaha.

Miyun: omg.

Miyun: taetae stahp T^T

seen; 7:09 pm