ive seen so many people wondering if lyza is lisa..

yes, i wanted to use lisa since i'm literally sm in love with lisa- BUT i didnt want this book to be about a ship, it should be about the story behind the characters so i changed the name of her to lyza (see what i did there right? 💀)

so no lyza isn't lisa, lyza is an own character she's my babie😔✊🏻

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3rd of December

"Fuck you, honestly."
Taejeon rolled his eyes this morning, leaned back in his chair as he stared right into nothing, ignoring his father for now. "It's gonna be fine", Jungkook smiled softly, placing the new bought bag in front of his son. "I want my own bag", Taejeon grumbled, pushing the new black one off the table.

"You'll get it. Once we let our stuff being send here", Taehyung said as he put down his newspapers, eyeing the kid. "Would you change your sweater, Taejeon? Pink isn't the best idea for your first day in a new school."

"Oh really?", the kid laughed. Maybe because it's the same school that fucked both of them up? Taejeon got up and walked upstairs. They redecorated Mr Jeon's house, trying to turn it into their own. It didn't feel like home though.

"Why did you tell him to change his sweater?", Jungkook asked quietly as he tilted his head worriedly, walking over to Taehyung to grab his hand and caress them lovingly. "I just think pink doesn't fit him", Tae explained, squeezing Kook's hand softly.
"I'll take him to school", the older then announced, grabbing his keys as he headed towards the door.

"I thought I could do that today", Jungkook said in a small voice. "It might mean a lot to him that I bring him, I'm his Dad-"

"It's fine, Kookie", Taehyung laughed. "You just stay here, I'll bring you a gift when I come back."

Jungkook nodded and smiled sweetly, turned around and walked to the kitchen to do the dishes. It was fine, honestly. Jungkook was afraid to go outside anyways.
After Taejeon returned, wearing a black hoodie and a cap that didn't look like him at all, the door fell shut and Jungkook heard the keys as he always did. He wasn't surprised anymore. The last time he confronted Taehyung with it, he replied with I'm keeping you safe, baby. and Jungkook was okay with that.

"You're sick", Taejeon said as he sat in the car with Taehyung. "I know you're locking my Dad at home-"

"It's for his safety. No one in this goddamn city likes him."

"Why do you force him to stay here then?", Taejeon laughed bitterly. "You do realise that he just isn't saying anything because he still loves you."

"And I love him."

"Oh come on", Taejeon groaned, turning the volume of the music up so he wouldn't have to deal with Taehyung's bullshit anymore. At this point, the kid had no idea who was clear in their mind.

-

5 years ago

"Fucking hell, congrats man. You banged the Mommy", Kai highfived Finn, laughing out loudly when they left the locker room. "Damn that slut spreads her legs for everyone, huh?", Justin hummed, walking along with the boys. 

"Everyone?", Finn asked, eyebrows furrowing.

"Haven't you heard? She got laid by the faggot's boyfriend-", another guy yelled in, slapping Finn's back harshly. "You've got yourself nothing but a fucking hoe."

"For fuck's sake, I wish I'd be you, not gonna lie. They say once a hoe was pregnant they just get better in bed-, more loose and shit", Justin grinned, passing by a group of girls in the hallways. Every single one of them glancing down to the ground as they heard the jocks laughing along.

"We can share", Finn winked, "Bet she's open for it-"

The boys broke into laughter all over again.

Until they saw a tall figure standing in the middle of the hallway, fingers pressed against his book covers, lips bitten harshly. Fear, that's all which was visible on the boy's face. "Yo, fag", Liam screamed out, about to rush over to him but the boy immediately turned around and rushed down the stairs to go to his next class already.

That's how every day passed by lately. Jungkook felt as if he was continuously playing hide and seek, always ready to get beaten up. Taehyung wasn't there anymore to help him, or to protect him. There was nothing left without him.

"Are you sure?", Yeona sighed heavily, keeping her voice down while talking to Lyza in the girl's bathroom. The blonde haired girl nodded quietly, "I took a test", she whispered. "I'm pregnant again", she added almost inaudible.

Yeona let out a sigh, ruffling her hair. "Is it Jungkook's?"

Lyza kept quiet, looking down.

"You said you guys have been trying again, right?" Yeona asked, sounding desperately. "Please tell me he used a condom, please tell me you didn't do the same mistake twice."

"Taejeon wasn't a mistake", Lyza let out, voice shaking. "But yes, we used protection-, most of the time."

"So it's Jungkook's?"

"I-I don't know-, I'm not gonna keep it."

"With who else did you sleep?", Yeona asked quietly, gulping dryly because there were two names popping up in her head. Lyza didn't reply any further, "Yeah", she only said, knowing exactly what her friend was thinking. "You fucked up, girl", Yeona grumbled. "Does Kook know?"

"No and he won't."

*

"I'll be at Mom's in the afternoon. Her boyfriend isn't home", Taejeon explained as he crawled out of Taehyung's car. "I'd prefer if you'd come home immediately after school."

"Lucky me I do not give a shit about what you prefer", Taejeon chuckled.

"Since when do you hate me this much?", Taehyung asked quite confused, he never saw Taejeon behaving in such a way. "Since you stopped treated my Dad the way he deserves."
With that the boy left the car and walked across the school yard, heading into the school building. Just looking at it made Taehyung feel sick, it was the place that broke him and Jungkook back then.

And no one ever tried to save them from this hell.

Taehyung let out a sigh, started the car and then drove right into the city. Today it wasn't snowing, instead rain was falling heavily. The streets weren't covered in white snow anymore, rather in dark dirt, looking absolutely disgusting. Kinda how Taehyung felt lately.

The sky was as heavy as his thoughts these days and as much as he hated it he had to put Jungkook through so much pain. There was no other way though, Jimin made sure of that. And what choice did Taehyung had at this point? He felt like nothing but a freaking doll in everyone else's hands.
He parked the car in a sidestreet and got out, an umbrella above his head. A quick glance on his phone ensured him that Jungkook was still at home, doing laundry or whatever. Taehyung knew he was hating it deep inside, but he wouldn't say a damn thing.

Jungkook still felt guilty and right now, this guilt was the only thing Taehyung could enforce to make sure he wouldn't act up to him. It may buy him some time.

Just like he'd buy him a pretty necklace or something to bring a smile onto his lips. Even though he knew exactly that it was more fake than the Kardashians.
"Tae", a soft voice made the boy look up after he entered the store and immediately got drawn to the golden necklaces.

Taehyung turned around, throat going dry as he saw Lyza standing there. The girl had her hair up in a ponytail today, her bangs falling softly above her forehead and her eyes looking more dollie than ever. "Lyza", the boy hummed, not that happy to see the girl.

"It's good seeing you", she smiled a bit unsure of what to do and put her hand on his shoulder, letting it rest for a bit. "Wish I could say the same", Taehyung said and pushed it off.

"Taejeon wants to come over in the afternoon."

"I know", Lyza smiled softly. "Finn is away over the weekend-"

Taehyung only nodded, "Whatever."
"What are you looking for here?", Lyza then switched the topic, leaning over his shoulder to take a glimpse at what he was looking at. The boy held a pretty necklace between his fingers with a small bird on it. "A bird?", she chuckled.

"Birds remind me of freedom and that's what Kookie was basically glowing with when I first met him in Chicago", Taehyung smiled. "I always want to remember that impression I had. He was so damn attractive."

"Why did you take it away from him then?", Lyza asked, voice suddenly all distant and cold. Taehyung shut up from that, forehead in wrinkles a couple of seconds later. "Shut the fuck up, you're in no position to say such shit."

Lyza only nodded, stepping backwards, "Okay I'm sorry. I was just saying-"

"I don't care about what you have to say", Taehyung suddenly yelled out. "Maybe you can answer that question yourself, you're the fucking same."

The girl flinched and then headed towards the exit, not wanting to talk any further. "He won't stay with you if you lock him up. Kook knows better by now."

"He will because he fucking loves me." Taehyung balled his fists, tears coming up. "Love has never been enough for you too. Timing is important too, Tae."

"Oh shut it, Lyza. That's none of your business."

"Does he know?", she smiled, tilting her head, her hair fell above her shoulders and her arms crossed in front of her chest. "Does he know what?", Taehyung snapped.

Lyza kept quiet, smiling amused. "Is that why you lock him up? You're afraid, aren't you?"

Taehyung left without saying any further.

*

The door fell shut and all Jungkook heard was a body falling to the floor, sobbing heavily obviously messed up by what happened earlier. "Babe?", he questioned confused, running over to the front door just to find Taehyung in soaked wet clothes on the floor, crying like a baby.

"Kookie", he let out weakly, reaching for the younger who got down next to him immediately, hugging him so tightly. "I'm here, I'm right here", Jungkook promised, kissing Taehyung's cheeks so sweetly.

"Will you forever?"
"Of course", Jungkook pressed another kiss to his cheek then softly pushed his chin up and made him tilt his head. "I'll never leave you again, I promise you that."

"Why?"

"Because you've been strong for me all our lives, now it's time for me to be strong for both of us", Jungkook hummed and took his hands carefully. "Let's go to the bedroom, shall we?", he suggested softly and helped Taehyung to get up. "You need to get into clothes that aren't soaked wet", he mumbled to clarify what he wanted to do up there. They walked upstairs, holding hands so sweet.

"I love you", Taehyung whispered. "You know that, right?"
"Of course I do", Jungkook ensured and sat the older down on the bed. He started pulling his wet clothes off, eyeing the older while doing so. Taehyung sat there, almost seeming numb as he let the younger undress him. "I'm sorry I locked you here."

"You have your reasons, I'm sure of that", Jungkook smiled as if it wasn't hurting like shit that Taehyung wasn't trusting him at all. "I wouldn't cheat on you, though." He shrugged, "There's no one I want more than you, so why would I?"

"It's not about that, Kookie.."

"Okay", the boy nodded and then grabbed a hoodie and some shorts for Taehyung to put on.
"You don't even ask what else it is then?", the older asked slightly confused.

Kook chuckled lightly, his eyes sparkling so prettily that Taehyung almost got lost in them. Just like he used to some years ago. Jungkook's eyes were like small galaxies trapped in an eyeball, full of life and magic. Taehyung had never seen something as perfect as Jungkook's eyes, they held universes within.
Goddamnit, he loved this boy so much.

"I trust you", Jungkook whispered. "You're protecting me from something, you're not trying to hurt me."

Taehyung nodded, breathing out deeply when he realised that Jungkook still was the same he always was. "You always see the good in everyone", he hummed quietly and Kook nodded, "I like to focus on the beautiful things within a person", Jungkook explained, leaning down to press a kiss onto his boyfriend's lips.

"You're the most beautiful person I ever met", Taehyung mumbled. "From the in- and the outside."

Jungkook giggled softly, sitting down on Taehyung's lap, "I know, I'm pretty cute", he chuckled, hugging the older shyly. The smaller boy pouted his lips again, "You are", Taehyung got lost in his eyes again, leaning forwards to kiss those pouty, plump lips.
Jungkook kissed back immediately, moving on his lap slowly which made Taehyung shut his eyes so he could focus on the kiss.

"Kookie-"

"No stop talking for once", Jungkook begged, "I just want you-"

"There's so much you need to know", Taehyung let out weakly.

"What I need and what I want are two very different things", Jungkook smiled, pushing Taehyung back until he was laying down on the mattress, shirt pulled off again and Jungkook grinning from above. "And right now I want you to give me what I want, not what I need."

"What do you want, Kookie?"

Jungkook didn't reply further, instead he pushed down the boy's shorts.
And Taehyung pushed his thoughts away for the first time in a while, head falling back and lips trembling in excitement when he saw Jungkook going down on him, licking his lips-

Until Taehyung felt the boy's soft lips around his cock, sucking it so carefully as if he was nothing but a pure and innocent little boy.
Oh little did Taehyung know that Jungkook was as good at keeping secrets and faking shit as Taehyung himself was.

Even in bed.

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heheh there are so many dark secrets to be uncovered 💀