this is for everyone who does not only read this fic of me but the others as well;

for now i'll put all my other fics on hold except for this one because i struggle a lot with writers block and i feel like my chapters are complete shit. so expect more updates to this fic but less to the others for like a week i guess ):

im sorry

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Taehyung didn't come back to the hotel last night.

Neither did Jimin.

Taehyung:
hey, u okay?

Jimin:
yea, u?

Taehyung:
yup

Jungkook glanced over at Taehyung's phone with big eyes, not quite getting why their conversations were that short and cold. "Is everything alright?", he asked, fiddling around with the fabric of his shirt, touching it nervously to calm him down. Something about Jimin gave him anxiety but he didn't know what it was or why it was happening.
Taehyung nodded quickly, "Everything is fine", he promised as he pulled Jungkook back in his arms and nuzzled his head into his neck.
"Is it?", the younger asked a little confused.
"Of course it is", Taehyung gave him a smile. "What's our plan for today?"

It was already day four of their two weeks and Taehyung didn't want to miss a single minute of it.

"I don't know", Jungkook shrugged. "Actually I think I'd like to talk? Like, I really want to know what happened in the last five years and especially about the person you apparently have back at home.
Taehyung gulped dryly, "There's no one."

"I don't like liars, Tae", Jungkook bit his lips. "You would have kissed by now if there wasn't someone back home. You never let me wait-"

Taehyung's eyes widened, "You want to do the kissing already?", he asked a little surprised. "I just thought we're taking it slow-"

"We never took anything slow-"

"Maybe we should start doing so"

Jungkook said plainly, "No, but honestly. Tae I know you better than I know myself, and you're hiding something. You're not fully into this and it's totally fine, I just want to know-, I dated other people too along the years. It's okay."

"There's no one, stop asking Jungkook", Taehyung grumbled a little harsh.

The boy shut up instantly, eyes darting to the ground. "O-okay, s-sorry", he let out in a small voice. He brought a little distance between them in the bed and looked up at the ceiling. He wasn't used to being shut up anymore, that's something that only happened in the past.

"It's fine", Taehyung hummed. "Why won't you tell me about your past 5 years. You're apparently the one who had a pretty good life. I didn't."

Jungkook couldn't help but think that Taehyung sounded a bit salty and bitter with that sentence. "I-", the younger stuttered. "I had a long time that sucked ass, I just got back up."

"Good for you", Taehyung sighed. "I cried myself to sleep every goddamn night for 2 years, Jungkook. And that's all on you."

Jungkook looked down, biting his lips. "I'm sorry-"

"No you're not", Taehyung simply said. "You- Nevermind. I don't want to talk about all of this Kook, this is upsetting me and I don't want to be reminded of what happened back then."

"Me neither", Jungkook let out weakly. "But I care about you I want to know what you did the past five years. We've been together all our lives except for those five years-"

"You wanna know what happened?", Taehyung said a bit harshly again. Jungkook nodded shyly.

"So after I ran after you that day and found out you left I was a mess. I cried for a good year, took a year off college and just worked in a small shop for a while. You know, I needed to get some things out of my life for a while to forget about you. It didn't work. So I moved to Busan, with Jimin. I thought since it's your hometown it's most likely you'd show up there one day. Well, you didn't. I spent many many days with your father, we hung out all the time and had an amazing time. My mind kept telling me to just wait until you show up one day, I mean it's your father so I thought maybe someday, if I just stay there all the time I'll get to see you again. You never showed up. I tried everything to find you-, everything. It wasn't enough."

"What happened then?", Jungkook asked quietly.

"I moved on", Taehyung shrugged. "Two years after you left I found myself walking along a bridge and just thinking how it'd be easier to just jump and let go of you. You haunted me Jungkook, your goddamn face was everywhere and I swore myself the second I get to see you again I'm not letting go of you, no matter what . Anyways, when I caught me thinking that I decided that it's enough, you can't haunt me to death, y'know. I just stopped looking for you and yeah. Along the way someone who was always there just became more to me than a friend. We've been with each other for about three years now but I'm gonna end it, Jungkook. I just told you that I promised myself to never let go of you again once I get to see you."

"I always thought you didn't miss me", Jungkook let out with tears coming back up. "I would've come back if I'd known. But when you brushed me off that day I just wanted, no I needed to leave. One more day in this fucked up place and I'd be the one jumping off a bridge. God, if I'd only have known, I wouldn't have left without you-"

"I brushed you off to see you being the one fighting for me once", Taehyung admitted, now tears falling down his cheeks. "I fought for us all our lives, I've always had your back. Just once, only for one fucking time I wanted to see you fight for us. You didn't, so I-, I don't know. Jimin talked sense into me, that's why I ran after you that day."

"Jimin?", Jungkook asked confused. "I thought he hates me."

"He does, kinda."

Jungkook nodded, "Hm"

"So can I know the name of who you're with? I just- I want to know", Jungkook asked again. "You can have all the names of who I dated too- It's whatever to me."

But the older shook his head slowly, "Sorry Kook but that's none of your business."

*

"You still like that, huh?", Yoongi grinned, his hand sliding into the younger's pants to softly palm his crotch through his boxers. Jimin was laying beside him, legs spread a little and his head fallen back into the pillow by now. Yoongi took Jimin to his bedroom about two minutes after Chan brought him in.

"Mhm", Jimin hummed, eyes falling shut when he felt Yoongi's lips on his cheeks, kissing them ever so sweetly. Jimin was sure he never felt butterflies from cheek kisses from anyone but Yoongi.
"You seem quite stressed, baby", Yoongi whispered, wrapping his free arm around the younger to hold him tight while kissing his cheeks over and over again. "Is Taehyung still stressing the shit out of you?"

"He is, now that he got Jungkook back it's like I've never existed", Jimin shrugged. "He literally changed the way he looks at me in less than a second."

"Well, I still look at you the same", Yoongi teased, turning Jimin's head to place a kiss on his plump lips. "You've always been mine anyways-"

"You left me", Jimin shrugged. "It's not like I broke up with you and Hobi."

"I thought you'd be better off with Taehyung but seeing now how poorly he treats you, I'll make sure he never lays hand on you again."

"We're married, Yoongs-"

"So what, divorve is a common thing here in the US." Jimin sighed once Yoongi said that and then shook his head. "I don't want to divorce him? We'll go back home in about a week and a half anyways-"

"So you'll leave me again?", Yoongi pouted, poking Jimin's cheeks while pulling down his boxers sneakily.
"I never left you, Min Yoongi." Jimin's voice was distant, it was harsh and it was somehow turning Yoongi on. "You never did, no. I did", Yoongi agreed, licking his lips as he got on top of Jimin to kiss his lips again and again.
The younger was kissing back everytime, yet he let out sighs immediately after.

"I told him not to cheat on me and now I'm doing the same."

"God, he's been with Jungkook, do you seriously think he's not cheating on you?", Yoongi laughed out loud. "They always ended up fucking or making out-, it's how they work. They're in love", Yoongi chuckled. Jimin felt a small ache to his heart, "He's married to me, he loves me-"

"He's married to you because he couldn't be married to Jungkook."

"Can you stop?", Jimin snapped. "I already feel like the second choice, stop making it worse. I know that I am not Jungkook, okay! I never even tried to be like him for Taehyung. But I think I deserve to be loved by him because I did a whole lot of shit for this guy-, being replaced like this now when that asshole shows up-, I don't know it's . .. I would've never thought our relationship is so w-weak, y'know?"

"Oh baby. What you two have isn't weak. It's actually a good relationship because it's built on trust and affection. But the thing is, everyone has this one person they'll never get over. Like you are for me. We all have this one person we'd go back to in a heartbeat no matter how much shit they pulled on us, no matter what happened. We'd go back in a heartbeat. That's Jungkook for Taehyung."

Jimin nodded, "I know but I have a feeling that they'll screw each other up again."

"Yeah", Yoongi agreed. "They for sure will."

"Both of them have been doing so well the past few years and now they're back in each other's lives and drama starts happening like instantly", Jimin mumbled. "I don't want to see Taehyung getting fucked up again by Jungkook."

Yoongi shrugged, "It's their own problem, darling. No one is responsible for fixing the mess they create."
"I always did fix Taehyung-"

"That was a mistake, Jimin", Yoongi said while stroking his cheek lovingly. "You can't fix someone, neither you should. You can comfort them and tell them what to do, but don't try to take their pain away. It's everyone's own responsibilty to get back up. If you always pull him back up, what will happen if you're not there anymore one day to pull him up? Right, he won't make it on his own."

"Since when are you that wise-"

"I lost the one person who always fixed me and now look at me, hiding in my room trying to shut out reality", Yoongi smiled sadly, tears sparkling in his eyes.
"Hobi?", Jimin asked carefully.

Hoseok.

Always smiling, full of happiness and positivity. Everything Jimin always admired and wanted to be, he was it. He still remembered the day he met him in dance class for the first time, the way he felt the music and his body just moved to it so effortlessly- along with a huge smile on his beautiful lips-, god Jimin fell for his looks the second he caught eye on him.

Yoongi and Jimin loved him to death, they really did. Like, if something would upset them, they'd just talk to him and feel ten times better afterwards.
Hoseok was the most amazing person Jimin ever met.

"Yes", Yoongi smiled.
"What happened between you two?", Jimin asked quietly.

"He left", Yoongi shrugged.

"Why? You two were perfect for each other. I've always felt like the third wheel because you made such a good couple-", Jimin blushed a little but Yoongi only laughed weakly. "He found someone else, Jimin. And he was tired of fixing me-"

"Oh damn", the younger let out, biting his lip anxiously. "I thought-"

"He's with a girl now", Yoongi said with a bitter smile all over his lips. "He met her in fucking church. I didn't even know he went to church."

"He got himself a church girl-", Jimin's eyes went wide. "Yeah, it's so weird", Yoongi grumbled. "But they're really fucking happy together, so I decided to just leave and when I got the offer for Chicago, I went for it. I met Chan and now I'm happy-"

"Are you with Chan now?!", Jimin asked, kinda shocked.
"Gosh, no! He's my homie. And like the straightest boy I ever met", Yoongi let out a sigh.

"Nah, you never met highschool Jungkook and Taehyung-" Jimin joked. "They were the definition of straight-"

"How did they even know how straight guys behave-"

"Well they googled it once-, and they took the definition from urban dictionary-"

"Oh dear lord", Yoongi sighed.

"They found all the definitions too hard to understand so they went with the one that said 'not gay' and nothing else-", Jimin laughed. "Damn", Yoongi chuckled lightly. "They're- special."

Jimin nodded amused, "There's nothing funnier than Jungkook trying to brag about girl's tits with dudes from the basketball team or Taehyung trying to explain how he licks pussies. I swear-"

"They probably don't even know how those things feel-"

"Yeah, Jungkook once said with eyes all sparkly that boobs basically feel like balls, just not that good-"

"No he didn't, please tell me you're joking-"

"He said that with full confidence in front of his basketball team in highschool. Until they laughed and he realised what had just left his mouth-", Jimin grinned. "Told ya, they're like the funniest thing ever-."

"Now I feel like feeling your balls-", Yoongi's cheeks flushed red as his eyes glanced down to Jimin who wasn't even dressed anymore, his dick softly dangling down there which made Yoongi feel things in his tummy. "Suit yourself", Jimin hummed, spreading his legs a little more, wrapping one of them around Yoongi's waist so he had full sight on what Jimin had.
"Goddamnit Taehyung how dare you let go of this-", Yoongi sighed as his hands got hold of Jimin's balls, squeezing them lightly which turned the boy quite fast into a mess.

And Chan wasn't going to sleep this night.
Because Jimin was loud. Like for real, he never held back-

*

Lili and Taejeon sat in front of Taehyung and Jungkook and stared at them with their eyebrows lifted and faces in judging expressions. "What the fuck", Lili said and Taejeon rolled his eyes. "Disgusting", he commented.
"We should go" , the girl said and Taejeon nodded, "They probably won't even notice. I remember once Jimin was supposed to babysit me when I was five. He took me to a party. Both my Dads literally saw me at some point there, yet they didn't care to bring me home. It's changed my life", Taejeon said all dramatically. "I saw this blonde freckles boy kissing with another guy-, dude. Hot. I swear."

"Ew", Lili scrunched her nose. "Kissing is only for old people."

Taejeon chuckled lightly, "But we kiss too-"
"Just for practice!" , Lili yelled out, hiding her face because she feared that someone heard that. "And only when the door is locked-"

"Wait-", Jungkook pulled back from the stare he shared with Taehyung for a good ten minutes. "My son kissed a girl." His eyes widened and he turned his head towards Taejeon. "Was it your first kiss?"

"Nah I kissed your mom." Taejeon blurted out a really dumb joke which made Jungkook silence immediately.

"Taejeon", Taehyung said warningly. "Apologize. Now."

"Sorry I meant I kissed your boyfriend", Taejeon said cockily.

"I don't have one-", Jungkook let out, trying to get rid of the thought of his dead mother.

"You literally stared into Dad's eyes for like ten minutes with the fattest smile ever on your face", Taejeon stated. "Plus your ice cream melted thanks to that."
Jungkook rolled his eyes. "Who raised you to be this bratty?!"

All eyes were on Jungkook.

No one said anything.

"What!", Jungkook whined. "Lyza and Tae raised him too-"
A bitter taste on his tongue to speak their names in one sentence made him shake his head to get his thoughts back to the topic. "I-"

Still, no one said something, just stared at the boy who just realised that he was the cockiest person alive so it was probably his fault that his son was like this. Taejeon smiled proudly. "Anyways, Lili and I'll be leaving now."

"To go kissing?", Jungkook stuck his tongue out, amused by his son kissing a girl.

"No. To fuck."
Taejeon took Lili's hand and got up. "We're just friends by the way. I'm totally gay."

"Mhm", Jungkook only nodded and Taehyung was laughing softly when he saw Lili and Taejeon waddling out of Minho's coffee shop in which they were sitting in. "He's so not gay. Look how he walks."
"Yeah. And the clothes he wears? Dude, he's so not our kind of guy", Jungkook rolled his eyes and intertwined his hands with Taehyung.

"Guess what", he smirked.

"You're gay", Taehyung chuckled. "Exactly", Jungkook let out with a sigh, "Goddamnit I'm really fucking gay!"

"We know", a customer from the shop said, glancing at Jungkook. "You don't have to tell us again-"

Minho laughed while leaning on the counter. "We never assumed you're straight, so-"

"Good because I'm not."

Taehyung glanced between all of them and Jungkook, admiring how Jungkook felt free enough to say anything in here. They all seemed to know him, he was quite comfortable and happy while just speaking himself. God, he was glowing so much by now. Everything pretty and good in him just got like ten times brighter and Taehyung loved seeing that.

"Is that Taehyung?", a girl from some tables away asked, leaning towards them. She was out with her boyfriend, holding hands but her curiosity made her pay attention to Jungkook and the guy he was out with.
"How do they know me-", Taehyung blushed, looking away.

Jungkook smiled brightly. "Yes, that's my man", he winked at them.

"Thought so. You never brought any of your fuckbuddies here-", the girl giggled.
Jungkook shrugged, "Because y'all are embarrassing me every goddamn time-"

"That's what friends are there for", she laughed. "Shut up, Sana", Jungkook grinned.

Taehyung was still blushing and hiding his face in Jungkook's shoulders. "What did you tell them about me?"
"Just that you're the love of my life", Kook let out shyly.

"Am I?", Taehyung's eyes went big.

"Dude, isn't it obvious", Minho whined, facepalming himself. "It's been five years and he's still head over heels for you, just like you are for him-"

"Yeah, you should kiss me", Jungkook whispered. "I really really want to", Taehyung said in a small voice. "Like really fucking much-"

"Do it, coward-"

"I'm not going to bring you into a mess again, Jungkook. This will hurt when I leave and go back to Korea-, I can't hurt you again. I just can't", he hummed. "Let's go to work."

Jungkook nodded slightly. "Fine", he sighed and glanced at Taehyung's finger where he could clearly see a difference in his skin color from where he was probably wearing a ring all summer. But he didn't say a word, he just got up and gave Minho a big paycheck, a kiss to his cheek and then told Sana's boyfriend that she was in reality an alien.
With that he rushed out giggling, pulling Taehyung with him.

Tae sighed, following him. He really wanted to kiss him right now, he really wanted to.

But Jungkook's happiness was too beautiful to see to screw it up and Taehyung was really aware of the fact that he would fuck him up all over again because this wouldn't work out for sure. "Let's-", Jungkook wanted to get coffee at Starbucks but when he wanted to go in there he stopped and gulped.

So did Taehyung. Along with his smile, because that one was gone.

"I didn't know Yoongi lives here too", Jungkook said with big eyes. "How did-"

"Wow", Taehyung only said while he looked through the window and saw Yoongi's hand lazily placed on Jimin's ass, squeezing it once in a while. Jimin was busy giggling over every word Yoongi said and had his arms wrapped around his neck, sitting on his lap while sipping on a milkshake.
That hurt, somehow.
"I thought they broke up?", Jungkook asked quite confused.

"They are broken up", Taehyung said between gritted teeth. "And Jimin is taken for god's sake."

"Oh really? Some dumbass really wanted him??" , Jungkook chuckled.
"Jimin is amazing, don't act as if he's not worth loving", Taehyung said a bit harshly. God, he snapped a bit too much today.

"Well he clearly still loves Yoongi-", Jungkook grinned, opening up the door to walk in and cheer through the whole shop. "Oh damn, hello!", he hopped on a chair next to them and stared at them curiously.
Jimin literally immediately jumped off Yoongi's lap, turning around and froze when he saw Taehyung's glare. "Not sure what you've been doing with your Ex but I'm literally just hanging out with mine, no kissing involved", Taehyung said bitterly.

Yoongi's eyes were all big but he kept his mouth shut.
"Mhm", Jimin didn't respond any further.

"I think you've done enough with Yoongi for today. Let's go.", Taehyung said coldly.

"But-", Jungkook said in a small voice. "I thought we'll go to work and then hang out."

"Yeah, I thought so too"; Jimin hissed at Taehyung. "Why don't you just get back to spend time with Jungkook instead of annoying me?"
Taehyung blinked in confusion. "Excuse me?"

"Yeah, just go."

Taehyung's eyes went all big. "Hey Kook?", he turned around. "I think I'll use Jimin as a rolemodel from now on. Let's go to our office and make out all day, yeah?"

Jungkook blushed. "O-okay-"

Jimin didn't say anything further, he just turned towards Yoongi and ignored Taehyung.

"I'm not in the mood for coffee", Tae said bluntly, grabbed Jungkook's hand and pulled him outside so they'd continue their way.

And so they did.

The next few hours were quite silent. Jungkook was hiding behind his laptop screen, typing some contracts in and thinking deeply. Meanwhile Taehyung was busy typing on his phone angrily, not stopping for the whole time.

Taehyung:
okay what the fuck?

Jimin:
come on as if you'd care

Taehyung:
we're married??!?!??

Jimin:
you were the one saying you're not promising me anything cuz you dont wanna deny jungkook

Taehyung:
i didnt kiss him once!!

Jimin:
yet

Taehyung:
are you breaking up with me like that? like idk but i thought we're better than that

Jimin:
idk lets just not talk about it for now? we'll go back to korea and then see what happens

Taehyung:
.. i don't like this jimin. Yoongi left you for no reason at all. You really needed him at that time. He should've been there..

Jimin:

. i don't like this taehyung. Jungkook left you for a girl he never even loved. You really needed him at that time. He should've chosen you..

Taehyung:
): okay i'm sorry

Jimin:
Yeah I'm sorry too

*

"It's Jimin, isn't it?", Jungkook suddenly blurted out and stopped the silence quite fast.

Taehyung stayed quiet, staring at Jungkook in shock. "What?"

"It's Jimin. You two are a couple. Engaged or married even", Jungkook said calmly. "I'd say married."
"How the fuck--", Taehyung asked in a small voice.

"Your eyes", Jungkook said slowly. "When you saw them together they gave away the whole truth. Eyes never lie. You probably love me more than you love him, but you're hurt by him", Jungkook shrugged. "It's okay though. We can arrange a divorce."

"Wow", Taehyung grumbled. "Why the fuck are you so calm about that-"

"Honey, I work at a company that divorces couples. Trust me, I've seen so much, I'm not even surprised that you're with your best friend. You always had a thing for falling for the ones closest to you."
Taehyung felt tears coming up. "You don't really care", he let out.

"What?", Jungkook asked quietly.

"You're not even .. hurt that I'm with Jimin", Taehyung said, "I- ugh."

"No I'm not hurt by that", Jungkook shrugged. "I don't really like that you kept this a secret from me but it's okay. I get why you did it."
"I thought you'd hate me."

"I could never", Jungkook chuckled softly. "I'm glad it's him. I bet he took good care of you while I couldn't." Taehyung nodded, "He did, he was amazing."

"But now I'm back", Jungkook added, voice getting a bit more demanding. "Means, you're mine first, not anyone else's."

Taehyung nodded, "Yes, Kookie. Yes, yes, yes."
"Sounds like I just proposed to you", Kook laughed it off but Taehyung's cheeks flushed red. "Maybe you will someday-"

"No, thank you. I'm not the one doing the proposal that's your job."
"You're quite stereotypical, huh."

"Nah", Kook grinned. "I have socks on in bed which is a really straight thing but I'm most likely the gayest person ever."

Taehyung shook his head and then got up from his chair, threw the phone away and walked over to Jungkook's desk. "I think it's time."
"For what?", Jungkook tilted his head while Taehyung placed his hands on his cheeks.

"I didn't want to kiss you because I didn't want to hurt you when you find out about Jimin", Taehyung admitted. "But you know what? I'll break up with him. It's for the best, for all of us."
Jungkook nodded, "I can divorce you two!", he clapped his hands cheerfully.

"Doubt it's legitimate if you divorce me from my husband, then marry me a few years later, honey."

"Ahhh I don't care, just kiss me, goddamnit."

And so Taehyung did. 

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i love how everyone assumed this is gonna be a vminkook drama or that hoseok was the one who died but yall have no idea what is actually going to happen