thx to everyone who is constantly supporting this book n trusts me on my plots <3

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"I can't do this shit all over again", Lyza said, sitting down on Jungkook's bed. She gave him an awkward smile before she ruffled his hair, "Jungkook, we broke up. 5 years ago."
The boy furrowed his brows, "Why are you here then? What happened with Taejeon? I don't understand-"

"You're with Taehyung now", Lyza explained slowly, eyeing Taehyung who stood in the corner of the room, looking absolutely helpless. "And Taejeon is living with you. I'm here because you got caught up in a real bad accident four weeks ago and I had to take care of our son."
"I'm with Taehyung? How did this happen-", Jungkook asked in confusion, eyes glueing to his best friend. "I think you've always been in love with him, but both of you had been in denial for years-"

"Oh god", Jungkook gulped. "I'm in love with Taehyung???"
Taehyung stepped forward and nodded awkwardly, "You don't have to be, Kookie. It's fine, we can be best friends if that's all you're feeling for me."

Their eyes met for a while. Jungkook hesitated to answer, no clue what to say. "I'm sorry I just don't remember-"
"What mistake were you talking about earlier?", Lyza then asked softly. "What's that thing you remember?"

"I was about to go to a party with Taehyung to hook up with a random girl because I was so pissed off. But I have literally no idea if that ever happened? Please tell me I didn't cheat on you-"

Lyza and Taehyung went silent for a bit until Taejeon started to laugh. "Dad you cheated on Mom for a long, long time-"
"Don't tell me it was with Tae-", Jungkook said, eyes widening in shock. The others were silent again, "Okay fuck", he let out and chuckled. "Oh come onnnn- did we have sex?!?!?!", Jungkook turned to Taehyung, now sitting up in bed and looking at him curiously.

"Uhm-, how do I say this", Taehyung said slowly, scratching his neck while looking everywhere except for Jungkook's eyes. "Sex has basically been the only thing which had always going great for us-"

"EW", Jungkook covered his face in embarrassment, skin turning red with the thoughts Taehyung just put into his head, "God, why can't I remember-"

Lyza could only laugh, "Maybe you will with time, Kookie."
Namjoon nodded now and patted his shoulders, "You guys should go and wait outside. I need to do some check-ups on him and if everything is fine he can leave tonight. We still need to see him everyday to do check-ups but so far his body is fine, it's just the memories he's lacking."

Taehyung nodded. "Alright, do your check-ups." He leaned forwards and pressed a small kiss to Jungkook's forehead, "I'm so glad you're back, Kookie." "Aren't you mad at me?", Jungkook tilted his head in confusion, not sure why no one got mad at him for forgetting five years of his life.
"I don't think I'll ever be able to be mad at you again after almost losing you, Kook. And you don't need to be my boyfriend, to be honest it never works out for us anyways. Maybe we're better off as friends-"
Jungkook nodded, "Let's talk at home", he said and reached for Taehyung's cheek to give him a kiss there too, "Thank you for being understanding.. I'm so sorry I forgot everything, we probably had so many good memories in those five years."

But Taehyung shook his head, "There's not a single one I'd want you to remember. Life has been hard on us."
"When had it not?", Jungkook giggled softly, making Taehyung's heart flutter with the pure sound of this. He missed it so, so incredibly much. "See you in a minute", Taehyung hummed and then walked out so Namjoon and Jihyo could do their check-ups on his body.

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"So, we had sex", Jungkook said slowly, sitting cross-legged in front of Taehyung on his bed. "Am I good in bed?"

Taehyung laughed out amused, "That's the first thing you want to ask me about our past?" And Jungkook nodded, "I think it's pretty important that I slept with my best friend!"
"It is, it is", Taehyung grinned, leaning back until he fell into the pillows. "You're good in bed, maybe even the best."
Jungkook gasped, eyes going big. "I topped, right?"
"Oh Baby, no Baby you got the dick up your ass", Taehyung giggled. His best friend only grabbed a pillow, pressing it to his face to hide his blushing cheeks. God, how embarrassing that must be to get a dick up his ass. "Does it hurt???"

"You tell me, I never got fucked-"
"Never?!?? We're not even switching?"
"N-no you prefer being treated like a princess in bed, you hate doing the work", Taehyung hummed amused, thinking of all the times Jungkook laid back in bed when they were younger, spreading his legs and simply waiting for Taehyung to get the hint. Jungkook really was like a princess, always wishing to get taken care of, to be cuddled all day and to be showered with kisses, love and affection 24/7. Taehyung really missed doing all those things with him, they hadn't done any of that since they broke apart when they were twenty. After getting back together here in America, things have never been the same between them.

"Okay, let's not talk about me being like a girl in bed", Jungkook sighed, "Tell me about our story-, I want to know it all."

"Are you sure? I could leave out the bad parts", Taehyung sighed but Jungkook shook his head quickly, "I wanna know it all-"
Taehyung inhaled deeply, "Where do I start.."

Jungkook suddenly moved closer, lifting up the blanket and snuggled onto Taehyung's body while he got himself comfortable in bed. "Sorry, just felt like it-.. Is it weird??", he asked quietly. The older only smiled, "It's not weird, Kookie. Do whatever you feel like to do-"

Jungkook blushed a bit, staring at the ceiling then. "Okay, start."

"Well, let's say that night you forgot what happened after we went to that party, that's where shit went down for us. We slept with each other after we got into a stupid fight because you told a girl how amazing I am and she assumed you like me more than you should. So you threw a cocktail at her and ruined all my chances with her. That's how everything started. From there things just had its up and downs, we tried staying away from each other but it didn't really work out. Once I kissed you and like--, did things with you, I just felt so different for you. We wanted to be more than just friends but you weren't ready to leave Lyza and I wasn't ready to come out, so we just kept fooling around and it was okay. Until Lyza found out and things got pretty painful-. You didn't know what you wanted and neither of us knew how to handle the situation so we just played along and all of us got hurt way too much. Looking back at it now, none of this had been necessary. You always felt the need to stay with Lyza--"

"Because I gave my Mom a promise", Jungkook cut him off, "I remember that I always felt the need to live up to the promise I gave her. So why did I broke up with Lyza?"

Taehyung smiled, "You didn't. You asked her to marry you. You and me walked away from each other then, you tried keeping your family together and I just tried to keep going. In the end she stopped the wedding and told you to go after me. You did but I was so insecure about the whole thing between us, I was scared you'd leave me again, y'know. I told you if you say yes to her, it's over for us. And you did but then you came running and I just didn't know how to handle it so you left. And when I changed my mind and tried to catch you and tell you we can make it you were gone. You left for Chicago with Taejeon and that's the last time I saw you."

"That sounds so fucked up", Jungkook hummed. "What on earth did happen to me that I'd run off to another continent with my son?"

"Kookie", Taehyung started slowly. "It's been the best thing that you've ever done for yourself.."

Jungkook shook his head, "Tae, tell me the bad things." He pulled up his sleeves and showed him the scars, "I don't know where they come from but I'm sure as hell having scars like this and running off to another continent does not sound like something I would do if I was in any way okay."
"You weren't okay and that's the point", Taehyung mumbled, brushing through his hair while thinking back to those times.

"What broke me?"
"Me", Taehyung shrugged, "I think all you needed at that time was being with me. But you couldn't and you felt too much pressure from everywhere, it just drove all of us crazy from time to time."

"What happened then? How comes you're here?", Jungkook then asked, ready to listen to more.

"Well, I got this job offer this autumn. So of course I got here and it turned out to be a job at the place you work at. You're really close to your boss, he knew about me and arranged it I think", Taehyung grinned, "Sadly things didn't go the way we thought. I feel like the past was still hanging between us and I was constantly scared of losing you again which made me do crazy things like locking you or get extremely jealous of everything. I treated you really bad because I couldn't stand that you moved on without me and you seemed better than ever before. You're in a place now where you can be yourself and I think I wasn't ready to accept the fact that there's other things now that can make you feel okay. This whole shit between us became really toxic and you wanted to break up with me the day the accident happened, well and that's how you ended up being in coma for four weeks."

Jungkook sighed. "I wish I could remember all of this.."
"I wish I couldn't", Taehyung smiled sadly.

"You seemed close to Lyza and she seemed so fine. Is she happy? Since when do you even like her?", Jungkook lifted his eyebrow, "You hated her as far as I can remember."

"Oh yeah I did, but I don't anymore. Lyza is fucking amazing and I have no idea why I ever hated her. She's caring, beautiful inside out and-"
"Taehyung", Jungkook snapped, "Ew. Stop."
The older cringed a little at himself and nodded, "Sorry-."

"Did something happen between you two..", Jungkook asked, his eyes hinting a bit of mistrust. For a second, Taehyung didn't know if he should tell the whole truth or the light version of it, but he decided against it. Starting all of this with lies wouldn't bring any of them happiness.

"Back when we were in Korea, back in college-, once when you got both of us really sad things happened between us", Taehyung said slowly, "It didn't mean a thing, that's why I'm telling you this."
Jungkook nodded, "Bitch move", he commented and pinched Taehyung's cheek, "I feel sorry for myself, I was probably so upset about Lyza-"

"No, you were upset about me", Taehyung grinned, "Oh Kookie, you can't even imagine how much you loved me. And how much I love you", he sighed softly.
There he was again, blushing and covering his face in Taehyung's chest, "Can you stop being so gay-"

"I am gay", Taehyung pressed a small kiss to Jungkook's ear, "And so were you-"

Kook bit his lips, "Who were the people in the hospital room besides from you, Lyz and Taejeon?"

"Skylar, Sam and Lili", Taehyung explained shortly. "Lili is basically Taejeon's girlfriend but they call each other best friend. Sam is Skylar's adopted son and Skylar is the mother of Lili and I feel like things are about to be going on between her and Lyza because goddamnit they've been flirty the past few weeks-"

"My girlfriend is turning gay?!?!?!", Jungkook blurted out. "No way--"

"Your Ex-girlfriend", Taehyung corrected, "And nothing happened yet but I feel like there might be something-"

"Did something happen between you and her again?", Jungkook asked slowly. Taehyung shook his head, "I wouldn't do that to you", he replied immediately.

"But would you like to?", Jungkook questioned, "Do you like her? Because honestly, I'd be fine with it I think. I want you to be happy-"

"I don't like her like that, Kook", Taehyung said sadly, disappointment swinging along his voice, "Stop thinking I would ever want to be with her. She is amazing, yes, and if she would not be your Ex, maybe I would consider going out with her, yes. But you're so much better, I'd always fall for you instead of her. Alright?"

"But I can't promise my feelings will be the same", Jungkook said, voice a little cracky. "I have no idea if I'm still in love with you Tae because as far as I remember I had this crush on you when we were children but I stopped with all of this when Mom died-"

"You don't have to promise me anything", Taehyung said, "I don't need to be your boyfriend. I don't want to put any pressure onto you, I just want you to be alive and breathing and most importantly, I want all of us to be happy. No matter with who you are, I don't care I'd even go out with you to find you another girl or boy, I don't mind I just want to be in your life and see you smiling everyday because for fuck's sake I missed you so much."

Jungkook's cheeks flushed red again, "You really do love me-"
"Of course I do, idiot", Taehyung joked and hugged Jungkook even tighter. "Why does Sam look like Taejeon in a way?", Jungkook suddenly asked. "Their eyes are the same and the way the stare-"

"OH WELL", Taehyung hid his face, "Let's not talk about this right now-"
But Jungkook hopped on top of Taehyung and crossed his arms, "Oh trust me, we will talk about this right now. That's the first thing I noticed when I saw him and you my friend, you are still hiding something from me."

"Lyza might have get pregnant from me and got a child but after giving it up for adoption I never heard of it until I found out about Sam-", Taehyung said, covering his face. He was kinda scared of Kook's reaction. But honestly, he shouldn't had to be because Jungkook started laughing. "Oh my god", he laughed and let himself fall down on the mattress, covering his mouth while laughing and laughing.

"Jungkook it's not that funny---"

"What a mess is this", Jungkook giggled, turning to Taehyung, "How the fuck can we get so much shit at once-"
Taehyung couldn't help but smile a little. Seeing Jungkook not hurt at all by hearing all of this, it just felt like a relief. As if he could finally let go of the pain as well, because if Jungkook could, why wouldn't he? And he wasn't getting mad, he wasn't upset, he was such a strong boy that he could deal with all of this and still smile about it.

"Y'know", Taehyung started, "If our story was a book, everyone would hate it."
He thought of all the ups and downs, the constant push and pull in between them. All the bad things that kept happening but all the small moments of happiness-, mostly related to Taejeon, which made it worth it to keep going through all of this.
"So basically we both have a child from the same girl but this girl doesn't even like us, so we just like each other?", Jungkook thought about that and found it pretty easy to work out.

Taehyung smirked, "Theoretically yes-"
"But practically?", Jungkook tilted his head.

"Practically you dumbass woke up without being in love with me anymore", Taehyung sighed and softly smacked his shoulder.

"Well, shit happens", Jungkook stuck his tongue out. "Are you gonna stay with me though? Like-, we could be roommates and raise Taejeon like we did when we were young. Imagine all the cool shit we could do, like having movie nights and throw house parties--"

"Whatever you want, Kook." Taehyung brushed above his cheeks, "I'm in as long as you won't send me away from you."

"I would never do that", Jungkook chuckled. "So what do we do first?"
"I feel like I should show you the world you're living in now. Because, Baby, you've grown yourself such a good environment. You got rid of all toxicness and I'm so proud of you-", Taehyung whispered and then sat up, looking at Jungkook expectingly.

"One question", Jungkook said a little flustered, now getting up as well. "I'm not gay or like--, your boyfriend but I'd love it if you continue calling me like you just did", he admitted quietly, face going red like a tomato all over again. "Baby?", Taehyung asked amused and Jungkook nodded shyly. "It just sounds nice-"

"And you seriously thought you're the top out of us two", Taehyung joked, grabbed the boy's hand and pulled him out of the room.
Taejeon was sitting at the table with his mother, playing a card game. "So, I still need to know why my son is in a wheelchair", Jungkook announced and sat down at the table as well, pulling Taehyung right besides him.

"I was in the car as well when the accident happened", Taejeon replied, "I can't feel them since then but the doctors say they're fine and it's mentally caused."
Jungkook looked a bit worried, "Did they take care of you properly? Like going to the doctor regularly? Did they buy you your favorite cereal and stuff?", he ruffled the boy's hair and smiled softly.

"No, I missed you", Taejeon pouted and turned around, hugging his Dad tightly. "You're the best Dad ever", he whispered and felt like crying just because he still couldn't believe Jungkook was back in his life. "I missed you too", Jungkook smiled softly. "You were the only one I could always hear talking when you were at the hospital. No idea why", he said and wiped Taejeon's small tears away.

"It's because I'm your favorite", Taejeon explained firmly, "Oh hell yeah, you are", Jungkook smiled and held his hand out. "Wanna join us? Taehyung wants to show me around-"

"Are you back together?", Lyza asked curiously.

"N-no", Taehyung said, "I think for now we're better off as friends", he added and gave her a small smile. She agreed, "Did you tell him everything?", she then questioned. Jungkook answered instead of Taehyung, "Oh yeah I know about the Baby thing and the sex between you two", he chuckled. "Not exactly liking it but oh well. Can I meet the kid? And is it true that you're becoming gay????????"

"TAEHYUNG", Lyza yelled at the boy, "What the hell did you tell him", she whined, smacking his shoulders.
"Just that you keep being all blushy blushy around Skylar and keep going on trips with her and Sam-", Taehyung teased her and the girl gave him an eyeroll and grabbed her purse. "So where are we going?", she then asked.

"Do you want her to come?", Taehyung asked Jungkook a bit unsure, not knowing if he was fine with all of them being together. Jungkook shrugged, "Sure, why not. She seems way more fun than I remember her-"

Lyza gave him a bittersweet smile, "Same goes for you actually."
"Thanks, Sweetheart", Jungkook winked and Lyza could swear she could see the Jungkook she once fell in love with in him that very moment.
Well, bad idea. She brushed the thought off and took the car keys, Taejeon and then headed towards the door. "Where are we going first?"

"I think I want to show him his workplace, maybe Minho's coffee shop and then just take him out for dinner", Taehyung explained his plans so far.
Jungkook raised his hand, "Can we make it a date-"

"The dinner?"
"Y-yeah. Lyza can just take Taejeon home and we go out-- Did we ever do that??"

"No we never got that far", Taehyung hummed. "You really want to date me?"
"I don't see any reason why not", Jungkook said, "You're handsome and I don't see anything in our way so why not try. Plus I feel like it's unfair that only you know how it is to sleep with me but I don't know how it feels to have your dick up my ass-"

"Dad", Taejeon scrunched his nose, "Gross."

"You want to have sex with me-", Taehyung blurted out. "Oh nononono not yet, right now I just want to go out with you and talk and have a goodnight", Jungkook said shyly.

"You have no idea how much I want that too", Taehyung whispered, tears coming up out of pure happiness. "Oh god", he said and wiped them away once they fell down his lashes. "Are you seriously crying now", Jungkook chuckled, intertwining their hands.

"I'm just happy, that's all", Taehyung sobbed, still wiping the tears away.
"That I want to go on a date with you? Goddamnit when did you became so cringey--"

"I've been waiting all my life to take you out for dinner without any of us being upset about something", Taehyung admitted shyly, "Let me have my moment okay-"

"Gay", Taejeon commented and looked up to his Mom.
"Yeah, can't relate", Lyza said quickly.
"Mhm", Taejeon said, eyebrows lifted. "How do you explain the 'oh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh just like that sky ohhhhh damn' last night???"

His mother blushed and held her breath, "Ssh."
Jungkook and Taehyung looked at her, eyes wide. "She never said something like that when I fucked her", Jungkook complained and Taehyung agreed, "Yeah same."

"We probably suck so bad in bed", Jungkook sighed and leaned against Taehyung's shoulders and the older agreed. Lyza only shook her head at them, "Can y'all stop. I hate you guys, oh god I hate boys so much", she whined and then got over to the car, embarrassed as hell. How did Taejeon even hear that, they were in the guest room after all. Not even on the couch-

"Am I the only straight person in this family", Taejeon suddenly asked. "God I miss Lili."

"Seems like it", Jungkook shrugged, "I mean, I have no idea when I turned so fucking gay that I let my best friend fuck my ass but oh well-"

"Dad I'm eleven, watch your language", Taejeon let out a sigh. "Can't believe I still have to raise three adults and teach them manners."
"You'll make such a great Dad one day", Lyza said proudly but Taejeon only looked at her weirdly, "Do you seriously think I want to have children after seeing what a mess I made out of all of you--"

"You made a good mess tho", Taehyung said, "There's nothing that brings as much happiness as you do."
"Ew", Taejeon scrunched his nose, "Don't underestimate the power of milk honey cereals. They're the key to happiness."

"Okay sorry Mister", Taehyung laughed, "Sorry for giving you a compliment!" He pulled his hands up and Taejeon rolled his eyes. God, puberty was really starting to get to him.

"Fuck I love this", Jungkook suddenly let out. "What?", Lyza and Tae asked at the same time.
"I don't know", the boy replied shortly, "I just feel good."

"You do???", Taehyung asked, eyes full of hope. If Jungkook was feeling good, then that's all that mattered for now.
"I do, Tae", Jungkook smiled wholeheartedly.

"You can't imagine how much I needed to hear that", the older let out in a small voice, hugging him from the side. "You deserve it", Lyza agreed and ruffled his hair.

"One more thing", Jungkook suddenly said.
"Hm?", all eyes rested on him.

"Is it weird that I wanna kiss Taehyung since the minute I saw him smiling like he used to-"
Lyza blurted out in laughter, "No, you always wanna kiss Taehyung we're used to that by now."

"It's new to me tho", Jungkook pouted, facing Taehyung. "Can you kiss me??"
"I thought you're sooo not in love with me", Taehyung teased, placing his hands on his cheeks to pull him a little closer.

"I'm not", Jungkook said with the typical cocky attitude he always had, winked and then pouted his lips, waiting for his kiss.
Taehyung leaned down, stopping right in front of his lips, adding one word to Jungkook's sentence,

"Yet."

Then their lips melted into a slow burning kiss that felt like spring had already arrived even though snowflakes were still falling from the sky, drowning its surrounding in a beautiful snowy mess.

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