Lisa's POV

After the wonderful dinner with Chaeng, she drove me home.

Home? I was standing in front of the mansion looking at the big house. Is this really our home? We will just live here for the meantime.

Chaeyoung went out of her car and toured her eyes in front of the mansion "Whoaa daebak... you're living here Lisa?" She gaped at the big house.

I nodded "Yes, just for the meantime."

"Jennie's future dad is really rich," Chaeyoung confirmed nodding her head.

"Yes that's why Mr. Hwang is always busy but he manages his time well," I said as I put my hands in the pockets of my jacket. "Thank you for the treat Chaeng. I still can't believe your here and I missed you."

Chaeyoung smiled sweetly at me as she stepped closer to me "I'm here now and I will not leave you again. I promise, I'm always here for you. I missed you too Lisa."

"Geez, we're like a couple," I playfully said. "Why are we so sweet to each other? Eww." I joked.

She hummed "Hmm..." She rubbed her chin as she pondered "You started it."

"I remember, we were always fighting back then. But you know that I love you right?" I grinned reminiscing our happy moments together. It kept flashing in my mind.

Chaeyoung wrapped her arms around me "Of course, and I love you too," she wholeheartedly said.

Surprisingly, she pecked my cheek and I frowned. Why would she do that? We're not young anymore. It was awkward. Nah. Not really.

Chaeyoung leaned forward to me as she whispered to my ears "Jennie is watching," she informed. 

I stiffened "Really?" I glanced at the gate then I saw her in the garden.

"Yes so we need to act like a couple," she giggled then pulled back to face me. "So... see you tomorrow love?" She waggled her eyebrows and I smiled, she was really funny.

"Okay babe, drive safely." I waved goodbye.

Chaeyoung did the same as she climbed in her car. I waited her till her car disappeared from my sight then I entered the gate. The bodyguards approached me and bowed to me so I did the same because I wasn't used to it.

I walked in the garden then I saw Jennie glaring at me.

I sighed as I walked to the main door but she blocked my way, she crossed her arms while glaring at me "Where did you go?" She asked demanding for an answer.

I raised my eyebrows in surprise but managed to reply "We had a dinner together."

"So you're already dating that cheerleader huh?" She asked annoyed.

"Why do you care?" I asked back.

"I thought you like me!" She suddenly yelled at me.

My forehead furrowed in confusion "That was before," I lied.

"That cheerleader doesn't love you!" She assumed as she ran her fingers through her hair.

I frowned "Chaeyoung loves me!" I firmly said.

"No she doesn't! I can see it. She doesn't love you, you're just like a toy to her. After she's done with you, she will leave you." Jennie spoke harshly and it still hurts me. Her words were poisonous, it was killing my heart gradually.

"You're too much Kim Jennie! Why are you doing this to me?!" I said hurt.

She gave a bitter laugh "Because you're just a dyke Lisa, no one will love you."

That was it, I lost control and I slapped her "Yes, I'm into girls. I'm a dyke but how dare you say that no one will love me because I'm like this?" My voice quivered as my hands formed into fists. "Maybe you don't accept who I am but not all people are like you. Taeyeon eonni and Chaeng are my family, they love me for who I am. They accepted me and they're not like you."

"I hate you Lisa! I hate you!" She punched my chest few times.

I held her wrists "You hate me? I don't care, this is me. Well... I don't have feelings for you anymore," I lied again. "No love, no hate because I don't want to hold anything against you."

Jennie's lips were trembling and I could see that she was about to cry "I hate you so much!" She grumbled as she snatched her hands from me then hastily walked inside the house.

"That girl is unbelievable! Her hobby is to hurt me," I told myself then groaned loudly. "She's getting on my nerves," I muttered. I punched the air to release my anger. "She needs to stop this. I will not allow her to hurt me again."

So I followed Jennie, I went straight to her room. I knocked on her door but decided to open it without her permission. She was being rude to me, I would do the same. Just like a stimulus response.

But I didn't expect what I saw, I covered my mouth with my hand as I stared at Jennie. I was confounded "Jennie... what are you doing?"

"Leave me alone! Fuck off Lisa!"

I saw blood on her wrist and she was holding a concealable knife, she cut herself and her eyes were bloodshot. She was about to cut herself again but I quickly ran to her and got the knife then threw it away.

"What are you doing to yourself Jennie!?" I panicked as I examined her cuts.

She was fighting back but I was stronger than her "Leave me alone Lisa!" Her eyes flooded with tears. She was uncontrollable and hysterical "I want to end this! I want to die!" She yelled.

I hugged her tightly but she was pushing me "Jennie, stop it... Please... calm down..." My voice was shaking, I couldn't handle seeing her like this. I became anxious and apprehensive about her.

"I just want to end this Lisa..." She sobbed as she held my arm. "Just let me die!"

I felt bad for her, I didn't expect this. She wanted to end her life. If I didn't come here maybe she already died. She was serious about it, I could tell how desperate she was.

"What's the problem Jennie? Why are you doing this to yourself?" I asked confused.

"Because I'm worthless Lisa, I can't even help my mom! She's in coma! I'm worthless and I can't do anything about it! She could die anytime. This is my fault! I deserve to die!" She hopelessly said.

I shushed her as I massaged her back "Don't say that Jennie. No one deserves to die and it's not your fault. It's an accident."

Taeyeon eonni told about what happened to Tiffany and Jennie's mom, they were abducted and got a car accident.

I didn't notice that Jennie was suffering like this. She was depressed because of her mom's condition. Or maybe, she has more problems that I don't know.

She acts like nothing happened at school but she's different when she's at home. She barely eats too. I'm so stupid not to notice it.

Jennie continued to cry and sob in my chest, I rocked her gently as I hugged her.

"Everything will be fine Jennie, your mom will be fine," I consoled her but I also believed that. Her mom will survive.

Jennie calmed down after almost an hour of crying, I also cleaned her cuts and I was glad that it wasn't that deep. I also put gauze around her wrist to cover it.

"Never do that again Jennie..." I sternly said.

But she didnt respond and remained silent.

"You should rest now," I suggested.

"Don't tell this to anyone Lisa," she instructed.

I pursed my lips She needs help.

"Okay but I will stay here."

Jennie looked at me and her forehead creased "What?"

"I will sleep here to look after you," I said as I hugged myself.

She averted her eyes from me "You don't have to do that. I'm okay." No you're not. I could see that she was in trouble. She looked dejected.

I shook my head "From now on, I will look after you whether you like it or not. And I will always sleep here to look after you," I reiterated. "Understand?"

She didn't answer me but she slightly nodded and I smiled a bit.

"Rest now, I'll be back." I said.

I took the knife and went to our room. I explained to Taeyeon eonni what happened. I told her that I will sleep in Jennie's room to look after her and she understood.

I took a shower and changed into pajamas then went back to Jennie's room. I saw her already sleeping in her bed.

Should I sleep in bed or on the couch?

The couch was kinda far from the bed so if something happened I wouldn't kno it.

I swallowed hard then forced my feet to go to the bed. I stared at sleeping Jennie. She was beautiful as always. She was like an angel. My angel.

I still felt bad for what happened, I wanted to blame myself for that and I wouldn't forgive myself if something bad happened to her.

I still love her and it hurts me to see her like this. I want to take all her pain. I want her to feel that I'm always here for her, that she's not alone. But she's hardheaded, she keeps pushing me away.

I slowly slipped myself in bed next to her, I was careful not to wake her up.

I turned to her and watched her sleep. She looked peaceful somehow.

I smiled. I never thought that this would happen, me and Jennie in one bed. I could feel the heat in my face.

Jennie can hurt me with her words but just seeing her makes me happy and I will not ask for more than that. I won't force myself to her but I want to help her.

So even if she push me away, I will never leave her. I'll stay with her. I want her to know that I'm still here for her.

Jennie suddenly moved and turned to me. She unconsciously leaned forward to me and burried her face in my neck.

My breathe hitched and I stiffened as my heart beats wildly.

I silently gulped few times, I was nervous but I liked it.

Jennie slid her arm around my waist as she nuzzled my neck.

Not that long, I became comfortable and I felt my eyelids became heavy as well.

I could say that this was one of the best nights in my life.

Oh Jennie, what did you do to me?

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