Tiffany was hugging me while she was sleeping. She looked comfortable and I was contented seeing her like this.

However, I was holding my back my tears. I felt really sad about the sudden circumstances. When you know that Fany would be gone forever, this intense emotion could be devastating and overpowering. 

But it was for Tiffany and I wouldn't interfere. I was just very sad because Fany was like a younger sister to me.

I couldn't sleep knowing what would happen the next day. I couldn't imagine it and my hurt was aching.

Fany will be gone forever. It kept ringing in my head.

I couldn't rest but also I felt the time was fast. It was running really fast and it made me sick.

"TaeTae... are you okay?" Tiffany asked. "You can't sleep?"

I nodded even she couldn't see me "Yes," I shortly answered.

"Are you okay?"

I'm not. "Yes," I said again.

"Are you mad Tae?"

I was holding back my tears "No, I'm not Fany."

Then she stayed quiet.

I mustered all the strength I had and asked "Why so sudden Fany?"

Tiffany tightened her hug "Because I don't want mom to worry. TaeTae, I'm ready. I want to let go the real Tiffany and I want you to meet her."

I smiled though I was already crying "I'm not against your decision."

"Thank you TaeTae. Please be with me till the operation go to the light."

"Of course Fany."

"You're the best babysitter TaeTae. I love you," she sleepily murmured.

"I love you too, Fany." I kissed her forehead.

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The next day.

I became anxious because just few more hours, I knew the happy Fany will be gone.

We all had breakfast together and Fany ate her favorite cereal. Mr. Hwang also stayed at home to witness his daughter's operation.

We all played games and Fany was so happy with that.

After lunch, we decided to stay in her room and we tried drawing.

She showed me her work and it melt my heart when I saw it. She drew us like human sticks with the name above our heads. Then at the bottom, she wrote 'my family'.

She drew like a seven year old kid but for me, it was a wonderful artwork.

"This is beautiful," I complimented her.

Fany sheepishly smiled "This is Lisa, Jennie, Mom, Dad, Miyoung, me and you," she said as she pointed each of us.

"Can I have this Fany?" I requested.

"Of course TaeTae, I drew that for you. It's like a remembrance," she said as she handed it to me. "Take care of it okay?"

I smiled and took it "Thank you Fany. I promise I will keep and treasure it."

"Let's have a picture together!" She excitedly said as she took her phone.

I grinned as I put down her drawing on the table and also took my phone from my wallet "Okay!"

We took a lot of pictures and most of them were wacky. Fany picked the cutest one then put it as our lockscreen. It was cute. She was adorable.

She smiled looking at our phones, she seemed satisfied "Yes! So you won't forget me."

"I will never forget you Fany, I promise. You are like my little sister and I love you," I wholeheartedly said.

Fany suddenly hugged me "I love you too and I will miss you TaeTae."

I couldn't help it but my eyes became teary. I felt hopeless knowing that this would be my last time with her.

"I will miss you too Fany," my voice was shaking as I squeezed my eyes shut.

I didn't want her to leave and I hate myself that I couldn't do anything to help her.

"You're the best babysitter TaeTae," she pulled away and faced me. She was already crying like me.

I gently wiped her tears "And you're the best little sister."

"I know, I'm obedient child," she proudly said.

I chuckled while she laughed.

Then we heard a knock and I knew that moment, it would be our last bonding. It broke my heart, I felt helpless.

This was the day that I didn't want to come but it was inevitable.

Fany said goodbye to everyone and in the session room, Dr. Choi allowed me to be there.

Fany laid herself on the bed and Dr. Choi started the operation. She used hypnosis here as Fany closed her eyes.

Dr. Choi rung the bell once and asked "Fany... can you hear me?"

"Yes..." Fany mumbled. She looked asleep though.

"Where are you now?" Dr. Choi asked.

"In a white room... in front of the door..."She answered.

"I see... now... open the door and followed the light."

Fany nodded and remained silent for few seconds "I did. There's another door."

"One... That's one year Fany. Now open the door and follow the light again," Dr. Choi instructed.

Fany nodded and remained silent for few seconds again "I did but there's another door."

"That's another year Fany, you're getting older as you enter that door."

The process continued just like that. In every door she entered was a year added to her age. Fany was getting older somewhere in Tiffany's mind.

It was heartbreaking and tears shimmered in my eyes. That was all I could do that time. I was also thinking if this just a dream. It was very difficult for me to believe that it was already happening.

After this, Fany would be gone forever. Damn. It always crossed my mind.

"I did but there's still another door," Fany's voice seemed very weak.

"That's another year Fany, you're 97 now," Dr. Choi said as she wiped her sweat on her forehead. "Now open that door and follow the light again," she sighed.

"Wait..." Fany was barely breathing. "I see her... again..."

Dr. Choi gasped then frowned "Huh? Who's her?" She seemed flustered.

Fany smiled as tears ran down from the side of her closed eyes "TaeTae... I'm happy to see her... just one more time..."

I smiled then I sobbed hard hearing that. 

"Okay... Now... I will open the door... but I can't... I can't...." Fany didn't finished her sentence.

I gulped hard waiting impatiently for her to speak but there was none. 

She just remained silent.

"Fany?"

But there was no response.

Dr. Choi sighed sadly "She's gone," She announced. "Fany is gone."

I heard it clearly but my mind couldn't process it.

Dr. Choi rung the bell twice then Tiffany suddenly sat up. She was out of breath.

"Miyoung," Dr. Choi called her.

Tiffany frowned "No... she's gone," her voice cracked and her tears started streaming down her face.

I sprinted to Tiffany and hugged her. We both sobbed like there was no tomorrow for us.

Feelings of pain and distress after bereavement could be overwhelming and terrifying. I could not lose another love, I couldn't take it. I would die.

I pulled away from Tiffany and looked adamantly at Dr. Choi "Doctor... please, cancel Miyoung's operation tomorrow. Give us one more day to be together. Even just one whole day," I pleaded like it would cost my life.

Dr. Choi sighed then nodded "I understand Taeyeon. Okay... I will reschedule it the day after tomorrow."

I smiled a bit "Thank you Doc. Thank you so much."

Then I hugged Tiffany again. I hugged her tightly like my life would depend on it.

I knew it would be hard for me to get over this.

Fany is gone and Miyoung will be gone as well.

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