16th January 2010

Bailey’s POV

 It’d been just over two weeks since New Year’s Eve and this was the nearest date I could get to actually meet up with a doctor. It was the Saturday of my first week back at school, meaning everything in life was becoming real and scary, and this wasn’t going to help me.

Jeremy agreed to come with me today; even though I was sure he didn’t want to be here- not that I actually wanted to be here. I didn’t get a choice though. I had to be here, because I needed to know the truth of this, and I couldn’t spend much longer pretending this wasn’t real, because it could be so very real.

We had been sat in the waiting area for twenty-four minutes and forty-three seconds. I don’t think I had ever been so nervous in my life, and it was clear that it wasn’t going to get any easier anytime soon.

I could tell Jeremy was as nervous as I was, as he was tapping his foot on the tiled flooring of the waiting room. Although I knew it should really be him comforting me, but I held his hand softly squeezing it, in an attempt to try and comfort him. He turned to me, with a weak smile. I was kind of surprised that he was so willing to help me through this; it wasn’t as if I thought he wouldn’t as Jeremy was a good guy but the chances were against him wanting to help me.

By the time my name was called I could barely feel my legs, as they somehow got me into the doctor’s office. The actual appointment to see if I were pregnant was quick and easy but it actually meant it was real.

Never did I think I’d be the one to be sixteen and pregnant. And never would I have thought that Jeremy would be the father of a baby at this age.

I thought that the knowledge of it being true or not would settle my nerves, but it didn’t, I just felt as if I was going to die from my over-powering nerves. It just unsettled my stomach even more and made me more nauseous.

The doctor seemed nice and understanding and she didn’t seem like she was judging us for our predicament, although inside she probably was. I’m sure soon enough I’d be perfectly used to the judging stares I’d get from people, when they saw a teenager with a baby bump or a teenager with a baby.

I highly doubted anyone would look at me the same, not that I had any friends or family to ignore me or disown me. Bonnie was probably my only real friend and she already knew all about it, but didn’t seem to hate me, which I guess is good. I guess there were also Alaric and Matt, but if they did hate me, then they’d just go back to teacher and colleague status.

My doctor’s name was Meredith Fell. She seemed really nice, but I guess she was paid for her bedside manor along with her medical skills.

She had given us too many pamphlets for me to count, about various things that could go wrong in a pregnancy, anything a pregnant woman could know about pregnancy, about my options with the baby and everything from here to the moon. I’m sure it’d be easier if only one pamphlet was made and it contained all of this information, as I guessed it was all important, but I was sure at least one of them would be lost, mainly as I lived in a park in January, so the whether wasn’t great to keep paper safe and secure.

Meredith explained that the baby was due in August probably around the 14th even though most babies weren’t born on their due date. I was only ten weeks pregnant, so I wasn’t showing at all, and no one would know that I was a teenage Mum for a little while longer.

“Okay, so I think that’s it. You have another appointment booked for the 8th February. Do either of you have any questions?” Meredith smiled.

“Um… During the first few days of the pregnancy I did drugs. I stopped a few days after and I haven’t touched them since, do you think that could have done any damage to the baby?” I sighed.

If any harm had come to the baby, I don’t think I could live with myself. I know truthfully I don’t want this baby, and even though I knew that I would probably go through the whole pregnancy, and then keep it if I could, I would have never planned for this to happen. Never had I believed that this would be the perfect time for me to get pregnant and have a baby.

“I don’t think there is any damage to the baby. From what I’ve already seen the baby seems healthy, but we’ll look carefully when you come in for your next appointment. We’ll make sure the baby is health. I’m almost certain there will be no damage due to the short time of drug abuse,” Meredith smiled softly.

I let out a deep sigh. I know that she wasn’t 100% certain but she was still pretty sure that the baby was going to be safe, and that made me feel better. Even if this baby wasn’t something I wanted, I wanted it to be safe and healthy, and I couldn’t let it suffer because I was stupid and selfish.

With that we thanked her, before leaving her office and making our way outside of the hospital. Once we stepped away from the doors, we stopped by the wall to talk.

“Are you okay?” Jeremy asked.

“We’re going to have a baby Jer. Are you ready for this, because I’m bloody well not?” I stated trying not to cry.

“I’m not either Bailey. We’ll just have to figure this out. We’ll get through this. Together,” He smiled softly.

He opened up his arms, and I quickly walked into the hug pulling my arms around his waist whilst his arms wrapped around my upper body, pulling me into his chest. I let out a sigh. We weren’t cut out for this. We’re just kids and we were about to have our own.