I push him away and wipe my lips furiously. "Ugh! How dare you!? I tell you that I have a boyfriend, and you go ahead and kiss me!?" I somehow get myself out of his grip and smack him as hard as I can across the face, people finally look up at us. Even the security guards are paying attention now. "Fuck you Mat, don't you ever do that to me again. Don't talk to me, don't contact me and don't come looking for me." I growl at him. "Ma'am, is this man bothering you?" One of the security guards makes it up to me.

"Yes, please escort him out of the building." I start walking away from him and heading back to the break room to salvage the last of the time I have left of my lunch. Gena is still there at the table and she's already done with her food but she's drinking a tea. She sees me and sits up straight, "What'd he say?" She asks. I let out a breath, just to show her how distressed and tired I am. "It wasn't Jimin, it was my ex." She gasps. "Mat? What did he want?" I sit at the table and grab my lunch that was in the same spot I left it. "Me." I tell her. "What? You? He wanted you back?" I nod. "But you're in a relationship, and you love Jimin don't you?"

I find myself smiling, "Yes." She smiles back. "You're going to tell him that, right?", "Yes, of course." She sips her tea, "That's nice, I'm happy you finally found someone. You were single for too long." I let out a breath and start to eat my food. "Yes, I know.. I'm so lucky to have Jimin, he would understand the issue that happened today. Well.. at least I hope when I tell him what happened with Mat, he'd understand.. won't he?", "From what I've heard about Jimin, he seems like the understanding type." I stuff my mouth with food. "So, have you caught up on that drama I told you about?" She asks making me hum really loud. "MMMMMM! Yees!"

Then we go off about the drama up until our break is over and we go back to making money. It really keeps my mind off of what I have to talk Jimin today, I'm able to calm down

**
•After Work •
-Confession

I look at myself in the mirror, it's nothing fancy or too casual. Would he like it? I ask myself, my outfit is for sure going to catch his attention. My signature black wedges and my navy blue tight dress with my leather jacket. My hair up in a elegant bun that I wore for work but I just made it a little more loose, pulling hair out form in front of my ears and I have my matte lipstick on. I make sure that I smell like I just walked through the perfume aisle at the mall. I smile in the mirror making sure that when I brushed them, nothing got left behind and I don't have lipstick on them.

"You can do this Isaeli, just tell him you love him and everything will be okay." I nod and I feel nervousness fill the pit of my stomach. "Let's go, it's okay." And I walk back into the living room, grabbing my car keys before I head out to Jimin's club. It doesn't take a long time until I arrive at the strip with various night clubs.. it's fairly early and there are already drunk people on the sidewalks, I take a deep breath. Trying to steady my heart, trying to calm my blood flow as it's quick. I'm determined to tell him that I love him, and also what happened in the lobby at work. I don't intend to let this relationship be full of secrets, I want this relationship to be healthy. My intention is for this relationship to be dealt with like adults and resolved in a calm manner.

I get out of the car and I feel my legs buckle, I slowly shut my eyes and close my car door before I'm able to get my legs to work again. I finally open the door and walk in. I look around at all the people who are having a great time, young girls having the time of their lives not knowing that there's so much more than just partying and drinking. I then avert my eyes to the bar. My heart stops to the vision of Jimin kissing a woman, he doesn't seem to be fighting it. I feel my eyes tear up quickly as my heart shatters like glass.

She's an Asian girl, I can't really see her face for me to say that she's pretty but she's the least of my worries. "Jimin??" I call out, I'd be surprised if my voice made it across the club is a clear call. But then again, it did come out as a cry like call. It was high pitched, a dog could hear it a couple blocks down I'm sure.

I don't notice my bottom lip quivering, he looked at me, scared and shocked. Shocked that he's been caught and there's nothing he can say that will make me think that he was doing something other than kissing another woman. I literally witness him suck on his bottom lip, it only makes me want to cry harder but I'm stronger than I look so I fight the urge. "Izzy.." I can tell that he says, though I can't hear his voice. At this point, I probably was able to hear him but I shut him out. I smack my hand over my mouth and run out of the club, almost running into people. I don't want a single cry to leave my lips at all. I'm so hurt right now, and I know he can't leave the bar because that's his club and he doesn't have any employees.

I get back into my car, did he do this because I didn't reply to him and only thanked him for the ride home? Should I have told him that I love him way earlier? This is what I get for thinking Jimin could hurt me, in a way I was right. He went all medieval on my ass by just turning around and kissing another woman. I sit in my car and cry for a good while, ruining the makeup I had done just for tonight. Now it's all ruined with tears. Why would Jimin even do this? I don't want to be anywhere near this club right now, I startup my car and haul ass back home.

**

She smacks her hand over her mouth and runs out of the club. I decide that after I lock up I'll go and talk to her, I want answers for myself. "Who was that?" Gi asks biting her lip. "None of your business, what do you want so you can get out of my face." I say, now.. my relationships and sex life is what I keep private from people at my club. ESPECIALLY from Gi, cause she's the girl who broke my heart, obviously she's going to be nosy with my love life now. Actually, after tonight I don't even think I'll have one.

She chuckles. "I'm guessing your new girlfriend." She says smiling, I can't really tell what kind of a smile it is. If it's a mischievous smile because she knows she's caused a problem with my new girl or a teasing smile. "What makes you say that?" I snap. "You just got really offensive, what happened to the flirtatious Jimin before I set my lips on yours?" I shut my teeth together. "My life is none of your business, kissing you was a mistake.", "What? Your girlfriend got all butt hurt? She actually looked pretty sad." She gasps then chuckles.

"Or may I say, new ex girlfriend?" She says leaning in as she bit on her acrylic nail. "We're going to get through this, I didn't even kiss you back okay? So what do you want? I have other people to serve that won't ask me personal questions." She smirks.

"I guess you're right, but it doesn't matter what you say because we both know you let me. You didn't tell me to stop nor did you say you had a girlfriend, but then again that wouldn't have stopped me. Oh! Just a couple of shots, and we buy you two." She says and the other girls start cheering, they don't even care that I'm being a jerk to Gi. I quickly fix their shots and at the same time fix other people's drinks. It's barely 8:30 and I'm already packed up the ass. Gosh.. We'll see how tonight goes.

**

"Jiiiimiiiin!" I hear someone call me as I fix more drinks. I turn and Gi runs into me, filthy drunk. "Gi you can't be behind the bar. If you're back here, everyone else will think it's okay. Don't cause more problems than you already have." I say nudging her off, but the last thing I say makes me think, I caused the same amount of problems as she has. I didn't stop her, I have to remember that it's not all of her fault. "Oh but Jiminie.." She pouts while hugging my arm, my forearm grazing her bra less chest. I quickly pull my arm away. "No Gi, get out of here." I say shoving her out of the bar and closing the small swinging latch.

The longer she's in my club the more I realize how much I hate her and what she did to me, I don't know why she's here. So many other clubs on this strip and she has to pick the one that I own. Punch me in the dick why don't you, I hate that I even let her kiss me. What the hell is wrong with me? Why did I do that? I make myself want to barf.

She leans against the other side of the bar. "Jimin. I.. I was so wrong.. To let you go.." She says as she chugs down the rest of her beer. "I've missed you.." She says setting her face against the bar. I ignore her and continue my job. I look at the clock. 9:59 barely.. I zoom through the night, but more and more people keep arriving.

**
•Five hours later •

Finally after hours and hours of serving drunk people more drinks. It's almost going to be 2, finally, and there's still a couple people here, including Gi. "Sorry guys, closing up shop, everyone out." I say. They all get up and head for the door. One of, what seems to be Gi's friend, comes over and wakes her up. "Come on Gi, we've got to go." She says. "I'm guessing you're the designated driver." I say, she looks at me and nods.

"Yeah I hate alcohol, but I'd prefer to be here then seeing something bad happen to my friends." She says. She's cute, in a little girl kind of way. She's short, but her heels make her look taller. You can just tell because her legs are so small. Her face was so baby like, huge eyes, little nose, pink cheeks. "Here, let me lock up and I'll help you carry her to the car." I tell her, feeling bad that she has to do this.

Being that Gi is literally half her size, I'm not calling Gi fat. But this girl is really really small in figure, I'm pretty sure Gi is a few pounds heavier than her too. She nods. "Thank you so much, it means a lot." She says as she struggle to drag Gi out of the club.

I lock up the liquor cabinet and make sure no one is hiding in the bathrooms, you'd be surprised with what people have done to get to my liquor. I walk over to the kid DJ, "Hey kid, you did real good tonight, I heard a lot of good things about you from the people around my club." He packs his things away, "Thank you sir." I pull out a $100 bill from the tips I made today. "Here, for your troubles." I tell him, he then looks at the money in my hand. "Does this mean I don't get the job?" He asks. "No.. you did." I smile and his face brightens up. "You got skills kid." I nod. "Thank you." He bows to me, "Go ahead and leave your card with me and I'll give you a call." He hands it to me and takes the money.

"I'm really new to employing people, so let me work something out and you're definitely hired.", "No problem!" He nods and grabs his equipment, I grab my coat and we head out of the club together before I secure and lock the door behind me. I turn and see Gi on the floor knocked out cold. "I couldn't take her any further." The girl tells me out of breath. "Oh no, don't worry about it." I say picking up Gi and following this girl to her car. I sit her in the front seat and buckle her in.

"Thank you so much, it means a lot." She says again. "No problem." I tell her, I look in the car a bit confused. "So what happened to all the other girls?" I ask curious. She plays with her car keys with her small fingers. "They all got guys.. You know, to sleep with tonight." She says, I nod. "Oh. I see." Is all I can reply. "Yeah, Gi turned down all the guys that picked up on her cause she wanted you.." She tells me, I zip up my sweater.

"Look.. I have a girlfriend, so maybe it would have been better if Gi didn't come to my club at all. She's caused enough problems in my life." I tell her. She nods slightly. "So you're the famous Jimin she talks so much about." She says. My eyebrow arches. "Excuse me?" I confused. She shakes her head. "Never mind, I should go. It's extremely late." She says. I nod, not really caring what Gi has said about me. "Good night, drive safe." She smiles. "Thank you, you too Jimin." She says getting into her car.

Though, I'm very confused as to why she would even still talk about me when she was the one that broke my heart, not the other way around. I wonder what dumb lies she's told her friends. I shrug it off and walk over to my car, I sit in it for a while. My heart rate has picked up to the thought of me driving over to Izzy's house to talk to her. I just want to fix things but I feel like I either really have to use the bathroom or I just have to throw up. I take a deep breath and start up my car, I hope she's not asleep right now. I mean, she did go to work and I did work her a lot after the wedding so there's a possibility that she's tired.

I finally take off from the strip and drive over to her apartment. I find myself sitting in front of her place for a while, mentally preparing myself to talk to her. When I've had a few minutes to breathe I exit and lock my car. Soon I stand at the front door of her apartment, my breathing is hard. I take a chance and knock my knuckle against the door.

**

I enter my apartment and close the door behind me, throwing my keys on the kitchen table and flopping down on my couch face first. It actually kinda hurt, but it didn't hurt as much as my heart hurts right now. "What have I done to deserve this? Am I not-" I don't finish, the scene that I had seen not too long ago, takes over my mind and I just begin to break down.

For a while, I watch TV and I wonder to myself if the club was getting more and more packed. I peer at the clock, 11:20. I shrug and head into my room and change into my pajamas. I look at myself in the mirror, I'm a complete mess. I wipe my runny mascara that's supposedly waterproof, brush my teeth and go to bed, wishing that I could have told Jimin that I love him before he ran off and did that to me.

**

I wake up to knocking on my door. For awhile I just lay there, whining silently to myself asking why someone would be at my apartment at this time of the night, then I realize it must be him. He hasn't forgotten about me. I look at the clock, 2:10. I stand up and make sure I don't look like a fat cow, then I make my way over to my door and look into the peep hole.

There he is, waiting patiently. With my hand on the nob I know he heard it, because he looked down at the nob and bit his lip. I unlock the door and open it a bit. His eyes staring into mine intensely. "Do you understand how late it is?" I ask. He nods. "We have to talk." He says. I let the door swing open a bit and cross my arms over my chest. "Yes we do." I say and let him in. He right away walks over to my couch and sits down. I lock the door and face him.

"How do you explain yourself?" I ask, not moving an inch. He looks at me a bit mad. "Me? How about you?" He asks. I raise an eyebrow. "Excuse me? You must be mistaken." I say. He bites his lip. "So you kissing a guy in the lobby of your work. Am I still mistaken?" He asks. My heart stops. "What?" I ask completely shocked. "Yeah what." He says sitting back in the couch watching me stutter.

"Okay.. Jimin, I have a great explanation for that." I say walking over to him and sitting down on the couch with him. "Explain yourself then." He says. I nod. "Jimin, today at work my ex visited me." I say. His eyebrow raises. "Mat?" He asks. I nod. "And he just asked to talk to me about all this shit he told me the other day and he wanted to apologize." I say. He nods along. "So I spent some of my break with him." I pause.

"While we were talking he started confessing his feelings for me, and I told him that I had a boyfriend. But he didn't seem to care." I tell him. He stares at me, completely engaged. "And when I told him that I loved you, he got pissed and kissed me as if trying to get me to have feelings for him or something." He nods then stops. "Wait." He looks at me completely surprised. "You told him you love me?" He asks shifting on the couch, facing me completely. I nod with a huge smile on my face and tears in my eyes.

"That's what I wanted to tell you when I went to the bar. To tell you that I love you and tell you what happened with Mat because I didn't want to keep secrets from you." I tell him. He just stares at me. "I feel so horrible." He says. I shake my head and touch his hand. "When I went to surprise you at work and I saw you kissing him.. I assumed that because I confessed and you didn't feel the same, you moved on." He says.

I shake my head. "No.." I whisper. "I was so pissed and broken.." He says, I can see the pain in his eyes. I place a hand on his cheek. "So when I saw Gi at my club and she kissed me.. I didn't stop her because I was so mad and hurt, but I promise you that I didn't kiss her back." He explains, and I understood. I lean in and kiss him right away, he kisses me back. "I love you Jimin.." I say before kissing him again. "And I forgive you." I tell him as I pull away, his cheeks grow pink.

"Thank you, I won't ever do it again I promise." He says, running his thumb along my jaw before kissing me again. "I love you Isaeli.." He whispers as he kisses me again.

We sat there for a while, kissing. I think this was our healing, our bandage for today. I feel moisture on my cheek, I pull away. And he's crying, I run my finger along his cheek and wipe his tears. "Why are you crying?" I ask in a whisper. He looks into my eyes and smiles. "Because.." He says placing his hand on the hand I had on his cheek. "I thought I'd never love again. The whole time I thought about the misunderstanding, I began to beat myself up about how no one could ever love me because I must be unlovable." He says. "I thought that I'd be too broken for anyone." My heart skips a beat at his words. "We're each others glue." I say smiling.

"Because you fixed me." I say as I stand up and take his hand. "Come and lay with me.." I say. He follows without hesitation. He gets into bed with me and we lay there, my head on his chest and his arms around me. I can hear his heartbeat quickening every time I moved. "You hear that?" He whispers. I tighten my arm around him, well, as much as I can. His body is so built, he makes me feel so small. "Hmm?" I hum in response as I slowly fall back to sleep. "My heart pounds for you.." He whispers as he begins to rub my back. "I love you.." He whispers before I fall into a deep sleep, unable to say it back.

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