*this chapter will involve sexual content that may be inappropriate for some readers*

I wake up in the morning and realize that he wasn't there. I look up at the ceiling and my eyes start to water a bit. I felt so stupid and I wanted to just scream at the top of my lungs. I must have scared him off from last night, what I had told him. How I had dragged him to bed with me. I hated it, I hated myself at this moment. I was too clingy and he possibly didn't like that, or that I was too vulnerable. I was too quick to bring him to bed with me. Not that I was planning on having sex with him, I just needed him. Maybe I got a little too touchy.

"You're up" I hear from the door way of my bed room. I sit up feeling relieved. He's there with a small grin on his face. He had changed his clothes. "Oh.. I hope you don't mind... I went to my place and changed." He looks out to my living room. I was over whelmed with happiness I couldn't look away from him and there was that strange beat again.

"I went to get some groceries for the guys and bought you some breakfast." He looks back at me and smiles. I shake my head "I don't mind." "Good morning." He says. I smile. "Good morning.. And you didn't have to bring me breakfast." I say. He walks over to me. "I wanted to." He says as he stands right in front of me and holds onto my waits with both hands. I wrap my arms around his neck. He lowers his head.

I decided that I'd let myself go, I wouldn't be so tense about what ever happens next. I then place my hand over my mouth as I remember that I didn't brush my teeth. He looks at me odd. "What's wrong?" He asks. "I didn't brush my teeth." I say with my hand over my mouth.
He smiles and moves my hand "I don't care." he says pressing his lips against mine. He pulls me closer to him. I wanted him so bad. The way he was kind to me, made me realize that I needed him near me. I wanted him close to me. He kisses my neck and I almost faint. No one had ever kissed my neck before. I had a feeling that that was my soft spot cause my panties slowly started to become moist.

I flung my head back and he kisses my throat. I wrap my legs around his waist and pull him towards me as I lay down. He looks down at me, his hair was a bit messy. "I want you Jungkook..." I say kissing his neck. He pulls away from me. "Did I do something wrong?" I ask as he's still hovering over me. "No." He says simply as he looks deep into my eyes.

"I want you too.. But.. " he looks at my hair that was fanned out on the bed. Oh no, was he thinking about last night? He didn't want to hurt me. "I don't want to seem like I'm forcing you into anything. Or that I just want sex from you." He was serious. He must be thinking about what I told him last night. How I reacted to him calling me beautiful, I almost had a melt down. Maybe he thought it would happen again, because this was a huge step. I know that for a lot of rape victims sex is definitely not something they're willing to do after a long time.

I'm not going to lie, yes, I'm terrified, but there's something different in the way I feel about Jungkook that reassures me that I'll be okay. That I wouldn't mind if we went all the way today, if he made me feel something. This was my next step to healing, Jungkook is my bandage. I was definitely willing to try, and if he wanted to proceed, I'll be okay. But at this moment it seemed like what I've been through, is stopping him.

"I don't want to hurt you..." He says whispering. I knew it, I knew he'd feel this way. "You won't.." I say touching his face. I look at his lips then his eyes. "Love me Jeon Jungkook.." I say. He kisses me. "I love you..." He says quietly, I look at him shocked. Am I allowed to feel this way too? "What did you say?" He blushes. "Is it too early to have feelings like this? I... After you told me everything.." his voice shook. "I just felt closer to you." His words make me smile, I brush his hair out of his face and it flops back to where it was. "No." I say simply. My heart pounds against my chest, I'm not as scared anymore.

"I love you too..." I say meaning it with all my heart. He kisses me. Yes, that's what I felt. Maybe I fell too quickly, but Jungkook seems like a good guy. I liked everything about him, I love his smiled, I love his smell. He was soft with me, I love when he hugs me. I'm currently in love with his kiss. It was as if he read my mind, pressing his lips against mine. He was slow and gentle, until my hips rolled into his and my nails scratched at his neck. My breath changed automatically, my lips parting against his and I felt funny.

"Are you sure you want this Abby?" He asks. I nod. "Yes. I want this." And with that he kisses my lips, a little harder this time. He felt this funny feeling, in sure of it. His hand ran up my neck pulling hair out of my face.

He slowly and softly trails his kisses down my neck, causing my panties to get moist again. His lips soft and moist, my stomach felt like butterflies were swarm inside it. He slips off his shirt and I slip off mine. I was so speechless with his body. He kisses my collar bone and this time trails his lips down to my chest. God how I hated my small chest. He kissed me on my stomach causing me to go crazy. My breath was picking up by the second and I bite my lip to, fighting the urge not to make a sound. He comes up back to my face and kisses my lips again.

He was taking things slow because I think he knows I'm nervous. My body wanted him, but my mind was everywhere. What if I wasn't good? What if I did something stupid? What if I touch him the wrong way? Was there a wrong way to touch a guy? What if he's had better? I'd hate to be that girl. I take a chance.

I trial my hands down to his pants and unbuckled his belt, he waited patiently for me to do so. He was granting me access. I bite my lip as I lower his pants line. God he's so yummy. He watches me take off his pants and boxers at the same time. He smiles at me as he hovers over me again, he knows he has a nice body. And I have no shame in looking at it cause damn. Though I feel like the.. thing is weird looking, it's okay. I pull onto his neck. "Love me.. " I say nervously as I kiss him. His hands lower down to my waist and he pulls slowly on my leggings.

My heart pounds faster and he touches the waist line of my black lacy underwear. It makes me thankful that I chose to wear them. He looks at me as he slowly slides them off. He stares at my body and I feel heat grow in my cheeks. "You're so beautiful.." He says only looking into my eyes. He moves back to my face. "Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks, again. I look into his eyes, chuckling nervously. I touch his face. "Yes. Don't you?" I ask in an whisper. "Yes.." He kisses my lips and then my neck.

His hands hold onto my waist as he kisses my belly button causing my back to arch. Slowly kissing back up to my neck, making me a bit more nervous than I already was. He looks at me, one of his hands to direct himself to my entrance. Maybe I should have asked him is he had protect.. but I didn't care, I've been on the pill since my periods became irregular after...

I bite my lip and he finally pushes himself inside me. I gasp as he goes in slowly. He was gentle and slow. I hold onto his back as he speeds up and I shut my eyes as I try not to make a sound as I've never felt this way before. How his abs tightened and untightened against me. One of his arms wrapped around during my waist, bringing my skin against his. I wondered if he's done this before. Of course he has.. right? He knew where to put it. A virgin wouldn't know that.

I hear him breathing roughly as he continues to thrust into me. We were at it for an hour, he had good stamina. Oh God how I wish he would have taken my virginity. As I think this I bury my face in his neck and I can't help but moan. I press my lips against his sweaty skin, trying to quiet myself. I feel myself near my climax as he moves in faster.. at least I think it's a climax. I cling to him digging my nails into his back. He groans as he slows down into longer and slower strokes causing me to become closer to my climax.

My legs feel weak letting me know that I'm close, I think. Out of no where he speeds up again and I moan loudly letting him know that I had gotten there, I think. I'm out of breath and I let him get there. He groans loudly letting me know that he finished, now that.. I was more familiar with. He pulls out of me and lays on the bed. He's out of breath and I look at him.

He has his eyes closed and he pulls me close to him. I'm against his skin and I feel safe. He kisses my neck and I squirm a bit. Just as I thought that he was done with me he lowers his hand down to my core.

His fingers gently touch me and I tighten up and his finger enters me. He kisses my neck as he starts to play with me. I had no idea that he can make me want to climax, more than once. I bite my lip as I feel myself wanting to make a sound. I let it out and he moves his fingers faster. "I want to hear you." He whispers. His voice was deep and it made my stomach churn. I do as he says, I let out a small moan for him. He kisses at my face, his hand taking it slow. My back arches and he pulls me towards him. I wouldn't have never thought that someone would want to touch me this way.

He couldn't be a virgin.. right? I keep asking myself this, a virgin would definitely not know how to touch a woman.

Before I knew it, his face was in between my legs and I could feel myself grow embarrassed. I was scared, what if I smelt weird? What if I tasted gross? All these questions jumbled up in my head, I sit up feeling insecure. "Jungkook.." I call with a shakey voice. "Just relax Abby." He sets his hand on my stomach, insisting that I lay back comfortably. I do as he says again. I feel his tongue run along my core, causing me to gasp. His tongue entered me as if sucking up my life with it.

My back arches and he holds onto my waist sucking harder and taking me all in. I run my fingers through his hair. I'm extremely close as he uses his finger to rub my sensitive nerve as he continues to enter his tongue inside me. I felt so weird. I've never experienced this before, it was a weird thing that felt good. I finally climax, which was a new thing for me. I moan out of breath.

I grab my pillow and place it over my face as I don't want him to see that my cheeks have heated up and I'm completely embarrassed. I have never felt this way, never. And the fact that I was making weird sounds and feeling sensations I had never encountered, felt absurd.

"What's wrong?" He asks me as he pulls the pillow off my face and I notice he has his boxers on now. I blush and cover myself with my blanket. "You didn't like it..." He says with a frown as he looks away from me. I look at him and touch his arm. He looks back at me. "No.. I ...did." I say blushing feeling uncomfortable admitting it. "I've just.." I sit up still covering myself. "No ones ever done that to me... So I'm a little embarrassed.." I say looking away from him.

He grabs my face and smiles. "There's nothing to be embarrassed about. As long as you enjoyed yourself and I enjoyed doing it, you shouldn't feel insecure." He says kissing my lips. I'd still feel weird about it, it was something to get used to, not that I expect him to do it all the time. He lays down behind me. "Don't feel that way." He whispers in my ear. I nod. "I love you." He says, I feel him run his nose in my hair. "I love you, Jungkook." I whispered. I slowly fall asleep as he pets my hair and plants a kiss every once in a while on my neck.

Was this real? Was I supposed to feel this way? Or am I unworthy of feeling good? What would he think? Why did I care? He's in jail. Why couldn't I be okay? I should be.. I'm with Jungkook.

**

I wake up and I feel his arm around me. I was about to turn my head when I realize his face is in my neck. I smile and scoot closer to him. I felt him twitch and I feel his grip tighten in my waist. He inhales deeply when pulls me closer. "Hi." He says in my ear. His voice sounding deep and raspy. I smile and turn to face him. "Hi" I say looking at him. He kisses my lips and smiles.

"So you love me?" I ask. He blushes and looks into my eyes. "Yes.." He says with a serious look on his face letting me know that he meant it. I run my hands through his hair and I hug him. "I love you too.." I look at him "its crazy.." He says. "Its like the first time I met you. I knew that you were different. Its not just a word I'm saying.. I actually mean it." He says holding my waist.

"And when you told me..." He stops and he looked mad, he was obviously talking about what happened to me back in college. "I got this weird feeling that I had to protect you." My eyes water and I kiss his cheek. "I've never felt this way for someone Abigail." He admits. I smile. "I've never felt this way either." I confess to him. "Can I tell you something?" He asks. I nod. His face becomes pink. "Before we had sex, I was a virgin." He whispers. I look at him completely shocked, no way. "Really?" I ask. He nods.

"I apologize if I was horrible." He says. I shake my head. "Are you crazy? I've never felt so amazing in my life." I confess to him. His face turns red. "Are you sure?? I felt like I was bad.." He asks. I nod. "I wish that I lost my virginity to you, Jungkook..." I tear up. He kisses me, and I knew that I had. Jungkook took my virginity.. and now I was happy. I then become very curious.

"Can I ask you something?" He nods. "How'd you know all that stuff?" He then blushes and chuckles. "Porn." He says simply. I laugh, "No really." I say, he nods. "Seriously, porn." He tells me again. I smile, "Now I know one of your secrets." I say. "And you're about to know my biggest one." He says, I blink a couple times. "What?" I ask. He nods. "You remember when we first met at I wasn't surprised you didn't know who I was." I nod. "I'm an idol." He says. I bite my lip, I kind of figured. A couple weeks ago I had went into a cute store and they had a lot of... Kpop? Stuff. I didn't want to tell him because I didn't want him to be mad at me.

"It doesn't bother me." I say. He licks his lips, "It always is though." He replies. I bite my lip, "I kind of already figured you were famous, I saw merchandise with you in it. I just didn't want to say anything." He chuckles. "I should have known you'd find out sooner or later." He says. "How come you said that you wouldn't be that for much longer? Is something wrong?" I ask. He let's out a breath. "That's for another time.. okay?" He asks, and I respect that. I nod.

**

"Are you sure you have to leave?" I ask as I sit on his lap facing him. "Yes. I have too " he says brushing my hair behind my ear. "I have to meet up with the group.. Maybe you can meet the guys one of these days..." He suggests as he picks me up. I hold onto his neck and he holds onto my waist. He sets me down "I'd like that." I say looking up at him. "Okay, I gotta go." he says kissing me.

"I'll see you tomorrow." he says hugging me one last time. He walks over to the door and I follow him. "Bye." He says from the step in front of my door. He kisses me one last time and turns to leave "Bye..." I say and he walks away toward the sidewalk. It reminded me of the day we met, which is crazy because who knew it would end up like this. He turns and smiles at me. I smile and he continues to walk and I close the door. My heart feels different, and I didn't care.

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Hey!! Revised!!

Hope this chapter was better than before, made it longer and added more... information to it. The part about how Jungkook got his hip skills hehe, idk why I thought that was funny. Obviously improved the smut and I included Jungkook telling Abby what he was in Korea.

Thank you!

~Authornim