Before I get into it, trigger warning for possible s*xual h*rr*ssment and mentions of possible s*xualization?
I'm not sure, hence why I am kind of posting this, kind of. Also small self-invalidation at the end? If you can call it that?

I don't expect any response, since it isn't your job to, and this isn't something you're responsible for.

So, something has really been bugging me for the past while. And I'm kind of now looking for some help/guidance?

Specifically, I need help clarifying as to what this is. But again, don't feel as if you need to. I'll say it as much as I need to; don't feel like you have to respond/reply. It isn't your job, and it isn't your responsibility to help or comfort me.

Basically, back in 7th grade, there was this boy who I shared two classes and lunch with. Said boy liked me. He made it clear he did, and in turn, I made it clear that I didn't like him back.

He didn't respect that.

Which then resulted in him making very, uh, inappropriate jokes and comments about me and towards me. I made it clear that I didn't like it.

He didn't listen and continued.

Now, he didn't exactly touch me. At least, that was until the last day I was at that school before moving.

He didn't touch me below the waist or my chest. However, he did run the end of a marker (as in the opposite side of the cap) and ran it down my spine from the middle of my back, to very uncomfortably and concerningly low down my back.

That made me super uncomfortable, so I asked him to stop over five times.

It took another boy in front of me to ask if I wanted to get in front of him in line for the boy doing it to stop.

Said boy tried doing it again when the other boy left the line to use the restroom before going back to class before he came back from the restroom and then got back behind me infront of the boy who was making me uncomfortable.

I didn't think what the boy said or did would leave me bothered and I'd forget it.

I haven't forgotten. And I certainly wasn't left unbothered.

I recently noticed that I don't like anyone touching my back; specifically guys. Even my step-dad who has been nothing but kind to me.

I tense up every single time someone walks behind me. And I've realized that everytime I do, my first thought has been "They're gonna touch you, and they won't stop."

I don't know what to call this; if I can call it anything.

Am I overreacting? Am I justified? Should I bring this up to someone? Can I call this something?

I put the tw at the top because it felt like this matched with the definition of it, but I'm not sure if it is.

I'm not sure, and I don't expect anyone who reads this to help.

It'd be nice, but it's not your job to. So, seriously, don't think you have to.

This kind of was a way to get this off my chest, because I just feel so dirty and gross everytime I think of it.