Harshly I closed the door as I walked towards Jimin.

"What are you doing here?", I screamed at him, angry at the fact that he wasn't Jungkook.

"I kind of hoped you would react differently.", Jimin sighed as he laid down on my bed.

Exhausted from this shock I sat down on the floor. Imagining Jungkook's face didn't help in this moment because he was partly the reason why I was freaking out. I was longing for him and just when I thought I'd see him, I didn't.
The room was silent and the party next door felt like it was blocks away. That's how deep I was lost in my thoughts.
Jimin woke me up when he patted beside him, showing me to come lay down beside him.

"Answer my question.", I commanded him, ignoring his offer.

A sigh escaped from his lips as he sat up straight. His expression looked sad and I knew that mine looked very angry. However at this moment I couldn't feel sorry.

"I wanted to surprise you. See you and celebrate you. I was hoping for a little smile maybe when you see me but... there was nothing.", he played with the sheets.

I was watching his fingers as he played with the sheets, irritated about what he had said.

"I have a little gift for you. It's on your table.", he nodded into the direction of my table.

"Why are you doing this?", I didn't bother to stand up and look at the gift which was again, like his last present, beautifully wrapped.

I could basically see the disappointment in his eyes and in a way it wrecked my heart but in the other I got mad.
Jimin didn't reply but just stared blankly.

"Jimin!", I called his name but he didn't respond.

"That's it, you're creeping me out.", I stood up and basically ran away.

Quickly I opened the door and ran to a very specific destination. Right now I needed him and I felt the urge to finally make sure what we were.
I could hear Jimin for the first few minutes screaming after me but I ignored him. Soon he had lost track.
With heavy breathing I arrived, about to cry out of luck seeing Jungkook taking photos of the abandoned building. When he noticed me he immediately put down his camera and approached me. I ran into his open arms finally trying to calm down.
Jungkook didn't say anything as he waited patiently for me to calm down.
As my breathing got normal again I stepped back, looking into Jungkook's big eyes.

"Jungkook, what are we?", I asked still a little out of breath as I watched Jungkook's softened expression.

"What do you mean?", he asked me sounding perplexed.

Trying to collect my thoughts I sighed. This had been a weird birthday so far.

"A guy who I once really liked came back and he's acting so weird even though he shouldn't and I'm just so confused-", Jungkook caught me off.

"You're mine."

My eyes widened as Jungkook put his arms around me again. His words were repeated all over and over again inside my head and I tried to figure out what was happening right now.

"You are my girl, okay? And I'm all yours. That's what we are, okay?", he lifted up my chin waiting for my response.

I nodded, not realising what just had happened. And when he kissed me I felt those wings behind me again. Exploding because of my happiness I tip toed to put my arms around his neck and get him even closer.

We had unlocked the next level.

♢

As I got back I froze when I saw Jimin outside leaning against the door. I had thankfully just calmed down and didn't want it all to be ruined by Jimin. Slowly I approached him, nervous about what would happen next.

"Jimin.", I said quietly, tired of fighting.

Immediately he stood up. I wondered what he was thinking, and judged by the way he was looking at me he was probably wondering about what I was thinking too.

"I'm sorry.", he apologised very quietly.

There was a little, awkward silence between us as we were looking at each other not knowing what to say. I was shocked but couldn't do anything when he suddenly stepped closer. I wasn't sure why I didn't shove him away, but at this moment I simply couldn't do anything but just let it happen.

Jimin kissed me.

And it felt completely different to Jungkook's kisses. I also felt this weird sensation in my stomach and the blood rush to my cheeks. Even though I knew I deserved every hate for this, I felt the need that I had to kiss Jimin back.
With his arms tight around me we were kissing each other passionately before he finally stopped.

"That's why I'm here.", he was still holding me tight.

Finally I shoved him away, unexplainable tears forming in my eyes.

"Why did you do that?", I screamed at him not caring if anyone could see us.

Jimin's expression now changed too, he seemed furious.

"You kissed me back! Admit it, how did it feel!", he stepped closer but I shoved him back again.

"Don't touch me! You're such a jerk, you're with my step sister!"

Jimin rolled his eyes which caused me to slap him. Shocked I stared at my hand, I couldn't believe what I had done. Jimin was shocked too, touching his now red cheek.
Instead of yelling at me, Jimin collected himself and stayed calm.

"I've been trying to tell you multiple times but you always blocked me!"

Scoffing I shook my head:"Don't even try to tell me fairy tales. Leave me alone. I finally have a boyfriend who cares about me like no one else could and I don't want to risk that."

I tried to pass him but he grabbed my arm, preventing me from leaving him.

"You have a boyfriend?", he sounded extremely irritated.

"Yeah.", I shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal.

"Why haven't you told me?", his voice change and he sounded very bitter.

"Why should I? You have Chaelin. Bye Jimin."

I released myself from his grip and quickly opened the door. However, Jimin wasn't following me like I thought he would. He was standing still on the same spot, staring into nothing.

The party was over and people were either leaving or laying on the floor sleeping. With a weird feeling I entered my room, feeling lucky no one was inside. From the smell I could tell Jimin had been the last person inside. Somehow relieved I let myself fall into my bed. My eyes were fixed on the box, beautifully wrapped up. After a long mental debate I stood up and opened the box. My curiosity was just too big to ignore.
As soon as I saw the content I froze.

Beneath a handwritten letter were dozens of my favourite chocolate bar and a jar. I grabbed the jar and read the post it stuck to it. It said '101 reasons to be happy'. Interested I grabbed a note from inside.

You're precious to me.

My heart dropped as I saw Jimin's beautiful handwriting. Out of sudden I wanted to scream and just cry out of confusion, but instead I grabbed the letter to read what Jimin had written down for me.

Dear Cinder,

I'm writing this letter with shaky hands and this is my 4th attempt and each first sentence sounded as horrible as this one but well it is what it is.

I wish you a happy birthday. I wish you a joyful year and I wish you to always be optimistic. As a little support I created the jar, so whenever you feel like punching the wall, pick a note read it and relax. And just be thankful for this life.
Not everyone is as blessed as you, to have a beautiful face but also a beautiful soul.

Right from the moment I saw you for the first time I loved you. Don't get me wrong, not that kind of love, but I knew that you would be very important for me right when I saw you. I remember when we talked for the first time, you were so shy. I was shy too but you didn't seem to notice, luckily. Now you know and I'm a little bit embarrassed and I'm considering if I should write a new letter but because I've done okay until now I'll just keep going.

I hope that my plan worked out and that I succeeded in making your birthday a little bit better. I wish you all the best because you deserve it.

Love,

Jimin.

A tear was running down my cheek and I couldn't help but hate myself and feel guilty even though I had practically done nothing wrong.
If Jimin really wanted to be with me, why was he still with Chaelin? He couldn't blame me for anything, however he had succeeded in making me feel guilty.