Ever since new years eve Jungkook and I had been truly inseparable. We met every single day, which wasn't really doing any good for my grades but it was doing good for my heart which was way more important anyway.
The snow had melted and even though February still belonged to winter, it didn't seem so. February was this weird month which was the transition from snow to sun, from winter to spring. However I liked February not only because my birthday was in February and definitely not because of Valentines day, but because of the rainy days. I was sitting on my sill, watching the raindrops falling on my window.

"Hey soon to be birthday girl! Thinking about Jungkook again?", Veronica sat down on my bed.

"We're not together.", I grunted already annoyed.

There was no problem I had with talking to her, it was simply that every time I talked with anyone they would mention Jungkook. Obviously I really, really liked him and I knew I was falling in love but we were not in a relationship. And thinking about the reasons why he hadn't asked me yet or about why I hadn't dared to ask him were completely avoided. For good.

"Oh man you should totally ask him what's going on. If you won't do it I will.", she laid down on my bed casually playing with her nails.

"You wouldn't dare!", my voice rose.

"Oh and how I would! You said he was the most handsome guy on the planet so it won't be hard to find him on campus!"

"Don't you dare and I'm serious, Veronica!", with these words I stomped off into the kitchen trying to calm myself down.

I was surprised when I saw Veronica following me and sitting down in front of me. As if she hadn't just made me mad.

"I was joking, so calm down. Actually I came into your room to tell you that we're going shopping tomorrow.", Veronica grabbed a glass of water and gulped it down like she gulped down vodka shots.

"On my birthday?", my eyebrows rose.

"Heck yeah. Maybe also a little visit at the spa? You really need a bit of relaxing."

"What do you mean by that?", I could feel myself attacked again.

"Nothing.", Veronica shrugged as she put her glass aside and left me alone.

Every evening was well spent with Jungkook. Besides my roommates asking me if it wasn't boring that we basically only met and hung out in two spots, I didn't mind. The new and the old library just were very meaningful for us and connecting the two of us forever.
Luckily the library wasn't busy when I saw Jungkook sitting at the desk, absorbed in his books once again. With a smile which grew every step I got closer, I walked towards him. He didn't notice me at all when I was standing right behind him. Wanting to surprise him I leaned down and wrapped my arms around him, cuddling my face into the crook of his neck.

As a response I could hear his satisfying moan as he looked for my cheek to kiss it swiftly.
Chuckling I slid the chair close to his and sat down.

"Take off your jacket.", he grinned while watching me sit down.

"Hey, not so fast.", I joked but obeyed him since it was really getting hot for some reason.

"Very good.", he mumbled as I had taken my jacket off.

His face got closer and I wasn't shy anymore to kiss him first. Softly I smooched his lips but let him soon take the lead in our make out session. I tried very hard to ignore Veronica's words of finally asking him what we actually were.
We kissed so casually and he had already told me he was falling in love with me but however we weren't able to get to that next level.

"What are you thinking about?", he stopped kissing me and furrowed his eyebrows.

"What?", I nervously fake laughed, "Nothing!"

"You can troll everyone but not me.", he took my hands and looked at them, patiently waiting for a reply.

Nervously I looked around. In the very back of the room I could see Hoseok, Yoongi and Jin studying with some girls. I was usually with them but since my main focus had been on Jungkook I wasn't really able to be with them. Their laughter echoed through the hall and I was wondering what they were laughing about.

"I wonder if they miss me.", I lied wanting to get rid of this conversation about what Jungkook and I actually were.

"Who?", Jungkook turned around and followed my gaze to look at my old study buddies.

Jungkook narrowed his eyebrows as he was looking back at me. I didn't dare to look at him and just watched the others switching pens.

"Why?", he bluntly asked me.

I shrugged:"I don't know. Sometimes I had the feeling they cared for me but now we just say hello to each other."

I wasn't lying anymore because what I was saying was serious. With them I used to have nights drinking, talking and being carefree about everything. They asked me how I was doing everytime we saw each other and I got the impression that they maybe cared about me. However it was weird, how close we had gotten so fast and how we had grown apart even faster.

"Don't think about it.", Jungkook said,"I care about you and that's enough, believe me."

"Do you?", I asked him leaning forwards again.

"Never question it, babe.", he put his arms tightly around me before kissing me again.

My heart fluttered as he called me babe and the question what we were was screaming inside my head. As we were kissing I tried to blind these awful thoughts out but bad thoughts always had the upper hand.

"What is it again, you seem so off.", Jungkook sounded slightly annoyed for which I blamed myself.

"Nothing!", I lied again.

"Stop lying!"

I sighed and leaned back on my chair, debating whether I was really able to dare to talk about it. It was weird because I had the feeling I could always talk with him about anything, but this topic was weird. Maybe because the fear of him rejecting me and losing him was so big. Bigger than my courage.

"You know you can tell me.", he caressed my cheek, sounding soft again.

Shyly I shook my head.

"Is it about me?", he got to the right path causing me to hold my breath.

"No.", I lied.

"So it is about me. Just tell me, you're making me crazy!"

"I'll tell you when I can okay?", I rose my eyebrows desperately hoping for him to understand.

His dark brown eyes were penetrating into me and I felt exposed. However he nodded which calmed me down a lot. He grabbed my hands again.

"Tell me when you're ready to talk about it. I'll wait patiently. You know why?"

I shook my head.

"Because I care about you."

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The day had arrived and it was my birthday. My roommates had surprised me with a luxurious breakfast in bed and even though I hated eating in bed and thought it was disgusting, I let it slide and just made sure to change the sheets right after.

"You look different today!", Mina complimented me.

"Yeah, you have sparkly eyes!", Krystal admired, making me feel uncomfortable.

"Well girls she's going to look even better when we come back so don't be too surprised.", Veronica laughed as she grabbed the keys for the car and dragged me outside.

"Thank you girls for doing all of this. Even though I can't show it on the outside, I'm really happy inside.", I said trying to sound cheerful as we walked to her car.

Veronica laughed cheerfully as she opened the door for me. And I could feel a little excitement as we drove off for some birthday shopping.

After having acquired some new clothes and with fully relaxed muscles after spa we drove back home refreshed.
It was difficult to wear all the bags so we rang the bell for the girls to open it. As they opened the door my jaw dropped. There were many people standing in our living room, all singing 'Happy Birthday' to me.
In that moment it didn't matter that I didn't know half of them, I just got teary eyed feeling so touched that they were singing for me. Overwhelmed I couldn't hold in the tears when my roommates embraced me for a group hug.

"Aw! Don't cry!", Mina caressed my hair as the others were smiling like idiots.

The party continued and I was glad to not be in the center of attention again.

"We have a little surprise for you. Go inside your room!", Krystal winked at me as my heart started to flutter.

I nodded at them trying to calm myself down. Before facing him I grabbed a cup of water before walking towards my room.
Even though it was my room I knocked. After waiting for a few seconds I slowly opened the door when Krystal tapped on my shoulder, interrupting the special moment.

"And oh sweetie, I'm so sorry I was looking for Jungkook everywhere but I couldn't find him or some of his friends! I really wanted him to come-",I caught her off.

"Wait, who's in my room then?"

I quickly opened the door to see Park Jimin standing in front of me.