Hello!

I'm alive Yayyyy

Its been what, two years?

I'm so sorry, I know I owe a lot of apologizes and that is why I was preparing longgg one page essay to apologize but being my impatient self, here I'm posting my comeback story 🙈

Yes, finally 😳
I don't expect readers, I have lost them long back.

I will be active after I'm done with my exams and Ramazan probably first week of June *Things are already bad these days and only if life doesn't make it worse, c'mmon we know life is so unpredictable especially nowadays*
I hope all of you are safe and healthy, please take care 🤗

So here's a short gift for my lovelies 😁

*IMPORTANT - I HAVEN'T BEEN READING AVNEIL FFS SINCE LAST TWO YEARS SO IF YOU FIND SOMETHING SLIGHTLY SIMILAR, PLEASE NOTIFY ME ASAP SO THAT I CAN CHANGE IT BEFORE AUTHOR JUMPS AT ME FOR PLAGARISM*
I know its weird but I wish to be careful this time😅

Okay, lets go!❤

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Avni's POV :

Bored. I have completed my graduation two months ago and I'm still trying to find a better college for my postgraduation. The last year of college was super fun, especially because of Neil, my boyfriend. We have been in relationship since five months, He was my senior by two years and he found himself a job as soon as he graduated. This reminds me that I have not seen him from two months.I miss him so much.

We used to chat daily but lately, his emojis reduced and texts became shorter probably because he is busy with his new project but somewhere I feel he has changed. Does he not like me now?

These depressing thoughts made me feel sick- or maybe a box of ice at 1 am did, I seriously don't know.My body felt hot and hotter, not in that sense and I have a clogged nose. Seriously, who gets cold in this weather? Maybe someone who eats a box full of ice cream at 1 am?

While attempting to call Neil in my sleepy state, my phone slipped from the bed and obviously broke.I'm too tired to go to repair shop or even get a new phone.

(Before anyone mentions, no..Avni is not covid-19 positive. That thing just don't exist in my book)

It has been two days, 48 hours and dash minutes.. What? Don't expect me to remember minutes, we are not in a movie!Anyways, I wonder if Neil even remembers he has a girlfriend,what if I was kidnapped? He should have reported me as missing or simply try to reach me but then maybe I was not as important to him as I used to be..

I seriously need to sleep. These thoughts are not helping me in any way. I need to get well soon and confront Neil for his odd behavior. I need to scold him-

Ding Ding
(idk how to write that sound lol)

The bell rang once and I ignored it. Twice, I ignored again.. Thrice... I'm still ignor-

Ding Ding

Thats it!I dragged myself out of the bed to meet my uninvited-stubborn-guest who didn't understand that I don't want to meet him or her.I peeped over from the door and saw Neil.Okay..

Wait, Neil!?

He looked anxious, his beautiful eyes desperately waiting for me to open the door. He runs his right hand through his hairs, something he does when he is nervous. Carefully I opened the door after plugging the chain to prevent Neil for barging in.

Yes, I missed him with every cell of my body but as I said before, I had fever and cold and I don't want to pass them to Neil. He was already too busy with his new project.

"Neil?" I called him and he looked at me finally after oogling titles like it was the most beautiful thing he has ever seen in this world.

"How are you Avni? Open the door" Neil said or precisely shouted. I don't know if he is angry or worried or maybe both.

"No, I have fever and cold. I can't open the door" I tried to sound threatening but failed miserably under his piercing glaze.

"Do you think I care about that right now?Open the door"

"No"

"Avni I said open the door!" He shouted and now I'm sure he was raging with anger.What is wrong? I was supposed to be mad at him! I slowly unplugged the chain and he pushed the door open, probably frustrated by my slow motion baby steps.

"Why didn't you replied to my messages?Why aren't you messaging me since two days!?"

"My phone broke and I-"

"How are you Avni?"

"Much better Neil" Liar! My 90-year-old back and 80-year-old knees were hurting like I just finished climbing Mount Everest.

"Only if I treated you better..I'm sorry for neglecting you, my friend's wife died in an accident today and I kept thinking about you, I was so worried sick, I'm sorry it took something so huge for me to realize your worth.."

And he hugged me. Not to forget that we were meeting after two months and I missed his arms, his intoxicating scent and his lean waist that beautifully fits into my hands.

"Neil, why were you acting so strange? I- I was so scared.. I thought maybe you don't like me now and maybe you- I want answers Neil.."

"I know this sounds ridiculous but Dad came back from Italy and saw me, talking to you. At first I thought he will be happy but no, he was angry. Angry because he saw himself in me. He told me that I can't be sweet and lovely with you, one day you will get bored and leave me just like my mom did to dad. He didn't want me to end up like him. The thought of you leaving already scared me to death and I quietly changed because I don't want to loose you Avni"

I stared at those brown orbs that reflected warmth, sincerity and honesty.I gave him a small nod and he continued..

"I know I'm just making excuses for my behavior, I was so cold and distant to you and it hurted, a lot. I stared avoiding you and soon it became a habit. Avni I'm sorry I know-"

"I love you" my eyes widened as I realized what I just said, Love. We have never used 'love' before. I told him I like you and it was simple I like you too. Although I realized that my feelings were not simply 'like' but have turned into 'love'  but I decided to not push Neil. I'm afraid that he will run away from me.

"Did I really said that? It must be because of pain killers. I'm definitely high.. I think I need rest-" I just hope he doesn't run away, please Neil..

I suddenly felt something warm on my lips...

Wait, is he kissing me?

I came back to earth when his warm tongue started exploring my mouth, lips attached to lips. I realized my eyes are still widened and I probably looked like a goldfish who was starving. I closed my eyes and my right hand found its way to his biceps, left hand tugging his shirt securely for support.

It felt so unreal, we were kissing and I finally confessed my love but when I was sick. So romantic.. Wait! I'm still sick!

I gently pushed Neil making sure he doesn't feel that I don't want to kiss him anymore. He looked at me and frowned. Yes obviously- he got it wrong.

"I'm still sick" although it felt so good to kiss him and although I wish time stopped just like they show in movies but, hey! Back to earth !

Neil, he didn't say anything back and just stared at me. Yes 'stared' and not 'looked'. I didn't dare to lock eyes with him, intimidated by his strong glaze.

"Stop looking at me, I don't look pretty"

"You are always pretty" Yeah, he had to add his clichéd line. I know him too well, he will definitely say you looked like a zombie! later.

"I know I'm not!I have bags under my eyes, my skin is so pale and I have clogged nose due to this cold, stop lying!"

"You are still pretty, but yes, not healthy and I will take care of you and stay here until you are healthy again baby"

"Stay here? As in here with me?" I can't help the blush that surfaced on my checks and Neil chuckled adorably.

"I love you Avni and I can't wait to make love with you" he whispered and god I felt goosebumps all over my body! How can he say these things so easily? Just the thought of making love with Neil was enough to set my body on fire and I felt hot- yes, in that sense.

"Oh, I feel so hot.. I will go rest now" I tried to escape but he was quick enough to pull me back into his arms. I just hope I'm not blushing cause I probably look like a monkey when I blush...

"You are so cute Avni, Do I get to kiss you now?"

"No, because I'm still sick"

"That means you have to get well soon"

He embraced me in his arms again and that was the moment I realized- Neil felt home.

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If Neil didn't had his insecurities then I would have forced him to eat pizza with pineapple for hurting our sweet little Avni!

Anyways, I changed my writing style. do you like it? *silently prays atleast one person says yes*

With love,
Nisar ❤