Finally my exams are over and I'll be frequent with updates. Before reading this chapter, please have tissue box beside you coz its going to be damn Emotional☠️😈.

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*Just a reminder -
Rohan is Neil's best friend
Pari is Avni's best friend.
Rahul is senior of avneil.

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~Avni~

Does anyone ever wondered how pain feels? Especially emotional pain?

Then let me tell you truly ,it doesn't hurt as a cut or a bruise. It's just a heavy feeling in your heart that will suffocate you from inside . It's kinda agony that will burn the emotional organ alive and on that time Your body feels all numb ;heart sherds like a piece of meat and sometimes it will eat you from inside like a pest, making your soul to shatter like quartz of glass.

Emotional Pain It's the kind of hurt that will make you paralyzed; the kind of agony that will make your heart brain numb; the kind of sorrow that will devast you physically, mentally and emotionally and Now the pain I'm suffering from inside would never fade and nothing in this world would make my pain go away.

"This agony is going to haunt me till my death and I'm sure".

"Neil Khanna " the name is like a poison to my body. The name which gives me the disgusting ,creepy feel. I hate him...I hate him so much that I would rather die instead of seeing his face.

Two weeks back, When I first met him on road, I thought he is bit weird. I thought he is a different guy with beautiful brains with stoned heart but no...i was wrong. He didn't have brains and he is not cold hearted human.

He is monster.. he is psychopath.

"A sadist who loves to see pain in others".

"A psycho who wants to break every one's heart".

I wish.. I never met him. I wish I could wipe all the memories that incorporated between us. I wish I could vanish all the toxic memories I had with him into the air so that I could live in peace... I wish I never did prank on him.. I could only wish coz now there's no use of regretting as everything thing is destroyed by him.

My foot steps stumbled as I walk through the corridors of empty halls thinking all the above things.

My face stained with dired tears and Eyes ignited red indicating my burning heart. I felt so lifeless as now I could realize my self respect is brutally killed by Neil. He just wiped my character like a piece of shit.

He destroyed everything my soul, my heart and now there's no thing that could attach those precious things of mine. If I could turn back and go then I would have never met that bastard.

"How could he do such a big thing easily ? Does he have any heart beneath the skin? "

My legs trembled to even walk a little distance indicating how weak I have become and The pain I felt inside of body would never go away.

But wait? I couldnt feel Anything. I coulnt feel the pain in my heart.

"I feel numb"

I feel vulnerable , just like a corpse.

I touched my face with my trembling hands and felt nothing.

"No tears.. "

It's strange.

How hollow I feel. . . Looked like I would drown in my own emptiness.

Never I felt this much helpless. Now I can feel It. I can feel that ,I loose in front of him. I loose infront of monster. I could feel that my Respect, Dignity burned in that video.

I trusted him. Though I know he is a jerk. I trusted him. I believed him that I could do friend ship business. That's why I made that prank so that we can have a memory. But he never took that like a prank. He took that like I murmured someone close to him. And the trust I had on him blindfolded me so much that I had forgotten that moron was going to do this much horrible.

"Did he seriously give me this much disgusting punishment for My prank? "

That day he kissed me. Forcebily! I thought he had lust for me and thought he just wanted to take revenge . But No. His intention was this.

"To prove me character less."

After the cafe incident Neil told me that he would break me nevertheless I thought he is just warning me to scare me but I was wrong he had been true to his words and he broke me like a rag doll that I couldn't even recognize myself in Mirror.

I still remember how much I cried that night. I remember how much I have sheded my tears out. How his revenge Shredded my body like a piece of meat.

That day I felt pain of losing something to him. And today. He made me loose my character in front of all. He made me feel so dumb. He made everyone think that I did all that.

"For God sake why everytime girl has to be blamed? He is too having fault of kissing me. But no everyone thinks I have seduced him. Just coz he is rich guy! "

Finally ,He created a wrost lie so that everyone could hate me. And yeah perks of being rich kid! He could do anything he want and get anything he like by hook and crook.

"I think, I'm the most sinful child in this world ,A bad omen! " I chuckled at my own thought , Because when I go back to my history all I have is worst days with deadly nightmares.

"Asish mehta"

"Vidyut"

"Neil Khanna" and.. Maybe so on. That's what I made for. To suffer the live torture.

I just got immersed in my thoughts that I haven't even realised that I have only reached half of the corridor.

I felt so weird then I realised that my legs were too weak to even walk.

I stood there for a minute , and analysed the surroundings , all I could see was creamy walls of corridors and empty ground it's coz lab area's are almost vacant at this time.

I sighed and closed my eyes. There's pain which I couldn't show outside. The pain which could never decay .
And at this point my brain isn't thinking straight as many dangerous memories of mine walked inside of my mind.

Remembering all those thoughts, tears escaped from my eyes. I don't know how but they did. They poured out like a stream of water.

I could feel my breaths have became ub normal. I feel difficult to breathe but I felt so numb move from where I stand then suddenly I felt someone shaking me.

"Avni.. Avni " I heard some manly voice shout my name.

I opened my eyes. And looked at who's speaking. At first I could decipher who it's as my vision blurred due to my own tears but soon my confusion cleared.

" Rohan.." I muttered looking at him.

My eyes widend a bit. I looked around to see Rahul and pari too.

How do they know I'm here? I wondered and the Then next second I realized that Rahul knows I'm here.

I snapped out of my thoughts as soon as I felt rohan hugging me tight.

"Oh my God avni are you all right? I was so worried about you " Rohan murmured as he embraced my fragile body in his arms.

I stood there still like a statue not responding to his hug Coz I don't feel anything.. any emotion. The minute I learnt that Neil was behind that dirty deed, that second I felt my emotions being dried out off my body.

I slightly turned my gaze to see rohan. His head was on my shoulders hands on my back. I placed my hands on his chest to push him away from me but invain. He was too strong. My eyes roamed around to see panicked faces of Rahul and Pari.

I stood silent.

My expressions were cold as ice.

"Speak something.. Avni.... Please " He almost begged not bearing the silence of me. I used to be chirpy girl untill yesterday, but today... I'm devastated in my own sense.

"Say something please " he again said pulling off the hug .

I looked at his face. His face was red and fluffy indicating how much he would have cried.

Maybe he saw that video!

Still. I stood silent. I don't know why my voice has buried inside of me.

I wanted to scream loud. I wanted to shout on rohan for saying; "Neil is a good guy. He wont hurt Anyone".

But no.. I can't. I feel immobilized. I feel paralyzed. I feel my throat tightened to speak anything out.

I stood there silent looking at them.

"Avni.. What happened. Avni.. Respond avni. You're scaring me ! " Rohan shakes me. But I don't feel anything. I just look at them blankly.

"Why she is like that? Why she isn't speaking anything ?"

"What's happening with her? "

"Speak something please I beg you "

I hear all this things yet I don't know why I didn't feel urge to speak back.

I gazed at at them and...

I stepped back " a step".

Then another step.

Then another. I started to back off. Coz I can't face them. They will judge me like others did. I know. They will also think I did all those nasty stuff.

"Avni why are going back? Avni " rohan shouted. But I didn't stooped. I started to go back. Away from them.

Then the ugliest thing I did.

I ran away from them. I ran as fast I can in corridors. Tears spilled out of my eyes like a flood But I couldn't care.

All I want now is to hide in alone place and never come back again.

"Avni.. Stop.. Avni" I heard their voices from behind.

Panic raised inside of my body. I can't breath. I feel suffocation. I feel I would collapse from inside pain. Then
Suddenly I felt a pair of arms encircle around my body. I struggled to go against it but in vain.

I looked up to see Rahul holding me from running.

Ho gosh he is as fast as cheetah.

"Avni stop " Rahul Roared tightening his arms around mine. I panicked.

"Please leave me " I mumbled. Tears escaped from my eyes .

His eyes softened and he left me. But I didn't Move.

I felt ashamed. Ashamed of being coward. Ashamed of being victim of this.

"Avni what's happening with you. " Rohan cried out . He cupped my cheeks.

That's it. My pain brusted out. Salty tears poured out.

"Ro.. O.. Han " I muttered directly looking at him.

"Yes. Say something " he wiped my tears.

"He did that ?" I said, but it almost looked like a question.

"Who did what? " Rahul piped in. His voice was so cold and strict.

"vi .video " I whispered looking down. A lone tear rolled down my cheek.

" Who did that avni. I swear I'm gonna cut that moron into species and feed them to my dog " Rahul screamed.

I made my face up and gazed at rohan. His face held an emotion which almost looked like a fear. A fear which he doesn't want to be truth. I know what he is thinking.

"Neil... He recorded our kiss video and posted it on media " I said blankly.

I could see Rohan's face paled out.he removed his hands off my cheeks.

"What? " Rahul screamed . "I thought it was some of his enemy who posted it on media ! " he adds his face had a disgusting look.

I looked at Pari who is standing beside me. She knew it... coz she knows our kiss was of force not with love.

"He said he took revenge of pranking him by buring my dignity " I said directly looking t rohan Coz I know rohan and Neil were best friends from childhood yet they both have so much dissimilarities.

"How?" Is only rohan muttered. I know rohan only knew about the kiss video but not the behind scenes. Not only him , no one knows Coz that video actually looked like R rated. No one will assume it was done forcibly.

I stood still and not answered his question. Silence prevailed around us. No one dared to talk. Neither me nor the trio who stood in front of me.

"Why did you kiss him? " suddenly I heard rohan say.

I looked at him with disbelief. Did he think...

"So, you too think I kissed him. Don't you? " I said bitterly. Rage hissed out of my body.

"Mera matlab Vo nhi tha " He muttered. His eyes were soft. "What.. Made you to kiss him? " he added. This time it was cold as Ice.

I looked away.

Pari placed her hand on my shoulder. She only knew what happened with me that day. Tears brimmed out my eyes.

"I can't " is only I said looking at Pari indicating her to say the reason behind all this.

"Avni.. " She wiped my tears with her thumb.

"Will you both speak anything? " Rahul interpreted. What did Neil do to you ? He adds.

"I will tell you " Pari mumbled.

Rahul and rohan looked furious yet curious.

Pari signed.

"Neil. made . avni. kiss . him. forcibly .Practically he fu*ng molested her on that day. And now he recorded that video and realised into the internet " she said harshly. Her face turned into disgust.

"You fuking don't have an idea how much avni cried that day. Not only you except me no one knows Neil did this to Her just coz she pranked him . She even couldn't consult police as he blackmailed her. I still remember how avni body was all red coz of his bite marks" .she says.

Rohan, Rahul looked stunned. His eyes were wide.

"Rohan your best friend did this to her. Avni doesn't want to tell you this coz she doesn't want to break your friend ship but now. See what he did he made her character look bad and he released her dignity inside of the lustful society. " Pari shouted.

I looked a way concentrating on the ground. I shivered when I remember those horrific day of mine.

Rohan directly stood in front of me. He made my face up with his hand to face him.

"When? When he did this to you and I even don't know? " Rohan said his voice was so demanding and cold.

I took hard breath.

"Before he made me humiliate in cafe!" I whispered.

"You even didn't bother to tell me. We had talk that night yet tumne itni badi bat tumne mujae nhi batayi? " he raised his voice. His face looked furious.

"So what should I do . Agar batati tho kya karte tum. Kya tumhe rok pate Vo sab bolo? Kya apne friend ki soch ko badlapate tum" I spat back. Tears escaped from my eyes.

"I was broken. Rohan. ...i don't know Neil will do something like this. I thought he was happy after kissing me. But I don't know he will do something like that. He said he would break me and now he succeeded" I gasped as my throat tightens.

"I'm broken now " I sobbed.

"I'm nothing. I'm hollow. I'm chacterless. I'm s.." before I could speak anything. Rohan pulled me into tight hug.

"Don't you fu*ing dare to speak like that. You are not" he whispered. I could feel his tears on my back.

I responded to his hug and cried like no tomorrow.

"I hate him.. I hate him " I muttered through Cries while he patted my back softly.

"Will you please help me if I ask anything! " I asked pulling off the hug.

"There's no need to ask avni! " Rahul who's standing in front of me, places his arm on my shoulder.

I looked at him and nodded.

"I'll give my life if you want. Avni " Rohan said , my eyes widened.

"What Neil did to you is the ugliest thing ever. I promise you one thing that bastard maybe my friend but I would never support this stuff. And I will make him suffer for his deeds. I mean it " rohan exclaimed. His eyes held sincerely.

I hugged him again . Hugged him tight. And muttered "thank you". I didn't knew someone will even say to these words to a stranger who met week's back.

"Would it possible to remove that video out of mobiles " I ask as I wipe my tears.

"Yes. Possible! By using IP address we can remove the download data or we can block it " Rahul said. His words created some hope in my heart.

"Really? " I exclaimed with bright smile. Though I could never remove the video form the brains of people yet this will stop spreading.

"Yes and I promise I'll remove that video from every funking phone. I know some hackers. Don't worry! " Rohan says.

Perks of being rich kid :).

"Thank you guys.. Thank you so much " I cried.

"Thanks bolke aur guilty feel mat karvao avni. We are indirectly responsible for your condition. " rohan mumbles.

" Let's go from here. I'll drop you at home " Rahul says grabbing my hand.

"No " I blurted out.

"What happened? " Trio shouted at the same time.

"you all go. I'll come later. I need to go somewhere! "

"Are you sure? . You look pale and I don't want to take any risk. " Rohan says sternly.

"I'm fine and Pari I'll come to flat directly. But now please leave me alone for sometime " I plead. "please ".

The front trio exchanged glances like CID investigator's.

"Okay fine! And you will come back before evening as I'll be there at your flat " rohan nodes his face.

"Okay " I smile.

"Take care avni " Pari hugged me. She knew I like being alone when I'm sad.

I just nodded .And They started to leave.

"Guys" I shout .

The trio turned back to me.

I run towards them.

"Group hug " I smile with tears. Those trio looked each other and we four hugged. Very tight.

I felt full now. I felt I have someone who will look after me. I have my group of friends from which I can share anything.

"Okay guys I'll leave now. And rohan please remove that video from the mobiles. Please ".

He nodded and rohan, Pari left leaving me alone with Rahul.

"Take care avni! " Rahul breathed staring directly into my eyes. His hands cupped my cheeks. Smoothly.

I couldn't decipher what type of emotion is that. It wasn't sympathy.. Or sad. It was something I didn't knew. But I shrugged all those.

"I will and thank you! " I smiled and Rahul too left leaving me all alone.

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I know where I'm going. Temple.
The only place where I used to share my pain. The place where I used to cry my heart out. The place where everything seems fine.

Being in Mumbai for more then two weeks I realized there is a temple behind our college. It's in a walkable distance.

I walk out of college not to mention ignoring the ugly statres of people. I didn't made my head down Coz I knew I didn't have any fault.

After sometime I reached the temple but I didn't go inside. I stood still on the steps.

I will not go in. Because what ever I have for God is gone. Today again God proved me that Im nothing but a useless girl who will always get heart broken.

I used to be so religions. I believe in God and many supersistions, of course being in village will make you believe everything. But right now I feel there's no God over there coz he or she never stopped the bad they always made good ones to suffer.

" I'll not enter into this temple until I'll get my revenge back from Neil " I swear.

I look at the goddess inside. I felt sudden wave of disappointment through out my body. Though my heart doesn't react to emotion anymore but the thing of family made me worry.

Why I'm here? I'm here for my studies and especially for money. But what I'm doing crying infront of temple.

"What mom will do if she Comes to know about all this?

She will die, coz she believes , woman respect is all important than anything. She is orthodox but still she sent me here to achieve something but what I did ? I made uslesss pranks and now...

Tears rolled down my eyes and I wiped them.

I sat on the steps like a lonely person. I had never been felt so alone, so lost... So incapable of doing anything.

"What I'll do now. Everything is ruined. My studies and my job. Maybe I'll marry vidyut in future " I cried with that thought it self Coz I never wanted to that marry that womanizer.

Suddenly I felt water droplets on my head I instantly looked up ND realised its raining.

"Great! What a timing " I chuckled. But I didn't move from my place.
And As it is noon time. No one is here. It looked isolated.

Wow I had been crying from morning!

I sat there in rain watching the durga godness blankly. Hoping I would get happy days. Tears mixed with rain droplets rolled down yet I didn't move.But After sometime, I felt so weak. So pale to even get up. I slowly stood up and realised I was all drenched.

I didn't care.

But Suddenly a wave of vertigo hit my head. I felt dizzy.

"What's happening to me? " I took stand of the side and stood their for a minute.

I rubbed my forehead to ease the ache and started to walk away from temple, but I suddenly stopped when I step on something hard.

"Oww" I yelled.

I looked down towards my feet and saw something shiny.

I furrowed my eyebrows together and then soon realized that my foot is bleeding due to sharp glass piece.

"Ahhhh " I hissed as I pulled the glass piece off my chappal.

It pierced so deep. Oh lord.

I feel tears prick at my eyes as, on one side my head started pounding and on another my leg. It's paining like hell and now I even can't walk.

I looked around to seek help from anyone but none is there.

But Soon my breaths turned shallow.i felt so difficult to breathe in rain and then I collapsed on ground with thud.

My vision blurred. My head pounded so hard and My teeth chattered due to cold wind.

"Help " I shrieked with all of my strength. Tears brimmed my eyes. But invain no one came to my rescue.

After a minute or something I felt someone shaking my body out.

"Avni. Get up...! Oh my God! What happened to you! I'm so sorry please wake up " I heard some familiar male shout but I couldn't see his face as my eyes blurred with my own tears.

"oh God " he screamed and patted my cheeks so softly.My mouth open - closed like a fish to speak something.

"Nothing will Happen to you avni. I promise. You will be fine " I again heard him say. His voice held so worry. I tried to see who it is ,but I couldn't.

Then he lifted me in a in bridal style .I suddenly felt warmth engulfing me all around. I snuggled more towards him placing my head against his chest.

I could feel the familiar scent. I could feel the same voice. I knew it! but Before I could see his face clearly. Black spots started to appear on my face and then I blacked out.

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Long chapter isn't it? Anyways let's test people's intelligence.

Who's the mysterious person that carried avni at last part 🤔? Do comment if you know him 🌚.

Well I'll be regular in updates but I have other books too so I'll update every story one after another. And one more thing I'm going to do a little modification for this story which I'll tell you in next chapter. Until then bye. Take care. Love you cuties 🤩.