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Avni's Pov :

The sun already drowned into the deap ocean leaving the sky with purple blue haze . it was almost going to be a night and here I'm walking lifelessly on mid streets of Mumbai ,don't know from how many hours. my legs ,my body were moving like a drunken as I really couldn't understand where and how I was going on lanes of mud. My eyes were fluffed ,almost bloodshot red with tears which in turn stopping my front view to see . now I even don't have Little energy to wipe the salty water which poured continuously from my eyes don't know from how many long hours.

My face became pale which doesn't have any expressions as my inner soul died quite hours ago in that restaurant. Walking through the road I could feel many people starring at me or previously my body and yeah I don't have a fear about that dangerous starres it is because the pain I have suffered today morning is far more than these nasty starrings .i chuckled.

Today, even God proved why girls are born... we girls are Just born to fulfill manly desires as I witnessed a monster which is In disguise of human who used a girl for lust. I really don't know, should I laugh or cry at my fate as every f***g thing messed. I came Mumbai with lots of expectations it's not cause to enjoy my life with friends it's because I have my own dreams and goals to complete and especially I want my family to be happy. But... Here everything is destroyed... My dignity, my character ,everything is demolished by the educated rich criminal.

Yesterday, my hopes were already scattered like a broken beads but I had a liltle wish that everything would be fine but I was wrong. God proved me wrong again making my heart to suffer with another problem. My heart is aching as the morning incident is stabbing me like a knife into my pumping organ.
But one thing I'm unable to understand if Neil wants my body he could have directly asked me for having make out session ?why the hell need of that bloody drama making me helpless.

Did he want only That I beg him to leave?

Did he want me to be in an immerse pain and want to enjoy my helpless state??

What the fuck? Why my mind is still not getting over the fact that the great topper Neil khanna could do anything like that. Why the hell I'm not admitting he is f*king rapist.

I swear if it is a dream then this would be my wrost night mare coz I trusted him.
I trusted Neil so blindly thinking he is a gentleman that even I haven't realized his evil intentions.
And now I just want anyone to wake me up from this nightmare but.... Avni... This is fuk*g reality.... He touched you. He kissed you forcibly !! Who gives him the right to touch me and who the hell is he ?Boyfriend? At least friend? No... So what should I call him... A moron who forced a girl to complete his manly desires? Ofcourse yes, that's true. He should be claimed as a "educated criminal ".

But I think blame should not given to him. It's me who at first sight thought he is a good guy and I faithfully trusted him without knowing the nasty person inside. Yeah why I'm cursing Neil it's not him who did all this to me. I was the only one who initiated kiss thinking and saving about my goal and studies . And I'm only one responsible for my terrible yet horrible condition. So yes there is no fault of Neil and I don't have any reasons to hate him as it was all me who pranked and digged my own grave. I have to admit this truth!!

But....but.... just for a silly reason can someone pull this type of filthy stunt ?? How so people wants to make suffer innocents.Yeah, after all what can I expect from a rich handsome guy , he is powerful and lusted over me so he just utilized opportunity and finally took my everything ,my first kiss my soul and even my character. But why I ain't protested rather than I kissed him senselessly tasting his mouth.

Wow avni wow. You your self got drowned into his charm.
he did everybloody thing with me ,sorry forced me to do but dont know if I ain't stopped at the right time it must have lead to a huge make out session or I can say rape. and I must slap myself hard as I just stood silent there taking all assaults.

Am I that much week that I didn't protested ,when he was playing with my dignity? Am I that much coward that that I just ran from there rather than beating him for his filthy things and why would I even allowing him to touch?Avni, Is that much cheap that she will give her body to the road side strangers?No.... I'm the strongest girl ever and I'm. But today where is that girl who used to pretend the strongest?

Is that just a showoff to this world?? I think its true Im just a coward girl who hadn't saved her character due to fear of some rich criminal and surrendered everything to him. When he was assaulting me how could I be silenct ?did my Maa only taught this and I just behaved like weak typical girl .

Months ago I used to say "mom why aren't you protesting towards dad when he was physically torturing you?" but now what I did the same thing.. The same as i took his assaults and I ran from there without teaching him a lesson...

Huh!! Why? People want me to suffer first disgusting "asish mehta "next that animal " vidyut " and now "Neil". Don't know in future how many!! am I that bad that every man wants me to suffer until I die. By now my eyes lost tears as my body is dehydrated coz of continuous shedding .and I could feel my body is feeling devastated and weak of the assaults that I took at morning. Now I even don't have little energy to move forward .but staying in the middle roads that too in this state is not a good idea it's coz this cruel world doesn't have any drought of male beasts who lusts over the women .

While thinking all this things don't know how I reached to my flat .but fear engulfed in my heart to go inside as Pari might get scared after seeing my horrible condition. I swear She will definitely go mad after watching me like this.. but now I don't have any other option. So hesitatingly ,I pressed the calling button while I rubbed my eyes and cheeks with my sleeves to remove the tears which were streaming down neck.

"Avni stop crying okay. Just stop. You don't have to cry for that bastard.Okay don't cry, if you don't want your best friend to scare with your red eyes ". I consoled myself to not to cry from inside but what about the scars that are clearly visible to outside .. Could I hide them too?? suddenly I was feeling completely energy less and weak my eyes again teared up with pool of tears as again my brain got reminded of the assault that I have faced. When I was in my wrenching thoughts. Pari opened the door. I wondered why pari took along time to open.

When Pari opened the door .she stood still examining me from top to bottom. I couldn't resist her astonished eyes which were now filled with water. Suddenly I collapsed onto her in a flood of tears.

"Avni... Avni what happened avni what happened.. Say something.. Why are you crying? "she asked me on a concerned tone but I just sobbed hard into her as my throat went dry .

"would you fuck*g tell me what happened. Why the hell are you in mess. Avni get up... " she blurted with teary voice after she led my fragile body over the couch in hall.

I sat on couch with emotion less face yet with sobbing eyes. While Pari led keyout the door. Afterwards she came and sat in front allowing me to cry on her shoulders until I couldn't cry longer. I whimpered loud for a long time. When I finished my crying her shoulder was drenched with tears. I even wondered how come these tears are pouring from my eyes as from morning I was continuously shedding . I slowly looked into her eyes which depicted fear. While tear drops made their way to my kurthi top.

"Avni what is this ?what happened " why are you crying?. And your face.. She asked me while examining my tear stained face .while I didn't respond to her words as I was in a deep turmoil.

"Avni speak something,what happened. Your scaring me now. Say something please. I can't bear this silence " she shaked me while clenching my shoulders. Due to vigrous shaking my duppata slightly dropped down which I covered to hide the red and purple bites are clearly visible to her. Now I could see she was speechless... slowly I looked in to her. I feared to her reaction..

"avv.... Av... A .....avni what.. What is this ...what is this.... Who did this avni..... She shivered while touching the red bruise on my neck..

"Ahhhh " . I hissed in a low voice but it is auidle enough to hear.

Pov ends.

"Avni who did this.avni speak something avni please" Pari cried in front of her while avni just sat numb.

"Avni please talk to me .. Why are you silent. Who is that moron did this to you. Say something avni..I swear I'll kill that bastard ". Pari rored with red eyes as she could see Avni's devastated state which was not less than a horrific ghost.

Avni looks towards Pari sadly.

"Pari, do you think I'm sl*t who will fulfill manly desires " at last avni spoke with an expression less voice which made Pari astound.

"Are you fuking mad? what the hell are you speaking. Do you even realize what are you speaking avni "she blurted back .

"Pari ,I'm speaking truth. Coz morning he said only that ,I'm who*e and I proved....by kissing him..and now I think I'm sl... Before avni speaks further Pari slapped avni hard while avni came back to senses.

"Don't you dare to speak like that. What Happened avni. why the hell are you speaking this type of cheap things for you .Avni please ..i can't see you like this.. Please say. Who assaulted you. Speak please! Pari sobbed or previously begged infront of avni.

"Pari " .Avni's voice trailed off. While Pari sat beside her.

"Pari" he....he... molested me... He tried to.... But I... I just stood still taking his nasty things .. I'm bad.. Now I'm dirty... "he kissed me ....He made me to kiss him. Avni says in a chocking voice yet crying bitterly.

"Avni who.... Who the fuck is that beast... What happened say clearly. Who is he?? Pari asked shakingly as now she understood avni was indeed molested by someone .

Avni stood silent while tears made their way..

"Avni say before I loose temper. Speak avni speak... Pari yelled on avni harshly to spill the truth out.

"NEIL ".the only word avni spoke.

"what "?? No.... Your joking right!! don't say... Neil... Neil did this to you... Pari whimpered.

Avni looked into her and nodded positively.Thats it shock is underestment for Pari.

"Neil did this to you " how it's possible. Avni... No ....how could he .pari fumbled words as he is not digesting the fact "

"Pari don't go into handsome looks .He is fuking rapist. Avni says sarcastically with tears.

"Avni..what did he do with you ..this bites... Please say clearly what happened at morning.pari asked calmly as she knows what has avni feeling .

" what he did "..you want to know what he did, that moron assaulted me for fulfilling his sexual desires. And you know he used my helplessness for that. " and he ...he. ....Avni stammers while remembering the way he treated her body, the way he touched her bare back.

"Avni please spill everything you can feel lighter ."Pari mumbled.

" Pari... (teary eyes) he forced me to kiss him and he stripped my dress ". avni said with disgust.

"Haah" what?.Pari gasps with shock.

"haan, morning he called me to fulfill his desires " he is a Criminal Pari. He is a criminal. Avni cried while closing her face with palms.

Avni go let's go to police station. We are going to file a case for forcing you. Go get ready quick. We are leaving. Pari says while making avni get up from couch.

"Pari it's not possible. I was only one who kissed under influence. He said he I ain't do that, then he will destroy my goal. So for my dreams I did that. And now there is no use in filling the complaint as he is rich and powerful than us. Avni sobbed with helplessness.

"shhh, avni don't cry. He will face for his nasty deeds. "avni please your my strong girl.Pari tries to console.

"Pari, do you think just for pranking he tried to degrade me. How can he do that. Did he really think I Am that type of girl. Pari I was scared if I wouldn't kissed then he might throw me out from Mumbai and he is capable of too. Avni sobbs.

"Avni do you really think money can do anything ".no... Avni no.. I know he is rich it doesn't mean he can do anything like fuking molestation
And how could you be silent.Pari blurts.

"iknow im strong but see the situation where I'm struck .I have to find job that too in three months and my engineering. So how could I complete these all if I go for fights now. You don't know how my heart is bursting with fire just to destroy Neil khanna but right now my aim is more important than bloody revenge. Avni whimpered.

Pari looks on.

That's why I came to desicion that I'm leaving this topic here itself. Avni says calmly rubbing her tears.

What? Are you serious he tried to assault you avni and your saying to leave him. Pari spats.

"Pari listen... I know he is a beast and I don't care about his assault. He himself proved, he is an animal by taking revenge for silly problem. And now my goal is my family, you and my studies that's it. I don't care anything.avni blurts with rage.

"Avni , Are you scared of him That he is powerful" . Pari asks with widened eyes.

Avni simply stays silent .

"Avni.... How could you leave him. Why you don't want to punish his deeds". Pari further words r interrupted by avni.

" Pari, Don't think I'll leave that Moron like this much easily . He don't know what a middle class girl can do if she wants to. I'm not scared of his power, I'm scared of me.. I'm just controlling myself to not to do any dangerous deeds which I'm capable off. Now I'm just giving him a second chance to change himself if he changes that's good if not then he will just burn with the fire that I'm having in my heart. And even I have handled these type of bastards in past...asishmehta . So forget everything and sleep. Don't stress over it. Avni says boldly to Pari ND leaves to her room.

pari : "avni... How could she be silent after this much happened. I don't think she is a girl who will bear assaults .avni is up-to something. God please don't make her suffer more. Already she is a mess with many problems.

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Later avni goes to take a shower as it was Indeed needed to clean the dirt she was carrying from morning. She just stood numb under w hile tears of pain rolled through her eyes eventually mixed up with water like a transparent solution and flowed through out her body ...her heart was broken into pieces of quartz . And her heart ached while remembering the whole scenario.

" God, am I that much bad that your giving me this much pain " avni muttered slowly through the water.

"I think yes, it's coz the day I was born form that day I'm facing every hell. I used to remember how asish mehta used to slap me when I was a small child. But later after growing little more he stopped that assault as I protested. And now here Neil khanna... He did the same .the way asish wants me to see in pain like wise Neil wants me to see in pain. And he is damn successful In that .atlast he broke me... He shredded my heart like a meat. But why my brain is not protesting towards Neil. Why I'm feeling something different in that brown eyes and why the hell I want to give him a second chance. Why???? Whhhhhyyyyyy? She screamed loud while rubbing her whole body harshly with the water .

"Avni ,what's happening to you. Are you scared of his power and money. Maybe yes it's coz if I move any wrong step then Don't know what that filthy person will do with me. Today he just asked kiss. Tomorrow what if he asks to warm his bed ".then what will you do Avni.

Why Neil why.. I trusted you.. Why you did that thing .. Why are you making me helpless. Why? while thinking avni she slowly slid to the floor of bathroom. Crying bitterly.

"NEIL KHANNA I HATE YOU... I JUST HATE YOU..... YOUR MONSTER... YOUR BEAST WITH OUT HEA
ART IN YOUR BODY" avni sobbed in bathroom while her cries are echod the whole flat.

"Avni... I promise Neil will suffer for making you cry like this... Pari thought to herself .

After sometime avni came from shower her eyes were swollen with red color . Slowly she slipped into her pyjamas then she called someone.

" maa " Avni said in a teary voice.

"avni beta. How are you. It's quite long time that we had a talk." she replied.

"Actually I was busy. That's why. I'm sorry" 

" it's ok. And what happened to your voice. Are you crying? " she asked concerned.

"No why I will cry? " She said while biting her lip to control her sob.

"avni may be I'm not with you but by listening to your voice I could say something is bothering you. Say What happened?" 

"maa I want to sleep on your lap. I'm missing you. Please come here.. Please" she sobbed.

"avni.. Shh don't cry... What is this avni. If you cry then how I'll be normal bacha.. Please... Don't cry. " she said sadly.

" haan! Maa I want to ask something. Can I? "

"off course "

"ma'a when asish mehta Was assaulting you then why you haven't protested. Maa don't ask me why I'm asking this. Just answer it ".Avni qiestioned.

"hmm... Because I love him. "

" what "  avni gasped.

"may be your father is a cruel man. But once we used to love but circumstances changed. When we love someone we can't protest nor we can do anything with him. I used console myself it's coz I want him to change one day for you and priya.
And now he is changing avni.. Ur papa is changed after that money incident. " she said.

Avni was stunned by her confession.

"hope there everything is fine .i wish you won't throw urself in trouble." she laughed.

"Maa .everything is fine."

"Acha now sleep its too late." with that she hung up.

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After the avni went to deep thoughts thinking about the incidents.

"should I give him a second chance ?"this question was constantly twirling about this question in Avni's mind.

"HELL, why would I give him. He did such a grave mistake .why you don't want to punish to his deeds. "but her thoughts were interrupted by Pari.

"you want to give him chance because you don't have a courge to break someone's else heart. And I know you from childhood. "chahe tumhe log kuch bhi Kare tum vunko kuch palo mae hi maaff karthi Ho "same goes here. You don't want to go into unnesseray revenge.and you don't want to give pain. And I also know your pure heart avni. How could someone be so innocent like you. I swear no one.... Pari says.

"haan ur right. My heart doesn't allow to harm other person but he did wrong right so, why my brain is not allowing to pushih him. Avni replies with teared voice.

Pari sighs. ..avni now it's up to you that you want to give him a chance or would like to punish. By saying Pari leaves. Again Avni gets drowned into her thoughts while thinking she remembers the night she spent with Neil. How they used to fight for silly things. How he tried to pacify her. And how everything destroyed in freshers party. While remembering fresh tears brimmed from her eyes which she wiped out. And was about to go to sleep then her phone rings and she quickly reverts.

"Hey avni " . Rahul chirped.

"Rahul this time? why are you calling." She asks in soft voice.

"actually I was missing you in college. I know you won't do that type of things and I know who trapped you too."

"what how did you know?? " she asked shocked.

"I have already told you that he is a jerk . Please stay away from him ,Neil is not a good guy. " Rahul says.

"yes. You are right. Jo bahar dikta hai andhar vaise nhi hota.who can know this better than me. "Avni says sarcastically.

"haan! what are you doing I mean soyi nhi ab tak? "

"ya I was about too then your call.rahul if I ask something will you help me ?" she asks.

"yeah, of course avni. "

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"avni.. I want little time but sure I'll give you information tomorrow.anyways thanks for taking some action against that moron. " Rahul hissed.

" hmm but please don't let anyone know about this. And thank you. " Avni smiled.

"not to mention. I'm your bestie right. yeah gud nt. "

"gud nt. " with that avni slowly drifts to sleep.

Next day -

"avni where are going this much early Morning. You should take rest ." Pari says looking at avni who's getting ready.

"rest lene Se kaam nhi hote .im going in search of job ,I mean interview" actually I applied long before. "

" all the best avni.i know you will rock. "she hugs her later avni leaves.

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Avni reaches home with a disappointed face and she herself throws on bed coz of huge exhaustion.

"hey avni your here how's the interview. "Pari inquires while entering Avni's room.

"Hmm Pari.. I haven't selected for anyone of coz they think I'm inexperienced and not even a graduate. " avni replies sadly..

"So, what now ".pari asks curiously she thought avni is not going to stop her efforts.

"actually I sort of idea to join the cafe at evenings coz we are free and college timings also favour. So I'm joining there from tomorrow. "avni says causally while hugging the cotton pillow ".

"What " are you serious. Cafe NO.. Pari worries.

"it's OK Pari. Something is better than nothing. While doing this I'll find any job. After finding. Then I'll leave. And please now make something I'm so hungry. Avni pouts and Pari leaves .

"hope everything would be fine tomorrow " avni says to herself .

Meanwhile in khanna mansion.

"neil sir, according to information she is joining cafe tommorow. "

" yaya ,good and thanks for the information and must say your good at spying. " Neil smirked.

" that's what I'm paid for. And if I get further information I'll send to you. "

"Make sure to give every single information about her."  And with that the he cuts the call.

Neil to himself : so, avni mehta she joined cafe but whats the need?? Anyways Get ready for tomorrow miss mehta.hope you like my presence.

later he calls someone.

I'm Really sorry if the chapter is not up to your expectations .I was really really in a bad mood to write but I can't deny your requests . Hope, its that not much boring.

Sry no avneil scenes in this chapter 😝.I just want to express Avni's inner turmoil even I'm those one of girls who give second chances to others forgetting what they did. Alas ,Don't worry ladydon will be back soon! 😉
So what do you think what would be avneils next move??

Please don't mind if I give slow updates it's coz I'm going to enter my last year of graduation (UK stressful year) and many works are surrounding me like coaching , personal works which are really bursting my brain and inturn a stress. So it will take time to write updates from the work schedule☺.