In the morning, I woke up to an empty bed and I just decided to chill out and listen to music.. Ironically, Losing Sleep by Boyz II Men came on. I love that song, but it's so depressing. As I listened to it, I got images of last night in my head. I began to smile and then it faded when I got mixtures of last night, my first time and the day after my first time with him.. I tried to stop the images but they wouldn't stop so I just decided to text Jacob.

"Hey J. I'm up now." ~ Autumn

His phone lit up on the table on his side of the bed. I looked at it and sighed. At least I knew that he was coming back this time.. Then he got a text from someone else and I ignored it. But once he got a call.. I had to answer the phone..

Helen: Hey Jakeybear, remember how I told you I had a surprise for you?

Autumn: Helen?

She got quiet and then started talking again.

Helen: Hey Autumn, how are you doing?

Autumn: I'm fine.. How are you?

Helen: I'm doing very well, thank you. Listen, can you do me a favor?

Autumn: Depends on what it is..

Helen: Do you think that you can tell Jacob the good news for me?

Autumn: What good news?

Helen: Well Autumn.. I'm pregnant!

I had to pause for a minute. Well, at least she's happy.

Autumn: I'm glad that you're happy about it! Most teenagers get depressed and go for abortions..

Helen: Oh I wouldn't abort this baby for the world..

She said in a sly tone.

Autumn: May I ask who the father is?

Helen: Well.. That's actually why I called.. You see, the father of my baby is Jacob..

My world came falling apart in that instant. I couldn't speak and pretty soon, the song became a repeat.

Girl you got me losing sleep,
I'm never gonna dream again
If I can't have you next to me,
I'd rather not play pretend..

I had no idea what to do or say. I didn't know if I wanted to kill Jacob or pretend it didn't happen or anything. I had just given him access to my heart again and now I get hit with this..

Helen: Well, I'll leave you two to discuss this with each other. I hope you two will handle it well.. See you at school.

And then she hung up. I just sat there. I couldn't cry, I couldn't move or anything. I was numb to the world until the knob to the door twisted open.

Jacob: Hey baby, I just ran down really quick to order us some breakfast.

He set the tray down and then looked up at me.

Jacob: Baby, what's wrong?

I didn't know how to communicate because I didn't know how I wanted to do it. But eventually, I did.

Jacob: Baby?

Autumn: Helen called..

Jacob: Oh coo, what'd she say?

Autumn: She's pregnant..

I shrugged and didn't look at him.

Jacob: Good for her.

Autumn: Oh cut the bullshit! You don't have to play pretend! I know it's yours! She told me!

He stood up and looked at me.

Autumn: You said that you'd stop sleeping with her and I-I trusted you! I gave you everything just to find out that you don't want it! All you want is my ass and that's it! No wonder.. No wonder why Nicole hates you.. Why do I always have to see the good in people when nobody else does? Why do I trust the wrong people? Man I.. Even now, you couldn't even look me in the eyes and tell me that the baby might be yours..

Jacob: Well, how the fuck was I supposed to know? You and I both know that she's a hoe!

Autumn: Um, newsflash! If you slept with her, she might get pregnant by you! And even that! You didn't even care enough to use a condom.. But now I see.. I wish, man I wish!

Jacob: What? You wish what? Just say it!

Autumn: You want me to say it?

Jacob: Yes! Say it!

Autumn: Fine! I wish I never fell in love with you! I wish we never met and I wish I would've fell in love with Trevor!

~Jacob~

My eyes burned with fire. Why the fuck would she say that?

Jacob: What? You what?!

I didn't hear anything other than his name. Even though I knew that she was saying words before and after his name, all I could hear was his name.

Autumn: Trevor! ...Trevor...! Trevor...!

Jacob: Oh really? So wanna go be with that nigga who doesn't fucking love you?

Autumn: How the fuck do you know that?

Jacob: Because I know what love is and what it feels like!

The room became silent. I could hardly see her face and for some odd reason, the room was getting hot.

Jacob: Yes, I lied, I cheated and I've done some fucked up shit but Autumn, let's face it! I'm not perfect and I swear if you say anything while I'm talking..

Autumn: What? You'll do what?

I knew she was crying.. I could hear it in her voice.

Jacob: It's not what I will do, it's what I won't do..

She stopped talking because she started getting choked up.

Jacob: I've lied many times but if there's one thing that I've never lied about is about loving you.. Autumn, I'd die for you and when the time comes, I'll prove it. I know I messed up and I really shouldn't have cheated but I was different when I cheated. I was still try'na fool you and still get what I wanted until I could get it from you. But my-..

I stopped myself. Was I ready to give the big of a title to this man? I stood up a little straighter and let my words flow.

Jacob: My father.. My father was the one who opened my eyes to you. Yes, he wasn't around since my toddler years but the man had some damn good advice on how not to lose you. He is the reason why I started taking to seriously and took you out on dates and took the time out to get to know you. This man that I barely even know for myself is the reason why I got to know who you are as a person and the reason why I was able to fall in love with you.. Autumn, please.. I Love You so much..

I couldn't help it. I could no longer see and once I touched my face, I knew why.. My hands were wet from my tears. I've never cried over a girl before.. Never..

Autumn: You're done?

She asked, still in tears. I nodded.

Autumn: Well let me tell you a story that's already been told.. The short version. There was girl who fell in love with the wrong guy and gave him her virginity just to be slapped in the face with reality and by a car. Now that she has awoken, she hardened her heart but not hard enough because she made the same mistake and now sits in a bed with a pool of tears in from of a man-. No- a BOY who can't stay loyal even if his life depended on it! Now, do you see a Fucking moral? Do you see a Fucking pattern?

I couldn't answer her because I was done talking. I can't argue anymore..

Autumn: The moral of the story is that scars last forever and once a boy, always a boy!

Jacob: STOP IT!

I screamed. I couldn't take it anymore.

Autumn: Now you are able to see how I feel and felt both times.

She began to put on her clothes.

Jacob: Autumn..

Autumn: Take me home, now. Once we get in the car, you will not touch me, you will not talk to me and when I get home, you will not text me, you will not call me, and God forbid if you come to my house. Nigga, I will fuck you up in a heartbeat..

She became Nicole for a little bit which scared me.

Autumn: So try me. I dare you. If you do-oh! I will kill your soul and drag your body to hell!