~Autumm~

On Tuesday, I wore all black with my black shades. I had that I-Don't-Give-A-Flying-Fuck attitude. The first thing I did when I got to school was go to main office.

Michelle: Good morning, Autumn.

Autumn: Wish I could say the same, Michelle.

Michelle: What's wrong?

Autumn: All I gotta say is to make sure that all the cameras are zoomed in on me and that all the security guards and on my back every second of the day for the next two months.

I flashed a quick smile at her and left the office. I arrived at my first class and sat down, not caring if Jacob was right there. He smiled at me and said good morning but I just ignored him. He sighed and actually started paying attention to Mr. B's lecture. That surprised me, not impressed me. The rest of the day went normal besides the fact that I had a demon on one shoulder all day and an angel trying to convince me that he's not worth my anger on the other. Literally. They were right there, all day. I almost had a mental breakdown when I saw Helen. She was smiling and talking to her friends about whatever. I wasn't in the mood to talk to her but she apparently was.

Helen: Hey Autumn!

I looked over at her and flashed a quick smile.

Helen: Come here!

I came over and stood.

Autumn: I'm here. Now what?

She didn't let my bland tone block her happiness. I had never seen her so happy in my whole life..

Helen: I was just over here telling Jeneifer about what happened and the good news! So, did you and Jacob work things out?

Autumn: Okay, you know what Helen. Cut the bullshit. You wanted him and now you got him, okay? Praise God because you're now pregnant by the only..

I had to stop myself. Be cool, Autumn. Breathe.. I told myself. Instead of going off, I just took my shades off, rested my hand on her shoulder and smiled.

Autumn: Helen, if you're happy, then I'm happy. Congratulations and good luck to you and your child. Please, keep Jacob away from me. Okay?

She nodded, a little on the confused side, and then gave me a hug. I think I like the pregnant Helen. Shit, I wish she would've gotten pregnant earlier.. As I walked away, I put my shades back on and walked to my next class. The rest of the day, I tried not to think about ways to kill him if he even touched me or came to my house. And I'm serious this time..

I think I'm gonna call my uncle for this one.. Nah.. He's overly crazy.. He tried to kill my mother on many occasions before I was born and after. I think I'm just gonna call Nicole.. Nah, she's equally crazy. She's just the controlled type of crazy. She knows when to let loose and when not to. Okay.. No, I can't call Trevor because.. I don't know why I can't call him, I just know I can't.. Ugh! If I don't call somebody, I'm gonna end up in jail! And that's an understatement!

Lunch was the absolute worst. I tried to go sit outside by myself but Helen thought that we should eat together and I swear, all she talked about was Jacob this and Jacob that and all this bullshit about this and that meaningless shit. I ain't never hear so much garbage in my life! But I felt with it because she seemed happy and although I didn't like her, I wanted her to stay happy. I did not, on any circumstances, want to argue with her. Wednesday and Thursday went the same way, but Friday at lunch I told Helen that I wanted to eat alone that day. When I went outside, someone was waiting for me at the table.

Trevor: Hey Autumn..

Autumn: Trevor?

I was shocked out of my mind and I didn't know if I wanted to smile, be happy and hug him or if I just wanted to continue to be grim and kinda be on the ignorant side. I figured, he didn't know what happened and on top of that, it's not his fault. He doesn't need to suffer for Jacob's mistake.

Trevor: Yeah. I decided to visit the school again and see my old friends, along with some old teachers of mine.. And.. To see why you haven't returned any of my calls.

He turned his head to the side and we laughed. I looked down.

Autumn: I didn't get them yet.. It's a long story..

Trevor: I got time.

I laughed again. I need to stop that..

Autumn: For my sake, can we please change the subject?

Trevor: For your sake?

Autumn: Yes. For my sake.

Trevor: Alright. Well, how are things between you and Jacob? You guys were pretty hot last night.. I mean, a few nights ago..

Oh shit.. Of all things God, why?

Autumn: Damn.. Okay, fine. Here's the beans. Jacob and I broke up and I turned my phone off. That's why I haven't answered any of your calls or texts.

He nodded.

Trevor: Okay.

Autumn: What?

Trevor: Well, you seem like you wanna kill a few souls so..

He reached into his pocket and handed me a mixtape.

Trevor: Does this make you feel any better?

Autumn: Oh my goodness.. Trevor! Thank you!

I hugged him and inspected the mixtape.

Autumn: In My Feelings?

I read out loud and then looked up at him.

Trevor: Well The songs I made on there really explain how I felt at the time about Courtney and other things. So.. Yeah..

Autumn: That makes sense. I'll check it out when I get home.

Trevor: Well, you know actually we can check it out right now if you like?

Is he..? No.. It can't be..

Autumn: Where?

Trevor: My car. I actually wanna talk to you about the songs that we danced to. I was wondering if we could be a dance duo.

Autumn: That'd be great, actually. I need something to keep my mind occupied for the next few days.. Weeks.. Two months..

He just smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. The bell rang and I realized that I hadn't even touched my food. I shrugged and just threw it away.

Trevor: So, are you gonna turn your phone back on today?

Autumn: Maybe..

Trevor: Well, do you have anything planned?

Autumn: For today? Nope. I'm open to the world.

Trevor: Would you like to dance again?

Autumn: Sure..