~Jacob~

When I got home, I thought about everything that Autumn had said.. A waste of time.. That's what she said I was.. It's no better than what my mom often calls my old man.. A deadbeat and not the father type.. Which is also what Autumn said.. My old man couldn't settle down and now look at him.. I don't wanna be like that. I gotta show Autumn that I'm worthy and this all ends now. So, I called Helen and waited for her to answer.

Helen: Hello?

Jacob: Hey, um.. Helen?

Helen: What's the matter Jakey Bear?

Jacob: Stop calling me that.. Come over as soon as possible.

Helen: I'll be ready.

I could hear her smiling on the other line and hung up without another word. This would be a hard decision but if it meant that Autumn get back together, then that's fine with me. I paced the floor thinking of what to say and how to say it without getting slapped.. Even though that seems unavoidable at the moment. I had absolutely no idea how to tell her. There was a knock that echoed throughout the room and I took a deep breath.

Jacob: Here it goes..

I said just before opening the door. Helen's lips were the first thing I saw as she held a pose that made me lose part of my focus. Her coat was partially open and then the crash of softness to softness was felt between us. Everything went black and the world began to move as the sound a door closing echoed. I felt something tighten around my waist and then Autumn was the only thing I saw. I put Helen down on my bed and then stood up.

Helen: What's wrong Jake?

Jacob: Don't call me that..

I sighed as I sat down on the bed. Helen came over and began to kiss from my shoulder to my neck.

Jacob: I can't do this anymore..

She laughed.

Helen: Do what?

Jacob: This! Us having this little thing on the side.

She sat up and stared at me.

Helen: So what did you call me for?

Jacob: I called you here to break things off.. completely..

Helen: What?

She scoffed in disbelief.

Jacob: No more quickies, no more sexting or calling for a bit of fun.. Just friends..

Helen: It's because of Autumn, ain't it?

I thought about it and then I knew my answer.

Jacob: No. She's not forcing me to do anything. I just think that our lives would be better if we chose to discontinue this way.

Helen: I can't believe this. I can't believe what I'm hearing.

Jacob: I'm sorry..

She stood up.

Helen: It's whatever. It was supposed to be a no strings attached thing anyway.. and if you want to break things off, then so be it.

Jacob: Thanks for understanding.

Helen: No problem. She must really be something special.

Jacob: Yeah..

I smiled.

Helen: So what are you gonna do now?

Jacob: Watch cartoons, I guess..

Helen: Not that, onion head. What's your next step towards Autumn?

Jacob: Make her mine by earning her trust back. Then earn her respect for me and feelings for me back. After that, only God knows.

Helen: Well, I'm out of here onion head. Get some sleep. I'm actually glad because now, we can finally start passing our classes.

We laughed.

Jacob: Yeah. If it want for Autumn last year, I'd be a repeat.

Helen: Same with me and Ty'Rel.

Jacob: Yeah.. Night Hell Fire.

Helen: Night, Jakey Boo.

When the door closed, I only half regretted doing what I just did because the thought of Autumn made mini me rise to the occasion and I had no one to put him to bed. Well, I remember Autumn & I'm altercation and I can say that it felt good only because I was her first. I was not Helen's first..

Jacob: Oh, what am I gonna do?

~Helen~

I hate that bitch. I fucking hate that bitch. She took my man, she ruined what little I had left of him and now nobody wants me. I go on dates all the time but none of them are my type. You might've thought that the bitch and I had some sort of thing, but we don't. Shit. I hope she get hit by another car. Talking bout some butterfly legs.. Bitch! You don't know my story! You don't know me! Back the fuck up or face the wrath of my earings being on the ground and vasoline on my face before I knock yo fucking lights out. Dumb bitch.

I told Jacob that I wasn't a virgin because I didn't want to have to explain myself to him. I didn't want to have to explain why I'm so loose and not the virgin type. My reason being is that when I was younger, I used to get abused. Physically, mentally, emotionally and sexually. The assults turned into actions and actions turned into my lifestyle. It's not my fault that I think the way that I do. Plus, I'm no hoe. Jacob was the only other guy that I ever trusted to touch me. Now that the feeling of his security is gone, I'm scared and I have no idea what to do. What if they comes back? What if they do it again? I can't go through all of that again.. I'd rather die.