~Autumn~

I woke up that morning on Sunday and I was ready to cut it. I was so ready to cut my long black hair and get it redyed so that my mornings would be easier and so that my hair wouldn't be so nappy. It was still messed up from the fight with Helen and now I think that it's time for a change. I threw on a dress, grabbed my wallet and went straight to church.. Yes.. I promised my Dad that I'd go with him this Sunday.. He thinks that I'm losing the faith because of the fight with Helen. So I listened to the message.. It was nice.
The title was The Circle of Life.. I know.. Like the Lion King. But the Pastor had some great points about it and I enjoyed myself. I promised to try and make it next Sunday.. Key word.. Try.. And then I went to the hair salon. One of my friends works here.

Nicole: Daaaaaaaaaamn! Who is you and what have you one with my best friend?

I had to laugh. She was so loud with her gum in her mouth. She sounded just like Nicki Minaj when she said that.

Autumn: Hey Nic.

I said as I went in to hug her.

Nicole: What's up girl. Ooh. All this damn hair! Back up.

Autumn: That's actually why I'm here..

I took a deep breath.

Autumn: First, I'm going to get my hair redyed and then.. Then I'm going to cut it..

Her eyes nearly popped out of her head.

Nicole: No way! Really?

Autumn: Yes.

Nicole: Who dis nigga?

Autumn: What?

Nicole: Where he live? What's his numba?

Autumn: Nicole, there ain't no guy involved..

Nicole: Not yet anyway..

She said as I sat in the chair.

Autumn: Well..

Nicole: Spill.

She said, spinning my chair around to face me.

Autumn: Hear me out-.

Nicole: It bet-not be who I think it is.

Autumn: It is..

Nicole: GURL!

Autumn: I ain't let him in! I swear I ain't..

Nicole: Then why you cuttin' yo damn hair?

Autumn: I got into a fight with his ex..

I sighed.

Nicole: When?

Autumn: At school about Thursday or Friday.. She scratched my face right here..

Nicole: Daaaaaaaaaamn! I hope you beat da bitch ass.

I held up my fist and blew on it as if it were a gun.

Autumn: You know I did.

Nicole: Ooh girl, yes! Now let me start on this head of yours.

Autumn: Alright..

Nicole: Don't worry. I got this..

Autumn: I know you do.

Nicole: I'm just gon cut it first.

Autumn: What?

Nicole: I don't wanna waste my black on hair ain't gon be on you very long! I got other clients, you know.

Autumn: So I'm a client now..

Nicole: Just until you get up out my salon. You are.

Autumn: Damn..

We laughed and she brought out the scissors. I closed my eyes and soon, my hair was laying on the floor.

Nicole: Wana look?

Autumn: Nope.

Nicole: Well girl.. When I'm done with you, you gon be looking like the young Mary J. Blige with black hair. Only better.

Autumn: Yay! This is why I love you. You hook me up good.

Nicole: Mmhmm.. You betta.

We went to the sink and she washed my hair, then began the dying process.

Autumn: So tell me about your boyfriend. How y'all been?

She smacked her lips and I was confused.

Autumn: What?

Nicole: Man.. That nigaa ain't shit. Done broke up with me for a whole notha bitch.

Autumn: Damn.

Nicole: That's what I said. He just wanted the cookie and I said, "Well if you want the cookie, you gon have to put a ring on it!" He must not want the cookie that bad.

Autumn: You don't need him. You are the best, therefore you deserve the best.

Nicole: Funny.. And this is coming from YO mouth.

Autumn: What do you mean?

Nicole: You know what I mean.. That thing..

Autumn: Jacob?

Nicole: Yep.

Autumn: Girl. I don't know.. He stopped talking to Helen altogether, stopped drinking and is actually seeming like he cares.

Nicole: Don't fall for it, girl. Cause once he get the cookie, he gon leave you just like he did last time.

I sighed.

Autumn: I know.. I've been trying to run him off but he just keeps winning..

Nicole: GURL! Now I know you ain't talking bout givin' him yo peaches and cream!

Autumn: No! I ain't giving him shit!

Nicole: But a couple kisses and yo time.

I stayed silent..

Nicole: Girl! What the hell is wrong with you?

Autumn: He stole those..

Nicole: Did he steal your time and holding your hand too?

Autumn: ....Yeah..

Nicole: Face it, Autumn.. You love him..

Autumn: No I don't. Don't even say that.

Nicole: How do you feel when you're around him?

Autumn: I.. I don't know.. I can't describe it..

Nicole: A nice, good warm fuzzy feeling..

Autumn: I..

Nicole: You love him.. You've always loved him and even now, you still love him! Just face it.

Autumn: I know.. I just can't let him know that..

Nicole: I think he already knows..

Autumn: How?

Nicole: How often does he tell you?

Autumn: Everytime he sees me.. At least two to five times.

Nicole: Does he mean it?

Autumn: No.. I don't know! How the hell am I supposed to know?

Nicole: How do you feel when he says it to you?

Autumn: I stopped everything and feel my heart beating throughout my body. He looks me into my eyes and always touches me when he says it. And I.. I think he means it..

I was so ashamed..

Nicole: Don't be embarrassed over it.. He just might be changing, like he said he was.

Autumn: Maybe..

Nicole: All is gotta say is to keep a close eye on him and close your eyes.

Autumn: Why?

Nicole: Imma wash all this damn dye out yo head, what else?

Autumn: Oh, okay.

I laughed. She rises my hair and dried it. Then she began to style it. When the reveal came, I absolutely loved the results. I paid her and tipped her an little extra, then went home. I decided to play in my makeup a little while and I liked how I looked in it. Surprisingly, I looked better than before with this new haircut. I was ready for this. I was ready for tomorrow.