I am so stupid! I should know better! Stay what you are because your not worth anything!

I just got so caught up in the wedding talk. When i heard that my brother was going to be the best man i just thought...

I should have known i wouldn't be invited! The look he gave me...

I hate this.

I want to run away and cry. I know better!

Why is he still here?

I can't take this pressure.

Look at me, crying like a stupid baby over not being invited to a wedding.

I should already know that everything doesn't matter, and that everyone just leaves and hurts you in the end.

I keep trying to go on....

It hurts so much.

Oh god i cant live like this.

I cant live knowing that nothing even matters.

Everything is just overwhelming and terrible.

I tried to be normal and to be happy and now look at me. Im crying alone in my room. Im just sitting on the ground and letting the freezing air in my room make me feel even more numb.

I hate living like this.

Their all going to know. They will see how much of a disaster i am. They hate me.

Hes gone.

He left the house.

I dont think i could have been able to face him anyway.

I cant go back out there.

I just want to stop.

I just want everything to stop.

Maybe then, will i have peace?

I just can't do this.

Is anyone even out there?
Does anyone even care on this website?

God im stupid.

Of course not.

Im just a stupid girl.

Ugh... Why am i even alive.