My emotions are completely going crazy.

I am worried about too many people right now and I just can't! 

The amount of stress that has suddenly been put on my shoulders is just UGH.

I am so worried about @sansislife12   with the sudden note she sent out. I really don't want to lose her and I just can't help but wish I was there to just stop her, right now. Instead, I am stuck in some STUPID chair in the middle of RI with absolutely nothing!

I am also so worried about my friend after she sent out a note explaining her feelings. I can only express them as the feeling of giving up, something I felt just before I attempted suicide. I know she has been depressed but god damn it am I that useless at helping?! I just want to make everyone happy because that's the only way I can live. What is even the point of my existence if I can't even help one person!

Now I feel bad because I don't even know if I just made @-Indie_Rose_Flowr-  feel worse then before. Knowing me I probably just made them feel like they are in the way.

Then I am worried about myself because I am already trying so hard to recover and It only feels like I am making things worse! I try to talk to my friend about my emotions like she wanted me to, and she ignores me. I try to get back to school and try to pass, but I miss my alarm every single god damn time. And now I am just sitting here Freaking out about people who could probably care less about me!

I just really need a break. I feel like at any moment I just might break down again. I'm on god damn suicide watch, if I do that then everybody is going to freak out! I will only make everything worse when I was just stressing out like an idiot! UGH.

I'm going to try and cool down on youtube. I will of course still be listening to any updates but I'm not doing anything useful by just yelling on here. Don't worry about me guys, I'm just fine. Like I always have to be.