So today I was going to see Linkin park live. It had always been a lifelong dream for me to see them in concert and I was so excited. 

If you haven't heard, Chester bennington (the singer for Linkin park) had commit suicide. I just... I don't know what to say. I grew up listening to Linkin park and to know that he did that I just... I don't want to believe it.

I wasn't expecting my happy morning of watching game grumps to turn to this. I wish somebody was there, or somebody had texted him or something. Nobody deserves to die thinking they are not cared for, or that it will never get better, or that it is the only way out. I personally had been about to commit suicide once before but when I got a notification from my phone behind me from Jacksepticeye, I didn't. I couldn't knowing that at least Jack, even if he doesn't know me personally or even meant to save my life, cared about me in some way. I just wish a weird coincidence like that was there to save him.

Rest in peace Chester, I hope you are in a better place now. We will miss you dearly.

And to anybody else out there thinking of suicide please, please don't. I promise there's somebody that cares about you, even if they don't know it yet. The people around you, the strangers around you are just friends you haven't met yet. If you still think nobody cares well I do. I care because you are magnificent and so bright with the strength to change the world. You see the universe started with nothing, but somehow, through all kinds of challenges and hoops and all other things the universe created YOU. Nobody will ever be as great as you, never. Nobody has the same life story of how you were created and came to be. Whether you survived through sickness, drugs, alcohol, or your parents or grandparents or great grandparents and further, is tiny if you think of it. So many things could have gone wrong that would have caused you to never to exist, but you know what? Nothing did. I believe that everybody has a reason to be alive. Whether you change the world in little ways or in huge ones, you are here for a reason. Don't let others who have lost their way on finding their reason get you down. 

Do you know how I see the world? I see everything as a color. Like red could be passion, love, anger, or many things else. Blue could be sadness, boredom, lost, or calm. I see everything as having their personality defined by colors, so many bright and dark that they are beautiful. You know what? You are beautiful and colorful too. You may not see it, or want to see it, but you are so amazing and colorful. You are a rainbow of colors that define you and only you that makes you amazing. So with that thought, try to see your colors. Then you can really see the beautiful that is you, within. It isn't about what you look on the outside, it's about who you are, or what your colors are on the inside.