So I came here to vent about me as a writer and author lately I've been reflecting on the way i write and it's been taking a toll on me I've been feeling very insecure I've been feeling very left out I feel that my words aren't as strong as I carry myself and I want to get better.

I've read over maybe 30 books. In my teenage and adulthood years. that when I read these stories I see the descriptions,I feel the imagery and I captivate the emotions. but when I try to write something as elusive as that or that I imagine I cannot. I have lack of vocabulary, lack of description, lack of sensory.

I feel like I'm still at the beginning stage of writing and sometimes it makes me think why should I even write in the first place? Maybe I'm just made for poems and songs maybe I'm not made for stories and books maybe I'm just meant to read them I'm not meant to write them and that's something I struggle with for the past years since I've been on Wattpad I have these amazing ideas I have these amazing dreams.

But being a cultivating writer, I don't think that's in me anymore I don't think it was ever there to begin with. but I try and try, but it seems like I'm not getting anywhere. And I'm not a person that gives up easily I keep trying, I swim through new techniques I discover new words but it still doesn't work out for me.

I feel like my structure is hollow and I don't think I serve much to the table when it comes to my stories I always think how I'm not as good as the next writer but then I also think that every writer has their own style but still I think mine is lacking so much compared to others. And sometimes I feel like that's the main reason why my stories aren't enjoyable for anybody and that's why I feel that I should stop uploading on Wattpad and just post poems because that's all I'm good for I'm not good for structured stories plot twists, main protagonist I don't think my bloodline was made for that so maybe I'll just stop posting stories.

I know I'm rambling a little too much but Wattpad is my safe haven to get my feelings out without it scratching up the brightness of the humanity I have left and that's probably why I am better at poems I can describe emotions I'm feeling and I know that everyone else feels that emotion to write in the stories different you're writing how you want the character to be,what you want to happen to the characters and how the story unfolds.

So yeah I'm sorry for this long ass rant lol got lots to say. But if you've read this far why thank you you're amazing. And I love you so much.

See you guys another time🖤