"Hurt section" No. 5

Do you want to know
How much it hurts to stay behind my walls?
Do you want to know
How much do I fight for our cause?
Do you want to know how hard is it to decline all the calls?
I've been expecting more, so
Maybe that's been foreshown

'Cause I've been feeling close
Close to giving up on you
I have too much to lose
And maybe that's why I act like a fool
I couldn't bare but accuse myself of hurting you too
Forgive me for my mistakes
But understand my heart aches

Every time I see
You laying on your desk being all sad
And I wish that I could be
That special someone who lends a hand
But overwhelming you is not something that I have planned
I'd never want to ruin this
And it ain't an empty promise

But you will never know
How lately I've had a rough time sleeping
And you will never know
That I wanted to be the one who's leaving
'Cause you're the only reason I'm still here and I'm alive and breathing
And that's the thing for which I,
I will sigh and write my reply

H.M. 2022. 02. 21.