"Introduction" No. 5

Laying on the floor, rotten to the core
These handwritten feelings are exactly what I tried to ignore
Someday they'll break my heart into four
I've lost you once, I won't do it twice
With bare hands, I'll break ice, even if it's concise
I won't let fate to roll the dice

But if I'm terrified of nothing, so I'm shutting you down
If I can't stop my bleeding and I'm crying out loud
If there's a chance that I'll mess up and we won't work out
I want to know
If I'm a brave man or a scared little boy

I'm scared that I'll fail, I'm scared that I'll break
I'm scared in the morning it's all going to be fake
Can you promise me that it's not too late?
Loving is crazy, loving is hard
We might won't make it, but we won't be torn apart
Why were we able to get so far

If we were meant to break for our own hearts' sake?
If we won't collide tomorrow 'cause that's just our fate?
If our house couldn't stand how we'd be able to stay?
How should I know
If I'll be all alone tomorrow

Fade into grey, then fade into black
Slowly fading away into being a nervous wreck
Am I just something you'll regret?
You've been sent to save me, I knew from the start
I promised I'll make sure that we won't be torn apart
But what if my life can't hit restart?

If tomorrow comes and I won't open my eyes
If I'll finally be caught up by all of my lies
If I'll get what I deserve and I'll be burning in fire
I want you to know
That my love won't leave, it'll stay here with you

I'll leave you my heart, I'll leave you, my soul
And all the handwritten feelings I couldn't control
With you, they'll become a whole
You'll wake up tomorrow without me by your side
But the love that you borrowed will lay there with pride
That's the only thing I can provide

H.M. 2022. 01. 04.