"Introduction" No. 4

There's a dark little street deep in the town
I only like going there when I'm feeling down
It's lit by the spirit of my late friends' smiles
And the memories we made together without lies

It's pure and bright, white like December snow
It's not dark, not poisoned by my late-night shows
Being there, smelling the fresh air, nothing compares
To the feeling that captures me when I lay down right there

I wanted to take her somewhere around there
I wanted to show her the place I could live well
I wanted to prove to her that I can be better
That I can and will change if that's her desire

That's just what I want, but when will I take a step?
Can I even recover when life always gives me slaps?
If I'm just a human, skin and bones, replaceable
How could she love me when I'm so incapable?

She deserves a true man, not an emotional wreck
Someone who's not saving his problems in stacks
Someone who's constant, not someone who's not
Someone who could show her what it's like to be loved

I could've told her how much she means to me
And how much I love her, beyond eternity
I could've loved her, but I was too afraid
But I'll wait for it to happen, even for decades

The dark little street is way deep in the town
I used to go there when I was feeling down
Somewhere in the future, it'll be lit by her smile
'Cause someday, somehow we'll be there awhile

H.M. 2021. 11. 30.