"Introduction" No. 2

At the doorstep
I see my falling down defense
Just one more step
And I'll no longer be so tense
A part of me's on the edge
A while ago, that had been called my common sense

I'm searching for you, as I look through the crowd
I want to say your name, but my mind shuts it out
Then I blame the fact that it's way too loud
Why calling you would even be allowed?

It's so unreal
I bet you don't even have a clue
About how I feel
That every time I look at you
I just heal
That you're the one who's dragging me out of the blue

Can I just look there?
A little split second would be enough
If I had the dare
That's what I've been thinking of
But why the Hell?
Where am I even going with all of that?

And I'm trying so hard to keep my smile to me
Thinking maybe it'll disappear if I count to three
But oh, my Lord, my mind's ignored, and I have to agree
What's even the point in keeping my feelings to me?

H.M. 2022. 03. 02.