The very day Aurelia had left him, Harry began a list about things he loved and missed about her. He would post a picture and a reason every day for an entire year to help heal his broken heart and to tell the world about what an amazing woman she had been.

He had no intentions to become internet famous or to have anyone feel sorry for him, he just needed something that would relieve the sadness that weighed down his heart. By the time he had finished his list, all 365 days, he still had hundreds of pictures and reasons and he had become an internet sensation. He still only wanted Aurelia and his heart still ached terribly, but he raised Darcy to be a wonderful young woman: she looked just like her mother and acted nearly the same.

Darcy married and left him with an empty house by the time he was 46, but she visited him often, especially when her little girl was born. She named her after her mother and Harry's heart had finally started to mend itself as he watched his granddaughter grow up.

He died at the age of 87 and he finally got to see his Aurelia again.

365 days of living without you

1. For how my heart already aches missing the very concept of you.

2. For the breath I hardly allow my lungs to breathe without you around.

3. For your smile that burns bright in my memory, like the sun shines bright in the sky, reminding me of you.

4. For every shade of blue that carries the very essence of your eyes. Although they were blind, they were beautiful and bright from the very first day I met you to the very day that you left me.

5. For your heart that was the purest of all gold and the most precious thing you held on to.

6. For our little girl who doesn't know where you've gone and misses you dearly.

7. For that hope you kept even when the darkness was creeping in from every angle.

8. For the joy you brought me when I thought my life was meaningless and dull.

9. For every single tear that you ever cried, on my shoulder or otherwise.

10. For each and every word you left me with, spoken, written, recorded, and ingrained in my memory. I will always keep that part of you with me.

11. For your beautiful mind and how it never failed to spark wonder wherever you went and to whomever you met.

12. For the love that you showed me even when you didn't love yourself the way that you deserved to.

13. For the late nights that we spent just talking about life and whatever came to mind. God, I wouldn't mind just having one more of those, even if all we did was pretend to look at the ceiling.

14. For the way you kissed me when you were sad. The rawest of emotions are felt so much deeper when the physicality of everything transfers to someone else. I miss your sad days as much as I miss your happy days and every day that was in between.

15. For the way you always seemed to know what I was doing despite the fact that you couldn't see a thing. You'd tell me to stop this and kiss my cheek tenderly if you were here right now.

16. For the way that you would hold me in your sleep, it was like you were so very afraid that I would leave even though you knew that I would never ever do that to you.

17. For your laugh and how it rang like charming bells in my ears no matter how many times I had heard it. I'd do anything to hear it again, the videos don't capture it as well as I had imagined they would.

18. For how much you loved the world and being alive even though it was so cruel to you and took away so much precious time from you.

19. For the first time we kissed that night in London. God, that was so wonderful even though I kissed you before I should have. But it was worth it because I made you so very happy with just a simple action.

20. For all those times you blushed when I complimented you, looked at you or touched you a certain way. I know you hated it for the longest time but I absolutely adored it. You were so beautiful and so very special to me.

21. For all the songs we would sing together whenever the opportunity came up. I know that you didn't like the sound of your voice at all, but I thought that you sounded like an angel even when you spoke.

22. For the way you would pick at your nails, clothes, or anything you could get your hands on when you were nervous. It was a bit of a destructive habit, but it looked very good on you even though you never really had any true reason to be nervous.

23. This is really inappropriate but I don't really care, I miss the way that we loved. It wasn't always the same old boring routine, it was special every time and I really miss that on top of everything else despite how bad that sounds.

24. For the way that you would talk during movies just to learn more about what was going on. I wish that I liked it more when you were around. It's really difficult for me to watch certain movies now even though I used to be able to watch them a thousand times over.

25. For the way you would always giggle when I kissed you or touched you a certain way. Hell, even if I did something stupid that you found to be adorable somehow. I'm glad that you learned to stop trying to hide it around me because that meant that you trusted me and felt safe, which I find to be fundamental for any relationship. It also meant that you were learning to love yourself the way you should have loved yourself long before I made another appearance in your life.

26. For the way our fingers laced together like they had always been meant to be that way. It sounds really stupid but I don't care. I still believe that you're my one true love, my one soul mate, and nothing will ever change my mind.

27. God, I miss the way that you would comment about my 'staring problem' when we met again as 'young adults' for lack of better terminology. I still don't understand how you knew even though you explained it to me hundreds of times.

28. I miss the way you would try to trace my tattoos although you could never get it quite right even after I had helped you. Something about the way you did that was so calming and relaxing, I'm smiling just thinking about it.

29. I miss your perfume even though I have so much of it now that I spray it on everything just to pretend that you're still here. I'm sure it annoys everyone and makes me appear the wrong way in public, but it's one of the few things you left me with that I can hold on to and I just can't seem to let it go.

30. I wish that I could have shown you this picture that day in the hospital. I don't know why I didn't. Sure, it isn't the most revealing photo and you wouldn't be able to tell that it was us if you looked at it, but it's one of my favourites. I miss the way you would smile through most of our kisses because it told me that I was doing something right and, well, because I loved your smile. Actually, it was one of my absolute favourite things about you.

31. I really miss those really lame excuses for kisses that you used to give me when we first started to figure things out between us. They really sucked because you were teasing me so much by not letting me just kiss you when you knew that was all I really wanted, but they were really spectacular because they were special and you were staying true to yourself even when I knew I was making it very difficult for you to do so.

32. I hate sleeping now because I know I'm alone and that you won't ever be next to me again. I miss just having you there beside me and knowing that by morning there would hardly be any space between us.

33. I miss seeing you with Darcy, not gonna lie, it was my favourite thing to see because she loved you and you loved her and she made you so, so very happy. Thank you for leaving me with her, she's definitely going to look like you and she really helps stabilize my mood so that I'm not always sad.

34. I miss you. Just in general, I can't even really explain this one because words don't seem to fit what I'm feeling. It's only been 34 days, almost five weeks. God, I can't believe it's only been that long. It feels like forever.

35. Oh, yeah, I miss those soft little sounds you made when you were technically asleep but slightly awake at the same time. I don't know why that came to mind for this picture but it did and I am having severe Aurelia withdrawals. If anybody, I know that your parents understand and certainly Darcy. She gets sad at certain parts of the day when she expects to see you and realizes that you aren't there and it really breaks my heart.

36. It's our anniversary today...I haven't gotten out of bed all day. It isn't good, I know, especially for Darcy's sake, but I just can't force myself to get up. I had so much planned for you and it feels like someone is cutting open my skin just thinking about it. Happy anniversary sweetheart, I love you.

37. I miss your voice although I still hear it every day from all of our videos and the videos that you recorded for Darcy. I'm so glad that you did that because sometimes all she needs is to hear your voice to be alright again. I wish that I could do the same thing.

38. It's weird, but I miss how you used to scold me for being mean to my sister even if it was a joke. You really understood what it meant to live with love and I admired that about you.

39. You learned to play the guitar. I was stupid and told you that it wasn't going to work because you needed to see how certain things went to do it properly, but, God, did you prove me wrong. I miss teaching you how to play even though you were still mad at me for what I said. I'd take any mood of yours if only you could be here again.

40. I miss your hugs. It's hard to keep the memory now and it hasn't even been as long as what it feels like in my head.

41. Your sense of adventure. I'm still not "the adventurous type" like I knew you to be, but I have improved with your help. Although, now I don't want to adventure because it will remind me of you.

42. I miss following you around the world even though in all reality you were my world.

43. What I really miss is the way that you teased me. You always did what you wanted and I admired that because you were so very strong even though it irritated me because teasing isn't very nice and all I wanted to do was love you in any way possible. You were absolutely adorable.

44. I can't listen to Maroon 5 anymore. Every single song reminds me of you even if it isn't even relevant. Sometimes I used to think that you loved their music more than you loved me, but you would always prove me wrong, sometimes even the very second that I thought that way.

45. I miss your bubbly personality. You were so fun to be around even when you swore to everyone that we were just friends when you knew that we weren't. You always knew how to make everyone smile even when you didn't want to smile yourself.

46. You made me a better person. I haven't looked at anything quite the same way since that day in my dad's support group when I saw you for the first time since we were kids. Even now, I still see life differently and that just really gets to me because you're the one that instilled it in the first place.

47. I miss the way that you looked in my clothes although you only ever wore my shirts or my underwear. Everything always seemed to look better on you even if it was three times your size.

48. I never thought that I would miss public displays of affection but, God, do I miss holding your hand and kissing you in public. You never agreed with it too much, but I think you changed your mind after some time because you would be the one to grab my hand or kiss me first which was very special.

49. You know, I always hated doing nothing, but I never hated doing nothing when it was with you. You made everything great, even absolutely nothing at all.

50. I miss how you always managed to fix me when I felt completely broken. I don't know what to do now that you're gone and it's painfully obvious.

51. I miss your stories. Sure, most of them were your dreams, but they were so fascinating and you were great at explaining them in vivid detail and I loved how excited you got whenever you would have a dream about me.

52. I've been staring at this stupid screen for hours trying to find a picture of you with your hair up. You know, that special way that you managed to put it up sometimes where so many little pieces of your hair would fall out and you would laugh as I tried to put them back only to make things so much worse. It took me forever but I finally found it. Somehow, I feel a little better.

53. I can't exactly explain it, but I miss the way that you made me feel. What we had wasn't just special, it was earth shattering and it makes perfect sense in my mind that I miss you so damn much that I physically hurt.

54. It's weird not having you here to tell me how much you love my cologne. No one had ever really liked it before you and it was...I don't know how to explain it with words, but it really made me feel great. It really did even though I don't think that you knew that.

55. I didn't tell you that I loved you enough. I think about it every day and I could have said it so much more. I should have said it so much more. If I could somehow turn back time, I would tell you those three words every minute of every day that I was awake.

56. Eight weeks. It's been eight weeks and I'm still a mess.

57. I miss those nights where we would just stay in and be a couple. Nothing was better than being alone with you.

58. Although I don't like camping as much as you did, I really miss our camping trips. I still can't put up a tent I'm sure, but I don't want to try now that you're not going to be there to make fun of me and kiss me after I finally manage to get the damn thing up.

59. I've lost my very best friend in the world and nothing is okay. It's been 59 days and it still feels like you left me yesterday. I don't understand why you had to go, why God suddenly decided that he needed you back more than we needed you here. Why couldn't it have been anyone else but you?

60. I miss baking with you at God awful hours of the morning when not even the roosters were awake. We'd always make such a mess and it would always be my fault. Always. But you were so beautiful and I loved anything that would make you smile, even if it meant ending up with this huge mess to clean up in the kitchen from all the 'supplies' we wasted...I miss you so much.

61. I miss grumpy Aurelia. The one that would get really angry with me in the morning for keeping her up when she desperately needed to sleep. Although I hated to make you angry, it was very fun sometimes and you were still very beautiful even when I was irritating you. I miss that, I really, really, do.

62. I love you. I watch that little anniversary video you had Gemma help you with every day just to hear you say those three little words again. I didn't ever hold them to such an importance before you, I threw it around like it was a greeting, but now I know. Now I know and I miss you that much more. I love you, my Aurelia.

63. I miss the way you fit in my arms, kind of like you belonged there. You always loved it when I let you be the little spoon although you knew that I loved to be the little spoon too. Now that I think about it, I wish that I had done it much more often than I did.

64. I never thought that somebody could love me for all of the faults that I have, but you proved me wrong. You loved every single thing about me, even when I thought something was terrible, you loved it because it made me who I am. For a second today, I wondered if you would still love me now with how absolutely broken I am, but then I thought how stupid that thought was because you'd love me even more and try to make things okay. I need you, Aurelia, I really do.

65. You always, always told me that I was "a walking space heater" but I thought the same about you. You were always so warm, even when you were freezing. And I'd tell you I did certain things like grab your hands or kiss you because I thought you were cold but really, I was the one who was cold and I wanted your love and the warmth of your skin to fix me. And you always did.

66. I'm still terrible with Braille, but I'm still trying so that I can read all of your favourite books. Your favourites being specific to the ones you kept in your suitcase and the volumes that lined the bookshelf in your old bedroom. I miss the way that you would read late at night, your reactions to certain things being louder than you thought and waking me up. I never got much sleep because of you but I didn't mind it at all.

67. I loved how you would always try to find a song that defined our relationship even though you knew that you probably wouldn't because we were special. I know that you never found it, but I'd like to think it's the song I wrote for you during the odd hours of the night when you were asleep. Maybe someday I can teach it to Darcy, I'm sure she'd like it because it's about you.

68. I miss that spark of immaturity that always surprised me. You were always the mature one in this relationship no matter how much I try to argue that it was me. It definitely wasn't me, although, you did have your moments. Those were rare, but I really did enjoy them.

69. You were so strange at first. You knew that I fancied you very much and yet it didn't bother you and you didn't act any differently. I hope you knew that you doing that only made me like you even more. I can only imagine how long you would have kept me waiting like that, teasing me only to deny me every single time, if you weren't "sick" like you were. I hate that word. Sick. You weren't sick you were normal and being affected by something that you had no control over. I wish I could go back and spend all that time with you again, even though it killed me a little bit when you wouldn't let me in.

70. I miss your honesty. You were always so straightforward with me, and everyone really, and I wish that I could do that without being an awkward mess and stumbling over my own words. That one day when you-okay no that's inappropriate, but you know the one I'm talking about. You surprised the hell out of me but that was okay because I loved that about you.

71. No one laughs at my jokes anymore. No one really did before either, but you did and that made me feel great even though I knew most of the time you were laughing because of how lame they were. But you still laughed and that was enough to make me fall for you so much more.

72. Three words: Our little girl.

73. I'm still re-watching that show on Netflix. It's so explicit but so real and you made me love it. Guess I'm kind of like Jal now, huh?

74. You made me feel like the luckiest man alive and I most certainly am because I got to love you and to have you love me. Even better, I got to start a family with you and that makes me a hell of a lot luckier than anybody I will ever know.

75. I wish that I could be upbeat and happy like you were even when you were blue inside. You were always surprised that I knew you were upset, but it wasn't hard to tell because I loved you and even a slight difference was noticeable.

76. You could have written books with some of the things that you said. I was tempted so many times to record you speaking and just translate it into a book but I never did. Now I wish that I had because then I could share you with the world. Technically, I'm doing that now and I did that then, but it isn't the same.

77. I was never mad at you. Like actually mad. Which is good, because I never wanted to be mad at you. We never fought and something about that is rare and I'm so glad that we had that in common because you know that I hated to see you upset.

78. I miss how you weren't ever mad, save for that one time with Phoenix back in your home town. But other than that, I don't think I ever saw you genuinely mad. Sure, you'd get irritated, but never mad. I hope Darcy is like that because I don't want to do something wrong one day and upset her. She's so much like you.

79. You never took off my ring after I had given it to you. We both knew it was too big for your smaller fingers, but you kept it on anyway. I bet you didn't think that I noticed.

80. I miss your hair. The way it flowed down your shoulders and was so delicate that it was almost fluid-like whenever you would turn your head. It was nice on windy days, like the one in this picture. You said you loved my hair but I loved yours so much more.

81. You always did this cute little thing when you held my hand. Your wrists would curve a little and your fingers would grip mine securely, although I'm certain you knew that they weren't going anywhere. I loved that so much although I never mentioned it.

82. I miss those smart ass comments you would always direct at me. They were fun and very special, even though sometimes they were a bit mean. You were such a fun person Aurelia, even if you didn't think so.

83. People used to find it weird when we went out and I would describe everything to you in the most vivid detail that I could manage, but I liked it. It was different even though you sort of needed it, and you listened so intently and so happily that it was hard not to tell you something even if I couldn't find the words to describe it properly. I miss doing that, I really do.

84. Again, I miss those pretty blue eyes of yours. You didn't even think they were pretty anymore because of what happened, but I did. They were so pretty and so easy to get lost in and I think that towards the start of our actual relationship you began to realize that too.

85. You were my dream girl. I think that I knew that even as a little boy because I never gave up on you. Hell, I still haven't and you aren't even here anymore.

86. I liked the way that we danced. No, it wasn't pretty most of the time and you would often hurt yourself and I would kiss you everywhere and anywhere to make you feel better, but it was special and it was very nice, even if we sucked at it.

87. Our wedding. Man that was a crappy wedding, but it was so damn good. We didn't even know our witnesses, how about that. God, I wouldn't change that day even if my life depended on it. You were always beautiful, but that day...that was different and I swear you looked like an Angel. I never would have thought that I would be married in India, of all places, but it was one of the very best experiences of my life and I will hold onto that memory just like I will hold on to you, forever.

88. Stars. You adored them even though you could never see them. That...I have no words because that was truly wonderful on its own. You knew all the stories and where every constellation was and I should have paid more attention when you spoke about them.

89. Good times meant being with anyone you loved, even if it meant doing absolutely nothing. Again, I never liked nothing, but I liked your kind of nothing.

90. I never understood how you could remember so much history or even be interested in so many different areas of the world, but you did and you were and it was amazing to witness. I learned so much from you, even when I hadn't expected to.

91. Everyone knew that I was a hopeless romantic, ever since I was a little boy really, but you were too even though you wouldn't ever admit it. You read about love in so many places and in so many different forms and even so, you felt so deprived of it because you were. But you craved it as hopelessly as those girls you read about and I loved how shy you were about it.

92. I loved it when you let me sing to you. I still don't think I'm very good at it, but you thought I was wonderful and you would always ask me to sing you a song before we went to bed.

93. The way you reacted when you found out that I had been writing an actual book about you and Gemma had stolen it, printed it in braille like I had intended, and then gave it to you for Christmas. She's such a sneak. I thought you'd be angry with me, but you were so happy and it meant everything to you that you meant everything to me. You still do.

94. Your confidence. God, I wish that I was as confident as you were. Even when life had thrown things at you that gave you every reason to not be confident, you ignored most of it and held on to who you really were.

95. The way you slept. You were always so peaceful and I kind of forgot the reality that clung to us whenever I would watch you sleep. Everything felt, normal...natural. Nothing was wrong in that time and it was...heavenly.

96. You never wanted me to get up to use the bathroom in the morning because it meant that you had to let go. You would always wait for me to get back before trying to go to sleep again even though you knew you could have. If I had the chance, I wouldn't ever let you go again.

97. I loved how I always managed to surprise you with kisses. You always knew when I would kiss you, but you were still surprised and it was very cute on you.

98. The day we first met. Both times. First as kids, our little innocent minds not knowing much other than the fact that a) you were pretty and b) you really liked my smile and my funny accent. And the second time as 'young adults' where I couldn't stop staring at you and you weren't going to leave until you smugly addressed it. We were such weird people.

99. We had matching sweaters although you pretended not to notice. I know Gemma told you what I did. You were sweet like that, always putting others before yourself even when you should have been the one to be taken care of.

100. You were still beautiful even after you had spent the day crying in my arms and in the worst clothes that you owned because they were comfortable. There was never a day that passed that I didn't notice how beautiful you were; you were impossibly beautiful every single day of your life whether you knew it or not.

101. I liked the way you liked your makeup even though you could never see it or do it yourself. Red was really your color. You never wore too much either, like most women tend to do nowadays. Concealer made you angry just thinking about it and you always told me that you loved the way I had done it even though you never knew for certain what I had done. I could have lied the entire time and just put unnoticeable natural colors on you and you would have known and you still would have told me the same thing, even though I never did that to you.

102. You hated being called baby with a passion. I used to think that all girls liked that, but you definitely proved me wrong. The only name you would ever let me call you was your own and sweetie or sweetheart. Sweetheart was your favourite. It was mine too.

103. You were the first and the last girl/woman to ever give me butterflies.

104. Everything about you was interesting. I don't quite know how to explain what I mean, but I was always fascinated by you and every little thing that you did.

105. Your passion for music. I remember how your face lit up when I surprised you and brought you to Warped Tour and everything just felt so right. I'm certainly much more into music now because of you and, while that is a good thing, it is also a bad thing because it reminds me of you and my chest tightens knowing that I can't just turn to you and tell you something that I thought of while listening to a certain song.

106. I miss the way you looked when we got dressed up. You were so elegant, radiant and stunning and it was always very difficult for me to speak or to take my eyes off of you.

107. Nature fascinated you in a way I thought it fascinated me, but I was wrong. You were definitely fascinated by nature, I simply liked the aesthetics of it until you showed me otherwise.

108. You weren't ever jealous, even when you knew women were staring at me or hitting on me. I admired that so much because I got so jealous when another guy even looked at you like he wanted you. You weren't my property, but you were mine in the sense that I was yours and that was enough to make me crazy I guess.

109. Being with you made me feel like a celebrity because people were always staring, fascinated by this blind woman who this "beautiful man" seemed to adore with every fiber of his being. Hell, the one guy in Berlin even took our photograph and kept a copy for himself for that reason among others.

110. I loved your bedroom although you had only ever let me see it once and you were so embarrassed about it for reasons I can't imagine. All of your quotes, photographs, memorabilia, and books were wonderful and I could have stayed in there forever just learning about you and basking in just how spectacular you were.

111. We made decisions together even if they were really singular decisions.

112. It's been 112 days. 112 days and I still miss you like you left me an hour ago. I think Darcy has it worse though because she was definitely a Mummy's girl and she's too young to understand why you haven't come home or what happened to you.

113. You said "I love you" first, in that moment anyway, and confused the hell out of me because that was the last thing I expected you to say when you said it. Oh, but it was heavenly to hear those words pass from your lips even though you had spoken them at barely a whisper.

114. More often than not, you cried for me and what was going to happen when you left and broke my heart. I shouldn't have let you worry about me so much.

115. You would never let me buy you jewelry because it cost too much and because you knew where you were going. But I did it anyway. I bought you this really special necklace for our anniversary. It was a rose because you always loved roses and it was the very first flower I had ever given you, even though for the longest time you had thought it was from your mother. You never got to see it...

116. You made me believe in love again.

117. I loved the way you automatically got on with my family like you had already been part of it from the start.

118. I miss your humor. It was different and almost mocking sometimes, but it was part of you and I loved it.

119. No matter how long I had been around you, or how well that I knew you, you always made me nervous. That was something worth remembering because you knew it and you used it to your advantage more often than not.

120. You could always read my mind. Now it's as easy as looking at a picture because I can't get over you. I don't think that I will ever get over you.

121. I didn't favour reading as much as you did, but you still recommended things to me. I've still got the list. I added to it every time you mentioned a book if I'm being honest.

122. You loved animals although you never had any of your own. I'm pretty sure that Darcy does too. I bought her a kitten the other day, although right now I have to do most of the work. It's one of those breeds that always stays small and she's so cute and fluffy that she reminds me of you too. I'm sure you would love her if you were here.

123. My parents immediately saw what a positive influence you had on me and how happy you made me. They loved you like you were their own long before I asked you to marry me, especially Mum: she loved you to death.

124. You were the only thing I was ever afraid of losing besides my family and now I don't know what to do. You're gone and I've lost my heart. You left me with Darcy, and she means the world to me. I love her as much as I loved you because she is part of you, but even part of you isn't enough to fix my heart.

125. I'm totally wasting my time by doing this every day, but I couldn't care less. I miss you and this is how I am coping even if it annoys the living hell out of everyone.

126. I miss having your heart melt under my touch despite how strong you were. Nothing ever seemed so easy but nothing ever felt so hard. Love isn't ever easy but with you, you made it seem like it was despite everything we had to go through.

127. I miss the way you would quote movies that you had seen and listened to hundreds of times before. Generally, I always thought that was annoying when other people did it. But when you did it, it was really something special and I loved to watch the faces you would make with every different person you were quoting.

128. You were the very first girl I had ever written a love letter to, although I never gave it to you. I don't know why I didn't give it to you after we met again, but I wish I had even though I wrote it when I was fourteen.

129. You taught me to not take things for granted. I didn't think I was bad at that until you came around and I began to see things similarly to the way you did.

130. I was never afraid to risk anything for you and I'm pretty sure you weren't either.

131. Then, and now, you are the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep. It has always been you.

132. You were so hard to figure out, but that's what made it worth it. Love shouldn't be easy. It can feel easy, but it should never be that way because everything is complex in some way.

133. You are my favourite subject, especially now since you're gone. I will never stop talking, thinking, or loving you no matter what it costs me.

134. I hate being tired but being tired because of you was never a problem. I miss being there for you whenever you needed it, even at 3AM when we should have been sleeping.

135. I was always afraid of hurting you, emotionally or otherwise because I knew what you had been through and how many times you had been hurt before. And you were so tiny despite the fact that you never tried to be or worried about your weight. I miss treating you like the delicate, strong, and beautiful flower that you were.

136. You never let me spoil you unless it was with simple gestures or kisses. I wanted to spoil you so much, but what you wanted was more important. Darcy is going to be one hell of a spoiled child, let me tell you.

137. The sound of your heartbeat was one of the best sounds I have ever heard. To hear it stop was one of the worst.

138. I've been thinking about what our future could have been like if you beat this. We'd probably end up with more than one child and we would have been so happy, even if we didn't have a lot of money we would have been just fine.

139. I don't feel you anymore. I never believed in ghosts but I swore I could feel your presence. Maybe it was just the link we shared between our souls but now that it's gone I feel more empty than I did before.

140. I miss the chills you used to give me when we kissed or touched a certain way.

141. I can't stop thinking about that night in Maryland where you first told me that you loved me and where you cried as I held you because you were so worried about breaking my heart. Sure, you've made it irreparable now, but back then you had given it life again and I wouldn't want to change how things played out with us, except if I could have made you stay somehow.

142. I miss having to dip down to kiss you and the way you looked when you knew I was about to.

143. Everything that you were ever given, you kept. I'm glad that you did that because now I have much more than just some photographs, videos, memories, and Darcy to remember you by.

144. Your laugh was contagious and I'm scared that I won't ever be able to laugh again without you here.

145. You absolutely adored my laugh, although it isn't very attractive at all and I'm self-conscious about it.

146. You thought the world was at its most beautiful whenever you were with me. Something about looking at it now makes me feel like nearly all of its beauty fled with you when you left.

147. 21 weeks. 147 days. This is unbearable.

148. Someone just asked me if I could have anything that I wanted, what would it be? I said, "Aurelia." They didn't understand and I didn't want to explain because tears were already rolling down my cheeks. I would never and have never wanted anything else so badly in my entire life.

149. You took my breath away and I have no idea how I managed to survive with you, let alone how I can still breathe when it hurts so badly to have to live without you.

150. I'm miserable without you.

151. I miss our bubble baths. Those were nice on more than a few levels.

152. You always let me be your reason to smile, if nothing else could do the job, I always could.

153. I definitely don't have an ego problem at all now. Only jokes now because you would always point it out and make me fix it to make you happy and to make me better. I wish you were here to make me better now because I'm always sad. Not around Darcy though, she makes me happy. But when I am alone and in our room...it just doesn't seem to stick.

154. I loved your body. In both the non-sexual way and in the sexual way. You were absolutely perfect, although you never seemed to think so.

155. I loved the way your hair framed your face when you kept it down. Hell, I loved it up too.

156. Even though I knew it would lead me to being alone for the rest of my life, I am so happy that I waited for you and that I loved you.

157. I'm so very happy to have Darcy. I don't think that I would be able to get through this without her even though you explicitly said that was what you wanted, for me to survive this.

158. I loved who I was when I was with you.

159. The first time I told you that I loved you felt like being able to breathe for the first time in forever. I don't know if it felt the same to you, but it was the greatest thing I could have ever told you, even if at first you didn't say it back because you were figuring out what you wanted to do with the time you had left.

160. Nothing I have ever felt has been as intense as the love that I had for you and the love that I have for our little girl.

161. No pain that I have ever experienced, or that I will experience, will rival what it feels like to know that you're gone forever.

162. I love how you never expected me to call you any endearing couple name. But I loved to do it anyway because I know that it made you feel special and I loved making you feel special.

163. I miss giving you compliments every day. You really did deserve them.

164. I still hate hospitals but I overcame that hatred just to be with you when you needed me the most. I hope to dear God that Darcy never has to be in hospitals like that, I know how much it bothered you because it bothered me too.

165. Your name is still my favourite. Darcy is second, but yours will always be first.

166. You were always so overjoyed and even speechless when I did something for you and I miss being able to see that and do things like that again.

167. We weren't a normal couple. I loved that.

168. I wish that I could remember things like you did but I know that I can't and I hate it because I want to hold on to every single moment we spent together for the rest of my life. I don't want to forget a single detail.

169. You kissed me in my dream last night. It felt so real.

170. You were always so respectful even when you knew that you didn't have to be. I hope that somehow Darcy ends up the same way because, lord knows, I'm not as good at it as you were.

171. You would always give me a reason to tell you that you were beautiful, even if you didn't know that you did that. But I really loved to tell you either way.

172. I loved how you would play with my hair. I don't like people touching it but I never minded it when you did. And I loved that you let me do the same to you, especially when you were half asleep.

173. I miss your generosity. If you had anything to give, you would give it even if they didn't deserve it.

174. I loved how you never judged anyone before you knew them. I bet I was pretty irritating and maybe even a little creepy that first second time we met, but you never acted on it until you knew for sure and you gave me the chance to prove otherwise.

175. I've never met anyone that was half as curious as you were, well, except for babies and children of course. Darcy is pretty curious and for good reason. She's so cute.

176. You were a great mommy no matter what anyone told you before you were one. I knew you would be and you were the best mommy anyone could ask for. When Darcy's first word was Mama, I could tell that you had finally started to see it too.

177. You gave me, and continue to give me, a reason to get up in the morning.

178. I miss the way that the sun would hit your hair.

179. You were my biggest fan, and I will always be yours.

180. Everyone noticed our love even when we never tried to make it known.

181. I love every single one of our memories, even the ones where you ended up crying.

182. I miss feeling your skin against mine, even if I was just holding you while you slept.

183. Your very presence lit up any room that you entered and everyone noticed.

184. I miss your lips and how they molded with mine and pressed against my skin.

185. I miss the bright red lipstick marks that you would always leave either all over my face or just on my lips in general.

186. You were always willing to try something new.

187. You never argued when I said that I loved you more. I think that you knew.

188. I miss that night in Ireland where you gave in to your heart and kissed me on the corner of my mouth. You knew it wasn't enough to count as your first kiss and that was all the incentive you needed to do it.

189. I was your very first kiss. I would give anything to turn back time and take back all of those kisses that I gave away if only I could save them for you.

190. I miss that ridiculous Ice Hotel you took me to in Sweden. It was weird and super freaking cold, but it was wonderful and I learned so much about you and your heart that day.

191. I miss sitting with you while you got your very first tattoo. You picked the worst place possible, but you didn't care and you sat so well that even the artist was impressed. It felt like you broke my hand, but that was a pivotal moment for you and I'm so very happy that you let me share it with you.

192. I miss dancing in the rain. We always got so sick, especially in New York, but it was so worth it.

193. You were worth it.

194. You were and you are my Angel.

195. You took me to the places I had never been and have never dreamed of going to.

196. The way you said my name.

197. You inspired me to write every night although it was always, always about you.

198. The way that you cried the morning Darcy was born and you could see again, even if it was only for a short moment. You could see me and you could see our little girl and I don't think anything had ever made you so happy and so very sad at the same time.

199. The way that you kissed me after finally getting to see me for the first time in years.

200. I miss the way you would talk to my mother in the kitchen as she cooked dinner, even though you had told me you were just getting a drink and would be right back. You were never right back and I never minded.

201. You found me.

202. The very first time I called you. I was so nervous and you could tell but you didn't hang up or shut me down.

203. Our first trip together to The Sundown Lounge and how you had me try your favourite appetizer knowing that I would instantly fall in love with it.

204. How I almost ruined everything that first night and kissed you. We were so close and I could tell that it had this tremendous effect on you and I stopped myself, although to kiss you would have been pure heaven.

205. I used to forget that the rest of the world even existed whenever I was with you. Everything is so real now and I don't like it.

206. I miss how you missed me the very moment that I had left, even if it was only to use the bathroom or something silly.

207. You hated Pepsi and never drank coffee. That was weird but it made you who you were and I thought it was cute.

208. I loved how easy it was for you to make me smile. It's hard to do that now...

209. I loved how your body felt next to mine.

210. The way that you would look at me although you were never really looking.

211. I loved the way you loved me.

212. I miss cuddling with you. We cuddled a lot more than I realized.

213. I miss your love for hot chocolate with extra marshmallows because you loved the way that they melted on your tongue like snowflakes.

214. Your baby talk. You were so connected with Darcy through that and she would always smile or giggle at you, which was beyond adorable.

215. How we talked about baby stuff before we had Darcy. You were in love with so many names and so many things about having a baby of your own and I had never ever seen you so passionate before, even when it came to me.

216. I miss our scandalous adventures. We certainly had more than one and they made me feel so alive even though we were risking a lot.

217. I loved how we communicated so well, verbally or non-verbally, we always understood one another.

218. I loved how you would push my hair out of my face when we kissed and it got in your way. You only told me to cut my hair when it was a joke because you loved to run your fingers through it often.

219. You were ticklish but only in a few spots, and I loved how you had me figure them out for myself because your laughter was so beautiful.

220. I miss the way your voice sounded when you would whisper in my ear.

221. I miss how my heart skipped beats whenever you entered the room.

222. I loved you as you were and you did the same for me, that's all I could have ever asked for.

223. I miss the way that you would thank me for just doing normal things for you. I always told you that you didn't need to, but you did it anyway and now I really miss it.

224. God, I miss living with you and constantly having you near me. I tried not to do this to myself but I couldn't help it, I just couldn't help falling foolishly and completely in love with you.

225. You used to love my cooking, although I swear it was really nothing special. That family recipe of sorts with the shrimp, scallops, and garlic butter pasta was your favourite even though it made the house smell awful and both of our breaths reeked of garlic afterward.

226. You were so adorable. Literally with everything that you did.

227. I annoyed the crap out of you but you would never admit it because you found it massively cute at the same time.

228. The way that you would hold my hand as I drove even though it really wasn't the safest thing to do.

229. The way that you would pull the sleeves of your sweaters down and over your hands because you liked the way it felt and it kept your hands warm.

230. I miss how you would always 'steal' my clothes although it wasn't really stealing because you had to ask me. But it was super cute.

231. The very first New Year's we spent together, now that was special.

232. The "art" we painted on the Berlin Wall. That was absolutely crazy, but it's one of my favourite memories.

234. Our matching tattoos.

235. How radiant you had become when I asked you to marry me. I wish I had a picture.

236. I miss our plane rides. They were never boring even though I'm positive we annoyed the hell out of a lot of people by talking and laughing so loudly so late at night.

237. I miss the way you leaned into me when you were tired and we were out.

238. You were hardly ever uncomfortable. That castle in France is a prime example, that was quite the memorable trip.

239. You never made fun of me for my totally weird style choices. Like wearing skinny jeans in the desert or wearing two pairs of sunglasses. Hell, you hardly even commented on it when mostly everyone else would have called me an idiot.

240. Facial hair. You absolutely hated facial hair which always made me laugh, but I was definitely much more groomed for your sake. Same goes for just like body hair in general. You were really something else Aurelia, and it was really something great.

241. You pushed me into the pool on our very first adventure and I will never forget that because it scared the living hell out of me even though I know how to swim. But you were so happy and I was fine, so I let you be happy.

242. It was so cute the way you compared yourself to ridiculous things on random occasions. Like that time you asked me if you really looked like a dead fish because you were in the water and your eyes weren't like they should have been. But I told you that I loved your eyes and that you didn't look like a dead fish at all because you were always pretty...I miss you so, so much sweetheart.

243. I loved how from the start you already liked me because you never wanted to use your cane. You always wanted to hold my hand even though we both knew that you would do fine with your usual routine. You would never explicitly state it, but I knew. I knew.

244. I miss floating in the clear blue water of Fiji with you even though you freaked out because a fish brushed your leg. The way you screamed and clung to me was hysterical, but it only made me fall in love with you even more.

245. In the beginning, you had this great excuse for asking me to cuddle you before you fell asleep. I believed you about your dreams, I really did, but I also knew that you just wanted to cuddle with me because I made you feel safe and warm.

246. You always called my dimples holes in my face, like someone had stabbed me or something. It was so weird but so very adorable and so memorable because you said it to me when we were just kids on the playground.

247. I loved how you would always roll your eyes at me and make it very clear that you had done so. You weren't afraid to ever be yourself.

248. Darcy is two now. She's grown so much and she is so beautiful, just like her mother. I wish that you could be here to see her, she does too.

249. I miss the way you would trace my lips with your soft fingers just to get the feel of them and know where to kiss me. It always gave me butterflies and sent my heart racing.

250. You adored the cold even though it really got to you.

251. The first time that we almost had sex. It was in the middle of store in a dressing room, even though we promised that we would behave. God, that dress looked so good on you.

252. The way you smiled after we kinda made out on top of the Eiffel Tower, our second-first kiss and your dream kiss. I'm glad that I could give you everything that you wanted because you certainly gave me everything I could have ever wanted or needed.

253. How you got me to go skydiving and bungee jumping even though I'm terrified of heights. I really did everything that you asked me to and I would do anything you ever wanted to, all you had to do was say it and it was done.

254. The way we sang together at that bar and the look on your face when I surprised you with the song I had written for you.

255. Our very first time together, it was your first but not mine but I really do wish that it was, that I had waited for you instead of just trying to find what I was missing somewhere else. Even so, it was as special for me as it was for you because you had finally trusted me with all of you and I hadn't even asked.

256. How you loved s'mores to a point where it was almost unhealthy, but you loved the way my lips tasted after eating them. I think those were your favourite kisses even though you never really told me so.

257. "Never Gonna Leave This Bed" was one of your favourite Maroon 5 songs and I loved to hear you sing it and to sing it with you. I can't even listen to the first few words without crying now.

258. I helped give you the chance to be a Mommy like you wanted to. I don't think there was anything greater than that when it came to the things I did for you.

259. I loved how you pretended to be asleep when you knew that I was making you breakfast and how you kept it up until I went to actually try to wake you up. It was very sneaky but very adorable.

260. You loved flowers even though you could never see them. But you could always smell them and feel them which was just as good as seeing them. The florist either told me that I was stupid or that I was sweet, but none of that mattered as long as you were happy.

261. That waterfall you took me too...I still don't have the proper words for the time that we spent there and for the sight alone. You certainly knew how to travel and how to make me fall in love with you ten times over every single day.

262. Let's not forget our first accidentally steamy kiss. That played over and over in my mind for weeks.

263. You tanned with me, even when you didn't like it, just because you knew I liked it and you wanted to spend time with me.

264. Our portraits are still beyond beautiful. I'm so glad that you decided to give that to me to hold on to you. It really makes all the difference.

265. Fourth time's the charm.

266. Our trip to the carnival and how I won you that massive fluffy penguin that you slept with religiously for months at a time. I gave it to Darcy recently and she adores it as much as you did, it's very cute.

267. You insisted that I was comfortable and that I should pick the rides we went on even though you wanted to go on all of them. Selflessness is hard to find, but you were full of it.

268. The day you first met my mum and my sister. You were so nervous for so many reasons but they absolutely adored you already from what I had told them. You were the kind of person that it was very difficult not to like in one way or another even though you would deny that.

269. Gemma said yes and you never stopped saying thank you.

270. The very first ultrasound picture we got of little Darcy even though Gemma kept the gender to herself for the longest time. You couldn't see it, but I told you in explicit detail and you were so very in love.

271. You absolutely refused to do anything "bad" in my mum's house even though we were both adults and she wouldn't have cared. You were so respectful.

272. You were always surprised when I read what I had written about you aloud, per your request, but I really meant everything that I had written/said.

273. My rings were your favourite even though you had many of your own.

274. Long before you left you claimed that I was going to make so many women angry because I would still be stuck on you. I still don't think that's right because I don't want anyone but you and no one can ever, ever replace you.

275. You compared my love to the sky and that was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard besides you saying that you loved me.

276. It was your idea to go ride elephants in the first place and yet you were the one clinging to me, the one who was actually afraid of heights. Absolutely the epitome of adorable.

277. I loved the way my last name sounded on you. Mrs. Styles. I love you.

278. Soap in a public fountain. You were so very excited just to pour some soap into a public fountain. That was terrifying by the way, but you made it okay just because of the smile that you wore.

279. All the times that I held your hand in the hospital and waited patiently for you to wake up. Probably the most terrifying thing I have ever done because I never knew for sure if you would actually wake up.

280. The way you got so angry with the nurses at the hospital because they wouldn't let me go back with you. You sure gave them a mouthful.

281. How we went to a fancy restaurant in gross, sweaty clothes and everyone stared at us for completely different reasons.

282. We only ever went on a few, but our penny dates were spectacular and I wish that we had done them more often.

283. How you thought I had forgotten your birthday and I found you crying in the shower. But I didn't forget, I was just waiting for the exact time. You stopped crying almost instantly.

284. The way we stayed in and nearly missed our 'tour' for Niagara Falls because we were kissing and making love.

285. The lock we put on our own little love bridge.

286. The way you compared my kisses to drugs because they were so addictive.

287. You always thanked me for loving you when it should have been me that was thanking you for loving me.

288. How we missed our entire tour of Pompeii just because you wanted to sleep and to be with me. You threw away any ideas on the rest of your bucket list that day because none of it mattered as long as you had me. I'd been waiting to hear you say that for so long.

289. You totally schooled me in riddles as we sat in the hospital while you recovered from your first surgery in a very long time.

290. You were so smart.

291. All you wanted after surgery was me and seafood.

292. Your reason for being born when you were, was to make a difference and to change the way that dying people viewed their lives and the world, but most importantly you felt that you were here to love me and to be loved by me.

293. How quickly you would wake up when Darcy started to cry.

294. Those long nights we spent soothing Darcy through thunderstorms and otherwise. I've never missed something so literally tiring in my entire life but, God, do I miss those nights.

295. Darcy's very first birthday where you adorned her with so much affection that she never stopped smiling or laughing.

296. How we cuddled and slept on the couch after your surgeries because you absolutely refused to let me carry you up the stairs. You had claimed then that I was already doing too much for you and staying on the couch was perfectly okay because it was the comfiest couch you had ever slept on.

297. The way that you and Gemma got along right away. My sister is annoying sometimes and hard on me with my girlfriends, but she was never worried about you and she loved you like you had been there all along.

298. It was so cute how you thought that we did certain things too much even though we most definitely did not, and I told you that too, to which you still said it was still too much.

299. You were so flirty but in the best kind of way.

300. I was never bored with you.

301. Your dad absolutely hated the idea of me from the start, but once I'd been with you for a while and I had brought you back home to tell the news, he was so happy that I had made you happy that he didn't care anymore. Hell, the man even hugged me which I never thought would ever happen.

302. Your enthusiasm. I don't think that I've ever met someone that got so excited to see old architecture or normal things that people take for granted. There was always some excitement with you and it was wonderful.

303. The way that you looked when you had just woken up. You were so adorable and so cuddly and I loved every second of it.

304. You didn't want me to cry at your funeral. But I couldn't help it. I'm so, so sorry.

305. That time we went back to the park just to sit and think back on all the memories that we had left there. I left another love lock for you there because it will forever be our place and that was the only thing I could think of that wasn't vandalism, which you seemed to like for some reason.

306. The cement heart that we made on New Years that looks so childish but so damn great. "A loves H." "H loves A, forever and always."

307. I won't ever stop loving you.

308. Your favourite place was anywhere as long as it was with me.

309. Three little words weren't ever enough to capture just what we felt, but we both knew it so we felt it regardless.

310. The cruise we went on only a short time before you left. Watching you with Darcy I just can't put to words. You were such a great mommy.

311. Our eternity even though it was much shorter than we wanted it to be. I'll see you again someday, I know I will and I can't wait until that day.

312. The way that you told me that you were always mine and that you always had been.

313. Your bed felt like a cloud.

314. The way you would always end up stealing the blankets because you were so used to wrapping them around yourself that you did it in your sleep.

315. I'll never forget the way you looked at Darcy for the very first time, the word beautiful never stopped leaving your lips but you were so right and everything about that moment was perfect.

316. The way you looked at me for the very first time and it seemed as if your heart had stopped beating briefly before picking up intensely where it had left off. I never thought that you would get the chance and there weren't any words to fit how that felt because it surpassed any vocabulary that we possess as a species.

317. How I got to be the one to make you feel beautiful.

318. All of our "almost" kisses. There were so many.

319. I miss your kisses. You know I loved each and every one, even if it was just on my hand.

320. You loved to run your fingers through my hair whenever you could and I loved the way that it felt.

321. The way you hardly ever left any space between us when we walked, when we were next to each other, and even when we were cuddling.

322. Your handwriting whenever you had to sign something or when you wrote me little notes. It was always slanted all over the place but your words never overlapped and your letters were so nice even though you couldn't see what you were writing.

323. You always took scalding showers. Always. It burned, but that never stopped me from being with you because you always stayed in there for far too long.

324. Swimming was one of your favourite things and you would beg me to go any time you knew that you could.

325. The color pink was never your favourite, but you let me buy pink things for Darcy because I liked it and I told you that she would look beyond cute in pink even though it was typical.

326. You always wanted siblings, at least one, so that you wouldn't feel so lonely. But you also didn't want to hurt them when you went away.

327. I miss doing your makeup. It's weird because I never really liked doing it for Gemma or my mum, but with you I loved it.

328. Disney wasn't your favourite, but you made me watch Hercules with you all the time because you absolutely loved it.

329. You slept better when I fluffed your pillows. I don't know why that made a difference, but I did it every day. I don't think you ever noticed and if you did you never mentioned it, but I don't mind.

330. Shopping wasn't your thing and you always had the same clothes unless I bought something for you. You were so stylish despite the fact that you couldn't ever see what you had bought or what you were wearing.

331. Red was your favourite color and it looked better than great on you.

332. You loved poetry.

333. I miss the sound of your voice although I hear it on videos every single day.

334. All of the videos that you recorded for Darcy and the ones that you recorded for me, they help so, so much.

335. You loved listening to fireworks and imagining the bursts of color in your mind. I never liked them, but I sat outside with you and got over it just to watch you do that and to make you happy.

336. Blanket forts were your favourite, especially when we made them outside and stayed out there all night.

337. If you could see you said that you would have loved to be a photographer or some sort of writer. You were absolutely brilliant at both of those things before your eyes went.

338. Before we started your bucket list, you had never been in a hot tub before and you were thrilled when I took you to the ones at our hotels.

339. The way that you would ask me for kisses when you wanted them after something I said or just because you wanted them.

340. You loved seafood but you absolutely did not like fish. Shellfish and crab were your absolute favourite.

341. Sitting by the fire was a must any time that we could because you loved to hear it pop and sizzle as it ate away the wood, the way it warmed you, and the way that it smelt.

342. You hated to fall asleep in your day clothes because when you woke up they were suddenly really uncomfortable.

343. When they took the green skittle and changed it to green apple it made you really angry because you loved the lime one and how it tasted when you ate it with the yellow one.

344. You loved the smell of the ocean and how the sand felt between your toes, and how the cool water would caress your skin with its gentle waves. But you were still afraid of a good number of sea creatures.

345. How I could see and hear your heartbeat accelerate when you woke up to me at the hospital. The hospitals and the surgeries were terrible and I don't miss them, but I do miss how relieved you looked and felt when I was there when you woke up.

346. You absolutely loved it when we stayed in bed and I would trace invisible patterns on your skin. You once told me that my hands felt like warm and very soft feathers and that's part of the reason that you loved them so much.

347. Being sick with you. To be sick alone was absolutely horrid, but to be sick with you was so...I can't even explain it, but it was far nicer than being sick alone.

348. The cute little faces you would make when I said something weird or just in general. All of your expressions were cute ones except the sad ones.

349. I loved your dresses and how you loved them because they were "easier to deal with than pants."

350. That inappropriate moment in the hospital when you saw that particular picture in my phone...I still don't have an explanation for that, but it is gone now. The look on your face was priceless.

351. How your nose would turn pink when you were cold and how you would press it to my neck when we were cuddling and chills would spread through my body. Your cold nose was so, so cute.

352. The way that you made sure someone would take pictures of you and Darcy so that she would have them to remember you by.

353. How sad you got when I told you that it was Darcy's nap time. You loved playing with her and just holding her every moment that you could.

354. Darcy fell asleep so easily for you, but it took nearly an hour for her to sleep for me. She really was a mama's girl.

356. You made it to her first birthday even though you didn't think that you would.

357. You weren't afraid.

358. The look you wore when you said goodbye to Darcy. You hadn't even gotten to me yet, but that look was enough to break my heart ten times more than just knowing what was happening.

359. You had this tendency to clutch my arms like stairway railings and I loved it.

360. Whenever you knew that we were in an open area where you wouldn't run into something or someone, say like a field, you would always tell me that I could kiss you but I would have to catch you first and then you would run away. I was faster than you and you knew it, but it was such an experience to catch you, hold you in my arms and pepper you with kisses.

361. That one little dimple in your left cheek when you smiled a certain way. I pretty much stared at you all day because you were so beautiful and you seemed to always be smiling with that cute little dimple.

362. Our last kiss.

363. The way you looked at me for the very last time. You could see me again and it felt like some cruel joke at first, but you were so happy because I was going to be the very last thing that you saw and you didn't mind that at all.

364. Escaping Time will be published tomorrow, in braille and in normal print and I hope that when people read it, they will see how beautiful you and your soul were and it will make them think about things in a whole new way. I hope that you're happy wherever you are, my love.

365. It's been a year now and I still have so much to say, but nothing meets it quite as well as a very simple, and very emotion packed, "I miss you." I know that I'm not ever going to get rid of this feeling, the tightness in my chest and the emptiness in my heart, but I don't regret letting you do this to me. You were my very first and my very last love and I will love you for eternity. I will always love you, my beautiful Aurelia.

Love always,

Harry

Author's note:

For those of you who would like to see more of Harry and Aurelia, I've just created a book for 'deleted scenes' titled EXTRAS. So, if you'd like to see some cute scenes that ARE NOT in this book, that's the place to go!

Much love,

xxFlora