"So, the next launching will be next month. Get ready for the flowing gold on your account." Namjoon playfully said when they are exiting the meeting room. He was expecting some good comeback from his maknae when there is nothing come but his confuse look, watching here and there.

"Kook?" He calls the maknae nickname and the man shifting his attention to him with a raising brow.

"Hmm?" Jungkook ask as Bambam holding his laugh from his behind.

"Is there something make you not happy with the deal we made?"

"Oh no. No. Its good. Its fantastic." He said rumbling while scratching his neck, nervous.

"What is that?" The maknae look so hesitate but giving up in the end.

"Where's Lisa?"

-
"I like this dress. Thank you to give me such a beautiful gift." Jieun said shyly while admiring the white dress that she wear tonight for their dinner. She smiles brightly.

He loves me.

She thought.

For the past one week, there is a poison pen letter come for her. No sender. Just some warn about her fiancée with Lisa. Its supposed to be a woman who had breakfast with them and Jennie that time. But there is no interaction at all between Jungkook and her. Jieun feels confuse but anger slowly eating her. She cant contain her curiosity and keep asking the same question to him.

That day, she came with him to attend meeting with Namjoon's company and she cant say, Lisa has nothing but cold attitude toward Jungkook.

She is so confuse.

But tonight, Jungkook ask her to have dinner together. Jungkook loves her.

"Kook?" She calls him when he sees him zoning out several time, and the said man immediately looking at her with that big eyes.

"Yes?" He said innocently.

"Nothing." She said awkwardly while her smile fading. Honestly, Jungkook's m8nd was on what Namjoon said after the meeting.

"Her contract expired. She wont coming to teach anymore."

He willingly let her go, tied with a woman he merely know, not meaning he agree to not able to see her. He will do anything she ask as long as he can see her from far. And to know what's Namjoon said, his heart begin to be scared.

Will I lost her again?

"Kook!" Jieun ask once again. And the said man smiling at her while taking shot from his glass. "You know, I always curios about something."

"What is that?"

"I know you already said that to me. You know, I just want to make sure I settle down with someone right."

"Hmm."

"Do you love me?" There is a pause. He was zoning out once again but gaining his consciousness  quickly. He nods.

"I do." He said weakly.

"Really?" He nods again. "More than to Lisa?" And he frowns.

"What's the problem? Is there nothing we should talk but you keep it by yourself Jieun?"

"Eumm... I think I know a little thing about you and her, Kook."

"Who told you?"

"Is that matter?" He sigh and hold his breath watching the woman he had been together for 4 weeks now. "I just want the truth, I want to listen the story for your point of view. Just that." He sigh and look away. "I will listen."

He bites his lips and looking away, thinking that may be if he talk nicely with Jieun everything will turn be better. He doesn't know how Jieun was, but she is clearly a good woman. She supposed to understand.

"I love her." He said and like a dandelion in the middle of the storm. Her heart is breaking with no trace.

--
"Okay. Brushing tooth already finish." Lisa said as she gently put her son on the bed with a smile while Ji touching her hair to her face. Then he gave her pecks on her cheeks and lips make her giggle. "Okay, I love you too." She said softly while taking the blanket and covering his body till the chest.

"Mom, I am happy you can stay the night." She smiles and take his hand. She hold it tightly and play with his chubby cheeks.

"Mom wont go anywhere anymore. Mom will be with J always just like before we went here." He smiles and nuzzling his nose on her hand.

"Promise mom?"

"Hmm.."

"And now, bed time. You need sleep, J baby." She softly said and begin to caressing his forehead. Slowly he drift to his sleep and she take her position on the sofa. She want to be there for awhile.

Thinking.

About how she will live with J. Of course she is a dancer teacher in one of the famous company in Chins just like in here. But how long she can depend on herself to earn lot of money for J, for his food, clothes, his education, his health.

And again, its not the first time J always ask "where is my dad?" Every time his bullies friend mocking him with the unlawful child joke.

She can always distract him for years, but till when she can do that? He become older, mature, he will find out.

And she is afraid.

That he will want to meet him.

Someone who doesn't even know that he is exist.

The day when she come to Beijing, she passed out and when she open her eyes, Jackson was there with his angry face. Who's the father? He ask but I cant bring myself to tell him the truth.

He dump me. I lied. But there is no father who will punish me this time.

Its a hard months, the endless throw up, wanting so many things, and crying in the night. She always want to meet him, the baby always want to meet his father. She fight and when he finally born, she swear to protect him with all of the cost. No one will ever hurt him physically or mentally.

No one including his own father.

Ding..

Her phone was ringing make her thought interrupted, she sigh and walk to the night stand to look at the phone.

A notification from Jackson secretary, telling her the tomorrow flight will be at 4. She hummed and ready to leave when something catching her attention.

A red envelope with a mess hand writing. She take it.

Dear god.

It said. And she smiles while looking at her son, it must be for his next birthday gift that he will ask to god. He always send them to the post office. She then opening the folded white blank paper and began to read.

God,
I believe you know that I behave so well.
I never cry even thought I miss mom when she was away.
I never talk back to the grandma and grandpa and Jackson Papa.
I want you to be proud of me like mom always proud of me.

Her heart warmed, his existence is enough to make her happy. To full fill the blank space in her heart. She doesnt need anyone anymore.

I have this wish, and I promise I will not asking anothers for the next five years if you guarantee my wish this year.

She giggle at how her son bargain about the wish with his god. She covers her mouth holding her laugh.

God, please send mommy a good husband and me a daddy. Pretty please.
I am trusting you,
I know you heard my prayer.

I'll wait.

From JJ.M

--

"Where the fuck you think you go? We are running late for the flight." She hissed as soon as she sees Jackson entering her bedroom with red face. She still spat on him anyway.

"Why did you lie to me?"

"What?"

"Why did you lie to us, Lalice?" He shouts and she flinch. Its not everyday Jackson will throw tantrum at anyone, and when he does, that person must be fuck up.

"You told me he dump you, that's the reason I let J to not know who's his father. But the fact that you were the one who dump him really make me upset now. Don't you think your son might want to see his father?"

"No. I wont let it to be happen."

"Why? And you cant deciding the god to wrote the destiny for us." He said calmer but her eyes now a bit confuse. She looks at his back.

"Where is J?" She asked and the  walk to the door. "J." She calls the name opening the door of her room in fear. "J." She shouts loudly and she fall on her knee when she sees J standing while smiling looking at someone who's now kneeling down in front of him. With a teary eyes and little hiccup.

Him.

"What are you doing in here?" She spats after she gains her conscious and walk fast to grab her son's arm and hug him tight. "Go!" The man still looking at the her son, speechless. "Get out of my house." She shouts make her mom and dad exiting their original spot in their room with a questioning look.

"J. Baby, you go to your room. Close the door and lock it." She said softly while pushing J's shoulder to upstairs while the boy hesitantly walking while looking at the man who's still on his knee. She watch him entering his room with Jackson and when the door closed she look at the man in front of him.

"Go now. There is nothing to do in here." She said to him.

"Why don't you tell me?" He murmurs still looking on the floor. "Why don't you let me to know that he exist. Why?" He shouts and look at her with a dagger eyes.

"For what?" She asked while smiling mockingly. "For you to run away and reject him?" She spat. "He has a though life, living only with a single mother and I wont let anyone to hurt his feeling. Not even you."

"But he is mine."

"Who told you that?"

"I am not blind." He shouts again and grabbing his bangs out of frustration. "I nearly marrying other woman without knowing that I already become a father."

"Oh, don't be scared Mr. Jeon. You have no obligation to call him your son. We are happy without you."

"No. You cant do this. I want him."

"What? You want him? Are you sure you are not saying anything wrong? Aren't you someone who doesn't want to be a young parent?"

"I am sorry. I know I said that. But- but now we have him. I have him."

"He is not yours. And will never be yours." She said sternly. "Go away. Living your life, Jeon. We don't need you."

"I want him."

"I wont let you to touch him."

"What? Are you serious Lis? You will separating a son with his father."

"I don't care."

"Right. If that's what you say just watch, I am going to send my lawyer tomorrow morning. Lets see if I can have him or not in front of the law."

Her breath hitching as he stand up and walk to the stair.

"Where do you think you go? You are not allowed to-" she runs and take his arm but he yanks it. And showing her his anger.

"I am serious Lis. With no job, no husband, do you think you'll win the court?" He sees her teary eyes, looking at him in anger but he cant contain this anymore. She can lie about her feeling, but its too much to hide his own son from him. "Behave. I can understand that you don't want me, but I wont tolerate your attitude about our son."

"Lets see how it will work in the COURT. Now you go. I don't want to see you." She spat and push him to the side. He looks at her in disbelieve and shook his head.

"Listen, if I win this court, I'll make sure you wont meet him too so you'll know how I feel." He said before walking away to the main door. Eyes keep looking at the door where his son disappear. "And I will be back."

--
Fear was creeping inside her heart as soon as he disappear. She runs to the door and knocked before Jackson looking at her while opening the door.

She jump and hug her only son while crying hard.

"Don't leave me. You love me right?" She whined and hiding her face on her son's shoulder. "Don't leave me."

"Mommy, are you okay?" He innocently asked make the woman crying harder and hold her sobs while watching her brother.

"Lets go home. I beg you, Jackson." But he shook his head ans stay still on his spot.

"He said that his lawyer will be in here tomorrow, you need to talk or he will surely sue you and take J from you."

"He cant."

"Of course he can."

"Oh god. Why did you bring him in here?"

"I was asking you talk to him, not freaking fight with him. He is a powerful man, had a lot of money, he can buy law if he want." He said and it didn't help at all. Her heart near to stop the beats.

"He will take you." She whispered to the son. "You'll stay with me. Forever. Only mom and you."

"Lily, I think you should talk to him before he sue you." She listen on what her father said. "You cant just put your ego first, or you will lost J."

--

I feel the pank in my heart and feel lost also hopeless after the lawyer that Marco choose, saying that I might wont win the court.

For so many reasons.

That the law will give the kid toward someone who has more power, more money.

And even thought she win logically as the mother, the lawyer said with the amount of power and money that Jungkook had. I still might lost J.

"I will try to persuade Jungkook." Said Yoongi when we went to the park near her home, J was playing around them. I want to spent so many times with him now. I don't know till when I can do that.

"Yeah." I beam weakly and look away watching the other family happily playing with their twin baby. "I am afraid, oppa."

He touch my back and begin to give me light massage. "How if I lost him. He was the only one that I had." I cried but keep my eyes on the another family. Not wanting Yoongi oppa to see me this way.

"There will be a way for this problem, Lis. And you might also come to talk with Jungkook, privately, calmly so you can get the agreement that will be win win solution for both of you."

"I don't know, I cant."

"Why?"

"I am afraid." She sigh and look at her lap. "I am afraid that he only faking all of this to get to close with me. You know he is so stubborn when he wants something. I am afraid that he will begin to not liking J after he has him."

"Hey, chin up woman." Yoongi said softly. "Put aside your fear, face it, for this one, I beg you, don't run away."

-
"Hey!" He shouts finally to the person in mask near the gate of the park. He stay calm even thought he knows that person eyeing them for while now. The said person in black jacket and black hat and also the black mask look startled and began to run.

But he walk faster and yank the said person before take the mask off of the face.

"I know its you." He smirk and peeking to see Lisa who just entering his car with her son. "What you plan now?" He ask and facing the person.

"Planning what?"

"I don't know, you tell me Cho Miyeon." He hissed and gave a hard slap to the fench that trapping her body with him.

"How about I kidnap that little boy." She said but her lips trembling under his sharp gaze. "I will kill him and throw his body to the river. I will see her die bit by bit."

"You know it wont be only her." He said back. "Jungkook will die too."

"So what I should do? Watching them being happy as a little family that I imagine since young?" She then tearing up in front of him. He feels so mad but cant bring himself to destroy this fragile heart woman anymore.

Not today.

Maybe he will punish her, but later.

He smirk and take a strand of her hair, playing with it make her face become pale. She knows Min Yoongi, he never been sweet or soft to anyone but Lisa. But once he do, he might plan something evil.

She just know.

"Hey." He softly murmur in her ear. "Wanna trade?"