Crack..

The door opened to show a sleepy face of middle age woman while she smiles as soon as she saw the visitor.

"You come home?" She said and letting the visitor come in.

"Ehem. My unit just too empty. Too big. I guess." The visitor said as she walk to the counter of their kitchen, opening the refrigerator to take cold water for her to drink.

"Its a long journey to come home here." The middle age woman said watching every movement of the visitor. "Even thought I am more than happy to see you with us again like this, why don't you just drop your job?"

"Soon mom." She speak softly and put the bottle in its place again. "Marco already asleep?"

"Hmm.. he sleeps with J tonight. J keep on asking about when will you come home."

"Sorry mom."

"Its okay, Lily." But she feels uncomfortable to still put her responsibility on her parents' shoulder. "He is our grandchild." She smiles sadly and trying to suppress her tears and running to ask for hug. Her hugs so tight that her mother try to hold her groan.

"Is everything okay, Lily?" She ask softly but the said girl only keep on her silence. "Hey."

"Please, let me like this mom." She whisper softly between her sobs. She cry. "I- am okay." She said after good seconds. "I am just, losing something on the way to here."

"What's that?"

"I- I am sorry mom." She then beak down and let her body to collapse to the floor. Head hung low and two hands covering her face. "I love him." She said desperately. "But I cant have him."

"Why?"

"He-" she looks up and her mother could see how messed she is right now. Red eyes and nose, tears and sweat on her face. "He is Yuqi's."

"What have I told you, Lily." Her mother sat in front of her and try to wipe her tears away and combing her hair, and her bangs. "Grudge cant bring you anywhere than misery. Past is the past."

"Mom?"

"I know, Lily. Jackson have told me about this. Also to Marco."

"And?"

"He said nothing he can do, god is only the only one who can punish the one who is at the wrong." She said softly, patiently looking at her daughter lovingly. "He knew him when you had dinner that time, he told me and he try to understand Lily. He is okay with it. And no-one knows what's really happen here right?"

"I am sorry that I always be a disgrace for you mom."

"No. You make me proud Lily. The fact that you keep J with you even thought you were broken is something big. You've changed." Her mom caressing her hair gently. "The fact you choose to keep him safe, to give him chance, despite of how broken you were, you show me that you are mature in your own way. The fact that you choose to be alive, the fact that we shouldn't mourn again after Yuqi, you don't know how big the impact of your choice for me, for Marco."

"As Marco said, hating someone who is already regret is a poison. Give him a try. Take him here, let him know you. And us."

"I am not sure, mom."

"Why? You are afraid that he will leave?" She nods hesitantly. "Let him choose, Lily. Lets try, don't give up without trying baby. because we wont know what's the things we lost when we tried it." She looks at her mom. Should she?

"He has fiancé. And she is lovely." She look down on her laps, she is lost.

"The light is here, Lily." Her mother softly smiling while looking at the bedroom's door upstair. "The light is here to give back everything the darkness stole."

"Be brave."

--
She tried to remember all the cheers her mother said last night as she walk to the receptionist.

"Good morning, miss. What can I help you with?" The woman behind the counter ask her with those professional smile and she nods.

"I am the representative of X academy." She said and taking out her personal card id while showing her make her eyes widened. "Can I meet Mr. Jeon?"

"Oh, let me see his schedule for today miss?"

"Manoban." She said and the receptionist looking down at her monitor and checking something. "Isn't it scheduled this afternoon, Miss. Manoban?"

"Oh yeah, it supposed to be. But unfortunately we have something this afternoon and I want to ask if I can reschedule it yesterday but our CEO telling me that I can just go here and telling me that this is an important one." She said in a short breath not wanting to skip any words and lies that she plans before. Yeah. Its a lie.

"Oh, umm.. honestly Mr. Jeon right now has no schedule but he has visitor. And he will have another meeting in an hour."

"It will be enough. So.. can I go upstairs?"

She was fidgeting on her nails. Biting it slightly and try to be cool when someone is around. The elevator dinged, and she is arrived to see Bambam.

He widened his eyes.

"What the fuck you in here, right now?"

"Business."

"Your ass. You know I used to be your lie detector back then in Thailand."

"I know. I just need to talk to him." She said and the man biting his lips hesitantly.

"For the lie about you having husband?"

"No-one telling him that, he just the same judgmental jerk-"

"You never try to make it right like usual." His words cut hers. "You always let everyone judging you and misunderstanding you as a bad woman. Like usual." He sigh. "I know that its important, Pokpak. But he is busy. You can comeback later after lunc-"

Before his words leave his mouth completely the door opened to show them to goddess hugging each other while closing their eyes.

And a tiny thing breaking inside of her.

"Thank you for last night and this morning." The woman said while caressing his hair. He nods and without warning the woman lean on and kiss the man who is immediately circling his hand on her waits while deepening their kiss.

"I love you."

He said.

--
Ring... Ring...

She look at her phone and sighing when she sees the caller id. Composing her breath and wiping the sweat with the tissue on her hand she pick the call.

"Yeah, what Jackson?"

"Don't what me, I thought I only telling you to book one ticket to Beijing. And why would my secretary telling me you booked three?"

"Because I am coming with you. And also J."

"Why?"

"Because I want to."

"I am not stupid. I know what you did the past few weeks, and how you change after few weeks. Mom also telling me about your little talk, I hope a better conclusion and boom, you still wanna go with me?"

"Yeah, I will still go with you. Satisfied? Now excuse me, I have my next class in 10." I said while looking at the man in front of me, munching his lunch while try to eavesdropping the talk on my phone. Stupid.

"I don't understand you. You are not only fool but destroying all the hope that J had."

"Alright bye." I press the end button and shifting my seat position.

"Your husband?" My mouth make a tight smile, not knowing how to responding on his statement.

"Husband my ass, I've told you to not believing what's your maknae said." Hissed Yoongi from my left.

"I don't understand the problem in here."

"He judge her because she has son."

"You had son?" Shout Namjoon and standing up in an instant breaking his own plate on the way there, wasting his fancy lunch that Jin sent for us.

"Great. You break them. Jin hyung will kill you." Yoongi oppa pointed at the porcelain on the floor. Namjoon oppa sighing and just sit down back grabbing his front lock, frustrated.

"You had son and nobody know? Wait, you know." He pointed at Yoongi oppa and the said man only shrugging his shoulder not really care. "How old is he?"

"3, almost 4."

"Oh my gosh, you are pregnant when you were in here?" I nodded. "Oh my god Lis. You should have tell us. We can help you with anything."

"Thanks oppa." I beam and smiling at his genuine feeling. This is what Jennie unnie lost. "Now when you know this already, can I ask you something?"

"Anything, Lis." He said and grabbing my hand to be hold by him tightly.

"Let me go. I am going to my old place where I raise my son in a week." I softly said, Namjoon oppa gawking while Yoongi oppa choking on his meal.

"Don't leave. Not again." Said Yoongi oppa looking at me intently. "You know even thought you cant be with Jungkook, I'll be there for you."

"You know the answer oppa." I said to him and look at Namjoon oppa once again. "I beg you oppa. Please let me go."

--
"I was so happy when you ask me out." Said Jennie from the back seat watching Yoongi as he drove the car on the road. "You should have just told me that she will come with us."

"Why?" Said Yoongi calmly watching her from the rear mirror. She pouts cutely and had her arms folding on her stomach. "I thought you two already in the same side."

"I was on her side because she is trying to make Miyeon away from Jungkook."

"Didn't she do that?"

"But I don't know that she'll leave him after that."

"Like hello, guys, I am in here." Said Lisa from the passenger seat playing with her phone while rolling her eyes. Tired.

"Who cares." Said Jennie softly and look away at the car's window glass.

"I am leaving him in the right hand, aint I? Isn't it a good thing for you to celebrate?"

"But he is not happy."

"He is happy. He even tell her that hr loves her."

"Shit. I've heard him talk like that to Miyeon when they were together. He is a good man who want someone who's in relationship with him feel content and happy. No matter how broke he is. You understand miss. Manoban?"

"Whatever. I had my own life too."

"Such a bitch."

"You know I am."

"You know I can kick both of you out from my car right now if you dont stop bickering like tom and jerry." Hissed Yoongi make the both of Lisa and Jennie frown and pouting as they keep in silence until they arrive.

"Where is this?" Said Jennie while opening the cars door and looking around the house.

"My house." Said Lisa and they entering the house.

Like what she predict, Jennie cursing and even scolding her non stop inside her room no matter Jackson and her parents down stair.

Jennie stay until late but should to go since tomorrow she had important meeting. Leaving Lisa who's originally sat beside J's bed. He fast asleep after playing with Yoongi and Jackson. He is happy.

As she smiles watching her son sleeping peacefully the door opened and showing the all smile Marco which is now sat beside her.

"I wonder when will you invite your friend to come here." He said and she groans.

"I already invite my friend, Marco."

"Not this friend." She frowns, confuse. "But that friends I met in the restaurant."

"Mom told you that?" He nods. "I don't want to hurt anyone."

"Who will you hurt, sweety?" He ask and she look in his eyes. "I am okay. That's Yuqi's choice, no matter how hard you try to punish him, in the end it was Yuqi who choose him and remember, she used to be happy when she was with him. And I am so grateful she could feel the kind of happiness before god take her ."

"Marco-"

"I knew my daughter, she has a fragile yet soft heart like her mother. She can forgive anyone easily, specially for the one she loves. So stop it, Lily. She doesn't want both of you to suffer. That's enough." She looks away and watching her son with a painful feeling growing inside her heart.

"If you cant give him another chance, at least you should give J the chance to know who he is."

--

"Look at his face." Namjoon smiling while watching J playing in the time zone with Jackson. Lisa's heart almost stop to beat when she sees Namjoon was there too. But he calm her after swearing that he wont say anything to anyone. "It like a copy paste technology." He said while giggling. "Who's his name?"

"J."

"J?" He asked and watching her. "Only J?" she bites her, embarrassing herself with a tint pink creeping to her cheeks. Shamefully.

"Its so embarrassing oppa."

"Its okay. Easy, Lisa.'

"Its Ji."

"Ji?" she nods. "Means Wisdom?"

"The think I wish I had when I were young," she said and look away as the pictures of her rebelling phase ghosting her.

"It's a beautiful name." Joon is bracing her. "What's his surname?"

"Ji." She speaks again softly, weaker than the last time. "Jeon Ji Manoban."