"Oppa.."

"Don't call me oppa when we are in the office, Miss. Manoban." Said Namjoon half teasing half scolding, and the woman in front of him can only pouting annoyed. "How many time do I have to tell you, you cant break the contract that you made. One months, is that too long for you?"

"You don't understand, Sajangnim." She hissed but calling him with sajangnim.

"Why? Are you afraid? Are you afraid that you'll regret to throw my dongsaeng away?" She shake her head repeatedly. "And no. You cant leave until your contract is over."

--
"He refused?" I was looking at my right as I walk toward my office from Namjoon oppa's.

"How do you know?"

"Your face tell everything, Lisa." He chuckled.

"And why the fuck you look so happy?"

"Oh come on, I told you to not leave."

"It cant do. It wont help. He will try again."

"Not if you get married with me." I stop my track abruptly as I heard his words. Is he crazy? "I am serious Lis."

"No. Oppa." I said and put my hand in front of me as I see him motioning to touch me. To hug me. I cant. "You cant take all the responsibility on your shoulder. No. Its enough for Yuqi. Not to me too. I cant."

He looks at me and he seems thinking of what I say.

"I love you." He said and I snort.

"Yeah. And Jennie unnie loves you." He frowns as his sharp gaze try to hurt me. "She is a good woman oppa. Caring and sometimes can be annoying and too much, I know. But I think she can be good with you. For you."

"Lis.."

"No. Stop oppa. That's enough for me to destroy your relationship. To destroy Jungkook, Tae, Jisoo unnie, you." I said as I try to touch his hand giving him the strength. "I cant hurt Jennie again." I try to make him understand. "And I know you love her. Do you?"

--
I look at my reflection on the mirror wall in front of me. Sweaty, exhausted and fragile. I cant take my mind off of him. What he do? Does he happy with her? Does she that good?

I miss him.

But I cant keep going, I try to erasing him for his good. Try to be a good teacher for this last month. Throwing my old number and change it to new, no one can call me except my family and Yoongi also Namjoon oppa.

Just today, when I had brunch with Jennie which is surprise me, I met him. With her. For a hundreds restaurant in the Seoul, I met him there.

He is not even flinching when we met, while my heart clutching like crazy. Jennie unnie greet him, she even introducing me toward his new fiancé and god she is so beautiful.

No wonder he is not even looking or talking to me.

I don't know that it will be this hurt, I can even feel the pain on my thumb when we sat together, watching him holding her hand while we wait for our breakfast.

I am so angry that he can do that, he can move on. And it hurts. It hurts to see him carefully touching her as if she is a fragile porcelain or when he kiss her hand repeatedly as they are talking and smiling to each other.

It was my place.

It was my throne.

It was my tiara.

It was my prince. My king.

But I decide to throw it all.

So here I am, running away from the 3 of them using Taehyung who just accidentally come for a take out, I walk with him to the office saying that I have class early. And he mocks me all the way to the office. But its fine. I slap him anyway.

Look at you, Lisa. How mess up your life because of your weak heart. I smile sadly to myself.

"Isn't it too late?" I turn around immediately as I hear his voice. And I had goosebump because of it. My eyes widening as he walk inside the studio. "Its dangerous to come home alone after 8." And he stops in front of me. Watching me, studying my face. My stupid shock face. "Have you eat your dinner?"

"I'll go home." I said and walk toward the table to gathering my belonging. Not even try to answer his question.

"And what you wear? Did you teach your students like that?" He point out at my black short short, and my black crop top which is showing my skin too much for today.

"Bye." I said as I step toward the door but he sneakily blocking my way and force me to look at him. He frowns and look at me searching for the answer that he will never get. I swear.

"Why are you running away?" He ask as our gaze met. "Look me in the eyes, I do what you want, I willingly become your obedient dog. Shouldn't I have my reward?"

"What do you want?" I said as fast as I can because god knows till when I can hold my self to not attacking him with hug and kisses'.

"An answer." I frown. What does he talk about?  "Are you happy now, Lalice?"

--
I look at her face, emotionless. I wonder what's in her mind. My hand still gripping hers. I don't want to let her go.

Till now. I still remember that night when we were together. Happily.

She was chatting about her last dance class, talking that there was an amazing student that awe her. I was jealous and she tease me non stop. I was refusing to look at her face when she ask me to. I should have just staring at her smiling face as much as I had chance to.

Had I known it was our last night, I would have dug my nails deeper, plugged my teeth harder, left my marks as parting gift for her to return in regret.

I still want her.

No matter how sweet and lovely Jieun was, I cant see her in that romantic way. For few times I accidentally slipping my tongue and calling Jieun's name with Lisa, too many times to the point Jieun begin to asking, to interrogating me, to had argument with me, to be mad at me.

I cant blame her.

Who wont angry anyway as their fiancée keep on calling the other woman's name in front of you.

Mom been so good, she always come to see me in my latest unit, sometimes I wonder if Lisa is still live here, downstair, I wish I can met her accidentally, so I can have time to see her more and more. Mom always bring me food and asking about my days, and I can see that she try to cheer me up.

But I cant help. My heart was long die. With all of my hope.

I can be stubborn. I can ask her to live with me, I can make her stay with me but, I cant bring myself to imagine that to happen as she has husband right now, with a cute son. Her son wont be happy about this. I will indeed destroying her life.

I don't want it.

I want her to be happy.

So tonight, when she rejecting to talk to me back and leaving me alone, I take step to the bar where I used to spend my night before she come to my life.

That day, I feel much better playing with random girl, playing them, fucking them, heartlessly.

All I can feel now is only pain.

"Hey, Kook." I turn around and see Bambam smiling at me while he hugs a tall figure with him.

"Hey." I try to look good, despite of how tipsy I am right now, and  with a girl who just sat on my lap.

"Your fiancé?" He ask and I snort and chuckled hiding my face on the girl neck on my lap.

"I wont make my fiancé half naked in the club like this." I answer and he frown.

"Dude, you better go home. I think you are drunk. Need me to call someone to pick you?"

"No. Bam. I am having fun. You better go."

"No. You should go. I warn you, she wont be happy if she know you are in here with, a girl on your lap, and lip stain on your face."

"Who is she?"

"You know who, Kook."

"Oh her." I said in acknowledgment while he nods. "She probably wont care anymore. She break up with me few weeks ago." Damn I cant stop my mouth to talk. "And beside, she probably now naked while humping on her husband dick while planning about their next child."

"What the fuck you are talking about dude. See you are drunk."

"I am not drunk. She doesn't want me anymore because wait I will guess-" I then asking the girl on my laps to go away while she looks unpleasant, why should I care anyway. "I cant fulfilling her expectation on bed that her husband always can do to her."

"Dude, shut up. You embarrassing your self."

"What? Its reality. Everyone saying that I am sex goddess but she leave for another man, how can I trust people nowadays." My head was spinning and I begin to stuttering. I am drunk, fuck. "She was dancing effortlessly, look so contain, she must had a great sex with her husband last night or just this morning."

"Stop dirty talking about my friend Jeon Jungkook."

"What?" I ask as he looks so angry. Until another idea popped in my head. "Are you her husband."

"What the fuck Kook. Who plant parasite in your brain. I am not Lisa's husband because look I have my date with me." He pointed at the girl beside him who look at him in wide eyes. "No baby. You know Lisa. We are bestfriend." He said to the girl then looking at me. "And who the fuck telling you that Lisa has husband now?"

--
After the argument with Bambam, I passed out. I cant feel anything and as soon as I wake up I already in Namjoon hyung's place, scolded by him in the next hour.

I am confuse now. I cant make the theory about what had happening. About what Bambam say. I zone out make Jieun repeatedly asking for my condition.

I am okay. I tell her. But my heart is not.

So tonight was our one month anniversary, Jieun want a fancy dinner in this high class restaurant. I gave it to her and she is so happy. I am glad.

We were in the middle of our dinner when someone approaching us, and taking my attention with a soft cough on my left. I lift my head up to see a familiar face. He looks at me with no smile but a serious eyes.

"You remember me?" He ask and I nod.

"Mr. Jackson. Someone who's taking Miss. Manoban away when we had lunch the last time?" He nods and extending his hand.

"I hope you have time for me, in a minute." I nod quickly and looking at Jieun who nod at me. I walk behind him to the comfort room. When we arrive he turn away and studying my face. And I can only standing awkwardly letting him checking me out.

"I just realize your appearance now. She cant lie again."

"What?"

"She is your fiancé?" He pointed out the outside. I nod. "Will you leave with me if I ask you?"

"What?"

"Why you dump Lisa?"

"What?"