"Move away, I am not going to play your game." She said as she opening her door, thinking that she will has her peaceful day after she knew that Jungkook had trap her to be his girlfriend.

"What's game?" He asked and show her his innocent face. But sorry, she wont buy it.

"You and two of your brothers bet." She answered and his step halted immediately.

She knew.

"And its no. Thanks, Tae."

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"Greet Lisa properly from now on." Jungkook said after he blow the candle. Its his birthday. And sneakily he wrap his hand around her waist make her squirming a little, uncomfortable. "She is not only our friend, but she is also my girlfriend."

DAMN, I am late.

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(re-read chapter 2.7 Disgusting)

I know this is wrong. I listen up on Lisa and Namjoon hyung conversation about Jungkook. And I cant understand her feeling.

She knows everything what he did behind her back, and she doesn't blame him for that. Saying that's because of her.

For god sake, why is that caused by her when all the fault was on Jungkook side. He was spoiled and always get everything he want wrap around his finger easily. That why he never appreciate anything.

But I feel so sad and angry for her.

"Not everyone like sex, huh?" I joke around after I train myself to get rid of my nervousness. Taking step to approach her, after Namjoon hyung left.

She looks startled and relaxed after good seconds. And shrug her shoulder while shaking her head, smiling.

"You have such a hobby." She talked and I laugh with her. I was looking at our front where Jungkook sat, having Rosé on his laps, caressing her hips and laughing at Hobi hyung joke. I clenched my jaw.

"You'll break your beautiful jaw bone." She said without sparing me stare and I am blushing uncontrollably. She just praise me and I cant even say thank you because I was too afraid that I will stomping my feet, jumping happily because of that in front of her.

No fucking way.

"He is cheating." I tell her even thought I am blushing mess.

"Let him be." She said calmly.

"Where is your heart?"

"It dead." And my heart broken after she said that.

I want those dead heart to love me back.

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(re-read chapter 3.1 Another beginning)

She was wearing his shirt, and he looks so proud of that. I know, that he forced her. She looks like someone with heartless feeling, but still choose to stay with him.

So I decide to talk to her, to ease my feeling. Maybe this is only a little fling. I cant hurt my friend by taking his girlfriend.

Our little talk become an heavy one when she asked me why don't all of us helping Jungkook to realize that everything he did was wrong.

I frown.

And her words somehow make me scared. Fear growing inside of me. A girl like her wont hurt anyone.

"You wont hurt him." I state more to myself. I studied her facial expression and as usual, there is no trace of that. An emotionless barbie doll. Not his barbie doll. Jungkook's barbie doll.

"And why'd you think so?" She scared me.

"Because you love him." I assuring her, wishing that she will nods but no,  she chuckled.

Why?

"I don't know why I should inform you this but,-" I hold my breath and look at her orbs which is looking back at me intently. "Its all about the bet. I have 50% of the money that he get, its only a 3 month relationship."

And there, my heart pounding and hope blooming again like a parasite.

"Fake?" I want to make it clear before I jump in conclusion, flying to the nine cloud only to fall to the hard ground.

"Fake." She nods.

"So is that why you never mind when he touch-"

"He can do whatever he want."

"If its that case, if only, if only someone like you," I bite my lips and she smiles. "Will you gave him chance?"

My heart nearly breaking my rib cage, she took so long to answer. She only smiling while looking down at her hand. Blushing.

God, she is fucking blushing.

"Liz!" Please answer me. And then she look up at me with those sharp eyes, she nods.

"I'll gave you chance." And my smile cant leave my lips that day.

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(re-read chapter 3.2 Kidding)

I don't know what's going on, when I was about to entering my bedroom after having dinner with hyungs she opened her bedroom's door with tears all around her face.

I was shocked and try to run after her but just now in front of my eyes, that asshole with tangled white t-shirt and only on boxer judged by Yoongi hyung.

I really want to punch him. How dare he hurts my barbie. But I hold it on.

Wishing Yoongi hyung will take her back in here while sitting on the couch beside Namjoon hyung. I refused to sleep, not after I make sure Lisa is safe.

"What's going on Kook?" Jin hyung asked and Jungkook only could sighing frustrated.

"I...I don't know." You asshole hurt her. And you don't know? "Hyung, I think I hurt her."

You always did that. Anyway.

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(re-read chapter 3.3 How)

After that confession, I brace myself to talk and approaching Lisa first. I never feel so happy when we talk and it clicked. She know everything I talk. We are at the same level when it comes to weirdness and I don't know that she is also a crack head like me.

I laugh more and more, I was there to make her smile. And I nearly kiss her if its not because her phone which is ringing disturbing us.

Jeon is calling..

He calls her every time.

I studying her. Knowing that all the fakeness slowly fading. She gave all for him.

She looks at him the way I look at her.

And it hurts me.

"Your feeling feel deeper now for him." I said when we have our little dinner. She looks at me confusedly.

"You think so?" She keeps on munching her food and I cant stay still when there us ketchup on her side lips. I wipe it with my thumb. She smiles.

But I cant.

"No. You tell me Lisa." I am demanding. Sounding like a boyfriend who red handed his girlfriend from cheating. When in fact, I was the one who she cheated with from Jungkook.

"I don't know." She said lightly and put her forks on her plate.

"How could you don't know your own heart." I ask her again. And she looks away. I need her to look at me. "If you indeed fall for him, what about me?"

And unexpectedly her orbs catching mine with sternness filling it. And I have a bad feeling for that reaction.

"Then you only need to stop." She spoke and my heart become ashes on the ground. "Stop looking at me that way anymore."

No. You cant.

"We will never work, Taehyung oppa."

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"What are you doing in here?"

"Stop this. Please. Don't hurt my brother."

"Fucking away." She warns. She was about to leave her hotel room.

Yes.

She just arrived from China and you tired to coming back to uni or to her parents house. So there she is. But someone disturb her peaceful night, Kim Taehyung was there.

Look so mad and sad in the same time.

"I knew everything Lis. I heard everything now. Please, don't do this to us."

"You are not having authority to tell me what I should and shouldn't do. And now, good bye."

She was about to walk when her wrist pulled to meet his eyes. Face to face, chest to chest and his breath hit her face.

"You know I can make you pay for the shit you want to do to my brother."

"Oh I dare you." She said without thinking much and she regrets all of the guts she had that night.

Sobbing and screaming. Not every tears will capable to draw her disgust and disappointment.

Maybe those are the price she should pay for the game she started.

No.

They started it.

"No. Stop Taehyung!" And her screams engulfed by the dark pitch of her room. Cold and lonely.

I swear will destroy you.

Ding...

From : Jeon
I miss you.

I smile bitterly and choose to delete those message. Holding my aching thigh I hum myself the usual lullaby Yuqi would always sing for me.

Yuqi, I want to be with you.

(Lastly re-read chapter  3.4 Winter)