"Doll, please open the door." He said pleading watching the bathroom door locked from inside of the room.

He just woke up in the morning, imagining to see his doll recovered and fine. But instead of that he find no one. He was panicked when he realize that she is not by his side and his gaze meet the bathroom door when he heard the sound of the shower. She is inside there, locking the door and refused to go out.

"I am sorry, I really mean it. I promise I will never do that again. I really love you doll." But nothing changed. And he freaked out, its been an hour since he start to beg her to go out. He was thinking about the bad situation she could do so he decide to broke open the door. Its damn hard.

Once...

Twice...

And third kick he make it, the door opened forcefully, wasting no time he walk fast into the room to find her girl  sat behind the shower, eyes open, and red. But she is not even flinching when he approaching her.

"Doll, what happen to you?" He asked and soaked with the water too. "What are you doing?" He asked again cupping her face. He sure she was crying. "What have I done?"

--
That morning he bring Lisa to visit his doctor, he recommended him to bring her to psychiatrist. And he did. But she still as cold as ice. As emotionless as statue. He is afraid, he is afraid he lost her that way.

Because she never spoke, she never look at him, she always flinch when he was about to touch her.

Fortunately Jisoo was there, of course Yoongi send her to help. Because he doesnt want Jennie to hate Lisa even more after their fight. He wonder if what Yoongi said about brother-sister relationship between him and Lisa was real. Because he act more than that.

For the 3rd visits, Jisoo asking him to gave her time after he told her what had he done to her. And its been 2 weeks since his last interraction with her, and damn, she looks better now.

Still no smile like the first time he meet her, but she is fine. Alive. Speaking And always with Jisoo. No one knows the actual problem, even in their friend circle, Yoongi managing her condition as a secret between him, Jungkook, Jisoo, Namjoon and Jin.

So others only know that he and her are in a cold war.

"Kookie I am sorry." Someday Rosé said to him while he took lunch with her because the others has no class and Lisa was at the rooftop with Jisoo. He blinks trying to focus because he just day dreaming about his lovey dovy time with Lisa. And he looks at the red head who already broke into tears in front of him.

"What?" He only said that words because he doesn't know what's the matter. He is not even listening on what she said before. What's it all about again?

"This is about Lisa." She speaks hanging her head down low. He frowned. "I was so stupid. I never intend to make her hate you." He keep on silence, because he knows the reason behind Lisa's hatenes for him was only him. No Rosé.

"The morning when you leave my dorm, I realize that you left your mini bag." He nodded. "I wanted to give it to you, and when I open my door there was Lisa so without thinking much I-"

"You don't." But she bites her lips and nodded feeling the pank in her heart. She is afraid. She is always disappointing him.

"I gave it to Lisa. I told her you left the bag when you spend the night with me."

"Oh Rosé."

"I know I am sorry. I should have just give it back to you. I am sorry , don't hate me Kook." She cried and sobbing to the extend. "I am sorry that I was broke down in front of you when I know Jimin was dating Jeongyeon, I-" he cant believe it. "I shouldn't have ask you to fuck me to make me feel numb against Jimin."

--
He was half running walking toward the rooftop, hitting some shoulders on the way there hoping he wasn't that late.

So its not only about the traumatic, its also about him and Rosé. He doesn't know if she still have his mini bag or not with her, because it was contained with used condom he used with Rosé that night.

He promises her to not touching any other girl, but when he sees Rosé crying and pointing a knife on her chest he cant stay still. His mind was blank when he took that knife and began to touch her because its the only way she usually will calming down.

His touch.

And he thought it will be the secret that he can buried forever, wishing that Rosé will meet another good man for her so he doesn't need to be there to calm her anymore. He only want his doll.

He prays that her doll forgive him. And when he reach the last stair he open the door to see her standing behind the railing. Looking so peaceful, an angel like, beautiful, and he misses to touch her more than anything.

She looks at his direction and he freeze. Her warm eyes already replaced with an ice cold one. And then she looks away as if his existential was nothing.

"Doll." He calls her name while walking to her. She do nothing but looking straight to the sky. "How are you?"

Nothing.

"I am sorry." He said again feel the pain in his heart making his stomach ache.

"For which sin?" She finally responded. He is happy. But sad and afraid in the same time. He keep on silence thinking about the intro. How should he started.

"For the childish judgmental you thought about me and Taeyong?" She asked still looking at the sky, the bird was flying in a group. Crowded and probably happy. "Or about your little lie?" His heart sank to the ground. "Playing overwatch with Taehyung oppa until you cant check your phone right?"

He bites his lips. That's the excuse he said to her when he was sleep over at Rosé's dorm.

"You know Jeon, I never mind about you and your thing about getting laid with so much woman out there because I honestly once fuck with someone when we were together." Now its his turn to feel mad and shocked, look at her side view with the more aching in his heart. Aching to the points it hitched his breath. He cant breath.

"Or about the broken promise because that's you are. That's what exactly you would do. I didn't expect something sweet, good and beautiful. And you don't dare to ask why I hide from my world, because you are not that worth for my precious world." Probably, she makes it. She was hurt. She wanted him to get hurtled with her. She doesn't like to be in sorrow alone.

"Want me to tell you about one of my little secret?" She then smile thinly, kind of sadness smile because her eyes look so sad. There is no sparkle at all in it.

"One day, I have this beautiful and warm family. Me, mom and dad. We were so rich. And probably happy." She mouthing the words probably clearly. "I am the princess with a beautiful and cool unicorn in the kingdom. The kingdom of card, fragile, and destroyable. That's what people liking about destroying someone life which is so happy."

"The life slowly changing. I was a bright princess, like the sun, like the star, like the rainbow like my father told me." Slowly one tear coming. He wanted to kiss her tear but he hold it. This is the first time she open up her life. "I always love my father who love my mother and me genuinely. He is so precious but a liar in the same time. Just like you." She then looking at him right in his eyes make his brain freezing.

"The world collapsed. His loves faded away. We broke down. In the worst way. And he took his anger on my mother. Only my mother."

"He uses his hand over and over again, he shuts down his heart. And my mom can do nothing but be patient, because of love. Those stupid love. Until one day, he nearly kill my mother, he already broke my mother ankle, and holding his lovely baseball stick, walk passed me in the living room when I was 10."

"I was clueless about everything but my instinct cant lie. He will took away the precious thing from me. He forget it when he said I am the sun, I can swallow every planet and burn it. He forget when he said I am the star I can fall and destroy everything down there. He forget when he said I am the rainbow that I was made after something fall apart." No, it cant be, he thought.

"I kill him." And the world look like lost their color in his eyes. There is no sound could be heard instead of his heart beat. "And I am happy he cant took my mother from me." She smiles when she said those words. "I shot him on his head, and thanks to you I will never see you the same anymore as you laid your finger to hurt me, Kookie."

"Thanks to you, every time I look at you he will show up too. Thanks to you it will be easier for me now."

Meow

He doesn't blink, but she looks away to see a cat approaching and licking her shoes. She smiles again and bending down to touch the kitten.

"Hello Leo." She spoke and kissing the cats nose. "Where is Taeyong~ie?" And somehow her words didn't make him angry. He just feel every emotion. Like fear, like scared. And after she thought it was enough for him to disturb her time with Leo she looks up and their gaze met again.

"Please, don't force me to kill you too."

--
"Pasta, wish you like it." He said and put the pasta in front of her. She just wake up, messy hair, messy make up but she will still look beautiful for him. He likes everything about her, included how she wear his flannel.

She keeps silent when she eats what he cook for her. He smiles to see her that way.

"Your dorm look so tidy." She spoke looking around with her eyes. "You really prepared well when girls come to get laid in here." He chuckles.

"In matter of fact, you, are the first woman get inside my dorm." He spoke and she widening her eyes.

"That's explaining why you had that pass code thing outside your door." He laugh now. Everyone complaining about that too.

"I'll let you know the code in case you want to come again."

"I wont coming back, you know it." She responded quickly make his laugh stop. "Don't be happy when I make you as a shelter just like what Rosé did to Jungkook."

"Not every girl will loves their shelter like Rosé slowly love Jungkook without she know it." She chuckled find her own words funny. "I took advantage from you, and you are happy about that because we just fuck."

"This is not you, Lis."

"Move on, Yoongi-ah." She then mocked him while look straight at that small eyes. "Look at how Jennie never get over you even when she has someone like Namjoon oppa as her fiancé."

"Lis, stop. You just want to hurt anyone because you get hurt."

"Its disgusting right?" She asked at him. Put the fork on the table and lay her finger on his jaw. She marks him there last night. "A whipped creature like Jennie, Rosé, Jungkook, and You." She then push his jaw away. "Disgusting."

She is a bitch.

A bad demon.

But he still loves her. Still want to keep her secret well. Still want to protect her.

Still want to be with her.