"What the hell." I cursed unconsciously when someone practically fall to the ground right in front of our table.

"The fuck." I heard Jennie unnie also cursed out loud and standing up mimicking my action along with Jisoo unnie and Rose. We were at the cafeteria, grabbing some snacks and soft drinks before we start another classes when it happen.

I look at the poor girl who look scared, hanging her head low to the ground. She might also praying for someone to buried her whole existence right there right now, because the cafeteria damn packed. And I can tell everyone attention now directing toward us, her and me and the son of the satan in front of me who looks so angry after throwing the girl to the ground.

"What the hell are you doing, Jeon?" I asked him but he only shrugged his shoulder and motioning his head toward the girl. "She is a girl, A-GIRL"

"Why don't you ask her, what was she made to make me forget that she is a girl." His dark voice also scared me somehow but I don't wanted to be controlled by him. He can't play me like he did to others. And not wasting another minutes I look at the girl, she looks so familiar. I wonder who she is.

"Speak!" I said shortly to her making her to look at me, still sitting on the cold floor with the stain of faded mascara on her cheeks. She is crying mess. But she speak nothing. "Speak and you will be less humiliated!" I stated and she hesitantly moving her trembling lips, but no words come out, poor her. "Come on."

"I am sorry." Her trembling and weak voice make my heart aches, what she did to make him do this to her. "I-" I am still waiting. Still waiting, debating with my own thought if she worth a help from me because I knew that the girl must did something bad. "I was the one who sent our video using Jungkook's phone." And its ringing the bell in my head. "I also initiated to record it."

Of course she looks familiar, she was the one he bang on the video. Another chick that he maybe not even remembered the name. I keep on silence as I saw her looking at the ground again, sobbing. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I am not a kind woman, but my heart began weakened after what had happen toward Yuqi.

Sometime I think its maybe the karma for me, I used to bullying other students, playing with so many men and breaking so many hearts. I don't know that it will cost everything for me. I don't know.

 "Leave!" finally I said and its make her stunned. "Stand up and leave, before it's too late."

 --

"Just like that?" I asked tailing her again after the scene we made at the cafeteria. I can't believe that she makes me doing dirty to a girl to explain about my condition for her to let that girl go. "Lisa, answer me!" I force her to look my way and stop her track in the middle of the hallway. I can see how red her face was.

Did I press the wrong button again?

"What do you want me to responding to all of this shit, Jeon?" she said frustrated but she clearly holding herself by exploding in front of people. "You want to explain everything, this way? By hurting someone, especially a girl and embarrassing her in front of so many people like that? Do you think I will be happy and telling you that you do a great job?"

Sure. I want you to responding like that. You make me crazy, Lisa. I don't know that I care this much about your thought of me about everything especially about woman. I don't want you to blame everything to a drunken me, I don't even remember the night with that girl. I only remember that I longing for your lips. And I never have enough guts to ask you, to touch you the way we did that time.

Should've know that you are toxic.

"You blame a girl, you two fuck each other and both of you enjoy it equally so what the hell, Jeon? You put her in the position as if everything was her mistake."

"I don-"

"You don't understand right?" she cuts me off and I hate that. I hate the feeling I feel now, the fear that slowly swallowing me bit by bit. I am afraid, I am afraid to lose something which is not even mine in the first place. I am doomed. "Stop this, don't look for me anymore. It's over, Jungkook-ah. It's over."

No.

--

I hate that I saw his eyes saddened the moment I said those words.

Is it affect him that much?

I don't want to think wrong about it but damn it, it feel like the old time. The look in his eyes just like the look on every men that I broke their heart. But he is not them, he is just a fuck boy who know nothing about love, about heart.

All what he knew only about fucking, condom and every dirty things.

Just like the old me.

When I walk away from the breathless auburn hair boys, I feel like I did something wrong. That I shouldn't feel that way. It's true everything is over now, it's five days to three months. Our deal about this fake relationship will be in an end. With or without this problem. I should've feel blessed because I can through out the hell that Jungkook made, alive.

"Hey." I got goosebump as that voice interrupting my thought. Looked away from the sky when I lost in my thought I fixed my gaze at the rooftop door way when this man stand with hesitant gummy smile painted on his lips. "Did I disturb something?" he ask and I shook my head painting the most genuine smile I can gave, but it turned to be a tired smile only.

Yeah, I am tired. I swear that I will kept the promise for Yuqi but here I am. Standing hesitantly because the brain and the heart can't work well together. When the good sister in me hold the beast inside, it feel everything will be fine, that I should been living in peace, forgetting all the hurt and sleepless night of mine because of what they did to her. But then they all come as if they volunteer their self, just like a nice and delicious mice dancing in front of an angry and hungry cat, like me.

It's hard, Yuqi.

I swear.

"He did something stupid again, didn't he?" he said walking toward my direction, handing me the cold coke can and holding the fence of the rooftop, just like me.

"As if it's something new." I responded taking the coke and rise it up to the sky in front of him. "Thanks, oppa." Cheers for my messy life.

"Is that why?" he beams and I crunch my brows questioning him while he take a sip of his coffee. "The reason why you refused to open your heart for him." And I lost my words in that time, did he knew about me and Jungkook's deal? I panicked.

"It's okay. You two being so obvious." He then responding looking at me and lean his back to the fence, facing me. "Sorry for the bet."Too late.

"Did everyone of you knew about this?"

"As far I knew its only me and Namjoon." He gave me that warm calming smile, but why did my heart getting even colder now? "We sense something off about you, who can't trust Jungkook."

I chuckled when he said that words and gulping the coke in one shot make me close my eyes. "Who will trust Jungkook anyway." I stated. "I never trust anyone." He furrowed his brows at me but I refused to look at his eyes.

"What do you fear about trusting people, Liz?" he questioned and I can sense that he felt disappointed by my words. "Not everyone will harm you."

"Not everyone." I beam nodding my head lightly holding my smirk. "Got betrayed by one person already could exploding the mountain, and you asked me what I fear of, oppa?"

"Tell me!" he whispered clear enough for me to listen. "So I can understand what's on your mind."

"It just-" I look at him hesitantly, will he understand my feeling when I tell him my thought? "-I am not the fan of getting played while being loyal."

And we were hugged with silence for some minutes.

He can't understand me. None can.

"I knew I am a bitch when it's come about heart. I am heartless, they said. I won't blame them because I never pour my heart into anything but my family." I said finally playing with the can in my hand. "I am not the type who can fall easily." I stated.

"But when I fall-" I make sure to look him right at his orbs to make my words hit the right spot in his heart,

"I fall......hard."

Deep down I know behind that disinterest Min Yoongi, he care and has good heart.

Yoongi oppa, you are kind, I knew it,

But I am sorry..

I had to use you.

--

"We did something wrong.

I'm sorry."

For what?

To who?

Funny.