AUTHOR'S NOTE : CHAPTER TWENTY GUYS! HOLY COW I DIDNT THINK I WOULD GET THIS FAR BUT HERE WE ARE SORRY ENJOY ! <3

I was trying to find a black outfit but couldn't find anything I liked i sat in the middle of my floor I felt a cold breeze " hello " jasper said my head snap up Sam was behide him " it's fine I let him come " Sam said jasper held a trash bag up with a hanger " ive come to save you again " jasper said " I know I know don't need saving " jasper said " I do " I said jasper immediately pick me up " im here darling im here " jasper said I felt tears stream down my face " your dad's downstairs the cullens came back for the funeral but they said they would keep their distance " jasper said " did edward? " I ask jasper shake his head no " good " I said jasper kiss my head I blush " uh jasper I have to tell you something " I said " am I really going to tell jasper it was a accident " I thought jaspers golden eyes lock on mine " I accidentally kissed Paul " I said " I know Paul told me " jasper said as he pulls me to him he chuckles " I thought it was funny how you tried to kill yourself right after must have been a bad kiss " jasper said " hes my friend " I said " come on emily and bella will help you get ready " jasper said " how is bella doing with you being here ? " I ask " she hasnt seen me really " jasper said thats when Emily and Bella came in the room " jasper ? " bella ask and look at me " I guess she didn't know " emily said " no " all three of us said at the sametime " well after we get ashley ready it looks like a tornado came in here " emily said " I couldn't find anything to wear " I said jasper put a arm around me " its okay darling " jasper said " maybe I'll leave you to help ashley I need to speak to jasper " bella said " they left bella " I said bella pause and look at me I stared back " okay bella come on lets go " jasper said as he released me and walk out the door closing the door behind them " wow that wasn't awkward " emily said
Emily and I walk down the stairs I see the pack, and the packs family was here, clearwaters, blacks. Dad walk over to me " im so sorry babygirl " dad said as he hug me I felt empty and I pull away from dad I look around for jasper " behide you " dad said I turn around and see jasper " uncle charlie is at gravesite waiting " dad said i felt jasper put a coat on my arms " just in case you get cold " jasper said " thank you " I said as I felt a tear run down my cheek but jasper wipe my tears away " im taking her in my truck " jasper said " thats fine ill ride with Sam and emily " dad said " ill ride with Jake and Billy " bella said " actually can bella ride with us " I said I look up at jasper " yeah if bella wants to " jasper said " ill ride with you guys " bella said " and I'll ride with Jared I guess " Paul said " its fine " Paul said as he came over and hug me before he walk out the door " are we ready ? " I ask as I held out my hands to bella and jasper " hey its okay " jasper said " give us a minute " jasper said bella walk out the door jasper pulls me in his arms " we are all here for you ashes if you want after everyone's gone we can stay and the cullens can come " jasper said " even carlilse I need to apologize to him " I said " okay let's go " jasper said
I sat in the middle of the truck I cling to my stuff animal cat I had when I was alittle girl " bells I think we need to go to therapy " I said bella look over at me " ill go for my lily and you can go for edward " I said " how about some tunes ladies ? " jasper ask as he turn on the radio and put a hand on my knee I grab his hand
I felt tears sting my eyes as jasper pulls in after Sam and emily I look out the window as did bella " lean on us ready bella ? " jasper ask bella look at me and hug me I held onto her and slid out behide jasper " stay with me " I said as I grab his hand " always darling " jasper said I look up at his golden eyes shining bright I look at everyone beside the gravesite I see my uncle and dad " go its okay I'll be with bella " jasper said I lean up and kiss his cheek " not a accident " I said jasper smiles I stayed next to jasper " ashley " dad said I look over and see he was beside the gravesite I take in a breath and walk over to the gravesite " uncle charlie thank you so much " I said " it wasn't just me alot of people pitch in and most are here " uncle charlie said " one being jasper, myself, your dad and everyone really " uncle charlie said " this is Mr Lewis " uncle charlie said I look at the priest " hello " I said " hello Ms swan I'm so sorry for your loss " mr Lewis said I held my stuffed animal cat tighter I felt tears sting my eyes " thank you for coming " I said " ashley you'll have to be beside her " uncle charlie said I nod " can we get this over with ? " I thought as I felt tears stream down my face I felt a hand over my shoulder " here honey " emily said as she gave me a hekchief " thank you " I said as I smiled and hug her " its okay to cry honey " emily said " shall we begin ? " I hear Mr Lewis ask I immediately look for jasper he was already walking over to me I reach out and cling to him I broke down in tears " begin " jasper said I pull away as I hear Mr Lewis began to speak and wipe the tears and snot away I take in slow deep breaths in and out I felt jasper giving me peace emotions jasper held my hand we stood side by side I look down at my babygirl I cling to my stuff animal cat
" Is there anyone wants to speak ? Before they rest in peace " mr Lewis said jaspers hand let go I look up at jasper in confusion I see Paul come over to me I smiled and held his hand " you doing okay ? " Paul ask I nod " your mother and everyone around her was so excited to meet you lily you are so loved never forgotten " jasper said as he walk back over to me
" your mother made me go to the diner in forks had order pancakes id do it again if i had to " Paul said Paul look over at me I walk over and hug Paul I look down at the little box " I don't understand why did they cremate her ? There's barely any ashes " I thought " I'd like to say something " bella said I didn't move neither did Paul bella hand slip in mine " im sorry I wasn't there but I did care about you lily you'll be missed" bella said I let go of bella and Paul they both walk away I stood there " I um " I stutter " I love you lily I'm sorry I couldn't have been a better mother " i said I walk back over to jasper I felt mr Lewis look over every once and while " that ends the services " mr Lewis said " we are having the dinner at the house we'll give you guys some time alone " uncle charlie said " yours ? " I ask " no actually jaspers it's bigger and spacious " uncle charlie said " ill ride with Billy and Jake " bella said " we'll see you there baby doll " dad said

" do you want them to come out ? " jasper ask as I still stood by lilys grave I slowly nod I felt the tears stream down my face soon it began to rain I felt everyone's eyes on me I look up and see them I stood up and walk over to carlilse " im sorry for how I reacted and thank you for coming " I said carlilse hug me " its no problem ashley after all you are family " carlilse said I pull away from carlilse I hug esme and look over at carlilse again " who you left when I was pregnant! You left bella! Edward left bella in the woods a damn shape shifter had to find her we couldn't find her! " I said " but anyways thank you for coming but now you guys can go now again! and oh tell mind reader thanks for not showing up I mean it " I said as I hug Alice Alice hug me " keep him safe " Alice said " trying to " I said as I smiled at Alice " I hope you burn too " I said slaping Alice on the cheek I move on to Emmett and Rosalie but didn't hug either of them right away like i did the others we pull apart " I don't blame you two because you probably wanted to stay but had to go because of the coven esme and Alice was trying to keep their family together but Alice knew and didnt tell anyone " I said " I did " Alice said I look over at Alice but she was looking behide me at jasper " you little pixie bitch! " I hear a growl come from jasper " I wasn't the one who lied " Alice said " but he stayed " I said " only because he felt guilty because you was pregnant since no one else was staying " Alice said " Alice! " esme said " but now your not pregnant so he can come home with us " Alice said " hes my mate " I said " you beilive that ? " Alice ask thats when jasper grab Alice by the neck " you walk away now the only reason why you are alive is because of our history together and because of the cullen coven when I let you go. You better not show up here without an really good excuse someone's dying or something " major said " your sliping major " Alice said major growls he dig his fingers in her throat I hear like glass breaking and I noticed she was hollow inside of her neck as she gasp for air " major " esme said slowly " ashley " carlilse said " major stand down " I said major let go of Alice and she disappears " get the hell out of here " I said they all took off leaving jasper and I alone " is that really what's inside nothing just hollowness " I ask as we was on the way to the dinner " yeah what did you think darling? " jasper ask " I don't know I figured blood but you guys are dead " I said " yes we are dead thanks darling " jasper said I scoot over and put my head against his shoulder he put a arm around me " is what Alice said true ? " I thought

Paul pulls me aside " the cullens was back " Paul mutters " yes but they are gone I think for good " I said " you did well " Paul said I hug him " thank you anger issues " I said " anytime princess you staying here tonight or coming home with dad or what are you doing ? " Paul ask I stared at jasper as he was talking to dad " ill probably stay here jasper and I need to talk no one wants me to drive " I said " you don't need to drive " Paul said I smile " you have clothes here or do you need me to drive you back ? " Paul ask " ill ride with Sam and emily back " I said " I thought you didn't like the cullens " I said " hes not a cullen hes a hale princess and he stayed so I respect him enough " Paul said

I grab my teddy bear and put it in the bag along with clothes and my birth control " you sure honey ? " emily ask " ill be back tomorrow for school if it's okay with Sam can jasper drop me off at school ? " I ask " he can but that's all don't want him to think we are friendly " Sam said " thank you " I said  " you are kind of part of the pack now " Sam said " im one of the shape shifters " I said Sam walk over to me and put his hand on my shoulder " not a chance in hell but yes " Sam said we laugh " I would make a good shape shifter and you know it " I said " are you going to turn into one of them ? " Sam ask " no I mean I don't know it's a sensitive subject " I said " hey its okay sorry I won't ask again " Sam said my phone buzzed I look down " jaspers here to take me back " I said as I hug them and walk downstairs and outside I stop and look at jasper " we need to talk " I said as jasper takes my bags and put them in the truck he closes my door before he gets in and pulls away from my house and down the road we went