I knock on the door Emily open the door " can I come in ? " I ask I see Paul, Jared and the whole pack here " shit sorry " I said as I take a step back " no its okay come in " emily said " how did it go with bella ? " emily ask as I sat at the table eating a steak and mashed potatoes " if the blacks and my uncle wasn't there I would have thrown her out the window or busted lip " I said " are you sure you don't have a werewolf gene in you ? " Jared ask " shape shifters not werewolves " I said " hey you don't have to finish " emily said as I put the fork down " im sorry " I said " ill eat it " Paul said I shove the plate over and smile " good doggy " I said Paul playfully growls I roll my eyes at him " how did you do driving ? " Paul ask " I made it here " I said " no it was kind of hard to focus but I made it " I said " maybe you should go to therapy " emily said I look at her " bella needs the therapy I don't I wasn't a zombie for two months " I said the boys look at the door " sorry ladies duties call " Paul said as they jump up and leave " can I stay here ? " I ask " yeah come on ill show you the bathroom and you can have one of Paul's shirts he left here " emily said
I look down at my c section " im so sorry baby girl " I said I step into my bathwater and instantly relaxed

I see jasper his red eyes he was in a uniform " jasper! " I said as I was being surrounded by vampires jasper turn his back

I gasp and look up at emily " its okay jaspers okay " emily said " how hard is it for you to like me ? " I ask " not hard you love a vampire I love a shape-shifter as you call them " emily said " I don't love jasper hes my friend like Paul " I said " do you have them feelings towards Paul? " emily ask " jasper said im his mate I don't know what to think about it I mean can we all have one or two mates ? " I ask " ashely I saw jasper at your bedside that vampire loves you " emily said " okay great but I don't love him " I snap " or at least I don't think I do I get happy when he's around he calms me even without his ability " I said " you calm him " emily said " okay again great but I am not his babysitter or mother I am his friend I don't have any control over him I've been down that path he does him I do me and we hope we get through it together " I said

" I think you need therapy honey " emily said as we sat by the fire " I think bella needs it more than me " I said " why don't you two go together support eachother you both suffer a great loss you more than her " emily said " ill talk to uncle charlie about it frist before I make any move on it " I said I curl on the blanket " I love my life " I said as I stared up at the stars " I just wish " I thought I saw a flash of jasper in my head " wish what ? " emily said we hear wolf howling then men laughing " its just the boys " emily said " you wish what ? " emily ask " I just wish I was okay " I said " you will be you have the pack, family, jasper lean on us ashley its okay " emily said I nod Paul flop down beside me hitting my head " oh my God I'm so sorry " Paul said as he went to kiss my forehead but I look up and he kiss dangerous close to my lips everyone pauses " nightly swim anyone! " I said as I ran towards the water " you don't know how to swim ! " Paul said I felt warm body pick me up and spins me around slowly as well as I hear the waves crashing and the laughter of the pack " I can be here forever and it wouldn't be enough " I thought " come on princess " Paul said as we walk in the ocean to our hips " im sorry I didn't know you was going to move " Paul said " its okay Paul shit happens and we're okay I promise " I said " hey is that my shirt ? " Paul ask " yeah emily gave me it seeing as I don't have clothes here yet " I said " yet " Paul said " I like emily shes pretty cool " I said as Paul grab my hand and starts to pull me in the ocean I felt Paul's warm body next to mine I almost crave to be next to him hes nice and warm  " hey whats wrong ? " Paul ask I look away from paul I felt something touch my leg I scream and wrap my body around Paul side " thats what they all say " jared said Paul growls at Jared Jared swims away I laugh " don't worry princess I'll save you " Paul said I smiled " dont doubt it shape shifter " I said I caught Paul's eyes on me I felt my body shiver " lets go " Paul said as he swims back to the shore I let out of Paul after we get back to the shallow end I scream as a fish brush up against my foot I practially jump into Paul's side we ended up in the sand the salt water rushing up in our faces " scarey cat " the one boy said " oh shut up Embry " Jared said " don't worry I got your back " Jared said as he helps me stand up I turn to help Paul up but the waves made me unbalanced and I fell beside Paul again " woh hey " Jared said as he look away " I have on underwear jeez " I said as I finally got up and moved to the blanket emily threw a towel over me " thanks em " I said " your welcome babygirl " emily said I felt exhausted " we'll tell her tomorrow for now let her get some sleep we'll take her back to the house " I hear Sam said but I pass out
I woke up to the smell of bacon and muffins being cooked I roll over and see my phone on the charger " I loose that thing more than I'd like to admit " I thought " oh shit school! " I said as I jump up and grab jeans from the chair I ran out the door and into the kitchen " woh hey calm down theres no fire in here " a woman said " sue Clearwater this is ashley " emily said " school I I I have to go " I stutter I felt my hands tremble emily nods to sue and emily walk over to me " its okay Sam already talk to the teachers Paul is getting your work " emily said I take in a breath and calm down " sorry " I said as I rub my stomach " the hospital called they want to release the ashes and what to name her " Emily said " there must not be alot of ashes I mean I was only a month I think " I said " ashley its okay " emily said " here have some bacon and a muffin there choclate chip " sue said " how does your husband cook the fish so good ? " I ask sue laughs " can't tell you " sue said " and I don't even know where to bury her or me I don't want where I want to be buried " I said " you mean you don't want to be a vampire " sue said " sue! " emily said
Emily drove me to the hospital " thank you em " I said " no problem ashley " emily said " lily " I said " baby lily tate " I said emily reach over and held my hand " lean on us ash " emily said I squeeze her hand we pull into the parking lot I see a police car at the hospital " ill be right in honey " emily said I grab my purse and walk in the doors I see uncle charlie " ashley " uncle charlie said as he walk over to me " is bella okay ? " I ask " yeah she's in school " uncle charlie said " then what are you doing here ? " I ask confused " ashley I'm here for you " uncle charlie said as he chuckles I blush " oh sorry uh thank you " I said " I think I found a place for the baby " uncle charlie said " baby lily tate " I said " lily " uncle charlie said I nod I hear the door opening and its emily uncle charlie lead us down the hallway and into a room I held onto Emily's hand as I see a doctor and a box along with a picture " that's her " I sob as I broke down in tears I collposed " ashley ! " emily and uncle charlie said I held onto them as uncle charlie pulls a chair up I sat down emily rub my back as I sobbed I felt my emotions go outside my body thats when my phone begans to ring " I got it " emily said as she gets up and leaves the room I snap out of it and stop crying " sorry " I said as I take a breath in and out " do you have a name ? " the doctor ask " lily tate " I said the doctor wrote it on a piece of paper " now is the father involved? " the doctor ask " he uh died a few months before she found out she was pregnant  doc " uncle charlie said " are you well enough to sign ? " the doctor ask I nod and reach out I grab the pen and sign my name " we have a memorial package we want you to have it isn't much but a teddy bear, blanket but we are so so sorry for your loss " the doctor said I look over at uncle charlie  " can I have a picture of her ? " I ask as I grab the teddy bear " ash " uncle charlie said softly " it's over we can go to the funeral home now " uncle charlie said " can I keep the teddy bear " I said uncle charlie looks at me with tears in his eyes " of course you can " uncle charlie said he put a hand on my shoulder " let me handle everything go home and get ready " uncle charlie said emily came back in " shes ready to go home emily but I'll handle everything just be on stand by " uncle charlie said " of course chief swan " emily said " hey uncle charlie I was thinking of asking bella to group therapy ? Or something maybe " I said " ashley focus on you let me worry about bella I'm sorry I wasn't there before but I am now " uncle charlie said