" you ready to roll ? " Paul ask as I was in a wheelchair and ready to go home " yes " I said " you sure you want to go home we can go out to get breakfast " Paul ask " pancakes does sound good is that okay ? " I ask " you just had a baby of course it's okay " Paul said Paul immediately knew his mistake " im sorry ash come on " Paul said as he  push me out of the room and down the hallway " there's some people I want you to meet. The pack " Paul said " if you need anything they will come and help you " Paul said " thank you " I said as I lean my head back my head resting on his stomach
The blurry of faces and names was alittle to much but I tried to remember but they all ran together I remember Sam being the alpha but that was because Paul said he's the one who found bella " thank you " I said to Sam " your welcome we protect our people " Sam said " I talk to the leader on the phone and he said it was okay for us to be here " Sam said " so carlilse wasn't here he was on the phone ? " I ask " right " Sam said I look down at my hands " you ready to go get us pancakes " Paul said I nod not really hungry now " at least he called " I thought " but jasper stayed why ? WHY ? AND WHY DO I WANT HIM. HES A KILLER A VAMPIRE ?!" I thought " oh what like Paul is a safe bet too " I thought " hey whats up ? " Paul ask as he bend down and was in front of me I saw we was at his truck " sorry just thoughts " I said " care to share with the class ? " Paul said as he smiles " how's Bella? " I ask " you should focus on you and not worry about bella ashley she has someone " Paul said Paul stands up " you ready princess " Paul said " yeah anger issues " I said Paul lifts me up and into the truck " thanks " I said " your welcome " Paul said the nurse came out and got the wheelchair we pull out of the parking lot and down the road to get pancakes

Paul came around the truck and open the door " come on princess " Paul said as we walk in Carver Cafe we sat down " Paul lahote " I hear a man say " go sit down " Paul mutters I walk over to the window " bad company you have there ashley " I hear Connie say " I think I can tell for myself thanks " I said Connie roll her eyes at me as she gave our menu's as Paul came over finally the man that said his name looked scared at him " a friend of yours " I said Paul look at me " ash don't not now " Paul said as I see the menu in his hand tremble slightly I reach out and brush my hand against his we was soon holding hands " thank you ashley " Paul said as I felt him calm down I nod and smile at him I let go of his hand Paul ordered us pancakes and milk " can I have a steak to go with a baked potato? " I ask Connie " yeah of course dear " Connie said
" thank you for the pancakes and steak anger issues " I tease as I bump shoulders with him he bump shoulders back " anything for princess " Paul said with a grin until he frowns " get in the truck " Paul said " what is it ? " I ask " GET IN THE GODDAMN TRUCK! " Paul screams at me I felt tears sting my eyes I've never been good at getting yelled at. I got in the truck and stared at Paul until he calms down and gets in the truck we made our way back to la push I held my to go container on my lap " ash I'm sorry I yell at you I smelled a bloodsucker and was scared for you " Paul said " its fine. it could have been jasper " I said " no it wasnt him " Paul said I nod Paul pulls up to my house " thank you I had fun today despite everything " I said as Paul walk me up to my house " your welcome ashley if you need anything call me or the pack " Paul said " yes I have Sam and Emily's number thank you " I said as I unlock the door " ash can I ask you something ? " Paul ask " no I don't like jasper I just like him as a friend and same with you " I said " good to know " Paul said " are you going to be okay ? " Paul ask I look away from Paul and down to the ground and look back up at Paul " one day " I said I hug Paul and walk into my house I shut the door and lock it the phone rings I look down and see its from uncle charlie " oh what now you want to talk to me to catch up fuck you ! " I thought " thats his daughter ashley he's your family. Family doesn't end in blood " I thought

" hello ? " I ask

After my talk with my uncle he tells me that bella needs me and if I could come over I sigh I grab my coat, unbrella, purse and was walking out the door when I get a message from jasper

" waiting on you at the treatyline "

" my vampire in armor " I thought " no not mine what the fuck is going on with me ? " I thought

" how was the date with Paul? " jasper ask as I see him leaning against the truck " wasn't a date jazz " I said " no " jasper said with a smirk " we had pancakes that's all " I said jasper picks me up as soon as I step over the line and carried me to the truck " does bella and Charlie know you stayed ? " I ask " yes bellas horrible in all my years I've never seen such a sight and that's living in two wars : the Civil War and the vampire wars " jasper said " edward did it to her fuck the whole coven did it " I said " I know darling I know " jasper said as he reach out and grab my hand I look out the window " thank you for staying jasper I don't know why you stayed but thank you " I said " I couldn't you something about you just made me want to stay " jasper said we was quiet for a moment " bella didn't reigster I was in the room I don't think she even reigster where she is or anything going on " jasper said " I was like that too after corys death I didn't show it of course I could still function " I said " I know you was in serious pain " jasper said " it still hurts jazz " I said " I know it does " jasper said

I see charlie out on the porch steps as jasper park the truck I felt anger go through me I just lost my baby girl and he's crying because his daughter is heartbroken " at least she's alive " I thought I felt jasper squeeze my hand " its okay to feel like that " jasper said I felt the tears stream down my face jasper wipes them away we sat in silence as I cried jasper wiping the tears away " alright " I said as I reach for the door handle " wait " jasper said as he let go of my hand and got out of the truck closing his door and walk around at a human speed and open my door " proud of you " jasper said " why ? " I ask as I got out of the truck " you came to bellas aid when you are going through so much " jasper said " its the right thing to do " I said as we walk up the path " ashley! " uncle charlie said as he came running down the sidewalk to us uncle charlie body hit mine and he held me tightly " im so sorry im so sorry ashley bella she was gone and I didn't know where she was " uncle charlie kept repeating over and over " im so sorry ashely " uncle charlie said I sobbed I pull away from uncle charlie as jasper steps up and wipes the tears from my face again " jasper " uncle charlie said " where is she ? " I ask " charlie " jasper said " shes in her room " uncle charlie said " thank you for being there without you there she would have bled out " i hear charlie say " I know sir but shes okay she just needs time " I hear jasper said " this whole thing is a mess if you need anything jasper let me know " I hear charlie said as I walk inside the house and close the door behide me

I see Bella on the bed I felt my heart break all over again she really did look horrible " bells " I said as I sat down on the chair bella didnt answer me she had her eyes closed " maybe she's asleep " I thought but I noticed her breathing and knew she wasn't asleep " bells its ash " I said I touch her arm bella open her arms her eyes landed on my stomach and then to my face I shake my head no I felt the tears stream down my face " move over " I said bella scoot over I lay down beside her bella put her head on my shoulder I wrap my arms around her " im here bells " I said I almost drift off to sleep when I hear the door closing I look at the door and see charlie and jasper had check on us  I put my thumb up they both nod and close the door I look down at bella " we are going to be okay bells " I mutter I give in to sleep finally