You sat on the couch, crying. Your eyes turned red from crying. Your head ached from stress and lack of sleep. You never left your unit, you were too weak to leave. You just wanted to lay down and mourn about your lost. You lay on the couch with your furry blanket and wiped your tears with it. Though, it was no use since more tears fell. You sniffed and closed your eyes, only to see darkness. As you open them again, you see darkness again, lights were out, never opened. You gritted your teeth and furrowed your eyebrows as anger started to flood your mind, again. You screamed and threw a pillow on the floor. More tears started to flow, you gasped for air but your nose and lungs were clogged. You gave in and let all the tears out.

"What did i do wrong!?" You shout. You grippped your hair tight and stared at the ceiling.

You heard a knock on your door and heard your best friend, Sasha's voice. "[F/n], open up." She said. You didn't reply, instead you ignored her and cover yourself with your blanket.

"I know you're in there." She said.

"..."

"[F/n]..." She said. You took a deep sigh and took all the courage to stand up and open the door for Sasha. You see her on your door step with a box of pizza. You gave her a half smile and let her in.

"Shit [F/n], look at your place. It's so dark and..." Sasha sniffed and said "It reeks." She said. She opend your lights and widened her eyes at the sight. Tissiues and old clothes, and pile of trashes on the floor. She shivered at your place and looked at you with a shocked expression.

"My place looks fine." You said while taking the box of pizza out of her hands and opening it. Sasha sighs and picks up the mess.

"Why don't you call house keeping?" She said.

"Why would I need one when I have you?" You said while chewing on a pizza. Sasha huffed and had a straight face.

"Seriously [F/n], go back to your senses and move on." She said while taking a pizza and eats it. You stared at the pizza for awhile and cried, slightly soaking the pizza with tears. Sasha rushed to you and took the pizza out off your hands. "Easy! You're damaging the pizza!!!" She said.

"Sasha! I don't know what to do without him! I miss him so much! Wasn't I enough?! Where did i go wrong?!" You cried. Sasha went up to you and gave you a tight hugged and stroked your hair.

"Shhh, you didn't do anything wrong and you were more than enough! You did your best!" She said. You responded by a louder cry and screams. Sasha took a deep sigh and rolled her eyes, tiredly. "Stop crying like he just died."

"Sasha! Jean DID die!" You said.

"Okay I don't know what kind of world you're living in, but he's alive and moving on and maybe you should too becuase theres nothing we can do about it." She said.

"For me Jean is dead because he... He left me..." You whispered the last words and sat on the floor hugging your knees and hopelessly mourn. Sasha sighed and helped you up, taking your hand and dragging you all the way to the bathroom. You moaned as you were dragged by the brunette, you tried stopping her but you were too weak. Soon, she placed you in the tub and splashed you with cold water.

"Kyaa! Sasha what the--"

"I'm waking you up." She said while she splashes you with more water.

"I am awake!!" You shout.

"Waking you up to reality!" She splashed one last time and stopped. You breathed heavily for air and stared at Sasha with anger. Sasha raised an eyebrow and you looked away from her. You crossed your arms and pouted.

"C'mon lets get you cleaned. You're getting some fresh air." She said while pouring shampoo on your head and opened the shower.

"A-ack!" You scream. You wiped your face off and took a sigh. "Leave." You said to Sasha. Sasha smiles and says "You have 30 minutes." she leaves the bathroom and turn your tv on and started cleaning your place. You stripped your clothes off and turn the water into luke warm then you finally took a warm shower. As you were rinsing your hair and body, you heard a knock on the door. Of course it was non other than Sasha.

"30 Minutes is done!" She Shout.

'Already?' You thought. You turn the shower off and wrapped your towel around your body and stepped out of the tub. You open the door and see Sasha leaning on the door frame with a smile. You gave her a fake smile but soon turned into a straight one. You move to the side to leave the bathroom and went straight to your room to change. You removed your towel and wrap it around your hair to dry. You open your closet and wear your undergarments. Soon, you wear your black Jeans and your plain black shirt. You took our your black low boots and wear them. You left your room and saw Sasha already eating a bag of doritos on your couch. She looks at you and frowns.

"Seriously?" She said.

"What's wrong?" You ask.

"I'm not letting you wear all black. You look like you're going to attend someone's funeral!" She said then took a hand full of doritos.

"Well Me and Jean are dead so this is fine." You said and shrug.

"Geez... Go back inside." Sasha said like a mom.

"But--"

"Go back inside. Now!" You sighed and went back to your room to change. You strip off your clothes and open your closet again. You look for some clothes that Sasha would appreciate. You took out your ripped Jeans and wear them. You then wear your [F/c] tank top (or just a shirt. Its up to you.) and wear your plain gray jacket that Jean gave to you. You zip it midway and then wear your [F/c] shoes.

You once again stepped out from your room to show Sasha your outfit. She tilted her head sideways to examine your outfit. She slightly shook her head with a pout then nodded in approval.

"Oh thank goodness, I thought you're going to make me change again." You said.  Sasha just chuckled then took her bag. You took yours as well and then left your unit. Sasha jumped up and down in excitement. You took an exhausted sigh then followed behind her. The two of you took the lift and stepped out as soon as you stopped on the ground floor/lobby. As you stepped out the building, the cold air hits your soft skin, giving you the chills. You took your phone out of your pocket to look at the time. Its was only 2:46 pm.

"I think I wanna go back, I really don't feel like leaving." You said stepping back into the building. Sasha gripped your shoulder and pushed you into her car.

"You already said yes! You can't back out!" She shouted while turning on the engine then driving off. Her speed felt like a roller coaster, you tightly held on to the handle and quickly buckled up.

"S-sasha slow the f-fuck down!" You shout.

"Whaaat?" She said sarcastically. You closed your eyes tight and expecting to crash into something like a brick wall or car, but the car stopped making your seatbelt lock. You open your eyes once again and saw the car was already parked.

"That ride was pretty quick!" Sasha screamed.

'I'm going to die...' You thought. Sasha left the car and you followed. You didn't know where she took you, but doesn't really matter. You place your hands on your pocket for warmth and stared at the floor while walking. You didn't even bother to look where you were going. You bump into several people yet you didn't care. Sasha stopped, making you bump at her. You moved your head upwards to look at the girl. You suddenly noticed she was buying a ticket.

'for what...?' You thought. You look around and noticed, you were outside of an amusement park. You gulped and gripped your bag tightly and followed the brunette as she enters the amusement park. entering, you started to hear of peoples screams and laughs. Children's cry and chuckles. Couple sitting on a bench eating a sweet treat. You furrowed your eyebrows and silently growled at them.

"Hmmm... What do you wanna ride?" Sasha asked.

"Jean." You said.

"Carousel it is." Sasha said.

"wh-what?! No, lets just go home."

"I aint gonna waste my 80 dollars on nothing alright?"

"Pfft, I can give you a thousand today."

"Shut up and just enjoy alright?!" Sasha took your right hand and dragged to the roller coaster. You took a deep sigh and shook your head in disapproval, but I guess you didn't have any choice. Sasha squealed when she noticed there wasn't any line to the ride. She dragged you faster and chooses the front seat. You get on the pod and fasten your seat belt, the staff double checked your seat belts. When they were done the pods started to move slowly, it moved backwards. When it was already on the top, the pod dropped and started to move fast making the other riders sick. Sasha rose her hands up high and screamed on top of her lungs, while you rested your elbow on the edge and kept a straight face.

Pretty much that was your reaction throughout the rides that you rode, but seeing Sasha's determination just to make you happy and forgetting your ex, warmed your heart and felt the best friends love.

'Enough with the drama [F/n].' You thought.

"Hmm, so [F/n]? where do you wanna ride next?!" And with that Sasha's stomach suddenly growled. "Aheh... Let's skip rides for a moment. I'm famished."

Typical Sahsa.

Nodding your as a response, she led you to a pizza place. You gave her a weird look since you guys just literally ate pizza at your place. "Uhh... We just ate pizza at my place..."

"Who cares?! Pizza is my life!" She exclaimed. Letting out a silent giggle you took a seat and Sasha sat across from you. You started at each other and Sasha waited for a menu to just appear out of no where.

"You know this place is pay as you order right?" You said.

"O-of course i do! Hehe... Of course i do..." She said while scratching the nape of her neck. "So, whats your order?" She asked.

"[F/f] and [F/d]."

"On it." And with that she left and went to the cashier to order. While waiting, you rest you elbows on the the table and placed your chin on top of your palms, observing the place around you. You can't help but see those couples flirting around, slightly pissing you off, but you had to face reality.

'Jean is gone... he'll never come back.' You thought.

Then Sasha came back with a tray. She gave you your food and she quickly took a bite of her pizza. You stared at Sasha for awhile and let out a smile at her and with that you eat your meal. The silence didn't last though, Sasha started a conversation.

"So, how's it going?" Sasha asked.

"Well, I don't wanna lie, but the wound is still fresh. Though, spending my time with you means a lot to me." You said and smiled at the brunette. Stops eating her food and started crying. People started to look at her then at you. Some of them judging that you made her cry. You slighty stood up and patted Sasha's back. "S-sasha..? You alright?"

"Oh [F/n]!! That's the sweetest thing someone had told me!" Sasha continues to cry. You nervously laugh and continued to patted her back. Once she was done crying her eyes out, she continues to eat her food.

Sasha finished her food then looks at yours, "You eat so slow [F/n]." Sasha said.

"I'm not really hungry." You said. Sasha smiles and said "I know a place that could cheer you up." and with that she took your wrist and went back to the car.

"Uh, where are we going?" You asked.

"A place where broken hearted people go." And with that, she drove off to the destination. 

~

"2 Tequilas." Sasha said to the bartender. You sat on the stool fidgeting with your fingers. You vowed to yourself you wouldn't get drunk, but when you combined Sasha or Hanji and alcohol there is no way you can go home sober.

'Maybe this might cheer me up... Maybe.'  You thought.

"[F/n], here you go~ Your favorite." Sasha said.

"I don't like Tequila..." You said.

"Well, it's gonna be your favorite now." Sasha smiles. Sighing, you took the glass from Sasha and chugged it down. The feeling of alcohol burning your throat satisfied you. You roughly placed the glass down and asked for more.

"I thought she'd spit it out..." Sasha said. Hanji went up to her and whispered "Just let her have a moment..."

"Where did you come from?!" Sasha exclaimed.

"Oh~ well I'm with the gang today!" She said.

"Small world!" Sasha and Hanji high fived.

"Wanna join?" Hanji suggest.

"Sureeeeeee~ Yo, [F/n]. Wanna join with Hanji?" Sasha asked.

"Just go!" You shouted drinking more of those tequilas.

~

A few hours had passed and you were still drinking, already drunk. Slapping your palm on the marble table, laughing with the bartender.

"I doubted~ m-my best friend that i wouldn't have fun here. Booooooooy I was wrong haha!" You said with another loud laugh. The bartender chuckles and continues to wipe glasses. You brought up the glass up to your mouth and finished the remaining alcohol.

"That'll be your last alright?" The bartender said to you. You smiled at him and nod like a kid. You took your purse and went to the restroom to release. Once you entered the comfort room you smiled at the mirror like you were in some kind of a magical dream.

"Fabulous as ever [F/n]~" You said and went inside the cubicle. After refreshing yourself you went back to the bar to dance and have fun with anonymous people. You went in the middle and started to move like no one was actually there. No one can really see you anyway because of the flickering lights. Feeling exhausted and the feeling of people crowing the place made you uneasy. So you went outside to get some fresh air. Opening the door the cold air hits your skin making you slightly shiver. You smiled and leaned at the wall, tilting your head upwards and closing your eyes.

"A-ah... Ngh! Ah--!" You suddenly hearing moans and gasp.

"I love you." You heard someone near by say.

"A-ah... I-i love ahhh--"

"Shhh..."

You slowly went where the sound was coming from expecting someone was having sex. I mean, having sex beside a bar was kind of... Normal. You tried to peeked a little at the "event". Turns out it was just a make out session that disgust you. As you were about to leave you noticed the person looked familiar, the height and the hair. As reality hits you, you finally recognized the guy.

It was Jean.

Your ex.

The person who left you unanswered.

"So... So this is why he left... Y-you asshole..." You muttered quietly making sure they didn't hear you. But the anger inside you just couldn't handle it, you had to release the anger within. You unhide yourself, and they haven't noticed you.

"Jean!" You shout. The two jolted and got their full attention. Jean's eyes widened at the sight of you.

"[F/n]?!" Jean exclaims.

"You know her?!" The girl shouts.

"W-what?! We-well... She's just a friend from the past." Jean answers. You looked at him and tears started to fall. Denial hurts like crazy.

"You know me. YOU FUCKING KNOW ME, BITCH GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE YOU MAN STEALER!" You shout.

"Wh-what are you saying?!" The girl shouts in fear.

"I was Jean's girlfriend you bitch!" You ran up to her and threw your fist at her face. You punch her like she was just a normal punching bag that needs to be punched. Jean separated the two of you and the girl ran away crying, Jean looks at you annoyed.

"Why would you do that?!" Jean shouts.

"YOU ASSHOLE YOU FUCKING REPLACED ME FOR A FUCKING BITCH!" You tried punching but he caught your wrist to stop it. You tried the other but he did the same. You struggled from his grip but you were too weak due to the alcohol. All you could do is cry, defeated by an ex that should be strangled. You cried all the pain away while Jean held your wrist. His heart broke at the sight of this. He knew it was all his fault so he was responsible for this, but he didn't want to face this mess.

"Jean! How... How could you fucking do this to me! How could you!? How could you!? I hate you so much!" You cried out. Jean releases you and runs away. You sat on the ground and cried out in anger. It doesn't matter if someone heard you, nothing matters. You just wanted to hit him in the face. The rain started to pour heavily soaking you, but you didn't care. You screamed out Jean's name over and over again until your friends -not just Sasha- found you. Helped you to get up but you refused. You wanted all the pain to go away, but didn't know how so you just cried out to numb everything.

End.

Well I was thinking of a part 2 and reader will be with another man and move on. I want my readers to vote though! Please tell me if you want another part, and i will give you the free will to choose the next love interest of reader - chan. Not Jean okay... He's an asshole in this xD

Jean: that was a shitty one shot Yan.

Yan: Fuck off okay.

Thats all!

I'll make the resquested one shot now... Might take a while tho^^;

Yan Heichou out!!