It was an ungrateful day, It was raining really hard. All you can hear was the sound of water hitting the roof and thunders. You sat on your bed, looking outside the window. Your blanket were wrapped around you and a hot cocoa on your hand. It was cold, really cold. You took a sip on your cocoa and sighed in satisfaction.

It's 3 in the afternoon and the sky is dark, like it was night time. You yawned and placed your cocoa on your table. You lay on your bed and closed your eyes. There's nothing to do in the survey corps right now. Specially when it rains, everybody is silent, like nobody existed.

'It's a rainy day isn't it? I could just do nothing and sleep.' You thought and hugged one of your pillows. Everybody on the survey corps thinks that a rainy day means it's a lazy day. How could you train hand to hand combat and 3D maneuver gear when it's raining, you could catch a cold if you did.

You felt yourself loosing conscious and after that you fell asleep.

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There it is again. Another one died. Then another one.

Another one.

Another one.

And another one.

The deaths of my comrades won't stop. I saw Armin tried killing a Titan, but his cut isn't deep enough. He was grabbed by those disgusting naked creatures and brought him into its mouth. I was about to latch my gear on the Titan and kill it for him. But my body was frozen, I couldn't move. My horse kept on running and I'm just here starting at my friend's death.

And in the blink of an eye, he's gone. Tears started to stream down on my face and looked away, fear written all over my face. Why can't I move, what's happening?!

I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. I screamed as I let all the pain go away. I heard several flare guns and some soldiers shouting to change formation. As I open my eyes, I saw Mikasa trying to kill the same Titan that ate Armin. Why is that Titan so strong? Perhaps that Titan is a shifter... But it looks like an ordinary Titan, the ones that looked really disgusting.

I heard Mikasa shout my name, she kept on shouting for help. Then again, I can't move. Why? The Titan broke her gear and grabbed her, she looked at me before dying. Those eyes. I saw full of hatred in her eyes, I didn't helped her. I just sat there and watch.

I heard Jean cursing at me. Tears fell on his eyes, he kept on saying I'm useless. I'm heartless, I'm nothing but a piece of crap. What is going on?!

As I blinked everything changed. The horror. Everybody is dead. Every. Single. One. Of. Them. Their eyes were open, I saw hatred and rage in their dead and dull eyes. Did I do all this? Did I just just stare at them die one by one? It happened so fast, like a blink of an eye.

What am I going to do?

How am I going back?

If I did. People will be shocked that I'm the only survivor...

My eyes widened as I heard footsteps, and finally... I could... I could move? I felt my horse and looked at my back. I saw Bertholdt. He's not injured but I saw blood stains on his uniform. Is he and me are the only survivor?

I smiled and run into him, I hugged him tight like he was the only thing I have. I felt his strong arms wrap around me.

"Let's go back inside the walls." He said as I saw tears in his eyes. I nodded my head and hugged him again. I look around and realized that my horse had left. The rain started to pour so we retreated. We will walk all the way to the walls. That's the only option we have.

As we walk on the field Titans were spotted left and right. Bertholdt held me close and prepared his blades.

A Titan suddenly attacked us.

Bertholdt killed them. But soon he ran out of gas and fell on the ground with a grunt. I prepare my blades but they're stuck. I can't pull them out. Bertholdt told me to run, I disagreed of course. We were almost to the walls anyway, I could help him walk. I ran over to him and helped him up.

He may be heavy but me and Bertholdt are the only survivors. I can't let him die plus... I-i love him...

Then soon the Titan grabbed him and killed him. I saw everything. The deaths of my comrades, the corpse of my superior. Everything... And it's. All. My. Fault.

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You shut your eyes open and breathed heavily. You look around and realized that your in your room. It was still raining though. A thunder suddenly came and it made you jump and squealed. You held your pillow tight and cried.

"They're dead. They're all dead." You cried and threw the nearest object beside you. You heard the object break, it was like a glass. You realized it was the hot cocoa. You look at the time and it read '1:25 am'. You wiped your tears away and left your bed. You wore your comfy sweater and your soft socks then left your room.

You tried to stay silent but every step you make on the cold wooden floor the creaking noise was heard.

"They're all dead anyway... There's no point in staying silent." You said as you sob. As you walk in the slightly dark hallways, you stopped in front of someone's room. It's Bertholdt's room. You open the door slowly, not even bothering to knock. 'He's dead anyway, there's no point on knocking...' You thought.

As you opened Bertholdt's door, all you saw was darkness. His room is cold as well, very cold. Like it wasn't touched for years.

"So my dream was true..." You feel on your knees and sobbed. "So that's why the whole HQ is silent... But I heard Sasha laughed this morning... No, I'm just hearing things..." You hugged your knees and felt scared. You're all alone.

"I thought I was all alone but it was true... I'm alone." You cried harder. Your voice was echoing through the halls, like the ones in the horror movies.

"[F/n]?" A male voice was heard in the room.

You look outside the room and saw a worried Bertholdt on the door step.

'Am I dreaming?' You thought, slightly afraid.

"Be-Bertholdt?" You stuttered. Bertholdt opened the lights (just pretend that lights are now invented xD) and walked over to you helping you to get up. Your felt his comforting touch, it felt so real. It's was all a nightmare.

"[F/n]? What happened are you alright?" He asked you. You looked into his olive green eyes and hugged him tight. "It's was all an nightmare... You're alive!" You sobbed and cried into his arms.

"Nightmare? What happened in your nightmare?" He asked as he stroked his hands on your hair. You told him your nightmare and told him that it felt so real so you thought everybody was dead. Bertholdt comforted you and let you cry in his arms.

"Everybody is alright [F/n]... Everybody is alive. No one is dead. It's just a scary nightmare." He said in a comforting manner. You stopped crying and leaned your head on his chest, you heard his heartbeat beating fast. He's alive.

As another thunder came and it was very loud. You flinched and felt scared, so you cling onto him. You sat on his lap and enjoyed his presence.  Bertholdt yawned and lay on his bed.

"You can sleep here tonight." Bertholdt smiled. But when he looked at you, your eyes were already closed, you were sleeping peacefully. Bertholdt blushed and slightly became nervous. He pecked your forehead and closed his eyes. Bertholdt wrap his strong yet, comforting arms around you. You smiled in your sleep when you felt his arms. Those nightmares that you've feared were gone. For now.

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So how what that? You can judge me! Tell me if you hated it or nah. If I had grammatical errors please feel free to correct me, I will edit that right away! I srsly suck at grammar, I must practice :(((((

So that's all cadets!!

Ackermanity out!!